 Hey you guys what is up? It is currently like 1045 and I'm about to go to fabric land I'm just gonna zip out real quick because I really want to get like a cool not a cool But just like a simple plain backdrop for when I shoot like fashion videos Trown halls or whatever and also just like switch up my background for sit-down videos I feel like my room is just getting old and I just want something like a little new You know I'm saying so gonna zip out the fabric land real quick and get that done Okay agenda for the day one go to fabric land to do some company work three Edit my YouTube video for fill in my YouTube tax forms. Yeah, I think that's basically the agenda today We're gonna get everything done. It's gonna be productive day if you're watching this I hope you have the most amazing day ever. I'm setting good vibes your way. This is my outfit for today I'm just wearing this tank top from Walmart sweatpants are from H&M And I just got my spring bag on and yeah, it's gonna be a good day I was scared my armpits weren't shaved, but we just shaved so we're good Okay, let's go. Okay, so we just got to Michael's and I'm gonna check here first because the fabric stores are like Really far away from my house. It's like 40 minutes to get there. Michael's is only like 15 minutes So we're gonna check Michael's first and if they don't have anything here, then we're gonna go to the fabric stores I don't even know if they sell fabric here This is just like I was just like I'm still check because it's on the way anyways And then we won't have to go as far if we do find something so we're gonna check here first Okay, we're currently in the notebook section and I'm obsessed with notebooks Like I have a weird obsession with notebooks like I just want to buy them all I love notebooks I've been obsessed with them since I was a child like there's just something about notebooks that are just so cute And they have really nice ones here Joel wants to get one I need one for private things He wants to write his dreams down because he's been having like some crazy dreams and honestly like I'm known to have crazy dreams Like my friends know this about me. I have the most crazy wildest dreams So I feel like I should keep a dream journal feel like that would be really cool to look back on because honestly Like it's so hard to remember every dream you have like it's impossible So I feel like that'll be a good idea to have a dream journal. That's really cool. Do you find one? Oh, I love that one This one is dope look at this That is so dope. Okay. I'm so happy. They have so many fabrics here. Look at this. It's a huge section I had no idea. I probably just never paid attention to it before. Okay. I really like this brown one This one is so nice. This color is just so soft I also really like this beige or this beige one of these I think maybe this one's more warm So I'm deciding between the two. Okay. Jess got hold on where my keys Just got back for Michaels. I did get fabric y'all. It's kind of the same color as my mask Kind of oh my god, it is it literally the same color as my mask. That's so funny So I got two meters of fabric. This was like 30 bucks So not bad at all and I decided on like the beige just because I feel like it's more neutral Yeah, I'm so happy I found it here Now I don't need to go any further than I can get home be more productive, which is awesome Also, I need to speed home because I need to take a shit I had my coffee. So that's definitely why and it's hitting me. So we ought to get home Okay, so you guys are also it is such a beautiful day today I'm so shocked because the weather actually called for rain and it ended up being sunny And this is it makes me so happy when this happens because it's so unexpected There's just a such a nice gift for the day. So it's so thankful for that. Okay, we out here I want to take some pictures for a thumbnail real quick So we pulled over because this is like a really nice street with the mountains in the back and the trees So we're gonna see what we can get here Okay, I just got home gonna set up the sheet because I'm going to film a sit-down video right now So I'm gonna put the sheet up I think I'm just gonna lay over my mirror because I feel like that'll be the easiest and then just put like a chair in front Wait, that looks like shit. There's like a wrinkle in it. What do I do with that? There's that line What do I do? I'm lying Hey guys, what is up? It's currently 11 o'clock and I honestly have done barely like anything yet Because I just was not feeling it this morning My period is coming in a couple of days So I think I'm just like getting like the cramps from that because sometimes I do get the cramps like before it happens Which is like the worst because it just like prolongs the process so much longer, which is so shitty But just trying to make myself feel better But I have to get some stuff done today before I go to the gym at 2 o'clock Honestly, I do not feel like going to the gym at all But I didn't go last week at all because I couldn't get an appointment because everything was like completely booked up The one