 Can I put that in? Somebody else I guess. Yeah? Yes, you can. Okay, right. He's going to be recording all of our rehearsals so that he gets your brilliant moments. We can then be able to recapture them when we start shooting. We start shooting a week from today. And what's really special is that we get to working in space that we're shooting and we're going to be in here. This is going to become our space, ours as a team. I want you to make this space your own. Really make it your own, as you'll see behind you there are these lines. And looking back at my writing, I realize I often think a lot in lines. It's not linear per se, but lines against the wall, lines across the floor, lines across the space more importantly. I want you to explore in your space what are the lines of your character. Not like these kind of lines, but the kind of lines you would not cross. What would you cross? What line would Jason cross? And what line would you not allow him to cross? Because in this scene we're talking about we were like an animal possessed. And you see that. You see these people that you have devoted your life to have just turned into animals. And so that brings me to my next point. This whole space at some point will be filled with color and red. And so as we go into that, especially as we go into those shot sequences, I really want you to think about what the color red means to you. Kind of how it makes you feel, but more importantly, how would you describe the color red to someone who's never seen it before? Another question to ask yourself is, have you seen the color red before? Mr. Ball and I. I'm too stubborn. It was all for nothing. Raising my children, loving them. Fearing for them, enduring the pains of giving birth. Mr. Ball and I, to think that they should love and care for me in my old age. I'm sorry, I don't know where to stay up late. I don't know where I'm supposed to be. Where's the camera? Let's not worry about the camera now. We're still in this exploratory phase. So your decisions are crucial right now. So why don't you make a decision on where you want to stand and stay there? I'm sorry. Okay, we're ready to move on. Let's take it from the same list. Alright. Mr. Ball and I. To think that they should love and care for me in my old age. Dress my dead body. No. Ball! My enemies shall not go unpunished. My hand shall not be beaten. My children shall never feel the rage of my enemies. Their death is necessary. Uh, let's hold for a moment. I didn't want to put it up. Uh, Zora. Well, I like that you're just in the spot. It's a strong spot. I want to ask you though, what was the impulse for that circle? It's in the script. She banks the gods. Zora is in the kitchen. It's in the script. I like the impulse. We're continuing along with these lines. I think we need to make your character even stronger. And a circle, I think, is weaker than if you make a square. I like your impulse. But I think instead of a circle, we need a square. If you want me to beg the gods, make them... Are you telling us that it's stronger? It is really driving me crazy. I'm sorry, it's just like constantly in my face. I know you wanted the, you know, old lady, greasy look, but this is really out of control, you know. It's in my face constantly. It itches, and it's just not, you know, ridiculous. We've taken it, and we'll be taking care of it. Thank you. Let's move on to the next, Charlie. Let's let whatever this is settle, and we will just pick up from the next scene. So take a moment. Whenever you're ready, take it away. You've killed her. The princess in front of your hot-out ventured devil is no longer my husband. I'll be coming after you any minute. I'm thrilled to use you. Threat you? Aren't you afraid? You've killed that beautiful princess! Alright, that's all right. Why don't we... No, let's call it a day. Keep up on me like that. Where have you been? I expected you hours ago. Yeah? You're cute, huh? Take them off. Why? Don't take my clothes. I don't like that. This doesn't put you anywhere anymore. It doesn't matter. They're my clothes, and I don't want you wearing them. Look how nice it looks on me. Not today. When's the last time you wore this, huh? I want the stories that go with this fab ensemble. Please, I've had the worst day in all of human history. Really? Yes, really. Now, that outfit has particular sentimental value. I thought this was the outfit you wore when you made out with Mickey Rourke. Stories, please. Not now. Take it off. It's going to waste you, though. After my diet, I'll get into that again. Oh, yeah. The eternal diet. Come on, Charis. I love what these clothes do to me. I am superwoman! Maybe it's the shoulder pads that helped when we were slam dancing. Right. Slamming into each other. I feel so fit. I bet it's divine. Studio 54. No! My light. For a densiteria. Never mind. Now off. Okay, what happened? I've never heard so. I sit with you. I'm going to start screaming and saying, now take my clothes off your body, or I will take them off you myself. Okay, take it easy. Get it grip. I thought you'd like it. You have these clothes that have been hanging in your closet for years now and finally get used. I thought you would like to see me wear them. They fit me great. Meant for me. Why