 Yeah, Eric's leading in with the song or more Yeah, we could just kind of meditate and Eric maybe you can ease us into this. Yeah great morning experience. Yeah We'll have three you have two now one is over there Vocals in my monitor And there's supposed to be something is there one down there you said Eric there's one down here, okay So we can kind of move this one around and move this. There's one down there for questions. Yeah, it's beautiful and then Sarah still here you want to Do something she was ready to do something a few minutes ago, and then Cain keeping with the non personal intimacy I'm just going to use first names We've got Helena Jackie Kirsten I Beautiful Suzanne the beautiful Lisa the wonderful David the exciting Francis Don't know where they're coming from the intrepid Jason The joyful Jenny in the beloved Nikita and Then the empty space for returning. Thank you, Sarah the devoted Sarah Yeah, thank you. Wow. Well, it's fun. We haven't ever done this So it's kind of fun for us. It's always the first everything's brand new and Yeah, we're really big into transparency So a lot of what this is about is just having us come up is just to Be fully available. I know we're just having a ball meeting you in all these holy encounters, you know throughout the week But but it's actually good Sometimes there's curiosity and Questioning and it just is I think it all serves the awakening because if there are no private thoughts if if there's just love and Everything else is grist for the mill so to speak Letting everything just go to love and light then that's been a core of what we've been all about And when I was coming down here today, I was just thinking Yeah, just witnesses of devotion because Nothing really form matters at all, but the but the love and the devotion and That that's single-mindedness Is is precious it doesn't have anything to do with time. It's not like how many years have you done this or? Basically a state of mind of what is in the present moment is not an achievement even it's it doesn't even fit on the timeline You know, there's a part in the workbook where Jesus is talking about this glorious state of mind And he said and you attained it not through learning Isn't that interesting coming from the author of a book? that's called a course with a text and a And a workbook and a teacher's manual and then he's talks about this glorious state of mind and he said and you attained it Not through learning It's grace, you know, nobody's achieving anything. Nobody works that enlightenment and eventually gets there There are no enlightened people Buddha wasn't enlightened Jesus wasn't enlightened people masks don't get enlightened it's just one state of mind behind all these different faces and people and That's probably in the end that can turn to be your biggest block of going for personal enlightenment You know and this whole deal of enlightened teachers and all this baloney, you know Eventually you start to see it comes down to an experience That is so glorious that it comes from a source, but it doesn't have a Source in the world so to speak. There's no form That is it and We've been talking a lot this week Lisa's been sharing about no thing this we were talking in the hot tub this morning about the Atmos family, did anyone ever see the Atmos family and We were in the hot tub and I said remember thing Just think wasn't that a great character on a sitcom thing and then there was it Was it isn't that fun to have characters named thing and it You know because it really fits with what we're talking about, you know that it's it's so far beyond the personal And yet while you believe in the personal and you're opening your heart to this vast love The words and the symbols can reach your heart in helpful ways, and that's really why We seem to be sitting up here is because This is for the glory of God. There aren't really any personal questions. There aren't hard questions and easy questions. There aren't Clever questions, there's there's really Nothing but just beautiful pure simplicity That's always just what is the truth is simple the present moment is simple and And it's really an honor To be with all of you these characters that are sitting near me and the characters that are there and the characters that Write books and get on the cover of Time Magazine or seem to be famous or infamous Like Hitler and Mussolini. It's really we're not going to find anything in the characters. They're just symbols Symbols that the spirit can use to lift us into this experience of oneness and in a course of miracles it talks about specialness and None of these characters here and none of these characters in the world or even the alien characters That in seem to be in other realms none of them are special There you're not going to find anything special in in a person You know, you you can only find Imagination in Persons you can only find They're just symbols, but the symbols are representation. So you will never have an experience of finding Something real in symbols because symbols are rep Presentations they are not actualities and so that's what I love about it and It's actually been fun living with this group. I mean, I kind of am all over the world So I see this group every once in a while or pretty rarely actually You can hardly you can't even call it a group. It's just a poor word for this. They're all over the planet and And yet there's a deep love and devotion And an honor. It's actually an honor Presence feels honoring Presence feels deep presence feels reverent to me presence is is what devotion is all about that's to me everything everything is in presence and no thing You could say it that way no thing this or everything this we've been talking about it that really is an honoring feeling So actually, I think that's that's one of the things that that all of us could easily talk about is this honoring feeling like it is an honor and We're not talking about a group of people but just the experience we have with all of you and all of the Thousands and tens of thousands of people that we've actually met all over the planet. It's honor. I Was singing the other day to my friend Christian a friends a friend forever If the Lord's the Lord of them and a friend will not say never because the welcome will not end That's what I was feeling this honoring like wow we are living in this honoring presence So I thought today First of all, I would just open it up with everybody here. It's a little choppy here. I'm jamming it in I'm putting that thing in as tight as it goes No, wait a minute. I think it's working. It was just twiggling around here I'm making sure it's stuffed in there really good I don't want you to miss a fraction of a second of this It's in there. I'm jamming it and then they're good. So I thought what I would do is just kind of Yeah, let let it come up spontaneously if anyone Here wants to share just about about your life about Whatever the spirit puts on your heart to share with all these beautiful beloved ones and And that's really what we'll do. We'll just we're just gonna share from our heart and then You know how it is with relationships and some of you might have even lived in little communities small communities You know what happens? The shit hits the fan Whether it's relationships or seems to