 Hey you guys, I am out here at the gym. Yes girl. I am back on it again Y'all I was so lucky. I don't know if I told y'all yesterday. I was so nervous about gaining any weight, but what I look at it is that we're really only ate two meals a day while we were there And I limited my desserts to when I went over my girlfriend's house and of course my mom I told y'all that I was I was preserving the calorie intake for the desserts And I really did eat like two and a half slices of that cake. She made that cake was so good She low key gave me the recipe while I mean we're thinking about it. I was asking I'm like, okay. How many eggs is in this? She told me three. I said, okay, did you use butter or oil? She told me oh, I'm like done done. Okay. What type of asterisk is this again? Sorry y'all. It's kind of warm here 83 or so not too bad, but um, let me put it on low Still getting to the you know getting there, but um, I didn't work out yesterday I had all the intentions I had on my outfit Just meaning workout clothes outfit My workout clothes and never just made it to the gym because I wanted to get as much stuff done to get back into the role of you know being off a vacation, you know, um Excuse me I definitely feel like I'm losing a lot more inches. I measured my stomach my waist. Excuse me. It's 33 Which is good. My goal is to be under 30 like 29. So if I can get down to 29 I'll be good. Now these this hips are still uh, she's still measuring 44 Yeah, I don't have a big butt. It's these hips But you know as your waist gets smaller your butt will look bigger And I'm definitely doing a lot more lower body to give me some more An inch for lift lift it up. You know, I don't need any more inches. Just lift it up a little bit Um, but you know, we had a great time. Like I said yesterday. We had a fabulous time I do not think we will ever do that again Meaning flying in to Dallas Driving straight to long view. Excuse me. The back part was too much, you know I'm driving from long view straight into Dallas and then flying that was too much because We definitely need that day afterwards to recuperate and yeah, we're good today. So I was telling my husband that y'all heard me that we should probably do a drive around trip next time, um Because you guys when you y'all seen us when we go on vacations when we go on vacations We spend coins. I mean my it's mostly my husband. He's a little he's a little bougie. I'm not that bougie I don't mind the bougie names, but I'm not I look put it like this As long as you know, wherever I'm seeing it is safe clean reasonable I'm okay. I mean, I had initially had a stand at like a best Western or What do you call that like a Hyatt Local he was like, oh no, we're looking for five stars. I'm gonna go it's gonna be your coins playboy. So Wherever we go, we have to plan ahead of time so that we can save our money so that you know, we could Eat so or somewhere that's nice and stay at a nice red. Excuse me. Say the nice hotel. So Um, we were more than likely do Sedona. I'm thinking Sedona. You were already in october y'all friday october. Can y'all believe that? Told y'all to sign of the end times, you know when time is speeding up and that's that's biblical. Anyway um, but it's true Yeah, we're already in october. So that's three more months What am I trying to say? I'm trying to see if we could plan a trip in january because it's very nice in january excuse me And just carry on with everyday boring life. I think my life is a little boring y'all I'm surprised so many people watch me or so many people enjoy watching my vlogs because I don't think it's as entertaining as some of these vloggers You know, so but it is what it is Not everything has to be you know fireworks and stuff because um, this is just showing my everyday life. So anyway y'all just back at it Um, something. Oh, uh, let me give y'all a little bit more background on um, the reunion and all that because I could I couldn't talk And it was so funny. I didn't want to I'm not ashamed of my accent. Let me just say that but I don't think Some of you may have had an issue even understanding me first of all. So, uh, yeah My husband was like your accent came out within a few hours. I'm like nobody even asked you. I mean, I did but I didn't Let me turn on the car y'all. I'm hot Um, the reunion was nice, but we couldn't stay We literally only I mean first of all the doors opened up at 6 30. We got there at 6 40. We left at eight We left like literally immediately after we were done eating. Let me put this like this job There we go. We left immediately after we were done eating. Okay, and I feel kind of bad, but not really because There is no one from my high school that I talk on a regular basis Absolutely no one. I mean, I I went to college when I was 17. I didn't go to the five year reunion This is the only reunion I've ever been to. All right There's no one that I I don't have anyone's phone number You know what I mean? So it's not like I kept close in touch with Anyone from high school and that's just me being real not being petty not being shady. That's just me being real Um, I mean, yes, I have at least 40 of them help us on my facebook page And you know, I lack a little picture every now and then first of all, I'm not I'm not on facebook that much to do all of that but I think some people assume that Whatever is going on on social media should transfer