do you keep them anyway? I'm getting into that outfit again. Smell. Come on. She noticed. She said that. Yes. Something. Something really rad. Out of this world. Glentil seasoned with honey, bay leaf, sea salt, pomegranates and drizzle with olive oil. Octopus cooked in beer and seasoned with thyme, garlic, and leeks. Beef liver simmered in pureed chestnuts, honey, figs and brushed coriander seed. And a rabbit stewed in leeks slowly seasoned with bay leaf and honey made from weeds that were fed in time. The result is a fragrance you won't believe. Only I expected you hours ago. I hope it's not all ruined. What is all of this? It's for your film. To get you in the mood for media. The tastes of ancient wreaths. I've been researching for weeks. We're having a special meal for a special night. I'm not here. I'm only to drink this. I'm not in the mood for a special night. Well, you're going to have a letter. You like it or not. Is this a plot to keep me gaining weight so that you can take all my clothes? Elusis, baby. That's a reality tonight. Elusis. It means the place of happy arrival. The elusin mysteries were practiced by Aristotle and Plato and all those ancient Greek playwrights. Even their dear irides. The mysteries were found in an ancient Minoan creed. Minoan, your enthusiasm, but this is too much for me right now. The Minoans were that incredible, super evolved culture that lasted nearly 2,000 years. They predated the Mycenaeans and the ancient Greeks. What is this mystery being? What? No one really knows. But we are recreating it, right? I have no idea what you're talking about. Pay attention. The drink you're about to have is from an ancient recipe from the magical land of Crete. It's balmyotherapy, called 40 herbs. This sublime recipe has been passed down for millennia, 4,000 years to be exact. In this cup, is a living polar. I boiled those special herbs in a clay pot that has never been used before. For the Minoans and for those of Crete, even today this drink is how they remember their songs and dances and poems. The babies from Crete are made with this when they are born, so they remember who they are. I'm going to remember who I am. Drink, please. Smells incredible. Taste, hard to describe. What's in this? My secret. And the drink is just this stuffed. It's our mystery night. Our special illusion mystery night. Oh, I think I'm remembering something. What? I want you to get out of my clothes. Yes, my one. Wow. What's gotten into you? You'll see. An aged man is but a paltry thing. A tattered coat upon a stick. There's a suitcase out here. Yes, there is. What's that doing there? I'm leaving. I told you. No, you didn't. We had this conversation last week, remember? I told you it was time for me to go. You're not leaving tonight. Yes, I am. Why? It's just time, it's all. You're not leaving. Yes, I am. What is not acting anything? What are you wearing? What is going on around here? We talked about this and I'm not changing my mind. This is all part of the surprise. I told you. I don't want surprises. And I certainly won't let you go. Won't let you go, really? You don't own me either. You said you would stay here until after we finished the stuff. I did not. Yes, you did. You said you would help me through this. I distinctly remember. You told me you'd wait. That was the last way. I depend on you. This is a very difficult process. You don't need my help. Yes, I do. You're very important to me. Please, you manage everything. Right, my work. You can't just often leave, not now. Really? I don't think you had much of a choice. I'm lost without you. You're my communicator, my shrink, my co- My lawyer, my sister, my mother. My friend. My daughter. Anything but that. This is a very bad moment for you not to be here. I know. I know I'm all those things for you. But I'm not myself. You're on your own after tonight. Everything is conspiring to make me want to jump out a window today. Don't do that. What? Don't threaten me with your drama. I'm not threatening. It's just, it's too much for me. This film is tearing me apart. I need you here right now. At least stay a little while longer until after the shoot is over. And then it will be after the next gig and then after that. I know. I won't do that. I really need it now. I'm going tonight. We'll talk about it later. No, we won't. You can have my clothes if you want. I have things to do, you know. But I'm here. The world revolves around you. I'm locked up here. I need to have a life. I'm important to you. What are you going to do? You need me as much as I need you. It's happened before. I'll figure it out. You've forgotten how difficult it is out there. Here you have a beautiful home. Food. Terrific. Now we should close. After tonight I'm gone. At least stay here long enough to know that you can do it. Be on your own without falling into old habits. And beyond that, I'm different now. I feel sure of myself. Be honest with yourself. You're doing this. I don't want you to get hurt again. I am here. I have always been here to help. It's not going to work. Let's just talk about this later. No way. You're not getting away with this. Your face, it crinkles up. Always has when you get passionate about something. Even as a baby, you kind of look like a