multiply a bit when you get a group you get a group this size It's not really a group, but you know what I mean. It's we've had some shit hit the fan Over the years. I don't even remember how many years. It's been people say we go on gatherings Lisa and I were down in Arizona Sedona and somebody said when did you meet and how long have you known each other? And we just get these blank looks like We're like but that's the thing with this group people if people ask me historical questions like when did you meet? When did you meet everybody's got their their memories of things and some of our memories are going pretty fast? I think this group is on a scale of one to ten of spiritual dementia or spiritual Alzheimer's where we're kind of hitting the ringing the bell a lot Which is quite fun. We actually have a lot of laughter because we can't recall things Functions that we used to be really good at start to leave We're getting quite dysfunctional actually They say oh, I came from a dysfunctional family and I say oh, I'm going into a varied dysfunctional I think my my family seemed more functional in the world This is really dysfunctional and the more you get to know us, you know And they say do you have any like like themes or anthems real reverent themes to remind you? No, I think of the monkey song though. Hey, hey, we're the monkeys people say we monkey around We're too busy living to put anybody down. We don't we really don't put people down. We we've got enough Shit hitting the fan to deal with Nobody else. We're not putting anybody else in the world down. It's tough enough dealing with it Sometimes it doesn't stop I was trying to give her the mic, but it's no not yet So anyway, that's all I'm gonna say for now, but I oh anybody who would like to share from their heart just Whatever's on your heart are just about this life of devotion. Yeah, I just feel so honored um Yeah, and it's not about any form it's about an experience It's about, you know that God is real and love is real and this commitment That I know that we all came together for was to actually experience We trust a God wasn't trusting people it was trusting God and walking through tons of fear and doubts and unworthiness and shame and Not really knowing what we were getting into when That's not true Where the hell did you come from? Well, no, but I actually remember this is the God's truth I was studying a course and I was just having all these miracles and I was so in love with God and I was so Just all these miracles were happening and I just kept praying. I Had a godroom in my house and I just kept praying for a mighty companion to show up And I mean actually it was probably my last prayer so deeply Was I was saying God I want a mighty companion. I can't do this. I need a mighty companion and Look who showed up. I mean literally I thought he was a schizophrenic When when I met David no one else was around and so I'm like, you know, you know Are you for real? and Yeah, just this intense love This love that I've never experienced before and it actually wasn't sexual at all Sexual nature at all but just this love of God that I yeah Yeah, just I feel very speechless because there's been so much for me And I feel like for me just sitting here right now really isn't about David Really isn't about any of this. It's about my trust in God and that You know, all I ever ever wanted to know was that I wasn't separate from God That I was one with God And I now feel that Completely I am sitting here in an actual Realization of that. I'm not just speaking about it. I'm not just talking words I mean I am now I got exactly what I came for I got God honored my promise and my devotion to let go and to forgive And to continually join and to trust and I know I got exactly what I wanted and I'm happy and I feel I Anything I know I'm one with God now and I got everything and there's nothing else that to experience And and it's the happiest experience because I'm no longer afraid I'm no longer alone and separate and and So I say thank you to To every one of us. This is what we came together for For the holy relationship to actually not just talk about it, but to also Heal the specialness we've healed a lot of specialness It wasn't just all of us coming in knowing what we were doing because actually I know now I know absolutely nothing what I'm doing for real And that is my safety And I just feel very very honored just to be sitting here sharing the good news And to share with you that God is real and love is real and everything else is illusion And I am very glorified to to demonstrate that for the rest of my experience here And that's all I have to say Really tight I feel it's an honor It's an honor to be in the presence of the Lord an honor to be vast spirit in love and not in a group I'm not in a group And it's yeah, it's just it's an honor to meet myself and Just to be be presence and to Follow along with what what seems to be happening Which is an experience that is more and more perfect. It's It's a rest. It's it's just a beingness And a joy I feel often I just feel like spirit is saying through me. I am available And that's it and there are answers and Yeah, everything Is answered and spirit is saying I'm available To answer things for others too Because nothing is hidden nothing is obscure in reality in our In the gift that is given us Like spirit and truth is not obscure so Yeah, anything is anything can be answered Anything that is a question or pain or confusion or being lost or Anything I am available And I could share a lot about the past and the messengers and meeting David and But I don't think I want to it's I mean, it's been beautiful gifts and perfect gifts and Some hardships actually, but It was all the past and it was all gracefully given for healing and Purification and and to be led to the non-personal I just say thank you god. Thank you everything Thank you for all of you and Everyone in the world everything I'm available. I don't know if I have much words much just I don't I feel like I don't have much to say at all, but I just I'm just wondering how do I relay extend this feeling of complete gratitude like complete full Gratitude for everything that happened. I was I had this really amazing experience last night that It's hard to explain because it's beyond words. It's just hard. It's like the words just don't do it anymore really don't do it and I was just looking at I wasn't even looking it just came up For the past two years just how Like ever since I came here and it's been like I've been here with living miracles for two years I just really saw again like there's been of course we're doing forgiveness and there's been lots of washing away And I just felt last night that everything just disappeared There was nothing but gratitude and I really saw how this was like this was my direct path home that I asked for that I prayed for I prayed for and everything that happened every little thing and like there's not There's not one thing that I thought I have it in my heart that I wish that was different. I wish that you know, I could have done something different It's like literally everything That was that was given that was a very direct path home like without any delays And Yeah, like because I was just really amazed with gratitude for it and it's like