outside of it. I speak to people. I spoke to people but We me and partly two or three other couples were the only ones sitting down most of the time I got up once say I and of course If anyone walked by that I knew I got up and spoke but I wasn't up engaging with people That's just how I am y'all. I am a classic introvert It may not seem that way on here because I come off as very outgoing But yeah, I was sitting down first of all, I wanted to be cute in my dress and seated Damn much my feet were kind of hurting. So I was like, yeah, I'm sitting down And then it ended at 10 10 or 11. That's too late for me. That's too late and jb had been with my mom since We got over there at noon And then I left at four. So yeah, my baby had been there from noon to eight That's a long time for a four year old Excuse me five year and great and my sister brought her children over there played with him around four o'clock But by the time I got there he ran immediately to me because he was tired So yeah eight o'clock was a good time to leave Um, they're already playing in the next reunion girl the time that they're going to go on a cruise Miss Jackson when I be doing that Hell no y'all. I I would never go on a cruise Anyway, it was very interesting to see how much had changed in Dallas now um I was there last year and the last time my husband and I together drove around was Three years ago because yeah jb had just turned two and we drove girl never again We drove from phoenix all the way to Dallas never again Y'all i'm gonna have to find another barber for jb because that place we went to they were out of control these millennials The guys in there had to be no more than 27 28 years old and just cursing and just A mess so I think I can keep this up but then Um After that we'll have to find some other place Yeah Don't throw your stuff double girls don't throw your bag Hey y'all come on girls zoom in there we go. Um or focus out y'all know already know out in front of the gym Let me tell you something. I had I didn't even tell y'all what all I had for my mama She gave me first of all let me back up She sells those little cookies between one or two dollars Yes The mini cake she sells for five dollars, but she has really good business and marketing skills My mama needs to needs to like host a class on that when I tell you when I was there the four hours I was there. I saw about 10 people come in and out and I'm like what the hell she was making Some coins on top of that. She also takes orders for pies Cakes someone someone bought a sweet potato pie Another person bought a raisin cake You know being being that royal part of this style. There's a lot of older people who have these Um, remember these old fashioned cakes and pies my mama will look up a recipe recipe and she'll make it for them And that's why I get that from I can look up a recipe change up a few things and bake it so Um, then all types of people were coming of all types of races all types of ages were coming over and my daddy was like He's like, this is not nothing A lot of the times they will be parked across the street because there's a gasoline station across the street They will park in the driveway and be waiting to come in and she only sells them out of her house Look, she tried to sell them out She was actually selling plates at one time But the county got a hold of that girl and was out hell no miss miss, um, miss billy jean You can't be selling no no meat outside of your home You can only sell baked goods and you can sell them inside your home But once you get into selling Meats and stuff like that outside, you know meeting people for that you can't do that. So yeah, she makes a she makes a good coin Doing that and my best friend makes good money too. It's the south people love to eat girl. Um, so when I came back, um And dropped JB off at school on Monday one of the my neighbor's daughter was like, you know, mom is in the hospital She has she's septic again. I'm like, what y'all want to tell y'all this woman It's in the hospital like every two or three months That's a lot probably once a month now since I've known her she's had pneumonia four or five times This is the second time she's gone septic. She's she doesn't have any immune system And she keeps kids though and I have mentioned to her daughters. I'm like There is no reason why she should be Continuing to keep small children and multiple children when she doesn't have any immune system But you know, this woman told her she ain't going to she can do whatever she want. Um What's the point? I had made a German chocolate cake on Monday and so I told her daughter brick I said, I'll just drop it off and you guys can eat it because they the girl they will eat They'll eat just about anything so um The point is you have to start taking care of yourself, you know as as Women especially but this go from men women regardless of race or whatever You really need to put yourself first and I find a lot of the times especially with caregivers when you are in a position Where you have to care for a loved one You can I know a couple of you have cared for spouses in the past or you're caring for ailing spouse A parent excuse to car A parent maybe it's extended family members I You know, I really um respect people who do that because you guys know I wasn't that only for a week I was caring for my husband and girl. I was at a breaking