walrus. A constipated one. I'm not putting this off any longer. I love you. I love you very much. But I have to do this. After tonight I'm gone. And there's nothing you can say that would change that. And when I walk out that door, I don't want any drama. I'm going to save it for Medea. She said that was the correct way to pronounce the name. Medea. Three, nine, four. Medea. See what I have planned. It would be really nice to hear thank you for slaven in the kitchen all day to make a special meal before you leave and go away as you said so many times and have you been doing that. You're not going anywhere. God, you are infuriated. Yes, I am. You tried me. Are you sure about that? I haven't heard from him in ages. Aren't you going to tell me who it is? Samosy. Samosy. Yet she glares like we're stupid and lacking wisdom when they invented poems. Since no one has been able to end our agonizing griefs with poetic powers. Women, of course, can show you that you have no cause to carnage me with blame. People are unjust. They hate onsite before they've gotten to know a person. Foreigners should be especially careful to put in the society they join. The circumstances that have befallen me have ravaged my spirit. My behold and end-all has turned out to be the lowest of the low. My husband. We women are hunted by misfortune more than any other species. First we have to buy our very expensive husbands and then we have to accept them as masters of our body. And it's a throw of a dice whether he's good or bad to us. They, men, pledge that we enjoy a life secure from danger, safe at home while they confront the thrusting spheres of war. I'd rather join the ranks of battles three times than give birth but once. Interesting, would you just say that? I'm not like you. I have lost my people. My family. I am citizenless. Desserted, humiliated, thrown around like a sack with no one willing to offer me safe harbor. And so I ask this one thing from you. If I can get revenge from my husband's wrongs please stay silent. When a woman has been wrongly treated in the field of sex there is no cast of mind more deadly. Those are my DS lines. We have to run yours. Duffy, then, that you're not going to run. Where are you today? At the ocean night. I went for a swim. Reversal was a disaster. I'm sure it was fine. You always had to know. This was pretty strange. This thing happened to me today. I was sitting at a beach cafe watching the young mothers and their children in the waves. I suddenly thought of this friend from an elementary school who had died, Celia. She worked for a balcony of her parents' apartment. Freak accident. Sixth grade. Such a definite age. So much going on. Boy and girl, Mariam is sitting there. She sat next to me in school. One day our teacher, Mrs. Boris, she had us make these paper flowers and then she waited behind her desk while we came up to her one at a time to get a special final magical touch. It was just a big secret until it was our turn. When I were not, she took my paper flower, hid it beneath her desk and dabbed on the pedal of some of her 40s friends. That boring paper came to life. Anyway, mine got trampled on by one of the wild boys, Devin, and said I gave her the classroom when she was gone. The first time I felt death's presence. I was sitting at the cafe, with my wounds after a person. And suddenly I thought of saying and right at that moment, a toddler moved away from her mother and towards the play structure next to her. Look at the chances. The world, she starts singing the name of my lost friend. Yes, but I know you and I'm not interested in your woo woo loka spiritual explanation for something that was just an amazing coincidence. This is all new to me. Until today I didn't know where to stand. What to do with my hands? Kid, just starting out. The music and fire backs me. You disapprove of me when I talk like this, don't you? Not exactly. Though I wish I understood you better. What do you do? This is just part of your process. You have me in this ridiculous white twig and I'm off to the side like an appendage, a sixth finger. They don't need me. They just want some moving statue of hollow rope out of some old broad. The only reason I got the part was because of Sophia. Her mother and I came up together. Lunch, right? Yes, for some reason, Sophia's following my work. Of course she has. Why are you belittling yourself? This role is an embarrassment. You can be great at this beautiful role. God, I hate this play. Sore out please. And one third prize back in the day. And the only reason it was received so well is because Medea's a foreigner. If Euripides had made her a Greek woman, it never would have been accepted. Let alone win an award. That is ridiculous. It's absolutely true. So you have this woman who kills her children. No one wants to sit for hours with someone capable of that. You go with it because she's a foreigner and foreigners are different. This is the trade. Everyone can relate to that. Getting furious, yes. Stealing the car, the home, the money. Absolutely. But I killed the children. I can't bear the vomit. I bet you could kill me. There are certain stances. And no woman in the right mind would. So she's crazy? Yes, but we never see her as crazy. No one ever plays