I mean, I've always had it, but it was just like there's not one I saw in my mind. There is not one Like dark dot. It's like, oh, I feel gratitude. But yeah, there's a little like It happened at some point, you know some kind of little grievance. There's everything was just I felt everything just disappeared into this White light and there's nothing but this deep gratitude and it's like how direct I call it argo, right? It was like Like I call it argo this this direct path. I call it argo I call myself argo now, but that's a different That's that's yeah Those who know me they know Yeah, those who know me they know what I mean and I just saw like just how Yeah, the depths of it and it's and I felt like in the past few days because you know Because it was so direct because the call of the heart was so direct and wanting to like, okay I don't want to waste time. I don't want to delay. I'm not looking for a feel-good experience Nowhere near my heart. I'm not looking To camp out in the world and have some kind of experiences. I am I'm going for the ultimate experience and it's like spirit. Give me the way and so of course when there's When it's when the call of the heart is so direct and I was like, of course it was intense. It's like because it was so It was like, okay done It's like, of course the ego was you know, like the part of that had to let go off It was freaking out. There's I'm like, but then I don't even remember that it was just kind of like these were the thoughts And uh, yeah, and it was like because I had this You know, kind of like there's this thought like intensity like this intense and how And what is gentleness and what's intense and it was like I really again it like in the past couple of weeks. I just really saw spirit like really show reliving with me certain parts like and like certain like looking at certain parts of my journey And it was just like and really retranslating it and saying like, you know, I was there. This was actually gentle This is gentleness. Although it was like so Fast and direct and quick was like and I was like, oh my god, you were I really had that feeling It's like that was gentle. This is gentleness. Like this is like real gentleness And it like showed me how I was always with you like even when I thought Even when you felt that you were alone I was always there because it's like I was Orchestrating the next step for you and it was like there's nothing like I had to stop before somewhere That god is too busy or something and it's unconscious It's not personal and I know I've came I've come upon that two years ago or something God's too busy. It's almost and and all of a sudden it just came in and I like it here It's like I have no goals, but you it's like I have nothing else. There's literally No other priorities, but you you are my love. You are my goal and and that's what I kept hearing and it was like And somehow it tied in with Argo and I saw that in the movie Argo And it was deep. I was like, I've never seen that before so so I love this I love it like I love this path like called Argo But it's abstract. It's actually very abstract. Why so why? Because it's it's very undefined and yet because it's like there's no There's nothing to cling to and yet everything is given and it's like you like there's just really with this kind of path that Is given there's it's just ego has no safety net and so you just you know you go go go And you just trust you're gonna end up where you truly want to end up and then that's that's the only thing And so I'm very I just wanted to relate that gratitude and it's just been It's been amazing. Yeah, and the Yeah, the tightness like the relationship with Spirit, I just like I really I felt it like I felt it so strong just how this I don't know the depth the linking up and everything is just as a reflection of that deep Linking up with spirit and and I discovered like now I feel there's even a deeper invitation Within my heart that I can totally feel to you know to link with spirit even closer in a much deeper level and I was like what and I'm like like Help me Accept it. That's a yes. Just help me. What an honor again like What an honor what an honor like there's there isn't anything else There isn't what else would you? What else would you want what? I don't want anything else Yeah Thank you Like Nikita. I don't feel I have a lot of words, but I just to speak from my heart it It feels as though To Be with this group of people is the deepest greatest honor that I could ever I wasn't sure whether I was even going to be able to speak because I've had waves of gratitude over the last two days That are so deep It would be rather strange to think that we're a group of perfect people We're not And that's the that's the support that we get from each other to actually wash the The concept that that's where we're going. We're not we're not about a better world or a better person About improving anything about this It's certainly not that and that's the deepest realization and that's the deep the core of actually stepping fully Into truth into the truth of what what we offer each other Um, and and that was the gift for me to actually stop efforting in the world Stop efforting and each time something Like that comes up now like there's a self concept that just seems to hook the mind There there's this crash Um, because there's such an awareness now That that's the false that really is going to To bring me crashing back to some place of illusion that that I can't maintain that that that as a a true self That has a greater awareness of something more This This idea that there's still something here To be done Is is what hooks the mind back in and and it needs to keep being washed. That's why We're together. We support each other in that And right behind releasing that releasing any idea That there's anything here that can be done Not that there's any control over any of it has been such a A deep letting go like first of all, we let go let go control of our Our worldly lives And as a group of people that's that's just the pathway that seems to be taken Um that we give up And really deeply look at the attachment to any of that And that's a of a very Deep step to take initially Like where are these attachments that I believe are going to keep me safe? And to release those from the mind And life just seems to look how it is. It doesn't look perfect. We keep washing it um And then right behind Releasing those attachments. There is such a a deep Devotion that's felt it was always there And we always have it and that's where Where we when I meet you I meet myself because I know that's the devotion of everyone's heart We all want to go home. We all want this And that's what has me Feeling overwhelmed with the the absolute love and gratitude for the support that we give each other That we come together in here And that we can truly extend from our hearts. It's so vast And uh, um, Lisa in one of her talks talked about she said most people seem to flip-flop Yeah, I flip-flop It's not a consistent experience like I I mean while you're there it feels very Everything overpowering certainly as that could never be lost, but a thought Seems to have the mind crashing back into some belief A false belief and it just needs raising up again raising up again Joining with