appointment that I did end up getting I had to cancel because I was just too busy last week But I just really need to go and get the workout done I feel like since my period doesn't happen yet, it'll be fine to work out So hopefully also I have this really weird like a rashy thing going on on the side of my mouth I don't know what it is. I don't think it's eczema Like I have been having really bad eczema flare-ups, but I don't think it's eczema like I don't know I've just never gotten eczema like here before so it would be really weird if it was eczema I don't know what it is might be a rash I tried putting polyspor on it and it didn't do anything and I've been putting like Vaseline on it every night And it hasn't been really helping so I might go to the doctor to get that checked out because it has been getting worse It's just like aggravating. Yeah, not a pleasant morning this morning, and you know, that's okay I know I'm gonna have better days. Everyone has their ups and downs. Mentally. I mean, I'm great But it's just physically. I'm just not doing so great right now. It's just like disgusting Like look at that. I guess it's really bad. That's really bad. Oh my god I'm gonna put some polyspor on it literally right now. So sorry if it looks a little weird I would go to a clinic but the thing about the clinics now is you got to like make an appointment and it books up so fast Like if I called now, there's no way I would get an appointment because I've called like in the morning before Right when they opened and they were like already full. I'm like what it just opened So I don't even know if it's like worth going to the clinic I don't know which is it's been on my face for like a while now like a few days maybe longer Maybe like a week now, but it's just like I've been getting worse. It hasn't been getting better at all Anyways, besides all of this going on I really want to start a depop store today And that was like one of my main goals to do today was to like look through my clothing and put some stuff Up on depop because I used to have an old account. I'll show you guys It's really embarrassing actually. This was literally like what I sold So I needed to lead everything this was from like like seven years ago So I need to delete everything I'll link my depop down below because I'm gonna get it all started So it'll be down below if you guys want to buy anything from me Yeah, I really want to get my depop started today take some pictures for that So I'm gonna do that like right now because I honestly don't feel like doing anything else I'm just like not feeling good today Okay, so I just did some movement with my body And I did a little bit of a small meditation because when I'm feeling shitty physically It feels just really good sometimes to just move my body and just do some exercises That just feel good not following a video not following any instructions Just like move your body the way that you want to move it You just feel so relaxing and so freeing and then I did just a little meditation I love putting like soundscapes in the background I use this app calm and I put like a rainforest noise or waterfall or something something watery But it just helps me relax like the sounds of nature just helps me zone in and meditate very well So I just wanted to do a little bit of a daily oracle reading with you guys I don't do this actually daily But I just do this when I feel like I need to pick me up or if I feel like I'm just called to Receive a message gonna do it on camera so you guys can see like this book and how I use it So this is a message that I got today Turn the volume down on your mind so you can hear your inner voices little whisper So I feel like this is talking about like I should be meditating more because I have been slacking on Meditating lately like I haven't done it for two days now because I didn't do it on the weekend And I feel like this just goes to tell me that something is trying to communicate with me or it wants me to receive a message Because last time I was meditating I did get like a weird message like I bought this picture in my head And it was really weird because they say that when you meditate It's a good way for like that communication to come through because your mind is completely turned off Like you're just not thinking of anything like your mind is open So I feel like this is just like trying to tell me that I need to meditate more so that it can like give me that message Because I was receiving a message last time I was meditating and I totally believe that like everyone has their own like whether it be an Angel that watches over them or a spirit guy that watches over them something positive that watches over you and Guides you and helps you through meditating if you get messages I feel like it's from them like them trying to tell you something or help you out This is why I love opening this book is because I feel like it's a way for them to communicate with you It's weird because I have actually been feeling like I need to get back on meditation and do better But yeah, just doing that made me feel so much more at peace