her that way. Now he's sound like the nurse. You're doing that thing. Where you play a role and you start thinking and feeling just like the character. The nurse feels the way you do right now. Ridiculous and raw. I got you. I hate this director. I hate the set. Nice deflection. By the way, he's a very respected young director. You were dying to work with him. Yes, until today. Almost makes me think someone else directed that beautiful film we saw. What is it called? Out of the woods. That was fantastic. Why can't he make the same film again? Everyone we know loves him. Gonjo, he's such a fraud. And he's all but ten years old. He looks at you just condescending, annoying, with passive aggressive faces. Are you sure you're another one being condescending and annoying? I'm supposed to get slapped. Look humiliated. Look at my age and that I'm a woman. That they think they can get away with it. What's wrong with getting slapped? Nothing humiliating about it. You're on stage for Christ's sake. He has nothing to do with being a woman. You're not a woman anymore anyway. You're a beautiful woman. I was kidding. Actresses get slapped. It's a tradition. Traditions can change. He don't say he hates the voracious and amazing actress. She's very nice. She's fantastic. I can't believe you don't get her. What's there to get? There's nothing there yet. Also for an actress to be interesting. There's nothing there. As you say she has to be old. I prefer the word season. Okay then. Season. She's just young. And cool. Fantastic. And she is making some really interesting girls. She's barely 21. I mean how much younger is this Jason character going for? What is this director doing? He has this voracious, very young woman being left for an even younger woman. I mean really, please. Not even in ancient Greece. I'm playing the young bride and I should be playing the young bride. I knew it. So be it like a bride and you're playing the young bride. And the girl playing the young bride now? She's out of a job. And who plays the nurse? I don't know. Some actual old woman who doesn't need a wife. It's traditional. It's the traditional way of doing the play. But didn't you say traditions can change? And he's not doing it like a film. It's an experimental film. Oh please. His film After Out of the Woods was that big budget feature. Crush the invaders. Probably had nothing to do with him. I should have known it was all the performers and a great DP. Crush the invaders was not exactly an experimental film. Maybe he made that one so he could do this one. It just doesn't make any sense. I can really do something with that role. In the hands of a child it's absurd. It's meaningless. It's just wrong. You're too old for that role. I'm sorry. I wanted to. Probably gonna be old right up in Darrell. He said the director and the old actress. This is not like me. What's mean? What? I'm right cool to today. She's very alien to have something to say that would make sense. Perhaps seem to have lost the real you. This woman you are playing is as helpless as you are. As helpless as I am. She wants to fall in love with her time's pace. You understand that, don't you? Please tell me what this play doesn't express. It's a picture. Don't you remember? Tobey. From that time we went to Santa Barbara and said to that hotel you know that had a great art garden right outside our window. You know when we saw that group of dolphins do that incredible dance like show like we were in Seaworld or something. I vaguely remember the dolphins. Tobey. I have to remember Tobey. It was so cute. It was a bonfire at the beach one night. We said Carol gave songs. Really? You don't remember him? He was so great to out of nowhere run into him like that. You know to see someone he connected with but didn't think you'd ever see again and then poof that was Tobey. Like no time had passed at all. It had been I don't know. Five years or something? He saw me and came running. He's very handsome. Yes he is. I wish I could remember. Rose infused anarchy from the island of Crete to Medea and to new adventures. What's to you wait? I have more goodies. Here? He was amazing. You know that Mars Venus combination kind of guy? Silently strong woman. He's just indipulnerable. I want to hear about your sex life. Okay. Housian mysteries. He is embracing from the gods. Did you know that Jason and Medea went to Crete after she helped him win the golden please? Come on step out of it and get into it with me. Are you going to see him again? Tobey. Probably not. You're a free spirit. You're not that right. You're wrong woman. Absolutely. I got an image of myself in a store window today. The wind was blowing and my hair was loose and free. I could tell something extraordinary was going to happen. Like the wind was conspiring to make something wonderful appear. A surprise. A special gift sent my way. This time it was Tobey. I feel like there's always something wondrous waiting for me. Like I have these secret angels and guiding and helping me. Dear delicious Tobey. Can you smell him? Don't be crude. Are you sure you don't remember him? Don't ask me that again. He just seems so strange. What are you insinuating? That I'm losing my mind? That I'm going senile? He just wasn't memorable. That's