 guys and welcome back to another week in my life vlog today is the day that I have been waiting for since it was announced and as the it starts with us release date I wanted ideally to have the whole day to just read the book and I don't have that I have things to do so I woke up at 6 to get some reading done before I head to Pilates and then work later I'm gonna be reading it throughout the day you guys have a living under a rock it ends with us was the best thing ever by calling over and I read that in 2020 the early 2020 and then it starts with us as the next book in basically that series the sequel not series I guess just a sequel but I am just obsessed I wish I would have reread it ends with us just so I would have like it would have been fresh in my mind you know gonna be reading up to y'all books more maybe I can just update y'all as I'm reading in vlogs rather than doing actual reading vlogs but I don't know I can't make everyone happy some people just want the reading vlogs some people want me to shut up up like I don't know so you guys let me know I have my little eye patches on so excited so I have Pilates I ate 30 I haven't worked out in like a week and a half and it was sick and I feel like my body feels weak so it's gonna kill me today like it's it's really gonna help me I gotta go I have things to do okay guys I'm starting the book I feel like everyone has read ends with us so like this is a really big deal very very big deal dear reader I'm reading every page of this part of me wants to take a long time to read this book so I can really enjoy it because last time I read it ends with us and like one sitting but like I'll probably finish today it is now unfortunately at 730 and it's time actually 735 second stop reading it is time for me to get ready it for Pilates loving the book so far I'm only about 15% of the way in I'm definitely gonna finish it today I'm so excited I'm not gonna spoil anything I don't know it's like I want to talk about the book but I don't want to spoil it for people who haven't read it but it starts off which I'm sure a lot of you guys already read the first chapter because it was released it starts off exactly with the last book ended and then it's like a year and a half later I'm bad at talking about books like I'm just gonna spoil that but I love it I just like love that book so much it's so good so anyways still sipping on my espresso shot these are from the last line I cannot remember for the life of me where this crew is from someone sent it to me it's from Nostik the Dallas ones I don't think are for sale I think that she just made this for me and I just love it so much like how cute I'm on my way to Pilates I can't remember if I vlogged my outfit since I am trying to become a tiktok star I tiktok did I get confused with what who I'm talking to and what you know I'm on my way to Pilates I will probably die today it's so crazy how I know this is probably not true but I feel like all of my muscle has gone away since I had food poisoning this weekend and I've been out of town for the past week it couldn't work out cuz they got my brows micro bladed and I feel like all of my muscle has gone which is fine it's more so I'm just like concerned for when I go workout like Pilates I'll be okay weightlifting like what's gonna happen tomorrow you know I've had my eye patches on too for like so long so anyways I'm having my like amino lean to my RSP nutrition their pod sponsor right now tastes so good I'm kind of dressed as a ballerina which I'm like really into if you guys limit dollars y'all are near by chance my name is Kinsey Ellen Dallas I do hot pilates at shine pilates you can use join Kinsey code join Kinsey your first class free and then I also weight lift and then I also box at ding ding boxing doing all of those this week my schedule is gonna be a little bit off because I do leave again on Friday to go to my first friends wedding well like my first friend who is getting married so it makes sense what I've known her Abby since like how was it you bet probably we met early middle school we like vacation together we are close growing up and I just love her so I'm very excited Lauren and I are going to get together that was also like Lauren and I's mutual friend growing up like mutual like a really close friend but Lauren and I somehow weren't friends not we like we weren't friends we just Lawrence like my last friends here it's always in the box it's just that we are like different schools and stuff so we didn't really know each other we knew of each other and we were at like Abby's birthday dinners but we weren't individually friends which is funny because now we do everything together I'm just having such a fab morning I love reading in the morning I love a good slow morning especially in the fall it like makes me want to work out in the evenings which I might like start doing like a 430 workout sounds good having a cozy morning I love that I really do I'm just so happy right now like this is my time of year to thrive and it's what I've been waiting for all year long we talked about this all summer I said when the fall comes I'm gonna be happy again look at me happy again what I tell you I knew it there's what's up and comes out this week oh my god I literally could die which is also cute because it comes out the day before Abby's wedding and Abby and I grew up listening to her show together like we have a video my 15th birthday at midnight of her seeing 15 to me like it's very cute very sweet full circle back from bodies and I've showered I went right first turtleneck of the season granted it is cropped and I have like my bra it's gonna be showing all day but it's like kind of sports for us on my matter my sweatpants