point. That really tested me However, I got through it But there are some of you guys who have to do this long term and you have done it long term I guess my point is you have to make sure that when you're in a position of a caregiver Or even just you know being a mom daughter Or even just being a parent a spouse you have to take care of yourself And you have to do it all the way around mind body and soul. Um, there was a time there A moment for me and it was mostly it mostly happens during the holidays Where I get frows are doing stuff and especially when I was planning my wedding and moving back into the house I got extremely stressed out. I had anxiety. I even had a panic attack in between that Um blood pressure was through the roof because I wasn't taking care of myself I was making sure everyone else needs were being met and neglected myself and and you can't do that. Um, who is that? Sonya be on it recently. You guys know her. She was the one that started the vapor up stuff girl one of one of the ones Started the vapor up But anyway, she had been gone for a while. She posted a video recently on why she had been out Long story short. She had gotten so run down and sick and I believe she has heart problems. She says Um, she has panic attacks. She doesn't know what triggers it. She said but I have some thoughts about that. What is it? Oh, which is another conversation But anyway, um, she wasn't taking care of herself But it can happen to the best of us more moral of the story and encouraging This is the encouraging moment with miss miss Vivian Take care of yourself mind body and soul. Like I said, it has to be holistically everything together Um, because one can affect the other if you're not taking care of yourself Emotionally mentally that can affect you. Um Physically if you're not taking care of yourself Spiritually and it doesn't matter what your spiritual background is Um, one of the things that I'm going to do in the night It's been on my heart to do this in a couple of more weeks here. I need to do a fast I need to fast Um, and fasting is just not a christian thing. It's more of a A spiritual thing than a religious thing to, um, abstain from food Um, the fasting doesn't necessarily have to be food. It could be something else to deny yourself those things that you're used to Can give you clarity because they make sense. Y'all know this I know a couple of you guys have fasted again. It doesn't have to be a christian thing There are buddhas who fast or jewish people who fast those muslims who fast clearly indians who fast um It's a spiritual thing and i've done fasting in the past and it has been something that's been very very beneficial for me At first i'm like girl, I cannot go even two hours without no food now. I need a snack But that's just a flesh speaking, right? So yeah, i'm gonna do that later on. Um But in the meantime I Purpose and y'all know this I get up an hour early First of all, I go to bed early so that I can get up an hour early and have an hour to myself Oftentimes hear so many people especially women say I don't have any time for myself as always my kids around me girl Please change your schedule. There are 24 hours in their day. Okay We have just enough time to do what we need to do. We just don't do it So I purposely go to bed between eight and nine so I can get up an hour early to have time to myself And within that hour I do whatever I want to do whatever the view wants to do And one of the things I've started to do and I told you guys about this a couple of vlogs ago is having quiet time Just not doing anything Just this week along. I started meditating Five eight minutes complete silence going inside myself And relax and I'm really relaxing and when I tell you when I do that that changes my entire morning It really does change my entire morning Was something I used to do while I was pregnant to prepare myself for the labor itself I did was called hypnotherapy. I have a whole story on that Excuse me story time, which I'll link to that. I got so relaxed I got to a point to where I was so relaxed in my labor where I didn't even need medication My labor was intense, but it was not painful. I that's how Much I was able to do it. I need to get back to that. So I started again this week Like I said, I started a couple of weeks ago, but I really am taking it serious this week and it really changes my entire mood Um, jb had a he was having some Problems this morning girl. I had to get to those legs. I had to Pause to pop those legs for a minute, but that didn't even change my mood I paused to pop in a very calm way. It was very like, you know, very much was like Now I need for you to put your clothes on Now I need for you to brush your teeth and that shit could be more deadly than someone There's someone screaming, right? If you if you have a parent talking to you calm and collect to do something to me That's scarier than someone screaming at you, right? But anyway, y'all, so yeah, just just take care of yourself. That's all I'm saying. Hold on my titties and speaking of my boobs y'all Finally getting some hangage. Just give y'all update those. You don't know I had breast reduction in May went from a triple excuse me a double e sometimes triple d to a full size c I am finally getting some hangage Meaning they're drooping because before they were up high and perky That's great and all but I don't want