 Yous are forever notice and never go from last week. Parties are gone, weekends are over, when I can't even handle myself. Let's go for a walk today. It's been going too long, more than a nuisance. What has it done to me? Good morning, everybody. From me and Layla, we're on our walk today. She started doing walks again yesterday and she's feeling so much better and I'm feeling so much better as a result. It's getting a little toasty. I was considering going on a walk myself after this, but I don't really know because it's kind of warm. The sun is blaring right now, as you can tell, but today I have a busy day. I think I'm gonna try to film, but I haven't even said something yet, but my face is still swollen. So I don't know, I might put that off, but I'm really, I don't wanna get behind schedule, so we'll see. But good morning. Is everything a dream? I don't know what this means. Time has been slow, it seems. Call me a face while we're 19. So many different things. Going for what I've seen. Everything's wrong, I don't know what to do. Right now I'm necessarily being like, look at that stuff, look at everything. Also I need you to talk to people that are funny. Anyway. It is much later now. It is currently 10, 26. I just spent the last hour and a half on FaceTime with Alexa because we are planning out a really fun trip together for a really fun video with a really awesome friend. You'll know more about it in like a month, but we are so, so excited. So we've been planning that. I am, I've been sitting here literally for the last hour. For the last like hour, I was rolling my face and I, to most people, it probably doesn't look that bad, but to me, I don't know if I can film today. I had my smoothie, my typical smoothie for breakfast, which was delicious. I think I'm gonna go take like a nice spa shower, maybe put on some fake tan. Probably not, I'll probably do that tomorrow. I could honestly, oof. I could take today and do some more Poshmark stuff, but that sounds daunting. I also have a bunch of stuff that I need to take to various places. Like I have clothes that I wanna donate to women shelters. I have household items and things that I wanna, you know, take to the thrift store to donate. So like I could do some of that today. Honestly, that might be the move, like to get ahead. Cause one thing I've noticed that I don't, I'm sure a lot of you can relate to is like the older you get, right? If when you get older or just when you move through life, you move into like bigger spaces, you know, when we first moved into this house, I was like, how in the hell are we gonna fill up this house? And now I have so much stuff because I've filled in like every little corner of this house, but I've ended up with like way more stuff than I need. So it may be just time to do a little bit of spring cleaning. I mean, I'm not, that doesn't sound fun, but like I'll do it. I started a little bit yesterday and I cleaned out like our little Harry Potter closet under the stairs and that felt really good. So now I feel like I'm sort of on a roll and I want to keep going. So I don't know. Before I leave the backyard though, I will show you an alien cactus update. And I just thought about this in all the times that I've shown it before. I've never thought to like go behind it and show, which like, duh, makes so much more sense. Because wow, you can see it so much better from right here. The lighting is not ideal, but a lot of these flowers are blooming and it's looking crazy. So it's like, I guess gonna go all the way down this is called a century plant. Every time I call it an alien cactus, I get someone that's like, hey, that's actually called a century plant. And I'm like, oh, I know, I just, I just call it an alien cactus because that thing is a freak. All right, let's continue on with our day. But I feel great. I'm so happy. I walked like four miles hot gar walks, man, or the move. And I'm gonna do them as long as I can because it's getting hot. I'm gonna say that in every vlog. I might even like create a playlist on Spotify if I'm feeling spicy and link it down below for you to also listen to on your hot gar walks. Cause it really is like a mental health booth, man. I tell ya, it's good. Whoa, it is actually like two days later. I just got out of the shower, forgive the state of me. But here's the progress. So less swelling for sure. But I ended up like getting caught up with work the last couple of days. And we've been out all day with Drew's mom and niece. And now I just took a shower because it's day two of my period. And if you know, you know, it's just the day from hell. But anyways, I got out of the shower and I immediately started laying in bed. But then my sweet friend Noel texts me and she just posted or is about to post her very first vlog. So if you watched our LA vlog or if you've seen our LA vlogs like over the years, one of my good friends from high school in Nashville, in case I haven't mentioned this in a while for people who watch, basically four, yeah, four of my close friends from growing up live in LA and have for like a really long time. So Noel and I were on the cheerleading squad