 I'm here to be truly helpful. That truly word that he throws in there is so important because if I'm praying that prayer and I'm praying it over and over I'm here to be truly helpful that means I have to really let go of everything that I believe is helpful, that I may be shown moment by moment what is truly helpful. And what I found was as I would go inside and pray and really get in touch with that presence within my heart then I was given guidance and I was it wasn't just what seemed to be at the time internal but I started to get invitations. I mean I started to get happier and happier and happier which you know that's a good thing. The heel is to make happy so if we're following the teachings and we're getting happier and happier that's a good sign. And then as I got happier I also got friendlier, I got kinder, there was all kinds of I got more joyful you know this is good, good direction, good, good, good, good, good. Then I started getting invitations and it's interesting that even on this planet people like to be around happy people. Isn't that amazing even on this planet that people like to be around happy people. So as I got happier and happier and happier then I started getting more invitations. Come and be with me, come and stay with me, come and talk to me, come and do a gathering, da da da da da, lots and lots and lots of invitations and oh I was in a state of joy when you're happy you want to give it away. It's not something that you're like going trying to protect your happiness or get an insurance policy on the happiness you know or something you want to give it away because that's how you keep it. And that became very practical even when it would take me into hospitals or to funerals or to go visit people that seem to be sick it was like I was being called to into a new perception that was beyond the five senses. That's the way that we could be a passerby is that you start to be so convinced within yourself of the unreality of the five senses and the unreality. It's almost like your five senses you know were giving you data and information and that you were giving some credence to it. And then this course is like saying wouldn't you rather be 100 percent intuitive instead of trying to interpret the data that's coming through a distorted lens like the bible talks about a darkened bless in Corinthians. Would you rather be 100 percent intuitive and follow the joy of the spirit the joy of your heart instead of trying to still keep interpreting based on what the five senses are showing you. That's where the conflict comes in which what you're describing is when you have friends family colleagues whatever that are saying I'm sick I'm hurt I'm suffering I'm dying I'm in pain and this and this and when we still are giving credence to the the data that's coming through the five senses and and that's what's so beautiful that's really what we're experiencing in the community is we're still open phone calls still come in people still say things report things I mean I've been around the queue some time where somebody's just talking about an absolute devastation just an absolute devastation and she goes that's wonderful that's her response to and that's not coming from an interpretation of the five senses is wonderful they're just and they're looking into her eyes like it is you know but she's gone through a place where the rug was pulled and it turned into the most wonderful gift and then she felt so grateful for the rug being pulled it's almost like it took the rug being pulled to accept this gift it took a devastation and then a new perception of the devastation where she could see that it wasn't real it wasn't true that the spirit wasn't really pulling the rug out from under her that was just a misinterpretation and then wow the gift emerged and now I gotta give the gift away I gotta call me come visit me whatever it is I want to give it give it give it and occasionally when your mind gets really focused that when you're so in the miracle then the perception will shift it sometimes will shift even dramatically Jesus is famous for that you know the lame can walk the blind can see casting out demons casting out leprosy you know it doesn't it no order of difficulty miracles what a great witness that joy and love and happiness are reality because when even when the temptation would come close to him he wouldn't buy it and then there would oftentimes be a shift even in the form and I've had that happen where I'll meet with people that are angry sad upset you know frustrated or whatever and they come together with me and they go their way rejoicing one guy after one miracle gathering in St. Louis with Kirsten and Mary Gerard Lenhan and we'd just come out of this miracle gathering and this man kind of he literally limped up he had a speech impediment and he hardly could make it up to us and he was telling us with his mouth and with his words how terrible his life was he needed money for medicine and telling us how bad his life was and then as we all were looking him in the eye he just got this curious look because he was telling us how terrible his life was and we were all smiling and something was like he was like looking looking and after like 10 minutes let us he walked away with no limp and his speech impediment was gone too he was stuttering and limping when he came to us and he walked off with no lip and with no speech impediment and and we were just like glory to God because it was the power of the miracle just swallowed up whatever seemed to be the error it didn't acknowledge it even now that you have to be firmly in that it's like a Mary Baker Eddie kind of firmly in it you know for for the symptoms to go away consistently and have that experience or even let's say in your community or the people you live with if you get to be really consistent we'll say miracle minded you're consistently miracle minded you're going to get a bunch of reflections of love from that and that's what we're really going on so when when Nikita says Camus she's just she couldn't wait to get there it was almost like she was like a heat seeking missile like oh wait till I get to Camus and as soon as she got into the country she just came in here in the Midwest and Cincinnati and she's like Camus, Camus, Camus, Camus I thought well maybe you need to go to Camus she got a flight for like six in the morning the next day we came took her to the airport and she just like a heat seeking missile she went out there like come on you give me Camus I'll light that place up like I'll show you what spiritual community is going to be like and it was a presence that went in I see no error you know imagine a presence of see no error you can't do anything wrong really I'll see your innocence I'll see your love no matter what you can't make me mad you can't hurt me you can't upset me I'll show my invulnerability I'll show in Christ I'll show my Christ invulnerability and I'll win you over because you're part of my mind you are just a symbol to my mind you're not a separate person with separate thoughts and separate agendas you know that that way goes nowhere when we get into this idea that separation is real and it works that's been the beauty of it you literally there's a part in the some people you remember in the Bible it says Jesus said the meek shall inherit the earth isn't that kind of interesting the meek shall inherit the earth in a course of miracles Jesus says that the meek shall inherit the earth they shall literally overcome it with their strength that to the ego meekness is weakness to the spirit meekness is gentleness is strength and when you are that gentle and that loving your perception will literally swallow up the whole world you literally will see the world in a meek way and then claim your inheritance as a child of God which is for pure love so you can see it's a beautiful interpretation of the meek shall inherit the earth it will literally overcome the distorted perception with true perception and will inherit the whole earth it all comes back to the whole universe is in my mind instead of me being just a tiny person in the universe you start to see that at christian emergency top we are the world the world is I am the world the world is me he taught he was just teaching unification of consciousness so thank you