are my favorite brooding house wipe swap pants we do have some available still so I will link them they're always linked but they're literally the best so whatever I would say I'm a true medium but I like getting one size up or even two in sweat so they're like super baggy you know what I mean and then of course slippers this is my luck so I got stuff to make a little fall breakfast little hash thing I have needed to replace these light bulbs in this hallway for a month thinking it's gonna happen this week mainly because my mom's coming over at some point so that's like really my only hope I'm just in like such a good mood constantly right now I also still cannot get over this rug it was such a good call I guess the dogs must have the pillow I still need to move the couch over more which again will happen my mom is here this week but it is just the best thing ever just made a little fall scramble I forgot exactly I figure what these are it's like a squash pumpkin it's not pumpkin actually but it's some sort of I don't know like unique squash I just picked it up its routes because it looks good anyways this is incredible really easy breakfast and I have so many leftovers I basically have breakfast like prepped for the week I am on my mother duties right now I feel like I'm a pta mom oh first off the hash I made was really good I need to like make sure I cook the vegetables I like them a little bit burnt that's what I've realized just like you know learning so many different things got a little bit of work done and now I'm dropping the dogs off to get baths and then I'm gonna get my car washed and I was in my car wash I'm going to read it starts with us and I need a coffee like desperately I'm getting very tired I can't remember my grandma such as coming over at 12 30 or 130 so I guess we'll see not even get a bother asking because you know she'll get here when she gets here car wash time this is annoying the fuck out of me okay just picked up the pops so soft my car is finally clean so much progress again on the rooftop and more work I have a lot of work I need to get done it's 3 p.m. going home and I also need to pick up some things to the rooftop so I'm gonna show you guys what I'm thinking all right so now that we're back up here I want to do you guys a little update this umbrella is gone we've cleared that out it looks so much better this will have a new like umbrella cover and then that will all be like looking a lot better once everything's made the only thing I'm unhappy with in the rooftop right now is these like they turn purple so there are these over here we have my garden obviously my lights are a lot better the plants we just had them out earlier to like make sure the rug stayed down but looking good I am going to order one another raised bed because I want to make kale and I don't know I just like need more space in my garden if you will so I am getting another raised that I'm ordering that tonight and then I'm also gonna order finally a fence to cover this AC unit because it's so ugly and then I'm also gonna do a little storage unit back here so it'll be great to just be able to have things like protected from the weather over here we have our sit like sitting area and then the same stuff these are tulips that will not oh I forgot to water those today so I've got to finish that but these are tulips that won't be won't bloom until spring my plants over here are looking beautiful if I do say so myself everyone doubted me and I won't forget it but what's gonna be really nice is that we are running the hose up from the ground because it has to like plugged into the bottom of my house running it up and we're having it all like lined up my house so you can't even see from the outside it would just look like normal and that's gonna be really helpful with keeping this like floor which is really the roof clean and then also watering plants and such so I'm excited for that we started it today and the hose was too short I've done it before like I've had one up here before but I this will be a better situation guys I'm so tired and I have to finish it start to last tonight but it is 5 p.m. and I could literally fall asleep I just spent the afternoon getting some work done and I am good for nothing so I'm gonna measure this stuff to make sure I'm good for ordering and then I'm gonna shower self tan I think and read my book I'm gonna finish it start to last tonight like if it's the last thing that I do let me show you all what I just got I got a replacement canopy my goodness called me and said she found some for the umbrella and look they had this like normal beige and that's fine whatever but then they also have this green and white striped one I know that's a lot going on up here and I might hate it I mean they're really cheap so I was like I can just return it or like have it as backup yeah I don't know I don't think I'm gonna like it with this I think I'm gonna want a neutral especially because there's so many plants it's already a lot of color for me but like still it's kind of fun on the rooftop but I hate those why are they purple anyways then I got this as the privacy screen for back there it has been a nightmare trying to find it since I move in this the dimensions are still not perfect I might have to get more we'll see and then I also got this like storage bin that I can also put like the actual cushions and stuff in when it rains but I mean realistically I don't do that so it'll be nice to just have like storage for out here anyways and I'll have that back little quarter so I can put like the block fence I can put the brooms and all the stuff that I'm like hiding behind here back there but it looks like we will officially be done with the