 back to another video if you're new here my name is Cara do not forget to like comment and subscribe y'all been asking me what's been going on with me girl and what's been going on with my life how's living in Atlanta all that jazz so we're gonna get into a girl little girl chat so if you want to hear what I talk about just keep on watching okay girl before we get started into this video I'm gonna give a huge shout out to JBW for sponsoring this video and I have on the Kristal 28 watch yo hey girl so this is the Kristal 28 watch I love this watch because I love the square face I love that it's iced out all around like a icy bracelet and this watch does come in three different colors silver rose gold and gold so JBW watches are my favorite because they have real genuine diamonds in their watches and this one in particular has 12 real ones and and it's surrounded by a thousand Serbosky crystals so yes girl you're gonna get that icy look that you want looking like a girl boss a girl that's on her money ish okay every time I put on this watch it just makes me feel like such a boss it elevates my outfit every single time it just makes me look more expensive more luxurious and I just love the feeling that I get when I wear this watch you won't be disappointed in this watch it's such a good investment piece it's timeless classy and girl to top it off the quality is amazing I've been having this watch for a while now and it has held up so so so so good it's still looking so shiny I love that it never looks cloudy or dull and also the watch will come in a cute little storage box mines is custom but it does come in like a good storage box where you can store your watch where you can just you know store it and you know it won't get dusty or anything like that so that's what I love about JBW's packaging so you'll be able to get your own timeless piece all you need to do is click the link in the description box and you can use my code CaraOJBW to save some money off hey girl what's popping I already did an intro I already know so anyways we're just gonna get started into this video this little life update because I haven't really sat down and really talked to y'all since some things have happened and I've been going through it I've been really trying to be my mental health together and I'm I think I'm back I think so but anyways so I'm just gonna do my makeup and talk um I asked y'all to ask me some questions on what you would like to know as far as like um like any life updates or anything like that so I wrote down everything here that y'all asked me to talk about so we're just gonna get right into it I already primed my face and my eyebrows and so let me I actually am starting to do my eye shadow first so that's what I'm about to do but anyways we're just gonna hide right into it okay so I'm gonna talk about living in Atlanta like what are the pros and cons how do I like it is it everything that I thought it would be yada yada yada that thing girl okay so the pros is out here in Atlanta you can really make a lot of money like you can really just come here and you know get to the money for real you if you and not even actually working like an office job you can go be a bottle girl they make so much money you can sell clothes like go anywhere and just hustle your ass off to get to the money out here and that's what I really like it's so much money out here that'll definitely motivate you to stay on your shit and just you know stay on it and I like to that's what I like to surround myself around like being around people that you know send to the money so around here it's really a lot of cap shape like it's really sad like it's really a lot of cap shape out here like people just feel like you gotta have jewelry you gotta have a g-wag you gotta go get your teeth done you gotta look like this you gotta get your boobs you gotta get your body done which I got my body done of course which I personally wanted for myself but people act like you gotta have all this stuff to be lit like no you don't you talking about like I don't even have half of that stuff I don't even have no car y'all asking me like oh my god why do you don't have a car like blah blah baby I don't have no rush to go get a car first of all it's a lot of people out here stealing cars breaking its cars it's the crime rate on cars and stuff is very very high out here in Atlanta but also I'm still in the process of trying to do the car thing as like an entrepreneur and having it in my business name and stuff like that so that's why it's really taking a while because girl I don't even have my shit rolling around here on these streets that's really what it is out here though like people are so weird like you're being weird to me like this is the very very cap and like I don't know it's it's weird but I don't care because I'm not my own person at the end of the day I don't care what anybody has to say about me or think about me that's probably why I in the beginning when I first first came I think I had like a little talk with myself like girl you need to relax like I was like going everywhere girl I was missing out on doing my work I had like a little pep talk on my youtube channel what did I say to myself I said girl you need to relax you need to calm down you do not need to be everywhere