 There's been just like a lot of miracles for me not in any way that I expected but just a lot And I just feel like such a deep passion in me to just like keep Like Going with the spirit. It's just like I Was literally like escorted here. I had to come I Had to come it it was given so it was really strong But I feel is So much love in this invitation This is the first time I've done anything even remotely like this. I've never done a retreat before or anything I'd never had a silent day or a silent hour in like my whole life I Hear this Mantra in my head Just stay here Just stay here over and over and over in the last two weeks Just stay here being more comfortable staying in the moment. That's been a gift it feels like my heart's like opening and I'm not like as Open as like I know I can be but it feels like it's opening and I had like Actually two singing sessions one with Netta and one with I'm Emily and the first one I could barely with net I was barely able to like vocalize and Yeah, it was like so Almost terrifying, you know and then with Emily I just was like letting go was singing out for the first time in my life ever And I left there just like skipping out the door because I'm like I cannot believe this just happened Truly, you know You know to be able to hear a mantra and I had saying just stay here That's enough Then it it's worth it begin to trust that it's really true. I can't Comprehend that I am loved You know, even if I Express feelings of Irritation or I have some more judgments. I have so many judgments over myself about myself, so That I'm still loved, but yet this is my very first experience with God Feel like somewhere on this last 30 days. I took that final leap with God To trust period No exceptions ever That love is so huge here Oh, I want to take it with me. I hope to take all of you with me. I Know when I go home, I'm gonna sing like, you know So just that like is amazing, you know Just one little piece of what I experienced here would be enough like it's amazing, you know truly