rooftop next week when all the stuff comes guys can you I'm just look so tired when all of the stuff comes Wednesday it will all be I'm gonna hire someone to like put it all together have everything good and then we'll do the next garden and wow I'm so excited it is the time I've been waiting for we are going to read it starts with us hopefully finishing it tonight just made myself some good ols mac and cheese is basically like better for you mac and cheese have my water I'm gonna turn my red lights on nope nope gonna turn her I always do that my red lights on it's gonna be an incredible very calming night look at how cute my bed is like it's so cozy good morning guys these I mess are not looking cute they're a little bit messed up oh I finished the starts us at my broading house life little tumbler right now but I finished last night it starts with us I thought I was gonna fall asleep and then I just read and I stayed up and lost I literally went about 11 so guys let's not get ahead of ourselves but it was so good so here's my review and of course I put a whole review on ke book club if you guys ever need racks or you want to see what I'm reading or anything you want to make friends who are in the books whenever ke book club on Instagram yes I am having a Dallas book of two that's info is on my tiktok it's open to everyone anyways it starts with us is definitely a lot lighter than it ends with us and in the author's note Colleen says that she never planned on writing a sequel ever and then obviously on book tuck everyone was just like begging for it so that you started writing one and then she ended up like really wanting to write it so it's really what happens to Lily and Atlas and it's interesting if you guys don't know and it ends with us there is like sugar warnings like domestic violence and the way she writes it it is loosely based off of her mom too like there's elements from her mom's story that that's like the inspiration of the book it's interesting too because like somehow Colleen has a way of writing it where you understand I don't want to say like understand because I feel like they're kind of like takes away from the victims like I have so much empathy for that but like you have like a little bit of a peek inside their head almost like even the way that like your emotions are towards rile in it ends with us it's crazy like I don't know and I feel like that continued on throughout the book and like your feelings towards a rile like I don't describe it if you know what I'm talking about get um it's like too early I'm on my way to weightlifting and I shouldn't have done this book review right here I loved the little twist in Atlas's story my only thing is that I wish it was longer I do feel like the ending donnie just happened pretty quickly and I would have loved like a little bit more but at the same time I guess it really wasn't needed like we knew what was gonna happen you know anyways I rated it five stars I felt like it was like the perfect sequel and it was the closure that we all needed so anyways I'm on my way to weightlifting and then I'm going to the sauna and I'm doing cryo this morning and I'm so excited today I have meetings I need to work and then my mom my cousin I think maybe Maddie my sister are coming over and I'm cooking dinner and it's gonna be a whole little another little Martha Stewart moment finish weightlifting I'm dead and now time for the sauna this is my favorite thing I'm gonna do a little meditation even and then read but these 45 minutes of my day are the best back home I showered and I'm ready for the day I'm super cozy the outfit doesn't necessarily match but I don't like here the long sleeve I think is brandy actually unfortunately the best is H&M sweats or mayfair these like books have got to go because they're really ruining like it's too colorful in this room so anyways I had meetings I don't know why I'm a bag on like this I'm literally is going upstairs I am posting about my live show again today by the way if y'all are in Dallas on November 11th live show at the factory with Margot Walshery and Dom as my special guest it's gonna be so much fun get your tickets now you want to be there I promise you our New York show was so good and our Dallas ones can be even better and it's just so much fun so that's always linked below this is my fit I do need to go back to Sprouts today gotta pick up some cabbage I'm making soup for tonight gotta get something that's gone so even though I am not a physical planner and girly anymore I do make notes on my like no top every day that really helped me the skinny confidential came out the planner so obviously I had to get it alright can I get a fucking minutes very Lauren oh these are cute wow so fun a note from Lauren I mean of course this is going to be the most oh my god I actually love it wait this is so nice it's gonna be like the most detailed thing ever I'm sure well I really really like this so this is what she does every morning I see it on her Instagram stories but I think it's a like very cool so maybe I will start using this I obviously just have to buy everything that she ever comes out with because it's like Bible you know but I think I'm actually like really gonna use this so convenient alright guys I just got off my 43 meeting for the podcast and I just want to say thank you guys so much because I have grown every single month for the past I think we're like nine months now like we're on quite the street every single month is my best month ever so thank you guys so much or our best month ever thanks so much to everyone who listens to the podcast I just love you all and if you've never listened definitely go listen it is just I'm obsessed also in the new year I