 My dad used to make me go and fight, but I'd lose. But my mum just looked at me and went, they're going to get them. So where she said it quietly, I'll never forget, I've done all three of them, because I had passion to do it with. It's just something she said made me stick up for myself. So from then on, I think I started to fight a lot, be pulled a knife out of me, yeah? But it ain't no ego, I just didn't feel nothing. I didn't feel scared, I was just more angry, right? That he made them move first. And I thought, I went, no problem, sat there, we looked at each other, I thought, no problem at all. I went, calm down, yeah? All right, he sat down, he watched him knock, lick his lips, he felt good about, you know, confronted me a little bit. And I went out of the kitchen and got a knife, come back in the shirt, and then I went, listen, I'm going there, shake hands, and then I stabbed him. I did not have the power to say no to all these people years ago. Why have I got to go and help them all? When have they ever given a fuck? Some have, when I've been to prison, when have anyone else given a fuck when I'm in prison? Me, to sit on here in the interview today, and there's a lot of people who know me, me to come here and see you a day is a breath of fucking fresh air for me, do you understand me? Because I've got a great team behind me, they have a probation team, got some good people stealing my life, and I'm entitled to some happiness, at least, surely, whether I've done some, I've done a lot of bad things to people, and I'm very sorry. I drove round to see if he was dead or not, in a car. And then I went to prison on the sixth year for the stabbing, sort of to keep you out of all the violence, but then I was stabbing the sex offenders, bashing them, putting bread on the cameras in prison. I used to get bread on a stick, put him up, and the prison officers go, he's one, bad one, yeah? Down a child in a stable, advertised for a stable, a saint, girl, she got down in rapes, I couldn't live with it. But it always, all the prison used to come to me, yet again, this was a common occurrence that I thought, why don't someone else do this for a change, yeah? Because I was ruthless. I'm not just hurting a prisoner, I've got a prisoner crawling on his chest, nearly getting it, like the Balaclava one. I've got my own squat team in there. I couldn't even put all my violence into a short story because it's too much, like the egg I've had over the years, pain. Because we spoke earlier, and the man who you killed says, what was his last words? Yeah, that's powerful. Well, then things hit me like, well, I'll answer it because I'm a man, yeah, good call, yeah, because I'm not going to be a coward. I looked into my news evidence, he said, tell my wife and kids I love them, because he was dying to me. That's the first time I've felt like, fucking hell, you know?