 मेरी एक बार चाई पील आना फिर उसके बात ख्रिटिसाइस। अद शुडन्द अद अद से दे अंटार ख्लाज लाईप दे एकश्पीरियंस of being with students, interacting with the classmates and having to build those friendships or you know the sort of relationships that you build in the classroom and in the college and that has been completely in existent and few friends that we made online also and we don't talk to each other anymore because this is the third wave now like people are tired, really tired of going through this again and again since the last one year we are getting increased stipend of 16,000 rupees but that too you are not getting on time I haven't got my stipend since the past three months because of some technical glitch or something that happened at the administration side so I am borrowing money from my family and from friends to pay for my rent and other expenses and to a limit I can ask my family but beyond say keep on asking them it's not helping me because my financial dependence on my family means that I also have to listen to them say about my life choices that I make so their control is over me when I take their financial help so which is one of the reasons why though I am facing difficulties in staying in Delhi I am not moving back to Kerala in January we got a chance to come to January in the second semester of our master's that was again a long struggle, we sat on DOS for 21 days indefinite sat in with January SU, then we got a chance to come to campus and stay in hostels this is also a big privilege for us because our fellow bachelors were in other center universities they had to pay a hefty rent to survive in Delhi talking about the political situation in UP, back home things are, I mean they don't care election rallies are going on, people are gathering things are happening as they were back when covid was not there so yeah I mean it feels like the entire burden of going through this crisis of covid and you know staying home has been put on the students because I think even before the third wave railway stations were open the airports were open, restaurants were open, people were gathering and I don't know why university was the space which could become a hotspot I am not so sure about that I will have a space a personal space won't be there, I will not be able to do my academics well if I move back home and also there is this pressure to get married if not just from my parents also from my extended family because a woman in her late 20s doing her research is something that our society is still learning to accept this is the book which may just see yeah this is basically what my research is on so trying to see more aspects to it and all that okay it's what I am trying to do and here it becomes very important to talk about the areas which are politically very sensitive like if I talk about Damwain Kashmir Kashmir province specifically, the internet is very slow there are no online classes in such cases and some people suggest of course that you should go home if you are facing so many problems in the campus but then that is not the solution to the problems because even at home it is not like at home there is a safe environment always specially for women if I talk about women are made to, they have to contribute in the domestic work in any chance and they have major emotional baggage of the family over their heads every time staying outside comes with a lot of baggage I mean staying outside you have to save money if you know in case of emergencies and in case of if you run out of money somehow and there is a fixed time when your parents can send money it's the starting of the month they can send you money and for some reason if they cannot you have to depend on your savings and you can save if you can spend less that is basic economics so while there was no lockdown we could access markets we could buy stuff from you know vendors that were selling things for you know reasonable rates now you have to go to the supermarket chains to access whatever basic supplies of food that you had to keep say in AUD which is a state university it is supposed to provide education at a very affordable price but it's not it has become a commodity in a state university like Delhi you know Delhi's Ambedkar University so even as a researcher say my monthly stipend used to be 8000 my semester fees was more than that and say for an MA student it comes up to 30,000-40,000 which has become so difficult recently my father tested positive and like he is the only bread winner of the family he is the only one who earns right now so we are all dependent on him I mean if you keep all the other emotional stuff aside there is a financial dependency there and I mean that is really a big I mean of course I love my family and they are going through a lot right now and isolating myself from them not being there for them and not having them for me is also a bit of a concern and I cannot go back home immediately right now because Delhi is a big hotbed right now we have a lot of cases in Delhi so that is of course you live alone you have to face that in our Bihar the state of the internet there is no network in the village so whenever I used to go to the village I had to go somewhere else where the network used to come to take classes you can understand that when you are in Delhi and you are studying in a professor you are getting disturbances from them you have to face the network issues so we are so far away so we have to face a lot of struggles and where we live there is a lot of noise around there is some work like in my house next to me there is an auto mill so it constantly runs whenever I take classes its noise keeps coming and I cannot ask any questions because there is a lot of noise in the background due to the pandemic recently our library is closed reading halls access is also not available completely when we talk about the effect of covid students are coming from different states who do not have access properly to their parents so they are left on their own in such a way university has a responsibility to open a covid care center testing facilities in the campus for 24 hours and provide medical and doctor appointment to the students but 2 years have passed and nothing has come to the university in spite of JNUSU's consistent efforts and request to the administration nothing has happened no covid care center if any student is positive they send him 40-40 km to a good village in isolation center so that is also very difficult university administration has an order to open an isolation unit or quarantine center but they have not seen it yet our academic calendar has been written since November from November to March it is your first semester which has started in January we also started in January and the batch of this time also started in January and if they wanted they could start in December but they delayed it in the JNU late in the result during the lockdown what we came across was a lot of students who were trying to take the admission because the admissions happened just before the lockdown they had to go through the students from minority sections from scheduled caste scheduled tribes who live outside of Delhi had to go through a lot of problems to get their documents verified here and because of that a lot of students had to you know take a I mean their admission was cancelled in the universities the least the university can do is you know take accountability of that I mean they can talk to these students you know get their admissions done if they have cleared the entrance exam rightfully and the government I would say provides students with basic gadgets I mean if you want to go for an online education get students the access to get students the gadgets to access this online education there is no free internet there is no free tablets or laptops to access this education and plus give the fees to the university that's it I would like to say