am gonna be trying out a lot more solo episodes and then just like recording for my couch and still filming that I'm not gonna have like the video quality that I have in the studio but I think it's just gonna be like really cozy and also everyone seems to love so I'm so so I think we're gonna add some more in and it's also less travel for me which will be nice and then I don't know we'll see but I just wanted to say thank you guys so much because it's like my favorite thing ever and I'm just so proud of the show right now I'm so happy and it's all because of you guys feels really good so anyway it's just wanted to say thank you I'm putting my nails on this is the only hour I have and I realized I have a wedding this weekend and I like need to do it now so I'm going to a door and these are gonna be fixed they're not looking not looking great at all and then I'm gonna go to Sprouts this is really truly my week like I'm I'm thriving thank you thank you so much you too guys I am so tired I also started period this week so that would make sense as to why I've been so exhausted that's like my latest thing hormonally is that I will just like my face puffs up I'm so tired my eyes are tearing off and it's like I got a decent amount of sleep I mean granted like not Sunday night but like I don't know what's going on I just like literally cannot do anything so anyways second Starbucks of the day my order is on my Instagram worth it guys my mom is here look at what I saw and look what I got us bone broth I know and we can like heat it up and it's in a little latte cup very big bone bone broth fans and then this is a step to the soup tonight I got Avaline wine I was also listening to Dr. Cool's episode with her aka Cameron Diaz and Katherine Powers loved I also got ghee because I always just randomly need it and I never have it so I just picked it up I saw it but it's just a reminder that the rooftop looks incredible so my mom's first time seeing it since the little redo update the basil and the mint are not doing well they I don't know my gun I we've all been having issues in like two days but this oregano is doing very well and the time is doing great so whatever but it's looking beautiful the umbrella cover has already arrived somehow both of them have and I'm definitely gonna go with the neutral one eventually that'll be put up I'm not doing it right now oh mom over here this is my gardening kit plants are looking great these Coco just got it back and then she went on the rooftop and look at her look at you oh wow she's not happy she got caught guys this cabbage soup looks incredible I added bacon this time and I did remember the brown sugar oh my god it smells so good good morning guys I wasn't gonna vlog before going to boxing and I got a DM that there are now two other girls flying in from from Minneapolis for the show that is so crazy there are two girls flying in from Kansas there's at least one girl flying in from Florida and there's two girls flying in from Minneapolis and they're gonna do a whole Kinsey inspired Dallas weekend that is like literally the highest honor like people literally flying in to come see my live show that is so crazy there are still tickets available everyone come I really really want to sell it out it's a bigger venue I know we can do it especially in Dallas I just feel like people don't know like what a live show is I'm gonna be doing a live Dallas dating show a 20 minute like live podcast with Margot Dom's doing stand-up we're gonna do a truth or drink we have like another Dallas game that I just want to give everything away but like our New York show was so much fun all the girls who came to the pop at last week in New York a lot of them went to the live show and said that they loved it and it was so good and I was just really proud of it like once you finished I was just such a good night and it's so fun something different to do too so anyways if y'all are in Dallas or in the area get your tickets because I am praying that it sells out our New York one sold out this venue is bigger so but there's more Dallas people you know what I mean but get your tickets now if you've been waiting this is your sign to buy them today so many people are putting it off into the last minute and what if everyone puts it off into the last minute and then people don't get tickets you know what I mean and look the seats are assigned to you so like if you want to go with like a group or whenever they are and if you're not going to the group and you just want to go by yourself or you like want to meet friends or whatever and the Geneva chat there's a lot of girls who are going solo and then they'll make you can make friends with them and go with them it's really easy within New York to have some anyways I'm gonna stop doing some self-proma but I just like cannot believe people are flying in for the show like that is so cool hey I go to ding ding boxing by the way on Ross it's so good it's my favorite boxing place I like it better than rumble I like it better than prevail these are all like boxing is suitable there's I don't want to say City of Angels in LA because I haven't been there in years but my favorite boxing place I got the high pro glow from juice bar which is interesting because it's a potato I love a sweet potato so I'll give you guys posted I made it to talk yesterday and I was like the second someone I know that you're eating but you don't eat like this like guys we have what is it me so phonia my so phonia me so I don't know and when you hear someone chewing honestly it's any chewing but like when it's and again this is like an us problem but I can't control it but like someone chopping and smacking their lips like it's also just manners oh