every weekend like so and that happened in like the end of February I don't want to be in a scene no more like I'm good like I just need to focus on work so that all happened and then I just got too comfortable on like not being social I guess you can say I was mean I am very much comfortable being in a house girl and that's bad I literally would rather travel like now I live here in Atlanta I'm like I'm gonna go somewhere like I just really got comfortable with being in a house like in my own bubble and stuff like that and that brings me to like people were asking me like is it easy to make friends out here blah blah blah blah y'all I really just stick to my select a few people like making friends is cool and all but of course I meet my subscribers and then be like oh my god like I want to kick it like we should have a drink blah blah which there's nothing wrong with that but you just really never know what's people really intentions for real I don't know if people just want to be around me then all my business and stuff like that which of course I love my subscribers don't get me wrong but sometimes you really do have to watch yourself like I can't be too nice you know what I'm saying and then also of course I get invited to like all the Instagram hype shit like and then I already said this before like I'm good on that like I'm good with the cat and all that like people just want to go to these events just to say they mean like I don't give a fuck like I don't care like I don't care to go I'm not um trying to be in the scene like you know what I mean I want to be known for myself I don't want to be known because I kick it with somebody or you know trying to be a clout chaser because that's definitely not me like I don't need nobody's cloud I got my own cloud I'm trying to grow my own like name for myself I don't I don't need that so but I definitely got comfortable oh shit I definitely got being got comfortable being in the house not wanting to go anywhere and stuff like that which um I don't mind because I save money so I buy chanels and stuff like that but but no I love going out with my girls having a little drink hookah and stuff like that every once in a while because definitely needed but I do want to just travel more and like serve looks and I think I said this um in my vlog the other day literally I was like I need to start popping my shit like I need to start popping my shit like I need to start being out here and what I mean by popping my ish is like just basically doing more trying new things and letting y'all know as an influencer I guess um on new things because I want people to be able to come to my page and be like oh my god what is she talking about right now I want to know but she always got you know she always knows like the tea and stuff like that that's what I mean I want to start doing more little fun like cute shoes like you know the little editorial looks I really like doing that and I kind of want to get more into that like y'all know I'm really good friends with royal he's the really good photographer and he's like all right you need to you need to get on this like we need to do a shoe blah blah he really does push me and I really am break from him he like how you need to get on your ish because I want you to be you know the top the top of the top and I'm trying to be top of the top myself so yeah so I just want to get more into popping my shit out here but these last few weeks I really been trying to get my mental health together because you know something did happen on here which I'm not going to say but something that did happen in one of my blogs and we really don't need to mention it because that's in the past but like I said stuff needs to really happen to me so I can grow from it and you know learn from my mistakes you know I always say this all the time girls are women but it's true like everybody is growing every single day because something did happen after that I was just like damn like damn like damn I was really like damn like should I even do YouTube anymore like what the fuck it really messed with me I'm not gonna lie to y'all and I'm just like I need to have a little reset because I just feel discouraged right now and some people look at me as like oh my god I'm unique you have so much growth you made out of Milwaukee blah blah blah blah but I just feel like I'm not where I really want to be yet so I don't really see myself as like a top girl I feel like I'm very much average um but I want to get to that level of me being on that level and being fulfilled because I feel like I'm not really fulfilled right now so I really want to start feeling like that so I need to do what I need to do so I can feel fulfilled we're just doing our brown smoky eye you already know the routine but yeah with that being said I am looking to therapy and I am looking into getting like a mental health coach therapist at first no no cap I was like uh a therapist like there's nothing wrong with me like what are you talking about like I don't want to go to therapy like I feel like mental or like I feel like if you go to therapy something's really wrong with you like you want to commit suicide and stuff like that but I don't feel like that so I'm like why do I want to go to therapy but me and my mom had been talking