And I feel really good right now and I have the motivation now I'm just feeling so sick and down about this rash and I am feeling a lot better now So I'm gonna get that the pop content I'm gonna go through my old account and delete all the photos that I don't want to keep which is every single one of them I'm think I'm just gonna use this as a backdrop to shoot the clothing pieces So let's do that but gonna look through my closet first So in my closet I just have a bunch of tank tops that I literally don't wear anymore like this red one I haven't worn this for years even though it's like actually cute like I just haven't worn it So I feel like I can go to a better home Just like random tank tops like even this one from brownie mailville barely wear it gonna put that one on Okay, so I just put aside a whole bunch of clothing that I'm gonna put up and shoot right now There's probably gonna be more in the future, but this is just what I'm gonna start off with So I think I'm just gonna put these pair of jeans on just to like wear them with all the tops Because I don't want to really change my bottoms So I'm just gonna wear these jeans and I don't know like if this style the shirts when you put them on I don't know if I should style them like actually like put a purse on feel like I maybe should I don't know. We'll see how the photos look But I'm gonna be using just like this tripod for my phone. My phone literally doesn't even fit this tripod anymore Oh my god, no, this can't be happening today. Come on. Oh my god, it's squeezing in there. Okay. Well, hopefully that doesn't pop out My Okay, so I just finished shooting all the depop stuff and Now I just need to like figure everything out like how to use the app how to charge for shipping How would I put my payment shit in and like all that stuff? So I need to figure that out make my account all set up so I can like actually sell stuff Because I have a thrifting addiction shopping addiction and I feel like depop is a good resource to sell some stuff They're like I don't use anymore because it's just like overexcessive sometimes They would make a matcha right now because I haven't had like a coffee or anything yet and it is currently 1230 so I'm gonna make myself a matcha and then do a little bit of work I'm just gonna get one task done before I gotta go to the gym because my appointment is in an hour and a half Yeah, so I still have an hour at home So gonna make a matcha and then do something for work and then yeah, we'll see where the day takes us I am feeling like a little bit better better stomach wise. Also. I am making sure to hydrate Just a clear like keep my skin clear help my skin not be dry for my stupid eczema Okay, so I just did the work that I need to get done it's currently 130 So my appointment is in half an hour, so I need to go get like right after a finished segment I'm gonna go get dressed for the gym and leave but I you know like this like thing on the side of my mouth That's happening. I think I self just self-diagnosed myself, and I think I have angular Chiliditis, I don't know what's like in brackets AC and it says that it's like an inflammation or Like cuts on the side of your mouth and that is exactly what is happening to me And I'm looking at pictures and it does look very very similar It's that's probably exactly what I have and it said that you can get it if you're low on iron And if you're low on be one or if you dehydrated and I haven't been drinking enough water lately, so there's that I think I'm low on iron. I've never got gotten tested for it But I don't know I just like have a feeling that I'm very low on iron So I'm gonna order iron some supplements right now. I'm gonna get that I'm gonna make sure to hydrate myself a lot and hopefully this clears up Um, I don't know if I should still go to the doctor to get cream It says like just wait it out get more iron in you get more hydrated and like put Vaseline And it should eventually go away. So maybe I will wait a few more days before going to the doctor So I know that the cream is just like a quick fix like I know once I put the cream on it's gonna be on like the next day So I know that it's gonna be like easy to get that so I might just wait it out a bit Even though it's like really ugly and annoying. So yeah, I think I literally just diagnosed myself angular. She'll I did angular She'll I yeah angular. She'll I this that's what it is AC I'm literally going on Amazon right as we speak and I'm gonna order this iron supplement Just got back from the gym gonna make myself a protein shake got the vegan protein powder put in a scoop of her Her when I make my protein shakes, I literally just When I make it protein shakes, I just put protein powder and then I put oat milk and maple syrup But maybe I'll put a banana in it today. I feel like that will be really good. So let's try that You literally always have bananas at my house like frozen bananas because we always make like snowy's and stuff Oh, maybe I should put spin it. Oh Let's make a spin. It's really that will be really good actually Put some spinach we literally never buy these tiny