all. No one is here. I don't believe. For me as well, situations don't get easier with time. Even with a time machine. I'm sorry, I have to get back to work. 20 years of this. I know you. By 4 am you'll be answering the door. You'll be on the other side and you'll let him in. The next day you'll feel awful and lost and forgotten. You have no idea. You blew it a long time ago. Don't be crude. You can't make it better or it's too late. Get off my back. You were so excited to get the flowers. You didn't notice when they were four. He sent them to me. How did you reach? I didn't do anything. Wait a second, that card was here. Really? You're going to pretend you don't know? Know what? What's happened? He was always you. He came here because he was looking for you. Hold are you. I'm going to be patient here. Hold are you. You can't say you're aged. And you can't accept the blame. What is your age? I admit that playing an older woman is part of your own. I have no illusions about being a teenager. I accept my age. I'm just not ready to play grandmother's game. If I'm good at this part of my career is severely limited to what? Once you're convincing in a role for the audience, accept that. That's one. Are you going to quit? Play this part where age doesn't make you. Age is interesting. Age is depressing. Age is dull. Age doesn't have anything to do with anything. This is it. I get my kicks out of acting. If I can reach a woman in the audience who thinks that no one understands and that my character is going through everything that she is to man this better poetry thing a tattered coat upon a stick. Why are you doing this? Why are you all inspiring to destroy me? There's no conspiracy here, Sarah. You have never really kept me in the dark. Make me think that I was wanted. I have no secrets from you. I'm not made of stone. Do you ever want to go to the States to be an actress? This life is exactly what you wished for when you chose. You work constantly. You love your work. People see you on stage and love your way up. This isn't what I wanted. You can possibly understand because you have a wide open horizon ahead of you. But for me it's all closing in and being treated like a dog like an old witch that has to be pushed to the side and mocked like a useless, worn out doll. You're being an older, not an elder and I'm sick of it. I could turn my head anywhere and catch the door in eyes lustful eyes on me. I'm invisible. I walk into a room and no one even notices me. It goes to who I was. I don't feel any different so why do I look so different? Why have I been talking to you about this? You couldn't possibly understand? Yes, I can. Don't be ridiculous. Stop speaking my words. It's the neurons. What? Our neurons are the same from the moment we're born for the rest of our lives. Our bodies are the same in the level of the change every two weeks so we are the same and constantly changing. Oh please, what is that? You don't outquist it like you know something like you've lived long enough to know anything at all. You never felt that powerful, Zora. Yes, I did. How would you know how I felt? You know very well how I know. Open your eyes already. I'm quitting. You can't quit. Why? It's not in the cart. If you don't quit, Zora. Well, I'm quitting now. No, you won't. That's not what you do because you've been cast. Because you're an actress and you take what you're offered because you're bigger than you think you are. These are bullshit cards that we are dealt. This age thing, this growing old sentence because there's a sentence that we can't be reprieved of no matter what. I've seen death coming closer to know that we will take our final breath. I can't bear it. It torments me. I've seen people die and it's horrible. This is cruel and unfair and whoever, whatever, makes us our human condition. Our reality is a son of a bitch. I didn't ask for this part. Stop doing that. Stop speaking my words. Putting you before everything my entire life. You have always called the shots. You are retired. Heck. Numbers salt on their back and land with their hands holding the bull's horns. They grab the bull's by the horns and they worshiped in caves. St. Caves are ancestors before them told stories in. The St. Caves were gods and goddesses were born and sent back to the womb of the earth. The damn dark corridor of memory. In these places, ancient mysteries have folded. Secrets are witnessed. These caves you were initiated. It's where you would go to lean on old stories to find your way. But there were stages to these stages and it was the goddess who took you to those truths. And she was old. She was a mother. She knew everything because she was. She is our home. In her presence we know just what to do. She was a hag. In the dictionary the word hag means an offensive, ugly old woman of niche. But there is an older group in Greek. Hagia is holy. The hag is holy. Hagia is so clear. Holy wisdom. I'll be down to my bones. Terrified. And I'll do anything to fight this. Who has ever fought this battle and won? You are stuck in the mire and missing the scouting. The thing is how cold when they are leaping up to the other side is the god of death. But there is no such thing as a journey. It is preferable to take bold signs. Something