these These devoted beings that I've been given And there is so much love And so much gratitude and so much honoring of this path It deserves total support in every way I can't go I can't do anymore Yeah for me, um I didn't have a goal of spiritual enlightenment or Awakening when I first started on What I later realized was a spiritual journey I just wanted to go home and I couldn't find that in the world And I wanted to Experience a kind of love that could never come to an end Even though I seem to have a pretty good kind of dream life great family Jackie was my mother Um Yeah, and a job I loved and uh, New Zealand, you know the country that everyone thinks, you know That would that would be the greatest country to live in I just all the pieces I couldn't get all the pieces together in such a way that I would be consistently happy It was just being led Just being led with that prayer of the heart like show me show me and What unfolded was a devastation which led to just permission actually to stop like an accident where I couldn't maintain my life anymore And that was the beginning of really praying for help Like really turning turning to a source that I didn't even Know was there but there was something so deep in me that was praying that I just had this This revelatory experience of such deep love That just poured through my whole being just And it was so intense like a You can't even call it love. I knew it was love, but it was so So strong That that was it In that moment it was done. My life was given over to that It was like, okay, there is some there is some There is something to pray to there is there is a source That I can give my life over to and in that moment It just became about following really what was given and saying yes The yes ended up looking like this It's totally unplanned like I had no idea What it where it would take me or what it would look like And that is actually How we all live like we don't plan Our lives out in form there. There isn't a plan of awakening that We didn't plan to all live in spiritual community We didn't plan to have a monastery. We didn't plan To to build anything or In the whole way a lot. It's just this say yes Say yes to what's given by the spirit and And then dare to stay with it actually Because in the world you can kind of choose, you know who your friends are and who you spend time with You can even choose how how much time to spend with family or when to leave a job or you know when you're done with something But with this kind of a path with this kind of a devotion We've said yes to the spirit's plan And then what comes is for our awakening and that means it's for undoing the ego And so it's going to be like Undoing a self that was thought it was in control and there's going to be fear that comes up and you know projection that comes up and But because it's being given by spirit and there's this very deep commitment To trust in the purpose behind everything We don't walk away from each other and that's Why we have experienced and continue to experience a deepening Like a deepening a transformation of consciousness because nothing's being avoided nothing's being pushed away It's more okay bring it on. What is it show me? Dare to stay with it dare to be humble And the trust it takes to do that is um, you know, that's where Like trust and devotion to me are the same thing trust and devotion And yeah, it is going beyond trust in people But the spirit uses the people to develop the trust and so These ones that have been given are the ones that Yeah, there's this being this practice of development of trust with Trusting the spirit is going to come through You know come through the channel that is most open in the moment when fear is there Because when fear is there then you can't hear the spirit, you know fear blocks love And so we turn to the support that's been available Through each other and through the different contexts that are given to to follow and Experience Like really truly experience that there is one source guiding us And it just ends up very telepathic like when so much fear and resistance to hearing the spirit Um has been washed to the point where we just end up hearing Like really turning into the same voice All the time and that's like a big part of of how we use each other for awakening Is we're either feeling the same thing and we're happy and we're like, yeah, we hear it we feel it or We don't and so that's a point of joining and There's something to be seen or something to be accepted something to be washed And that's what it's for Like that's that's the point it's to keep coming together to just keep washing away The experience that there's something between us because the flow of life like has talked about quite a lot and When I hear those words, I see things and I see things and pictures in my mind and so is capital letters capital f little o capital l That's just how it looks And flow of life like that's that's the one source that's the spirit that's god And we know it when we're in that experience like that's that's the whole goal of every spiritual path is to truly be in that that flow of life and Yeah, and it's so glorious when we're in it And when we're not like when there's something that seems to be bumping up against it or there's fear in the mind then Yeah, we're just here to say okay. What's What is there? What is there to look at and it's so deep You don't even know like the depth of the unconscious mind that's there like the depth of the the fear of love The fear of giving over personal control to be completely surrendered to the flow of life I don't mean just like a personal experience of you know, you're just kind of flowing and accepting everything that's happening all the time as a person still in the world Because you know a person with money could seem to be doing that I can just like go where I want and do whatever I want I'm talking about like when you're so surrendered over to The spirit that you're being carried by grace and there is nothing else. There's nothing but that experience And the whole universe is just supporting So yeah, it takes a lot of seeing what is not the flow of life And being just very very transparent about that And not hiding not hiding and yeah, that's what I feel like this This community has really been for and of course the form shifts and changes. Sometimes we sent out two by two You know to go for a year Somewhere or Sometimes we don't see each other. There was a period. I think some of us hadn't seen each other for about three years So it's very much not about Like dependence on people it's very much about that being guided of who you're to be with and where you're to go and it's to seem to go through so many changes And transitions that in the end ultimately you experience that that flow of life is who you are And change is no longer frightening like you go through change after change after change to the point where You can't experience change anymore because it's just who you are And the scenery changes But that go goes with me everywhere I go gets so solid That it's it's just a presence That cannot cannot be lost It's very telepathic I said if she stops now I'll speak She said thank you. Okay Yeah, it's really cool. I what's coming to me is like Somebody asked the other day, you know, what