 When I was 11 A cousin's sister of mine came to me and said We noticed that you're struggling we would like to help you We want you to come to our house on Thursday We have a friend who's 39 40 years old He has a blue car and his sisters go to South Africa. They buy and sell clothes This guy has been struggling to find someone to marry and we want you to marry this guy so your life can be better and Sitting there Thinking that was the only option that I had And knowing that maybe they were right. They were the elder ones. They knew better than I did There's they came and I didn't go to see this 40 year old with a blue car I told myself I wanted something more. I didn't know what more was There was a voice from somewhere within me that told me that things can change and That is what I've learned to relate to as appetite appetite comes from a special place within us it's the place where Strants of hope are starting to arise where you can see a little bit more Than what is in this moment?