our ancestors said What does it mean? When you set out on your journey to Ithaca pray that the road is long full of adventure full of knowledge pray that the road is long that the summer mornings are many when with such pleasure with such joy you'll enter court scene for the first time stop at Venetian markets and purchase fine merchandise mother of pearl and coral amber and ebony and sensual perfumes of all kinds as many sensual perfumes as you can with many Egyptian cities to learn and learn from scholars always keep Ithaca in your mind to arrive there is your ultimate goal but do not hurry the voyage at all it is better to let it last for many years and to anchor at the island when you are old rich with all you have gained on the way not expecting that Ithaca would enrich us Ithaca has given you the beautiful voyage without her you would have never set out on the road she has nothing more to give you and if you find her poor wise as you have become with so much experience you must have already understood what Ithaca is for every tatter in its mortal dress nor is there singing school studying monuments of its own conversation at Cafe and I've always loved the film opening night by John Caspetti and first saw it 30 years ago when it resonated in totally different ways than it does now and I know a lot of and then I turned 55 years ago and that was an amazing turning point an incredibly rich experience that I was surprised by because the cultures always tell me since I was in my 20s don't get older and I know a lot of young women in their 20s who are terrified of getting older and yet like my friend Jeannie Calvert told me at my 50th birthday going through it I was like oh my god I know exactly what she means there's an incredible vibration that happens and there's a lot to look forward to so I and then somehow well a very good friend of mine married someone from Crete and she talked about these caves and I got kind of obsessed with them and then we went to Crete as part of this grant about the show and that was incredible just being in a culture that really honors age and has traditions that go back thousands of years and that was a life changing experience so it's been building that's a little bit of the genesis I wanted to do something that was opening night in the spirit of that film which was opening night was basically inspired by all about a leaf and then Birdman and the clouds of sills were both inspired by opening night and they're all about aging actors and because all of them have plays within the film I wanted to do a film within our life so it just kind of did the inversion but I mean I kind of went to 75 years old in Crete and I interviewed her I interviewed of Credit Limes 97 who shared with me that from the wheelchair she said looking back I realized that I was in Amps still powerful and she's a huge inspiration in my life Sarah Arons and then I went down to San Diego and there were group of women there led by Joellen Marie who did these workshops and dancing together and basically everybody's sharing the gifts of age which we don't hear enough about you know we hear a lot about the you know oh I got this egg and I got that but I feel like the gifts of age is not that good just because I feel this peace I just broke hearing I just need to get to share that with her and crawl into it to either embrace it or poke it or scratch it it feels very valuable and very delicate it's so many things and we as human beings are so many things and yet to be all of what we are it's really Valhalla would play the lead role in a short film that I did with the banning of other school system and when my friends on the East Coast saw it several of them said she looks like he did and I went oh my god I had him consciously and that was another thing that made me think oh we should do something or she's my younger sister and I'm also said that and yeah Marissa was my professor at Cal Arts I've known you as a multiple activist and I've been so I've done some work in the city it's one of the most straight plays I've done and this is not a straight play that's a long experience but yes so there's that aspect of approaching the work in a more cool way but I don't mean that in a bad way I'm really trying to understand the journey I mean you can do that in any play be it as abstract or as concrete as city but it feels very vulnerable because you know especially in this play it's just us and we're both here and this character that we share is very vulnerable so I guess the difference of the ensemble work is that way sometimes you're walking the tight road you don't know where it's going to fall and this piece is still molding itself for me and I'm still discovering who we are in this play so it does in many ways it allows more space for exploration on stage not in a very good process that ensemble work does because it's a pretty playground ensemble you have to listen to everybody when you stay tight the shows that I do are usually very boring around and very together type of communication discovering in each other playing on each other it does feel like a dance sometimes in a cage so in that way it does a different effect you might like to have an art troupe it's okay during your process to you when