what is this community? And the one word that came to my mind was guidance and And I for me that's been the greatest gift about being here Even the in the end guidance dissolves too, but I just like to talk about that a little bit because It's so powerful like we're so radical actually That we undo the idea of personal inspiration And I have seen that that is One of the most difficult and radical things I done do because we come from such a repressed culture and About you know stuff your emotions. Don't say this don't whatever That you when you get into this idea of following your heart following your inspiration. It sounds so great And it is it's like, you know, don't people please don't Do what others tell you to do break free of society, you know, even the anarchists have got their They're positives like, you know, just break free of the mold and that was kind of like I grew up in this conspiracy Theory family and the greatest thing I took out of it was that don't believe everything you're told And so personal inspiration sounds good and then When you really go deeper into this And you start to accept like at least intellectually the idea is like there's only one mind Well, where does the idea of a personal or a separate inspiration fit into? There's only one mind. It doesn't make sense that I love it when this happens But it's like That's where we've joined together because we're willing to say that there are actually no There's no personal inspirations and there's one inspiration and if we tune in Together this can be a fast track to awakening because we can speed up the discontinuities of the ego meaning where it wants to take you off on these These tangents that can seem like so exciting and so Inspiring and maybe but you know, they might take you off A cliff like I grew up in this place called heads near head smashed in buffalo jump where like It was like this giant native place um I was going through it and Like they had all these hundreds and thousands of buffalos and if you could just get the lead buffalo To run off of this cliff everybody else Not else. Yeah, buffalos would follow off and so they call the head smashed in buffalo. I don't know where I'm going And so So that to me has been the greatest blessing and it's taken a lot of trust Again, not in persons But almost in in the plan and my kirsten was saying a yes You know to really trust that none of this has been a mistake You know that I'm here Because it's part of a plan not a special plan but a plan For me so to speak and and that's I think the gift I feel to extend is that there's a there's a plan Towards the plan list, you know There's a plan towards the plan the plan list and the experience of the plan list You know, so lisa caron's is talking about and and david in the direct message But yeah, I mean this funny story like We were david and I were like, I don't know 100 yards from each other walking over this bridge and Cincinnati Lisa was out there doing her interviews interviewing all these people with her fake microphone that was tied into her Back pocket this lisa here She's like going around interviewing you watch people kind of get into the whole thing with like, oh, I'm on camera You know, what do you got to say? But it really pulls out this kind of a presence nothing's being recorded, of course And we're having all these holy encounters about eyes and true vision and true sight like eric song was about You know, can you hear can you see Without the eyes and that's everything that we're doing is can you You know really feel and I remember looking around one time And I think david one of us said do you feel what I feel jason or do you feel what I feel they We're a few feet apart and we look over and like yeah, I feel it and there's like a hooters bar down by the Down by the corner. There was like five of us And it's like, okay, you got to let go of all judgments. You don't know what anything's for And we're all guided to go into this into this hooters bar and we end up having this amazing encounter with this woman who was kind of trapped in the whole Feel whatever hooters bars do, you know, like I guess there's a culture or something but And it was just like this beautiful holy encounter and and it's telepathic, you know, you everybody hears it and you have to go past all spiritual judgments Yeah, they're all the same monastery So, yeah, I just I guess that's what I really wanted to share and Thank you. And I I really feel the equality and all of that because we're all joined in that. So thank you Add a little bit to that because I was there too that day and We're used wherever we go. We are used By the spirit and we were used for this woman who was going through something really deep and It's like the perfect timing That's like the experience of the miracle that we have We're always at the perfect place at the perfect time and we have the experience of being used or done through because we have, you know, we have cleansed the way A lot of layers so spirit is an experience of Of being used by the spirit. So It's about to shout out to that story It was a fun day. What's the woman we met? She had actually no Pupils in her eyes and she could still see And we had all those amazing miracles Thank you for sharing Jason. You were singing follow the heart And I am on the follow the heart tour And to me The heart is representing God And that's the true heart And when we fully surrender to that of not knowing anything and just allow Him to lead That's our safety This whole tour has unfolded in a way that is just amazing of just watching him guiding and leading I heard phoenix in the beginning of the tour and Then I joined with Laverne and she said Kelly lives in phoenix And I had met Kelly once at camas and I know several of you have met with Kelly And We drove towards phoenix And we came through this town That had a big mountain with a huge k on it A white k as if the name k Came into mind actually a k who is sitting here And it was green lights of The road what do you say the stop like the green yellow red The traffic lights it went green and we took a photo of We sent it to k and called her straight away She said helena I have felt your name helena And I felt for some reason grand canyon or driving through grand canyon, right? And then she says and I felt phoenix And she says I have no clue why I felt these three things, but that's what I've heard And when we surrender to that collaboration with the whole universe and just know that he leads the way That we just have absolutely no clue about anything other And I feel the gratitude of having connected with David and messengers throughout the years and just practicing this of listening and trusting and doing things that Feels like it's turning in the stomach 50 times around And just keep at it And watch the miracles unfold Because the guidance is washing away the ego so When we learn to not buy into that but just follow and follow and follow That's how it looks like this wash this wash of Everything that we thought we were or that we wanted And just come to complete emptiness Where we really don't have to do anything So I came to this festival. I didn't even know if I would be singing or I heard it the day before and I bought the ticket Straight away and that's why I'm here. I'm so grateful to be