to look like I've had a boob job. You know what I mean? So now they're they're dropping which is good still very very itchy because the nerves are repairing themselves There's still some discoloration on the bottom half of the boob Now that I look at them I honestly do wish they were just a little bit bigger I really do. I wish they were a little bit bigger. However With that being said the size of my breasts match my body. This just is what it is. I think real quick shout out to You guys don't know this but some of my um subscribers who I know I have youtube channels I watch you guys I watch one or two channels of your you know, excuse me videos and you may not um I may not comment all the time because you guys know i'm a huge lurker And I may not comment all the time, but I do watch your videos. So shout out to the imprasheba I love your channel sis, and I did comment on your one channel that has the it's been a couple of months ago when you posted the video Um, she has free form locks. I don't know how I feel about locks. I love locks. Um She has a beautiful family that energy Everything is beautiful. Her skin is beautiful. I was gonna her skin. I'm like, okay. Yeah, she don't eat no meat You know, you can just tell by looking at someone's skin and their overall energy whether or not they ingest animal animal meat Excuse me meat in general Um, and I could tell by looking at her she in the churn up a couple of videos. They all she had a video and I'm like, okay Well, I'm sitting up here thinking about what I'm going to do with this chicken later on. Okay now turn around This Okay, y'all I'm I'm showing y'all real quick jabies. Hold still baby. Hold still turn around turn around turn around This is jabies pac-man costume I like to put it on him so I can see what thing I need to do. I did everything handmade painted Is all about the details girl all about the details. We got the cherry on this side I'm gonna get him together y'all. I'm gonna get him together All the stuff you see right here is felt Um print out styrofoam. I wanted I wanted it to look like a homemade game. These are Door knobs that is the gear. I made out of what I painted out of styrofoam We have a ghost on the side now to add some dimension. Let me show you what we're gonna do So add to add some dimension. We have glow sticks that are going to go along the edges This is going to be turn off the light bubble so they can see the effect Look how bad that's going to look at night Yes, so the glow stick is going to highlight the actual arcade y'all less than 30 bucks I know it's scary less than 30 bucks and we're done Yeah, so last year I did the bags. I don't think I'm going to do that this year I'm just going to meaning I backed off the candy. Yeah girl. I'm not going to do that this year. Um Let's see what decorations we can get. We're going to get these Wicked of Witch legs for the garage Um What's over here? That's funny spiders Y'all I'm just about look I'm just about done. I don't want to do this so Um Um, I guess I'll do some raggedy bats Here What did I tell you? What did I tell you? You see that Christmas stuff? Child Look at look at this look at this look at this now I'll do fall all day every day But yeah, anyway, let me show y'all what I got. Let me zoom in But yeah, I can see all these tacos smell good y'all Am I doing this right? Can y'all see? All right, so I got me some crackers. These are like 299 one than nine sometimes the store 99 cents girl 99 cents I got some Don't even play you already know famous aimless cookies Some baking soda. I like to clean with this. Okay I got me some tuna. I actually got two cans. I want to wonder what the other can is that I'm going to have one can tonight with a salad. That's going to be my dinner system having tacos for lunch I'm going to have a light salad with a can of tuna for dinner actually And I always like to keep on hand because y'all know I'm a crappy helper I always like to keep either a brownie package or cookie package and I you know, I add stuff to it Um, just in case I'm going somewhere if I want to y'all I like this y'all know this right now. I like to bake stuff I like to bake bake stuff for people and so I got it from my mama. You saw it, right? What is this body washing bubbles for JB? I got just a little bit. He's going to go to the store tomorrow, but I got a little bit of container of some, um ditch washing detergent for Um, what am I trying to say? I'm gonna do a load of laundry tonight And then I'm going to use a little bit of this and try to wash our garage Thing out here garage floor over the weekend. I'm going to tell you another thing I'm going to do to kind of help with that. I purchased some armor all for my car. You can watch my car this weekend Um, this is some deodorant. This is this is part of my preference stuff the deodorant and hand sanitizer is the preference supply Here's that other can of tuna Dishwashing soap over here because I look I have to add some water to this to kind of stretch it So I got this here. I'm gonna another big container. You know, I like Save that for JB to put in his room. His room has a travel like theme so I purchased this stuff that's um The us new york and he's been obsessed with the aqua tower I think this would be cute so he could place this wherever he wants in his room. Um, this is something for him scrubbing pads for the kitchen Some razors