my god it makes me so angry so people like have started eating in vlogs and I will X out in Tuesday because that's not a threat to people in the entire world I just I can't do it and I posted a TikTok saying that and they're like don't you do that all the time like I don't even do that if only you knew how I grew up because we we were not allowed to eat at the dinner table if we ate like that which also is a manners like I just I don't understand it anyways my camera on because my mom had me start the what is it the watch last night no watch so what episode are you on it's finished oh you already finished it okay so new Netflix series oh yeah that's right I watched one we watched one episode last night there's ever if I'm I'm what bad at watching shows in general sometimes I'll watch a documentary and when I'm watching a documentary or any fits based off a true story I'm googling by the end of that show I know more than the director because I am so crazy I'm on I'm on everything reading this right I know but like I really want to was that anything you guessed a little bit yeah yeah actually a little bit but how many guesses did you have to know Tim and I were both guessing but yeah we were we were somewhat okay well let me know if you guys have watched it it's just it's like different than anything you've ever watched you're just so yeah it's really well done too yeah so we got our coffees we're on our way to Highland Park Village because love Shack Fancy invited me in for gifting and this is literally the best day of my whole entire life because I have been waiting for this moment for as long as I can remember I just love this place my mom doesn't even know what Shack Fancy is they've they've really only become I think they've popped off recently in the past like two years but it's like it is surprised it is the most beautiful storefront you've ever seen it's like like a fairy like oh no it's super super girly like very girly but I just love it so we're doing that and then we're gonna go so maybe they know they do have tabletop they do a bedding that they have clothing they have everything you'll see then we're gonna go get facials at the Thompson and then tonight to make things even better we have a needlepoint event for a new needlepoint store that opened and down so I'm really living my best life today went to the 7am boxing class I'm surprised I made it there I would say my effort levels were about a 40% the coach is not having it my friends and I were like we just didn't care I'm like I can't do this right now and she's like really in our face and we let Macy look to me no I mean normally not that you should do a Dre when we go Dre's my favorite coach and you would love Dre but Macy in the middle class looks at me just she's not having my effort levels was like me neither like I normally like really into it oh it was just a lot we're in the gift thing sweet and my mom just told me it really does remind me my room when I was little everything is perfect thank you yeah yeah that's very true I got my dress I'm wearing it this weekend to the wedding I've changed my change my look it is so cute it's a magical place he goes around dollars get the skin better facial use my gopkins you need 20% off any of access to everything so we just got facials are we getting facials today and with the cool punch the hot punch all the saunas so beautiful out here and then you go this way that's the cool punch the barrel sauna I've been here before I've definitely posted it in vlogs but I just like I love this spot this is a dream come true truffle fries and the salads you get oh good this is the watermelon salad with chicken and then like I just am obsessed with truffle fries I am back for my day on the town first off what we got at love shack fancy the pink dress I think I've logged it let me show you you guys will see it on my Instagram it's so what beautiful I'm wearing it to a wedding this weekend in Tennessee I mean it's just I'm obsessed also of course beautiful I went just now to a needle point event which was incredible so it's a store that is open up that does needle point I'm sure you guys saw some clips on the vlog they gave me like a little needle point kit and then also a candle Dallas sites hosted it but like this is my dream event my gut is going to love it we're gonna take a needle point class there together very excited but up until they open literally tomorrow we didn't have anywhere to take needle point classes in Dallas so if you guys are interested your grandma's interested your mom someone your grandpa your I don't know whoever is interested we now have them it was so great and like they were so nice and it was just a good event so loved that oh guys I got my first pair of ever J pajamas I got from the Thompson I saw them and I was like I must get them my skin by the way looks like so much better ever J pajamas they're just like unbelievably soft and like I'm such a matching pajamas that girl so this is my first I'm sure many I'm obsessed with skim pajamas I love them I live in them these are like a little bit different there's the softest things I've ever felt in my entire life and then from Zara I ordered this set like so long ago and it finally came in look at the skirt so cute right and then at this like is that not the cutest thing you've ever seen I am obsessed I'm so excited I just I love this set I will be wearing it all the time I might even wear to dinner got dinner plans next week with some old friends like it's just the cutest thing ever so I got that from Zara today was a very fabulous day the spot with therapy in the middle of all this like it was just a really good day my mom just left oh wait guys sorry last thing officially I got some