I was walking the room it felt this room felt different than any of the other groups in Houston which are usually ensemble groups and I was very respectful of this space that you created to do this work in and I don't know you as well but I know Paula and Paula is a different woman when I was walking the room so you and so I knew the work that you guys were doing was intense in the way that you worked together during the three or four weeks that I had seen it all decrease the schedule it was amazing it was just like all of a sudden this stuff was going on even when you were working doing the same thing it was amazing so I was feeling the progression it was like I was walking into the kitchen it's good to hear that because this play I think it challenged us it challenges me every day during performance and outside of performance in rehearsal room to find the sacred and the ritualism at all and it's something I'm so discovering it went to Tabitha Dodd it went to Brownett and that was definitely present in the rehearsal room especially when in June we did a workshop that focused on movement some texts but it focused a lot on movement we would put that great music on and do these contact improvs and we have our eyes closed and I have the videos of these and we're moving exactly the same way often I mean it is very much like dipping into the cave dipping into dreams you know that's what today more than ever it is essential for women to rediscover the sacred path and so what you're doing there is based on partnership it is completely egalitarian and we go toward the thought by the Italian that this is an alter belongs to Apollo but in fact Apollo murdered Venus who is the original Thomas of that cave so when we talk about the civilization we talk about the sea it also relates that to the Judeo-Christian concept of finding the serpent and essentially that's what this is about is the knowledge of the feminine and as we embrace our throne as we embrace what happened in this election could not be there's two things that I two things that sprang to me when you spoke one is in Crete there are no poisonous snakes so that snake goddess image is not a human it is one of the rooted to the earth and a friend of mine here connected me with somebody in Crete to help show me around and stuff like that because I did the trip by myself and I was saying what do I bring back my friend who is from Crete and thought about it herbs that's what's about that was like the most important thing to bring back to his friend for me to bring back to his friend the birth and I mean it's a I'm so glad you said that I didn't get that because I think I mean crone means crap absolutely right and what you pointed out in this play I found uttered was how patriarchy has controlled the feminine to be competitive and that is the dance that you play in this play the man sent the flowers to earth her younger self so women are completely disenfranchised by their processes and my character completely rejects everything she's done that classical negating the feminine in order to be part of the culture right so and it isn't until she makes this connection that she's able to give up personally well that rage when she called you a hat was remarkable because so many of your elders such as myself have gone through that experience of being incredibly gorgeous in their youth and then becoming as you describe so perfectly invisible I heard that from a lot of women as well too my message about invisibility is use it use it observe in ways that when you're being watched you're aware of being watched so use it through the playwright that's the one little missing link that I do see just saying I would like to I know a play is always growing and changing so my suggestion is a bit more solution would be helpful in this day yeah you know I have I have and I actually was going to talk to you about this because I did shoot because the video has five more minutes of her going back to person that I've already shot it's already just being put together because the video is also only this short film and at one point we thought it would be right to put it because it's kind of mad kind of crazy but I've been thinking I'd want to put it in because she goes back to rehearsal as the crowd it just kind of off of racism I think that's kind of boring I think that just in my little simple opinion I don't know about that but that statement of embracing is required because what you see here is what you want to sound and I don't think that's what you want at all and it's not any other part of the play that's interesting that you can have you see as an abandonment I see it differently I see it as a letting go I don't need that anymore that of coming into yourself and letting it go and I think I mean I can't speak to this experience and but I think there is something exciting about theater and art in general with leaving people to find their own research and seeing what it is where some people it will be an abandonment it will be something completely different some people it will be terrifying it will be exciting and the pessimism is where the audience as an artist and as an artist might give a reflection it felt like food it felt like food like the food for the soul and