here and meeting all of you and everyone. Thank you Yeah, we we talked quite a bit about devotion and um You know the devotion of the heart is actually For me the devotion is it's the devotion to To this And the choice of Should I be here or shouldn't I be here? Is this it or Whether there is something else they only exist in the mind. They're really are saying that Not this I would rather stay in my mind. I'm Thinking about the choice, you know, not this And I know that, you know The course talks a lot about self-concepts And it's not really like I have an attachment to any specific self self-concept like a Machai person or But there is this attachment to the self concept And it doesn't really matter what there is addiction to define To define the self in any situation So it's like the spirit is constantly Guiding as To let go of the self concept really is just to revealing the addiction there and attachment And it's not like I just feel like it's not even that I have to let go of specific self concepts, but It's just revealing that That there is a holding on to the self concept when I saw that As a representation or as a as um symbol that I am addicted to the self concept I define myself I used to define myself as a spiritual seeker And I actually really realized that That it's not like I want to Merge with the which god or with oneness. It's like I I was actively I was actively holding on to something that is separate And it's just revealing in different situations, but this spiritual secret concept when I saw it I was just thinking How humbling that was that I was actually actively Holding on to something and from that point the focus wasn't Really how to let go of it, but more like How did I actively holding on to it in every moment? How did I maintain it and This group if you know a teacher is a true teacher not through Talking about it or even it's like this given context is actually actively telling me Where I was actively maintaining it And when and how That's really and even just by looking at it That's all that that needs to be done. There's no other There is no other thing to be done So there is a very deep devotion because Because what what is given We we say the word a lot given but meaning what is here and now It's not being resisted anymore. We know the purpose of it the purpose of it is not for us to Imagine in mind. Is this it? Is this what I want and should I go somewhere else? but it's like Hey See what is going on see what is What is happening, you know And that is That is the devotion the purpose And the dedication the mind it does not Waver it doesn't really it's not like we don't do different things, but the mind is it's still it's not These are that these are that it's like So yeah, so I just want to say that it's just so Delightful because because of this single purpose that everybody is sharing and then coming together is It's just so simple. There is no mix of Purpose even you know if there there is some kind of Protection going on is always a protection of self-concept and we can just We can just express and and then we drop into this This stillness again together. It just feels like you know, this is given I'll do my best I keep having a flashback to 1997 It's all simultaneous Just sitting over here under this tree And having such a deep desire to heal my mind, but not even knowing what that meant and um So as the spirit would have it I was taken out of my life and brought out here and Which is this one desire Which was to find that deep connection And so people would say to me. I'll give her six months. She won't she's not going to last out there but I had such a Deep desire for this connection and I kept hearing you have to come out here and heal your mind And I didn't have any idea what that meant and I'm not going to go into the whole story Because I'm no longer interested in it, but just these waves of like Knowing now that I'm carried by an unseen invisible force that I've always felt drawn to But I always tried to hang on to the world and have it And so this was one of the major steps when I came out here was to listen to that voice Not even knowing what it meant And so sitting here, I don't know how many years ago that was but Here we are almost in the exact same spot And here I am and it's like just following and trusting Not having any idea Of what I was doing Just that devotion. I love that word devotion. It's my favorite word Because that's what we're all connected in is that deep devotion of the heart. It's where we're connected And these particular ones were given at a certain period of time Because I kept hearing after several years out here, I had to go deeper Again not knowing what that meant. I'd studied the course for years I did the best I could But then I think all the tears are that Where Jesus says in the course that mighty companions will be given when you really make up your mind To serve one purpose let thy eye be single to the glory of God and it's like I knew that that's all I wanted And then David and Messenger showed up and When I sit with them like this and I just look, you know glance. It's like I just have these waves of like like knowing Just knowing that we're given exactly what we need And these are the particular ones that were given I certainly wouldn't have chosen to live in community. I lived out here by myself For a while and you know, it was the last thing I think any of us really wanted to do but But when you give up your plan and I could see I had a plan for my awakening I actually thought I could sit by the river and just meditate and get past the thoughts and wake up and maybe some can do that But what I didn't know is that I had to come into this community come in into Being with these people to get in touch with this deep self-hatred That in my life, I couldn't see it. I didn't even know it was there and Jesus talks about the unconscious mind My life was so good Seemingly in the world that it was so pushed out of awareness. I like I tell people I had to come into this community to get Get into my unhappiness I had to I had to face things that I didn't even know were there And how do you do that? I mean, it's like if I would like somebody just said if they would have known What was going to happen? They would have run the other way. I certainly would have And you know, I don't want to paint a blink picture because I actually thought I was giving up a life I actually believed I was giving up something And it has been arduous and it has been painful and it has been all of that stuff To look at all of what I was giving up and to see that I was giving up absolutely nothing That I am it And it can't be explained But I know this that I had a devotion I had a calling in my heart I knew something was not right with this world even though everything According to world standards was pretty damn good And so to just sit here in this just this backdrop with with all of us together and Knowing that we all have that That we are that connection That we are that that we are the blessing But it's so worth it. Whatever Whatever it takes And you don't know it until you start to let go of it how much effort it takes to be a person How much effort it takes to hold up that mask? So I am great. I am grateful for my mighty opinions because When I couldn't see for