she's like you need to go to therapy I'm gonna look for you a mental health coach blah blah blah because she knows how much YouTube can mess up my mental health especially like with the negative comments and like stuff that may happen I was still discouraged and I just want to know I just want to take care of my mental health basically is what I'm saying I want to feel like nobody can you can say whatever you want to I don't care I should be able to be like okay okay are you done are you done one little comment just irritates me like I'm just like what the fuck like it irritates me but I I'm learning to be like okay okay like anyway that's one person and I really just I really just broke my thing what the fuck what's I trying to do cry did not mental health together because it's very important for me to give my man have my mental health together because if my mental health is not here then I cannot deliver videos like I cannot deliver what y'all want me to deliver like I cannot like right now I'm very much comfortable I can pay my bills I can buy whatever I want but like I said if I'm not fulfilled and my mental health is not in the right state of mind none of that matters none of that matters none of it so I really need to get it together but we we're getting it together we're getting it together okay this youtuber life is not for that week sweetie okay it's not for the week oh my god y'all my camera stopped filming so hopefully I didn't not miss that that's the update on my mental and living in Atlanta we're getting it together sweetie plory I even was big on youtube or whatever girl you couldn't tell me nothing like I don't care I was I was that girl like you cannot tell me but I don't know why every comment or something so negative really gets me down and I hate that like I really hate it so for asking me what's next for you listen I'm ready to get a new bag and I'm not talking about another Chanel okay I'm ready to get a new bag because well it's time it's time for me to get my own something my own something something very much yeah I was trying to find something to talk about sorry y'all I'm hyped off this coffee but yeah I'm ready to get my own something you want to create something y'all are gonna be able to enjoy in your own homes and I made it okay I really just want to do something that really makes me happy I already know what I want to do I just gotta do it I just need the resources basically I'm trying two things two things that I have in mind um so yeah um I can't wait I'm excited because I want y'all to enjoy what I enjoy and I I feel like I know what babies just want okay I feel like I know what the girls want okay and I want whatever I decide to invest my money in as far as my own brand and business or whatever I just want people to love it like I want to award for my shade and uh and speaking of award y'all I'm nominated for the awards let me show y'all let me show y'all like my little invitation the American influence so awards bitch invitation nominee you hear she said you are one of the nominees oh my god like I did okay girl it's okay it's okay you can stop she's still talking to y'all I can't even believe I'm nominated for the American influence or awards thank y'all so much I'm going to start this video off I did thank y'all in a vlog but I just didn't use the footage because it was just like I was forcing myself to vlog and I was just so like not any like it was half after after it was after all that stuff happened blah blah blah so I'm like uh no but that was a very good news that lifted my spirits and it's just crazy to me like I always used to see like Nikita Dragon winning an award like Bretman Rock and stuff like that I would never in a million years and I swear to God I used to always see people getting ready for the American influence or awards going to it um and this was before all of this and I was when they when they contacted me y'all I was like oh my like no way like because I thought no cap like I thought I had to be like obviously a woman of color I felt like as a woman of color I felt like I needed like millions of followers like Jackie Anastas is of course and I felt like I had to be like a girl with millions of followers and stuff and I'm only at 280 something damn they're almost at 300k like I have nothing close to a million so I never thought that I would be nominated for this I'm like what's how how like how and I just felt like I had to act a certain way because y'all know I've been cut up on youtube I've been cut up and um yeah I thought I had to act a certain way and be like a certain way so I just really want to thank my girls for you know always supporting me that I'm very much grateful for y'all I'm very much grateful y'all support for me never goes unnoticed never like never I just want to give to y'all all the time like I'm always trying to plan a giveaway or just doing like random stuff on my Instagram so make sure you follow me if you're not already follow me on Instagram I'll be giving my free Starbucks girl when they ain't running up the the tab but yeah I'm very much grateful for my supporters I really do look at y'all as like my real homegirls and stuff like that I can talk to y'all in the end like y'all you hate and then y'all be talking to me in my comments we be laughing