being an actor myself for many years at the moments I just felt like my heart was like she spoke to the pain the pain of this woman just the pain of aging and it wasn't just a second of the pain but I'm saying I just want to share with you the resonance of this piece and I really spoke to me I was like again it's also so feminine and flowing and the beautiful I don't want to say choreographed because it felt so organic but the movements that you have with each other and mirroring each other which is so fluid this is an amazing movie because it means a lot to me and I respected your work for a long time and just now as we were talking I remember seeing a clip I would just share that was a performing arts high school in New York and the BBC came in to film it and I would be in my bedroom in New York and this is so terrible for vegans I apologize but I would get like meat from the store and see what it felt like so insanely in my youth of loving acting but that piece transformed my life staying with me you were like that's trippy I'm told to be here today and to say congratulations for not only being an actor but creating this beautiful piece for us as women to get food that we need right now so desperately things I didn't know I felt like I was learning I was like take out my phone if you want some books I would like some I'm learning change cards seriously thank you so much both of you I will I will absolutely this source leading up to you especially this week I just I don't want to get everyone to know of all ages I think you're absolutely right it's essential to be on the bill it's essential women must speak women may not remain silent any longer we're at the bulls we're at the bulls we're at the bulls they are they are going into a mood it's like oh I can't get into a mood they're so alive they're alive I was like the power of the cage did you sit on the throne you were you didn't that says everything I know I always wrote off when is that our stop That's right, but I did know where part of what, you know, just very little is known about the Illusian Mysteries, but they think that there was, based on these little figurines, at one point towards the end where the person will prove the initiation swings. And I did find these two pillars, you know, nobody was in this area, and I walked around and just went in between. I was like, well, here's where this ring was. You know, and it was pretty. So did you feel the sense of the partnership? Absolutely. I was there. I just went by myself. Yes, you went by yourself, but did you feel that sense of that culture of the egalitarian partnership? Absolutely. Because there were no fortifications whatsoever between thousands of years. Oh, yeah. So we just never made sure we are, though, that the songs were true anymore? And I was thinking... That's the question, but I feel like I should know this, that the Illusian Mysteries, that the way you put it, the Illusian Mysteries... I've seen it spelled two different ways, but E-L-E-U-S-I-A-N. Can you say that one more time? E-L-E-U-E-L-E-U-S-I-A-N. And then it's also spelled L-E-L-Y-S-I-A-N. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm sorry. Okay. And do you have a recipe for the drink? I did. No, but there was, that's a real treat. Yeah. That's a really great treat, and I did drink it when it was rodeo. It was a living home. I love it. I love the gesture you make when you do taste it, because I have a moment of light when she wakes up. No, but that's not the light. It's a very rare question that all of the stage practical, the shape of the play, is very... It's not in response to the real stuff right in my mind. But even though you're inspired by the shape of the play, I'm really wondering to where exactly do you have to go with it. But I think that's every word that you work on should take you towards your territories, and your life, and your goals. So yeah, the play that had a fright in me, the material hasn't challenged my perception of the world or of myself. I dare to say that they... No, no, no, it's true. There was a... No moment I think there was a photograph of me doing the play. No, I just found that. And then, because I had her as a part of it, then where did the portion... That's actually the end. She was here with my ancestor. And I had never spoken... I had never spoken to her before, because I was the same. Yeah, yeah. I've never spoken to her before, but I wanted to have that experience. But it was delicious. And I was wondering why not knowing how it should be in Switzerland. Because I was like, it was unexpected, and then it felt so ancestral. Yeah. It's such a wild language. We're listening to that. The green was almost easier for us. Oh yeah. So many things in it. And where I wanted to go, Spanish with it, then there would be other sounds. I could feel that infusing, just like that. We're trying to provide childcare for the next two Sundays. No, I don't think so. Sorry. But you should still come. You should go out. Right here. I'll be there. Yeah, the posters are right up there. Thank you. Thank you. I'll think of this every month or two. No, I don't think I can stick. I don't think so. I'll pass. Okay, I'll turn to the first. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye.