 I'm not going to say that we know you live right, you eat right, you get exercise. We know you really live a very healthy lifestyle, but he said that accidents do happen. And my biological father just shook his head and said that he doesn't even believe in accidents. And I said, I don't think it's a random universe. Who would want to live in a random universe? And so I got into that state where I started to realize that with my thinking, my judgmental thinking, that it was unhealthy and that when I got into this Divine Providence, I was able to start to give up health insurance, didn't have to worry about eating the right foods anymore, hit the black. And I was going to tennis instructor, cardiovascular fitness. I didn't even have to exercise. I believed years ago that the body would effort me if you didn't exercise. That's a belief too. When that's going wrong with me, I don't even imagine that. You see my dad had all this guilt about, I'm not eating the right foods and not exercising enough, I'm too fat and too skinny. And that's what the human has to do to try to keep you guilty. Caught up into all these meaningless little things that really don't matter in the overall context of things. And God wants you to be happy. That's it. God has some kind of a plan where you have to attain some great thing. He just wants you to be happy in the present moment. That's all God wants. And once I realized that God will for me, then I said, that's good news. I'm going for that one. I liked his happiness idea. So the answer to your question was, I mean, it is an inner job. And I put my heart and soul and everything into this purification in my mind. Because I knew that that was what was necessary. And I was also able to pull my energy away from the wild goose chase of running around in the world. Trying to keep up with the Joneses and, you know, I let go of self-improvement. But God told me I was perfect just the way I was right now. So I let go of even the concept of self-improvement or becoming a spiritual person, or becoming enlightened or becoming whatever. That's all still futurally added. And really right now is... The Kingdom of Heaven is right now. The Kingdom of Heaven is within. You don't need to look to a person or place a thing. Because as they say in the matrix, you are the one. It's goodness. That's a good question. As you're approaching the period of enlightenment, those are all wonderful things to do. And I would recommend that it's really a training or discipline of your mind. That's what meditation is. Tai Chi. Even diet disciplines, exercise disciplines, whatever, meditation practices, those are all extremely valuable. And it's helping your mind learn to commit to that peace of mind. Those are really important steps. I have to say to myself that once you kind of surrender and you let go of the ego, then the practice is gone. I mean, you're just in it and it's very natural. And it's like each of them says you play without ceasing. You know, it's like before, prayer is really important. And the meditation is really important. But there were still tools that I was using to reach a future goal. And when I finally realized that it wasn't in the future, it was now, then all those things fell away too. Very naturally. So in the court, these people say that you really have to be rooted on your purpose. So you might say that that's really all that I do is I stay real rooted on my purpose. Which is just to extend the love and joy. And I'm completely undercatched to outcomes. I never know if I show up, if anybody is going to even be there, I really don't care. There's a whole lot already. I'm not into numbers. Typically, when I do gathering, people are concerned about getting enough people out there. And you know, also, I say, oh, forget about it. You know, it's like, like they say to the Italians, ah, forget about it. Forget about it, you know. If like, why get concerned about numbers, I'm happy to be where I seem to be. And I'm very content. That's an interesting question. It's like staying rooted on your purpose and really waking up in the morning and having that out front and holding it out front like a torch. Then you're set. Any other questions? Since it is the wine center, and everyone always has relationship issues at some point. And it seems to me that the ultimate holy relationship is that we all return to wine and return to God. There is no idea of separation. Can you just expand a little bit on what we talked about this morning about the ego's idea of falling in love and out of love and the ego's perception of what love is and what the Holy Spirit's perception of what love is and what one really is. But I have a question on relationships. In this world, relationships are mirrors. You should always be grateful for all your brothers and sisters around you because they're simply reflecting what you still are holding in your consciousness. And that's their hope unconsciously. You have no other way really to get in touch with them, except when you see somebody and you're ready to jump on and scream at them. You've got to include that you've got something still in your consciousness that is less than truthful. And so in order to come to the oneness, you really start to realize that oneness is an interaction or a line with your source. And when you're aligned with your source, you are automatically aligned with everyone. With everyone and everything. So, not bringing relationships because around the traditional spiritual past, we're off to the Himalayas and get away from people. Just meditate. My path was, I had people around me a lot and I did it in my armadillos experiences, but I learned to use the relationships to get in touch with my own inner bodywork. Never to blame them, never to speak to them, never to point a finger and say that they're the problem. When all these weird things are saying, every while when, all I hope is there's one thing, it's your own lesson, it's your own lesson, it's your own lesson. I've heard that over and over and over so even though when I was tempted to say, what? But what about the spirit of the Holy Gem we say? It's your own lesson. Someone can try to change it out there. So, I think it's great to be able to use relationships to come to this clearing of the line. And we've talked a lot about that. In fact, a lot of my tapes and CDs and writings are about relationships and coming to holy relationships might even let go of special relationships and grievances and judgments. And I'm going to appreciate and love everyone. In fact, I don't know if we have, I don't know if there's a minute, but this is the room until we hit in there. I've got a song called, Now That We All Are One. I said this for one minute, Heather. I like to try to play that so we all can hear it. And just close your eyes and relax and the song has a lot of great lines in it. But one of the lines in the song is, let us toss away the thoughts of many years. You know, it can seem like a very heavy thought, to think how many years is it going to take before we experience this abundance. And what this song is saying is, we're one right now. It's okay to give your mind a toss away the thoughts of many years. Just go in and feel your oneness, feel your love and your joy and your happiness right now. Because in the boom box, this is the difference.