like I literally pay attention to every single person every single person clearly I need to stop paying attention to the negative ones I really just appreciate y'all so freaking much like freaking I appreciate y'all so freaking much you can picture today and I'm gonna dinner I'm so excited I'm ready to get back on my Instagram wave so that's what we're doing today we're gonna cute so make sure you all like my picture because we finna turn it up I'm not sure go like my picture you just always want to do something Karisha I love Karisha so um what did I say in the beginning I had a big so y'all you may know I've been in the gym if you follow me on Instagram and stuff like that or been following me you know I've been in the gym girl working hard um and I still have scar tissue like in my lower abdomen from my previous surgery and girl I'm sorry but and girl it's really bothering me so and my I already been one of this even before I started going to the gym and stuff like that I wanted um a j plasma and j plasma is just like a skin tightening um treatment because sometimes after life oh you can have loose skin and um yeah girl I have loose skin and I don't like it so I am looking into doing j plasma hopefully um next month because and I hope and I'm gonna go to I'm going to a whole different doctor girl and I'm gonna go to my doctor and I'm gonna just because I haven't had my consultation yet or whatever and um I am just gonna tell him like hey I still have like scar tissue in my abdomen because it gets hard y'all and I hate it I hate it so much and I'm gonna be like is that gonna help you going in there with the liposuction is that gonna break up the scar tissue and like make it more flatter and stuff like that so I'm looking into getting j plasma before the holiday season so yeah I'm wanting to get that done for the longest but hold on you know what my beauty one there so yeah that's my next surgery that I want to get done so and I don't care who has anything to say about it cuz um girl I just don't like the loose skin I don't like that it also I feel like this scar tissue for my previous surgery is just not cute so and I don't like it but yeah y'all like I was saying before I really cannot wait to start um I really cannot wait to start creating my own brand I'm super super super excited on what I want to do because it's just something that I love of course and I just cannot wait to share with the world I can't wait to share with y'all it's just gonna make me so happy that y'all are gonna hopefully I'm praying you are you are because I'm in manifesto that you're gonna enjoy what I create and yeah and also I do want to invest my money into other things as well um because I just feel like multiple sources of income is what I really want to because at the end of the day I just feel like having one income is just isn't enough I really want to be a boss ass bitch I want to be that bitch like don't play with me like I want to be that girl so and it feels so good to be able to you know do whatever I'll do whatever I want without anybody I want to be able to retire my mama I want to be able to buy my mama my home whatever she want I want to be able to take care of her with oh that's what I meant to say that um it just feels so good to be so independent I am very much independent I can do whatever I want I don't like depending on people for anything and I can't like living out here alone I have to depend on myself I have to keep you know going hard like I don't really have a lot of people out here I can really call and be like hey but but that's one thing I miss about home because I used to be able to always call my sister she would do anything for me that's why she'll she can get it whatever she wants out of me because she would be my go-to like that's my girl my ride or die I could always come to my sister to help me come through she she was the one to take all my pictures on the weekend like no matter how much she uh didn't want so I'd be like here I didn't say my picture for Instagram come on and then I would take her out to eat that would be like our thing so so yeah that's one bad thing about living out here too but but then again it does help me you know keep pushing and keep you know going towards my goals so I can you know depend on myself so I can do whatever I need do whatever I want you know without having to ask anybody for anything but yeah girl I'm just on the way to elevate myself I just want to be the best I just want to be the best version of myself okay so somebody added they were like so whenever you want to get to like the old content and y'all I was really like no cap like when I was playing on my videos and stuff like that um I was saying to myself like wow y'all remember how like it would be so many like trending videos like going to the worst makeup artist doing that it was one when like you spent the night in like a toys or us overnight and stuff like that those kind of videos did stupid dumb numbers I remember everybody was just trying to create like the trend and right now that's not even a trend right now the trend right now are blogs and people are like oh my god when are we gonna get other content blah blah and of course y'all love vlogs I love making vlogs for y'all but I really just want to focus on other