together in high school and we've known each other. Yeah, we were on like the low key, like the cheerleaders that weren't that good. But we have known each other since we were like 15. And she's just such a sweet, awesome friend. And her husband Josh is amazing. We're obsessed with them. Like not to be biased, but they're like our favorite people, right? Oh, oh, Moog agrees. Drew doesn't like many people. No, I don't. But he loves them. Yes, I do love them. Yeah, they're the best. So we're gonna watch their very first vlog. And that's what I wanted to say. So they've started creating a vlog channel and they're gonna be taking a trip to Paris here in like the next few days. So they're gonna be vlogging their trip to Paris, I would also assume. So we're gonna watch their first vlog. And if you are interested in following a couple and their explorations, they go all over LA. They're both bartenders in LA. Noelle is also a real estate agent in LA. Josh also does some acting in LA. And then they also love to travel. That's like, they're like probably the most well-traveled friends of ours. So if you wanna follow along on their adventures, I would highly recommend it. I'll link their channel down below. I just realized that our fan is going. So you've probably heard it throughout this entire clip. My apologies. And you had to stare at me like this. You're professional here, we're cute. We're really just pros. Oh yeah, we're gonna watch our friends. I'm so excited. Their videos are already better than mine. Okay. This fucking living in this bathroom I swear to God. What do I do? Hold on. Sometimes I absolutely love this bathroom and sometimes I hate it. But hi, good morning. It's actually a few more days later. It's just kind of how things are going these days. I took the weekend off from vlogging. It was lovely. And now we're back. So getting ready for a full day of filming. You know, the drill. It's Monday AM. I just got a phone with my dad. I don't know like something I've been really thinking about and actually talking about in therapy and stuff recently is trying to think of like how to best word this. Like because it makes sense in my head but basically like to give a little bit of backstory. I've moved a lot in my life, in my adult life and also just growing up. And I come by it honestly because my mom moved around a ton growing up and so did my dad. So it's just kind of like a normal thing for me. But for someone like Drew who has lived in two houses, you know, before adulthood, like growing up. He lived in two houses his entire life. I seriously can't relate to that. Like I don't know what that's like. I've moved so many times. I mean, I think I counted it one time and I think I went to like eight or nine different schools from kindergarten to my senior year of high school. So like I've just always moved. I've always been used to being the new kid. I've talked about it in main channel videos before too where it's just sort of like a thing. I've always moved around and I don't know that it wasn't for any reason like my parents would relocate or like my parents got divorced or my mom would find a new place or whatever. And I would just kind of like move around or we would move states or then I would move back. Lately I've been kind of thinking about how that's affected me as an adult and like how I, as a result, like ended up moving a lot in my adult life. And I don't know what I'm saying is gonna make any sense. But like I sometimes I envy people who are like born in the same hometown, live in the same hometown and like live there for the rest of their lives and like they're perfectly content with that. Cause sometimes I do feel like I don't have roots in places even though when I go back home to Tennessee like I definitely feel like a tie to that place and I feel like a lot of deep appreciation and like gratitude I guess you could say and like same with here like going places where I grew up but I don't know how to explain it other than like I just have this never ending restless feeling of like I've got to keep going somewhere else. Like I need to like have a change of scenery. I need to move out of the house that I'm in and move into a different space because I'm just craving something new. And like I've sort of talked about this before but I will literally and I mean literally be on like a walk with Drew in the morning. I need to keep getting ready as I'm talking about this but I'll be on a walk with Drew in the morning and we will be talking about moving back to California, right? By the way, Drew is equally as guilty. So this is like, this is me speaking for both of us but I will be like, let's move back to LA Drew's like, let's do it. It's so exciting. Like we got to get there now. Like can we get there in the next couple of months? And then literally that evening, we are fully talking about buying a house here in Arizona with like without missing a beat. It literally changes by the day and sometimes it changes within the day. And it's just, it's been this way like probably since we moved to LA. We moved to LA in late 2019, like August of 2019. And then by I guess what July of 2020, 11 