 Good morning friends. Welcome back to another day in the life of a teacher from home video I'm looking a little like Drab this morning because I just don't feel like putting on makeup or like doing my hair or anything like that And I'm out of focus We gonna focus now camera. Yes. We are It is Monday April not April. Oh my god May 11th yesterday was Mother's Day And we are getting kind of a later start at 8 30 already normally cash is already out the door and on his way to school by now But it's fine We all slept in this morning, which was very needed. So cash is eating breakfast and watching TV He watches like Amazon Prime like the little kid shows And he's drinking one of his chocolate shakes morning boogie Hey, say good morning Say good morning Say good morning. Give me kiss. I love I'm wearing this super old dress. I only remember what's wrong. I think it's from Target. It's way too big for me in the top Like way too big, but it's fine. It's comfortable So this morning I am just Drinking my skinny tabs and then I'm gonna try to make some super foods coffee I learned that you can put it in ice water So I am going to drink that for breakfast This one's getting ready to go Take cash to school And I have a Webex meeting with my instructional assistant miss Jane She is doing her small groups and we um and she was kind of struggling a little bit with He was struggling a little bit with trying to get are you doing? She was having a hard time getting logged in and having all of her stuff up and open at the same time So I'm gonna call her this morning and help her get everything set up Walk her through it so that today when she does her small group. She doesn't have to spend time like getting things, you know Set up. So anyway, that's what's going on this morning. I would like to make a few phone calls To parents just to check in here and there and then I'm going to film my holes read aloud for the week Um And I also need to go to the grocery store this guy needs diapers. We have no food in the house so Really honest with you guys like I Hate this Okay, guys, so I was able to get my IA on Webex meetings and so She's got one going right now she has four kids that have joined it and I'm just Letting that run And keeping it on in case they need my help with anything And I'm making a grocery list because I need to go to the grocery store today And I have to go during the day before I pick up cash because I refuse to take him in the stores so I'm making a grocery list and You guys this is really stressful like I know I just had a breakdown but Like I'm sure every teacher out there has had a breakdown and we've all felt like failures And we've all felt like giving up and I'll be honest with you There are days where I just feel like giving up and I reach out to my teacher friends my teacher tuber friends Darren Kate Shelly all you guys Taylor I like I literally don't know what I would do without them They keep me going because I know that they're in the same struggle as me and I just have to keep going I know there's only two weeks left. So I can just take deep breaths and get through it. I know I can do it for two more weeks It's all gonna be fine But I'll just be real with you guys like it's very frustrating. I have very little participation I have very little communication any of you kiddos who are working at home You are worth it to us teachers. Just know that the struggles the breakdowns the crying It's all worth it because you are worth it. So anyway, I just I want I want to be able to share realness on this channel and I I Really do I want to be honest. I don't think digital learning is working I think that it's very flawed. I think that with It not being mandatory it causes Too many kids to just decide not to do it not to participate and it's just if it if it doesn't change and if we can't go back to school and if the what we're doing doesn't change with like everything being mandatory and You know making sure the kids are participating and figuring out a way to make sure all kids can participate This is not going to work virtual teaching is not Going to work. We need to be back in our classrooms. We need to be seeing students Even if it's a couple students a day, we need to be seeing them face-to-face so that we can help them Navigate all of this. Otherwise, nothing is going to work. It's it's hard you guys this this is frustrating Now everybody has a dancing husband in the back who can make them laugh I I want to be honest and I want to be real and I don't want to be afraid of who's gonna see this because Whether it's a parent or a child or an administrator or another teacher. This is true and honest this is hard virtual teaching is hard and For some kids, it's not working for some kids. It is for some teachers. It's not working for some teachers It is we compare ourselves to each other. We see one teacher doing one thing We're not doing that so we think that we're failing We see another teacher doing something else and since we're not doing that we compare ourselves but everyone is trying to figure it out and I Have two more weeks and I still haven't figured it out and I'm praying that we can go back to school in the fall and Have it figured out before then because I I don't know how much longer I can do What we're doing as I'm just like toast a burnt toast and I don't even have my kid at home I mean, I can't even imagine if I had cash here like thank the Lord. He's at school You know playing with other kids and being entertained because if he was here I'm sure I would have breakdowns every day I would I wouldn't be able to do half of what I'm doing now and I still feel like I'm not doing enough so Anyway, I just I want to be able to speak openly And so if any of my families out there with children in my class right now are watching just know That I do appreciate you and that I'm doing everything that I can for your kiddos And I appreciate the hard work that you are doing and I understand that you are struggling too So if you can't join a Webex meeting, it's okay. If your kid can't get the work done. It's okay We're all in this together. We're all struggling and all we can do is try to relieve some stress If you feel stressed about anything just take a step back take a break. It's all gonna be okay Mental health is really important. So, okay, I'm gonna finish my grocery list and then I'm gonna go to the store Because I have to I have to go to the store Somebody help me out Explain to me. Oh, by the way, I did change explain to me this I Went to Target I Bought everything on my list Nothing extra and I spent almost four hundred dollars on groceries What what did I no idea how that happened? My fridge isn't even like full Let's take a little gander. My fridge isn't even full. I got like yogurt and I got yogurt I Got a ton of produce some meat coffee Some cheese Oat milk regular milk. I got some chicken nuggets. I'm gonna try these Usually I'm kind of against stuff like this, but I wanted to try it and it said reduce sugar So we'll see how that goes You know got some this is probably what happened I got like protein powder peanut butter Some graham crackers Potato like I got a lot more produce. I got some goldfish You know, I got things I normally buy Why is my bill so high? I probably should like check my receipt and see if she you know Messed with my total but I Also found toilet paper and paper towels, which is perfect because I was needing those soon I got diapers. I mean I got everything on my list. I don't know why it was so much money So I'm gonna have to check my receipt and see but I got one of these For cash because we turned him around in the car because he's You know get into that point where he wants to be turned around he wants to see what we see and he Wants to drive the car so I was like, oh, I've been eyeballing this for a long time But I wasn't sure that he'd be ready for it But I think he'll love that so I'll take that with me When I pick him up from school, I've got an hour until I can pick him up So I was just eating I had made myself a caprese sandwich So I did Roma tomato mozzarella cheese pesto on just like some Dave's crazy bread The killer bread by Dave's whatever and it was really good very tasty very fresh now I'm enjoying some wakamole with chips Drinking my liquid IV. I put two packs in here Because I haven't had any water yet, and it's almost three o'clock I'm gonna sit on the couch and watch that 70s show and Get myself pepped up because as you guys saw I had a really hard morning. I Talked to my mom since then she cheered me up. I've talked to my friend Mandy since then she cheered me up So I'm fine. I just needed to have that moment so that I could appreciate You know I have to remember I'm very fortunate, you know, like I'm still getting paid I'm still able to do my job I'm healthy And so I need to make sure to remember to count those blessings and be grateful for the things that I have But it is okay to be sad and it is okay to have hard moments It's just you need to make sure you have people that can help pull you out of those moments because without those people It can be really hard So I'm glad I have my teacher tribe, and I'm happy I have family and my husband is so supportive and I Made it through this one. So I'm gonna end today's vlog here I think that you guys have seen quite enough of my day. I will vlog again sometime this week and I hope that you guys are staying strong. I hope that you have the support system to keep you going and I am thankful for all of you because I know that when I'm struggling You guys are always there to boost me up So I hope that I can be there to boost you up if you guys aren't following me on Instagram Make sure that you do that. I will have all that information right here and Don't forget to subscribe to the channel so that you guys can be updated And I'll see you in the next one