myself, they would reflect my innocence when I hated myself so deeply and I never We never even used the word hate in our home. It was just like it wasn't allowed And I didn't ever really experience it but when I started to face that intense darkness I would have these faces Telling me it's not true. It's not true And then just to let it roll through Just let it all roll through. It's just passing through It's just passing through So wherever the devotion is There I am. That's how I feel Wherever the devotion calls I answer And all of the emotion is just this Intense gratitude like sometimes I just feel like I'm gonna explode to just know that This is holy ground. This is sacred ground where we join in the mind. That's the intimacy To allow each other to see all those things that We don't even know we're there Tell you start unwinding the mind a good book Anyway, thank you. I I didn't know that I would even be able to share it It's so it's just so profound the experience And that you each each of you are a blessing to the mind and I'm so grateful that you're here Like every time we have a retreat I always feel like everybody that comes here just blesses You know just blesses my mind and expands my mind It doesn't even matter if I've talked to you or not I feel it. I feel it Jenny No, I ask you lots of questions, Jenny Jenny Well, actually I just wanted to say that yeah that that when you were saying getting in touch with your unhappiness Getting in touch with hatred getting in touch You know a lot of times people think of spirituality or spiritual journey is like Be happy and You know you you can't consistently be happy until you get in touch With what's unhappy You know we go through the darkness to the light And It's so beautiful to that's the love in the devotion. It's really maybe These will say that they were drawn to Happiness, but then they had to face a lot of unhappiness In order to flip around into the happiness And so in that sense, it's very practical, you know Not everyone knew No one knew what they were getting into No one knows has an idea of how deep the rabbit hole goes Or even sometimes that there is a rabbit hole. It's like I want to be happy. Can I join? What's a rabbit hole? I have no they just join in Join the be happy group, you know And And some of you but maybe that's part of it when when we even use the word join Like some people are saying like well, can I join your community or can I be a part of it in this and this and this? you know really Spirit is not so much interested in bodies joining bodies or bodies leaving bodies and all that It really just doesn't amount to anything really but but this idea Of of joining sometimes people will say what will it take? Are there are there pragmatic steps? How do you guys do finances? For example, how do you guys this is your opportunity today? You know if you want to ask any questions Like if you could ask the scenes how they live or the franciscans or whatever You can ask the questions but But to us Money is like a neutral symbol It's not it doesn't have a meaning It doesn't have a value Those seem to be it seems to be really practical in terms of what the world calls horizontal daily living But but it's just a symbol and when your mind Gives it over to be you might say just stewarded by the spirit It it's the same as with bodies. It's the same with its properties cars everything When you get into this grace when you're in the the flow of grace Then Then those things everything so perfectly taken care of that you don't give any thought to it You know, you're not you don't have a concern around it It's so different from the world where things like the money and the body are so raised up and so important They just fade and fade and fade and fade from awareness Imagine going through a day where you don't think of money at all You know, it's a fun day You can really be happy joyous and free But while you still have connotations and meaning and interpretations around it then Words like scarcity and lack and funds and so on so forth It's it's really being in the gratitude so fully that everything else just fades from awareness So it's actually fun I think you'll have a fun time asking some questions or sharing your comments today because we're having a fun interaction with You might say with the spirit The spirit is playful. The spirit is joyful Even when there seems to be like things called guidelines they They aren't really serious and they're they're just there. I was having a talk with Marissa and she was talking about boundaries Like there's all this love love love love and then whoa, I think I need a few boundaries here There's so much love. Whoa, and I was saying, yeah, that's like getting in touch with your intuition You know, that's what boundaries are. They aren't like real limits. It's just like Touching the spirit inside of you and say what's helpful here You know if you have love love love love and then all of a sudden people are coming up to you with sexual attractions and this and this Or Can you help me with this? Can you do this for me? Can you promise me this? Can you commit to this and blah blah blah? You know, just go into your intuition Say what feels helpful right now Is there something that feels helpful? And the spirit is so right there so available like jenny said To give you in that moment in this moment Whatever is helpful There's a prayer and of course a miracle that says I am here only to be truly helpful Wow When you go into that truly helpful. Wow, that's a trip As you go in deeper and deeper into that you go into humbleness You go into transparency. You go into trust Deep faith. It just takes you that one prayer Takes you so so so so deep into who you really are And when people say well, what how do you solve problems? What's your decision-making capacity? How if how do you govern yourselves? How you know all the typical questions with communities and groups that have been asked for centuries and centuries those are practical questions We would say prayer really I think if you if you went through it How do you deal with the day-to-day? Issues and things that come up pray first You know instead of reacting and responding and jumping in there to try to analyze or figure out pray first Ask ask Go to your intuition so It's just such an honor to be with you and I'm I just thank you all for sharing what you all shared It was very very profound and and I do want to You know use open it up and we have a roving Mic, you know, we've got a little over a half an hour here. So I want to open it up to everyone and Chair jenny do you have something more to share? just like to share how how great it is the spirit comes through everywhere and and when Helen I'll talk about k and the miracles and I was thinking I shouldn't take the mic one more time because I took it twice So I didn't take it after that. But then when Suzanne said unwind your mind at the end I was like, okay because I I have been I've never been a singer or anything, but I felt with Pete like spirit said sing with Pete sing and wind your mind with Pete and uh, it was planned for one of the evenings and I was kind of doubtful about Doing it and it didn't even happen that evening because probably some doubt thought But anyway, it happened the morning after anyway every time