of the most beautiful jewelry like first off this bracelet to die for this necklace I will wear literally all the time these like I took one of these out the quality is unreal and they gave me a code you guys can use Kinsey P for 15 percent off but the stuff is just like so cute and the quality is amazing and you guys can get 15% off so definitely go check it out like these dangly earrings guys I love them these especially these are little hoops with like the little like fake diamond thing I just think it's so cute so very exciting good morning guys it is a Taylor Swift day very exciting it is 645 and I am currently ready for the day I'm speaking on a panel at a conference this morning but they need me there for an hour early for some reason so I get there like 730 and I'm like so tired like getting up this morning was tough and I'm up this early a lot so like go work out but getting ready is different blazer is a sample that we didn't end up putting in production top is skims pants are the okine shoes are Sam Egelman so I'm gonna go get coffee oh my gosh guys by the way the average a pajamas like these are unreal they are so soft so comfortable I'll be adding many more to my collection I'm gonna do an entire pajama collection on tick tock because like this entire thing well right here they're all full of pajamas and I already that's after going through them like all six of them used to me and I just have the best pajamas I'm a huge I'm over matching pajamas every single night I have honestly like my whole life like I've always been a pajamas girl so anyways off we go guys I'm obviously actually I don't know if it's obviously I'm like a huge Taylor Swift fan I listen to Taylor Swift all the time I love her I mean we've talked with this many times you guys know this I don't know I just like I want to take obviously as if like someone's listening about you and like they don't know you know what I mean anyways but like I'm in the Starbucks after and this makes me sound like the most basic bitch in the world and really annoying was also thinking Monday I'm taking my niece to the pumpkin patch and picking her up and then we'll listen to Taylor Swift and let's go to Starbucks and I'm gonna take her to the Starbucks like I went to every day before high school but it's like getting me emotional because it's like getting colder out it's early in the morning I'm getting Starbucks and I'm listening to Taylor Swift or whatever and it's like I was just 16 and doing this like how did I turn 25 feet blind to go like how has it been like literally 10 years almost that is so scary or like even before when I had my license my dad would take me to school and every morning we would go to Starbucks together they would have our coffee order and stuff and again this sounds like so basic bitch annoying and it is but it's just like a nice like sweet memory like I'm literally like choked up like I like it's just like flying by like it's really crazy it's also wild how like Taylor Swift has just been such a constant in life you know what I mean I was thinking about that this morning and like I remember where I was when I put my necklace on backwards I remember where I was when all of her other albums released like red was the in the era of like my Starbucks high school days or yeah freshman year I think and I remember where I was and I was like I wonder if like all the kids are still really excited about this and honestly they probably are like I feel like they still love Taylor Swift right that's just crazy you know anyways love her like biggest staple of my childhood like just less like one direction and I never got in the one direction and that's what she feels about one direction I feel this way about Taylor Swift like I just I love her also I'm tired and I have to talk on this stage at 8 a.m. and I am such a morning person yes but like something about doing a panel at 8 a.m. it's like worrying me that I'm gonna be like really boring I won't be boring but you know I mean perfect thank you have a good day it's always so embarrassing when your Starbucks people already know you like this is brand new they recognize me on like day 3 day 2 maybe he goes you're early all right guys I finished my panel obviously didn't vlog because can you not that would be weird like no so anyways it's like 945 I need to go shoot like a brand deal at Target and then I really want to get a work in today I work out in today I do have new Pilates booked so my plan is gonna shoot this gonna send it in gonna go work out at noon come back shower self tan pack get everything together at the last of my work and then I don't need to leave for the airport until like 6 p.m. Lauren and I are driving we're going together so I kind of have like my day ahead of me but like you don't hear a girl it's like the dumbest thing ever but you're like scheduling yourself tan and stuff it's like this is gonna be crazy and then when you have extensions and you wash your head that's a whole other thing let me get restarted this stuff is really out of control but it just looks such a good week guys like I know I keep saying that but like I'm just thriving these days right guys it later I'm packed I'm about to leave for the airport and I'm tired I hope you guys enjoy this vlog I love you guys so much and I'll see you next time bye we both have imposter syndrome and I think everyone does and there are days that both of us are like oh my god I've never like you do you spiral in thinking catastrophic like for me personally I'm like it'll happen like once a month where I'm like oh my god I've done nothing I'm not like I'll never get to where I want to be I'm so far behind him so this and that and whatever and like it really is normal