months later, almost a year later we were gone. And like that was for a lot of different reasons, the pandemic or neighbors, et cetera. But now that we've been back in Arizona for the last almost two years, we have just been, again, going back and forth about it, just like, what the hell do we do? Like where do we go? And there are some days where truly I will wake up in the morning and say, we're going to move to the UK like someday and we'll fully plan on it. And then a week later it's like, or we could try living in Japan for a year. And then there will be times where we're like, let's pack up everything and move back to LA. Actually, let's move to Orange County because that'd be really cool. San Diego would be really nice. Like, and we quite literally change the plan so often. And then of course it always comes back to eventually like in the rotation, it's always like, or we could buy a house here. You know, it's a good time because gotta get it on this market, blah, blah, blah. Yeah, I don't know. I just, I guess I kind of wanted to hopefully speak to other people who are feeling the same way because I, if there's one thing I will never be, it is settled, ever. I know a lot of this has to do with like the impulsivity part of my ADHD. My parents both deal with that. Both my parents have ADHD, go figure. So I think a lot of that like comes from just feeling impulsive. And then like if I just chill for a couple of days like the desire will usually go away. But yeah, if there's anyone out there who is going through the same thing, who is walking through life like damn, I have no idea what I wanna do because one day it's one thing, the next day it's another. I don't know where I wanna live. I don't know what I wanna do with my life. And Drew is the same way. Like he's the exact same way. And I don't know if it's because he stayed put his whole life. And now he wants to like go out and explore and do different things. But it's just funny, like we're a hot mess. So one of the most kind of asked questions I get is like, where are you guys going next? What's your next plan? When are you moving? What are you doing? And no idea, no idea. And we say that every time because it changes all the time. And we're just gonna eventually have to get to a place where we just like make a decision and fucking stick with it. But it just changes all the time. So I just thought I would, you know, hopefully give a shout out to those of you who are also going through the same thing and who are like, what am I actually doing? Like what am I doing? I just, there's so much life out there. Like there's just so much to experience and see and so many people to connect with. And I know Drew feels the same way. So like, I don't know, it's just, it's fascinating being in my scary brain. And I saw something on Twitter recently where I'll like put it on the screen here, but somebody was talking about how like in your 20s and 30s, if you're ever feeling like you need to work harder to catch up to your peers or you're on the right path or that you're behind or whatever, you're absolutely not. You're absolutely not. You are right on track with where you are supposed to be. Quickly, I also forgot to add the part where like when she talked about how she feels like she's 35 and her life is just beginning, I 100% feel that way. Like I've never related to something more. Like I truly feel like my life is just now getting good and like going in the way that I want it to and like this whole new chapter of my life is the best one yet. I'll talk more about it in a second, but yeah. And that resonated with me so much. And for the first time I actually read that and really felt that, like I really felt that I am on such an awesome path right now. And I just know it, like deep down in my soul. And I've said this to like a few friends and family over the last few months, but this year in particular just feels like a whole new chapter. Like it feels like a fresh page and it's like a really exciting new chapter in life where I feel so many other people in my life are healing and experiencing so much love and friendship and abundance and like awesome job opportunities. And I believe that all of that is coming for like every single one of you that are watching this as well. Like I just think that this year's just gonna hold a lot of really amazing things. So even though I just, you know, said all of those things about how my brain's kind of scattered and I don't really know what I want to do with my life. Like I read things like that and I'm like, okay, you're right on track. You are exactly where you're supposed to be. Just enjoy this period of life. That's something I really struggle with is kind of just enjoying the chapter that I'm currently in instead of like looking forward to the next one. This is so hard to do while talking. Anyway, if you let me, I will keep labbing and just talking in circles about the same thing over and over again for no reason. So I'll cut it here. I'm going to finish getting ready and start a new vlog. Excuse me. But I hope you all enjoy. Thank you so much for being here and we'll see you on the next vlog. Bye.