for me School y'all always something through school the teachers ask for items for a fall gift basket that is disney related I'm like, oh girl. I got you. So I'm going to give her this Um, disney picks her car and some stickers that's going to give basket Then I have these two storage containers for JB's area I noticed that his clothes are barely fit And I like to put in these things. He has a dresser, but a little too too drawer dresser, but I'm not gonna be folding. I'm not gonna excuse me hanging up his clothes girl I'm not gonna be hanging up his clothes. So I fold them up and put them in these containers I purchased him two more Um Workbooks and we have been doing workbooks and stuff in the in the afternoons and mostly in the weekend So he can do these sometimes in the morning before school Halloween like I was not playing Really scary stuff. So it's kid friendly We have these stickers here that I can put on the front There. Oh, what do you call these? They light up Steak lights, solar lights, pumpkins. I got about four of those Got a door, triple street door sign And some wickety witch Decorative banner to go out in the garage door My car a refresh clip for the car These nets More triple tree. Look, I didn't do that that spiderweb stuff that stuff is horrible to get off So we're just going to do two or three two or three of these and the actual trees out in the front And oh, I saw these, um Purple this is really pretty. This is dark purple Limited edition wet and wow Eyeliner very cute very very cute dark purple And that's really awesome super blue. I want to get some super blue. So we you know keep some super blue here Kitty litter is this kitty litter kitty litter because kitty litter can help you Um, excuse me kitty help oil spills out in the garage floor So I think that you can do exchanges at the dollar tree. I'm pretty sure you can at the dollar store So I'm just going to take this bag. I'm like, I don't want to do some kitty food But we're going to get some kitty litter to help with the awesomeness And this is why I don't need no damn pets I'll be feeding the dang cat some some kitty litter instead of some food It is a beautiful day today. You guys I live in the No, not jb. I live in the desert, of course It's phoenix, but I live in an actual desert called the sonoran desert and in the mornings They have every other morning. They have balloons out here and it's so beautiful Now you you ain't gonna catch me in no balloon girl. Hey you guys it's friday And I'm ready to swing it's friday. We are almost in october. Hold on. It's my phone okay, um And it's a half a day for these kids. Yeah, I looked at the calendar because I was telling christine My coworker christine. I was like, um I was just telling her that I'm going to be doing stuff. Sorry put the car in park I would let her know that these kids get out all the time. I don't know how the hell they learn in I kid you not JB is out for a week all the way up into february. Excuse me a week every month They're out october the week of october 8th for a week. They're out for thanksgiving for a week. They have a winter break And then that's february. Oh, then they have like three days off and They have spring break then they have three days off in april and then school is over in may What the? So he's gonna be home with me. I gave him an option but he ain't gonna get no more options in the future girl Like i'm gonna start signing him up for a camp or something because he ain't gonna be driving me crazy Y'all just like I did for summer for summer. I signed him up for summer camp and he liked that so Y'all look wash and go wash and go. Yes, I can always do great wash and goes when i'm not filming a tutorial for y'all But this product on clearance and my local fries the curls goddess curls botanical jelly Now I have used this product before this is probably my fifth four for fifth time using it I don't know why I tried to do a wash and go On this now. This isn't this let me tell you what happened. I use this And the oil young honeydew and some oil I did everything in a shower like I normally do got out took the blow dryer puffed up it puffed up He immediately puffed up I knew sorry y'all I knew by the next day There would be no definition. I have to pause I have to pause There would be no definition there would be an afro So I went back to my oldie, but goodie. I had to I hate doing is it took me almost two hours to do everything so Meaning I had to do it all over. Um, so I washed my hair again Just a little bit of shampoo conditions again Use some more onion. I'm almost I'm not on y'all, but that's okay. I'll add another one to my amazon cart Um echo style gel. This is what this is what I got with the echo style. So it's it's a little wet. Um What time is it? I don't know y'all I've been drinking it. It's only been an hour Yeah, girl, so I've been taking the blow dryer to it off and on I do have that new blow dryer with the diffuser, but diffuser doesn't help me y'all It really doesn't so I'll be wearing a wash and go for the next four or five days or um That's gonna be for this vlog and basically what I'm saying Girl, I'm about to knock so many Anyway, I'm gonna split this up. It's friday I'm gonna end this vlog because right now it's well over 30 minutes depending on how I edit this But you guys will see what my hair looks like in the next vlog. So I'll write you guys