 do you feel like you've earned a spot on the playoff roster um you know i think i've done the work that they wanted me to do um so it's as much as i got to stay on it that's it's not my decision so we talked to you the other day and you said originally when you were called up you just wanted to get your feet wet what have you learned about yourself over the last month um just that uh you know if i get ahead of guys it's kind of like the same style of baseball like just get my ground balls or i get my strikeouts once i get ahead and if i fall behind you know that's where i get hurt but uh you know i've just learned to be consistent a little bit more consistent um than i had been and uh consistently in the zone and stuff like that so have you talked to anybody back in that in that bullpen kind of picked their brain a little bit guys that have been here for a while have you leaned on anybody oh yeah like uh every day actually i'm kind of asking about something different um but yeah these guys are real helpful so you know that always helps a lot and uh no i've just kind of gotten used to you know going out there and knowing my role so uh it's just been a lot of like kind of transforming myself into that person right now and then just getting comfortable doing it so how much would it mean to be on the roster wednesday night i mean like i said it would be a dream honestly but uh you know like i said it's out of my control i did what i had to do and i did my job so um you know i like the cards you had that first rough outing was that difficult to get past considering it was your first major league uh no i mean it was it was not what i wanted uh the results obviously um but you know there were a lot of good things that i took from it uh just the fact that i wasn't getting you know completely shelled around the yard and um you know when i did get ahead i got my strikeouts and i got you know some weak contact on some other stuff so uh just moving forward like i've just gotten more comfortable out there and you know i kind of use that as kind of like a learning tool and now that i've gotten a little bit more comfortable out there i just feel you know i'm back to where i was has your confidence increased a lot since day one up here yeah oh yeah and i think you know that kind of goes for everybody um that i've talked to it's just kind of like you get that first one out of the way and then you kind of get settled in so that's where i'm going right now and we keep working towards that when you got called up was being on a playoff roster even in your brain at that time you know it's kind of like a a lot or kind of a goal you know uh but you know it it what's what's the word i'm looking for um it's not my dream but yeah like it's something that i obviously work i'm working towards and have been but uh you know like i said it's kind of out of my hand so it's a decision that's to be made by somebody else