containers because I don't last very long But I don't know Being vegan inspired I have any meat for like two weeks now I think maybe even longer and I feel great I don't feel any different to be completely honest of anything. I just feel lighter I know like I need to make sure that I'm getting like all my nutrients in because I know Meat has a lot of iron and I don't know what else but it has a lot of like nutrients So I know I gotta like eat a lot of vegetables and stuff to get those like nutrients Obviously, it's more healthy to get the nutrients from the vegetable than it is to get nutrients from meat But I know meat has a lot of iron therefore I should like need to be getting my iron in so I'm glad that I ordered those Pilfings, okay, so I just put a little bit of milk and then I put the rest water just because if I put too much milk Then it becomes too thick because of your protein powder. So that's what we're gonna do I'm gonna blend her up I didn't put any maple syrup in this to sweeten it because of the banana. So it should be good It's actually really good. I'm just gonna put it in the Starbucks cup to make me feel a little bit more bougie drinking it It's all in the head you guys. There you go We got our nice Starbucks smoothie. Just went to Starbucks got a smoothie a green smoothie healthy me So great, I wish it was like a place near my gym that I can get like protein shakes afterwards But there really is no place also that would be kind of dangerous because I would go every single time So maybe it's good that there's nothing there, but okay I'm just gonna drink this and then take a shower and then get back to work. Okay, so here. I was making a vegetable salad I just cut up cucumbers Onions and then I cut up an avocado as well And then I put that all in a bowl and put some olive oil on it some salt some garlic powder And then some red wine vinegar and mix it all together and it is so good Hello you guys, sorry about the lighting. I know it's really bad, but it is 9 30 And I'm going to now just set aside some time to do some reading as you guys probably saw This was like the book I was reading and I should have been done it already But this is a really slow read because there's just so much Information in it that it's like you can't really read too much at once or else like it's just too much Like I feel like I need to read like a few chapters or a few pages and then like reflect on the information For that day or a few days afterwards and really just process it because I feel like if I read it too fast And I wouldn't like absorb the information as well So I'm kind of just like using it as a textbook going through it reading like a chapter And then what I actually had the idea of doing is taking notes on Like what I've learned through the chapter so that I can just like look back on the notes if I need or just to like journal about What like just reflect on what the book says and everything But yeah, this is the book that I'm reading and it's actually very good. So insightful and it's just super cool So I'm actually really excited to finish it and I just want to like know everything that's in the book But I know that it's best to take it slow. So that's what I'm doing. Also. I just got my period I knew it was coming. I knew it was coming. I knew this morning. I was how it was feeling like shit for a reason I knew it. I can just literally when my period is coming I can just tell like usually my period is like really on track and never really early I'm barely ever late like it's really rare for me to be off off track That's why I was just like confused about this morning and I'm like why am I getting these crabs now? But it all makes sense now because my period came early. So that's why I was feeling like absolute shit in the morning Anyways, I'm going to read like a chapter. I think I'm just gonna do one chapter today or maybe actually that's pretty short I'm gonna do two chapters and write some notes on it as I go. I still need to like brush my teeth and everything So I'm gonna do that afterwards Alrighty guys, so I'm going to get ready for bed now as you can see I'm like breaking out in my semo right now So that's great. I'm gonna apply all my vasolines and allotions and all of that So hopefully sooth my skin. But yeah, I'm going to head to bed now My depop will be in the description because I'll have finished it by the time this video goes up So go check it out. Yeah, honestly I would encourage you guys before you go to bed to do something other than go on your phone Try reading try journaling try just anything but going on your phone because I feel like it could be so toxic Try something different and see how that makes you feel like you'll fall asleep faster I don't know just try it out because it honestly just like puts me in like the most relaxed state before I go to bed So thank you guys for watching. I love you guys so much and I'll see you guys in my next video I'm sending you guys positive vibrations positive love and overall happiness. I hope you guys are soaking this energy in right now You do you do whatever makes you happy Peace out