 We've discussed the attack thoughts in the mind We've seen that the ego is trying to play a trick with the mind and cover over the original attack thoughts with these other surface attack thoughts to generate the fear but we've also seen from all these... everything we've been talking about today that until you go deeper and you get down to the core the core attack thought and let that feel everything with that and allow that to be released from your mind that these tricks of the ego will seem to go on and they will seem to have real consequences not that they really do it's just a tricky... it's a false belief and a false world that it may but it will seem to mesmerize it will seem to have a lot of self-fulfilling prophecies the attack thoughts playing out over and over in a very convincing way and you can see how that inward movement is where the healing occurs because you have to get down to facing that original attack thought in order to be free of fear completely or free of symptoms in that case the symptoms will just seem to occur in diluted forms over and over and over as long as that central belief in attacking God is still down there and it's just so pushed out of awareness So the attacking God and in competition with God is the same? Yeah, it's the same to believe that I can be in competition with God or to attack God is the same and you see we go back to Jesus' divine logic I am not a body and ah there's the second line my mind cannot attack therefore I cannot be sick it's key that that middle line is so important because if it's possible that attack is real in any way shape or form then guilt would be real as well and innocence would be impossible So we have to get down to that core belief because if attack thoughts are real then guilt is real and then sickness is real You see how he's running it down two different ways he's saying here we're going to trace it in with divine logic and as long as you believe that attack is possible then you will have guilt and you will not know who you are and you will not know God you won't know your creator if you believe that So that's why it's not a matter of defending yourself against a real attack but it's actually a matter of going deep enough where you have to realize the impossibility of attack that's where this is all heading that's what forgiveness is all about is recognizing the impossibility of attack my mind cannot attack and in order to do that he does mention that in the workbook that the way that the ego protects that belief in attack seems in this world like attacking and being attacked are two very different things it seems like one being the attacker is being the aggressor and being the attacked is being the victim see how he splits the attack into two different camps two different possibilities and then the mind just constantly seems to go through this time-space world flipping back and forth from attacking or being attacked from being the one that does harm to being the one that is harmed flip flip flip flip flip and eventually you have to start to realize that they are both the same that they are still this belief in attack even though that's part of the trick that keeps it preserved to feel like a righteous victim like no I really was mistreated or whatever then the ego is sitting back ha ha got you got you or this I will get back with revenge I will show them I will attack as if there is some kind of strength in attack the ego is sitting back there going ha ha got you again the strong aggressor or the weak victim it doesn't matter to the ego it's the same belief the belief in attack that attack is possible so that really is what we are calling enlightenment is coming back to the point where you have an experience and a realization of the impossibility of attack that has to be the only solution that's the only way that divine innocence can be experienced you can't experience attack as being real and experience innocence that's what the world would try to say we found the attacker we locked him up in prison and we threw away the key now you innocent victim you are free we have locked up the perpetrator what? that's not that's just a trick as long as there is somebody who is guilty and jailed and imprisoned how could you really be innocent you know if it really happened you know how would you ever find safety in a battlefield where there is attack and defense all the time the only way is going to be going deep enough to recognize the complete impossibility of that competition with God and of attack and again exposing it if we hide the attack thoughts from ourselves or from mighty companions if we have that agreement to expose private thoughts that's what keeps it real in our minds it's really this willingness to feel it and bring it to light that dispels the reality altogether and then we can forgive it it's the hidden stuff that drives us and controls us complete surrender to whatever is going on in your body would that have included well whether I'm healthy or sick neither of those bodies would be real so in that surrender that would be a recognition of that yeah I think that came up too when we went to Cincinnati and the cough from hell came up the hairball from hell because as it started it was irritating then it became even more irritating and annoying then it started to get more and more serious in the perception like uh oh and then difficulties speaking with singing there was no singing voice that completely left and then as it continued on and progressed after that it was the ego again projected out into the future we even were going to be heading to some gatherings and one of our friends Ken Kelly who's a singer who produced Hell in the CD yeah he basically said I can come I'm coming with my wife to Florida and when she was going through this great coffee spell she's like there it is the Holy Spirit's replacing me already now we got a substitute coming in this was like a week and a half two weeks or whatever in advance yeah I was diving into I'll never sing again because my vocal cords were feeling so thrashed and here's proof I was like I was like this is great this is a great emptying of the self-concept it's like you really believe that you need to be able to sing to be loved and I said you're perfectly lovable singing or not singing and you were able to get in touch with my wife this is really an opportunity to loosen from that self-concept as a singer a CD had just been recorded carrying all these union CDs in the suitcase and everything and then no voice it was just since like oh, then David or the messengers they won't want me around anymore if I can't sing I'll be just tossed away like a piece of trash can't sing, well too bad nice going there sister but it was nice knowing you can't sing singing for my suffer ah, ah, ah but that's what we're doing we are getting down to the self-concept and it was a very deep dive because then after it passed through it was also giving yourself the time and space to go through a period of gargle a little sing a little she woke up the next day and she was walking out of school and you were just singing and singing like a lark you know it was just had to be very, very patient, patient, patient three weeks for the singing voice to come back and it just gave her time to really take a look at that self-concept investment and I think that's just continued on that's just another self-concept that it's a skill that the Holy Spirit can use in a glorious way and the Holy Spirit also says just remember it's not who you are it's my skill to use now it's not yours and if you try to possess that skill or attach to that skill and identify it it can only hurt you that was a pretty strong lesson so trust is key I mean when you're on this journey you have to trust that everything that seems to occur there has to be the full embrace of it otherwise you just are forever avoiding things avoiding this, avoiding that you know you really do then you just kind of put a kind of a protective shield around your personality self that say I'm just going to live a very limited safe, secure life like when you were talking about with the chronic fatigue your time was just trimmed down to got to get to bed early can't do much, can't go very far you know really limited feeling really handicapped and trapped in saying but I have no choice you know because of this and this and this and this and then the ego just is sitting back there going huh I've got you scared and that's the way it likes the mind to stay scared because the mind won't open up to miracles if it's too terrified it will just keep all the shields up defense shields up and strong you know against that possibility