content um because I really want to do more of like I just want to give y'all more of me and stuff that I like and I want to share with y'all stuff too that I like to create um of course I'm going to always do vlogs or whatever but I definitely want to start stepping out of my comfort zone and just try to you know make a video from like my past sometimes but some of those videos that I made from my past when I was like on the up and coming those videos are like I don't want to say like childish and I like grew out of that um because everybody has to elevate y'all like I don't understand when people be like oh my god I missed the old you blah blah blah I miss when you were there off of bottomist blah blah blah like y'all do you not understand how miserable I was being off of bottomist how miserable I was being back in Wisconsin I'm so fucking happy that you know y'all are here supporting me so I can do what I want to do and you know have a career and make my own brand and stuff like that y'all want me to be a full bottomist do y'all know how repetitive and just like I hated it like I was so miserable like I did not want to go to work and it was just of course I love helping people don't get me wrong because I didn't want to be a nurse but like you know people it's just like how people go to college and change their major over and over like that is kind of like kind of what it is like of course I want to be a nurse at first but then it's like okay let me let me dabble into social media a little bit and see what it can become and I just like being on social media I like taking pictures and stuff I like to share recommendations to y'all I like trying new things so y'all can watch me do it like I don't know like like everybody has to elevate and yeah like I kind of like I grew the old content but it's one video in particular that used to be a trend that I really want to redo because I love getting what this is the video is about um I like to take a major consideration on what it is I like it's hard for me to describe without giving y'all the full like video because I don't want nobody taking it because I've tried to do it and I feel like it's gonna do really good so no it is gonna do good okay I gotta hurry up because I have dinner reservations y'all and I'm trying to take a picture before a lot of people are asking me do I see myself living in Atlanta for forever um y'all to be honest I really don't I want to move like I'm probably gonna move within like three years or something I don't know or maybe get another house somewhere else I I don't know yet though because I feel like I'm not using Atlanta it's fullest potential so I feel like probably once because you know I really in the beginning I was just partying then I had that little break I'm like going outside and then I like go outside sometimes don't get me wrong but I just feel like I'm not using what I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing here so that's probably like I don't know taking a toll on like my decision but like I said y'all it's a lot of cat out here and I just don't want to be surrounded by that like it's just disgusting like I came across a whole bunch of people that didn't want to fuck with somebody because they don't have a large following like how the what's like why like why like I would never I would never uh-uh and then people just be acting like they obligated just because they got a following like you're not obligated and you need to relax you need to that's that attitude is disgusting like no the followers don't mean anything like nothing like I'm not even pressed to have a large following as long as the people that actually follow me pay attention to me and are engaged with me I'm good like I'm good with my girls like if they are y'all are engaged y'all selling things the fuck out y'all fuck with me y'all trust everything I'm saying that's like that's what means the most to me a follower account does not mean anything to me like at all like I would never treat anybody different because of their following or anything like that now yeah I'm ready to get into my leg I'm ready it's time it's time to apply a lot of pressure a lot of pressure a lot oh my face looks so good okay girls so I just finished my makeup and I put on my outfit I got this woolford it's supposed to be a skirt but I'm wearing it as a dress tonight I got these cute hoop earrings in and my JPW watch and I'm gonna put a blazer on it's so cute I'm going for this the Kim K Kylie Jenner vibe this is my first time ever wearing like a blazer look and I'm pretty excited about it and then I'm gonna top off the look with this Tom Ford lost cherry I haven't worn this in a minute and y'all this is my favorite it smells so good y'all I lost my ebony woods y'all sold it out at the Linux mall and I don't know if it's at the perimeter but I need to go find out cuz I need to re-up on that because that's one of my favorite fragrances right now but anyways y'all wait let me put the blazer on oh my god it's so cute but anyways y'all that wraps up this video I hope you guys enjoy it I hope this life update and like y'all on what's been going on in my life but I'm ready to turn it up and elevate and become that girl okay so anyways y'all I love y'all so so so much and I'll see you on next video bye