k Shows up. She says something about unwind your mind to me without even Thinking about it. She's like, oh unwind your mind like she asks something or says something and it's just really cool because The experience like yeah, you need to accept that you can be used for singing too like, you know So I just had to share that I think it's really beautiful how it comes through so innocently without even the messenger knowing Why, you know, I just wanted to comment I hope I don't get feedback from that Because I'm too close to the speaker Um, I just wanted to comment on Uh, my impression of I guess it's 10 of you Well, whatever the number is Whatever the number is That you you are collectively showing me You're an example of living the happy dream The course talks about living the happy dream In the awakening. Well, I'm preaching to the choir here, but you know In the process of awakening We are not awakened suddenly from this dream and I'm shaken from this this nightmare that we're living But whether we are awakened gently and our dream has become a happy dream And you you all seem through Through your devotion to living the course the principles of the course You seem to be living the happy dream This vacation from the world Is my vocation the cast to come off before the bones healed, you know He said this vacation Is my vocation I don't want the cast to come off before the bones are healed I think that means he doesn't want to leave We love you, Steve I love I never heard that don't Don't want to take the cast off till the bones have healed. Yeah that inner until I've had a catharsis till I really felt that experience That cast will be right there supporting you That's kind of using a movie metaphor. Here's the cast Look at your cast. You've got a beautiful cast here Loving you and supporting you Yes, that reminds me of You know being in community and living with with messengers has been the scaffolding It's been the cast, you know And um, it hasn't been too long ago where we feel like the the scaffolding can start to come down now You know, we kind of joke around messengers the the title messengers of peace When we all came together we were anything but that We were anything but peaceful um And yet it was used as as somewhat of a cast or a cocoon or The scaffolding so that we could just drop deeper and deeper into that Brokenness so to speak that's not it's not true But now it's like We've we've kind of let that that title go and and And now it's like we're actually In the experience of the peace letting the scaffolding go but If that devotion is there and if that desire is there for that healing of the mind you will get everything you need Everything you need will be given. It's the split desire In the mind of wanting a little bit of this and a little bit of that that keeps you getting kind of A watered-down version So to speak or no version actually of the truth. So it's little by little, but it's like you will get everything When that mind is made up the universe supports the yes to awakening And that's what I found is that that I had a split desire of a little bit of the world and Spirit as well and it was like I finally got to see that my mind had to be single It had to be single pointed focus And when that happened, of course, I didn't pop right into single-mindedness, but it was like everything that wasn't that was uh was late Started to be laid down very diligently, you know so You'll get everything you want I think it's kind of funny because when I really deeply asked And not for anything specific just Help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me help me And the first time I asked that I got a free ride to the conference and then david and francis ended up at my house I I didn't ask for anything specific And then the second time I said Same thing help me help me help me help me help me. I just can't stand there just to help me And then I get this call from jason who I didn't know and And he's like hi, this is jason. I never answered the phone But from people I didn't know but I just answered the phone. He's like hi, this is jason. I'm like Okay And he said yeah, we're looking for this place and I just said yes. Yes. Yes. Yes and there's uh Jason and helena show up at my house And then uh, and then the third time it was jason and uh and jacky, but it's all from your group Okay, I mean it could have been a real purdy Which by the way I sponsored to come to chicago and I didn't see him because something came up Why did that happen? I don't know but it's always this group You know the first the first thing that I was led to I know but I feel like I feel like you Like this crazy woman with her hair sticking up and you know, just like You know, I'm just so all I'll just you know everywhere I guess And that's sudden love of course and um And there's just such this Magnetic Attraction to this group and And I I don't know why it's This group. I think um, somebody asked me Um, well, what is it about david and I said is he's just so uncompromising the whole group is so uncompromising And I think that's you know, that is the Truth and the and the trust and that's what I have always felt in my very deep core myself and so You know I the first you know I just cracked open the course in miracles and then I did that for a year and a half and then I discovered there's other people out there that are actually studying it I know I just felt like I was on my own and then like david just popped up david just Showed up on something I don't know if I got an email from you know, like Signing up from something. I have no idea um And and then there he was And then it's like all of you, you know, I just feel like I know you so Intimately and In the key that I never met you personally, but I've heard so many things and I just can feel you so strongly And and there was a time when david was sitting at my kitchen table and I started to speak about armel and all of a sudden I mean how high she gets and lifted up And you know this one thing that I was listening to her on Spreaker and all of a sudden I just went way up there and I didn't even remember what I was saying where I was Who I was talking about anymore and david had to remind me And it's just this This uh this oneness with this with this group and and it makes me um Just You know, I I don't want to think about purpose or future Anything like that. I just want to just You know take it for what it is and and just you know, keep accepting that love and that help from this group whether you're in my home or not And um, and I really don't know what the Next step is for me. So um, but I know you guys are all All like in my hearts Just truly in my hearts no matter where you are. I just can't help but follow you Francis Thank you because you know what this is right here, it's a witness because You know jason opened up talking about guidance and we've talked a little bit about guidance sometimes people will say there is no such thing as guidance or or Well, it's so hard to hear good guidance. It's kind of a watered-down word Spirit guided me to buy that land and spirit guided me to marry you and divorce you and guided guided guided people Are a little bit. Oh, they hear the guidance word. They're a little But uh, and it's the same like there was a friend Somebody was telling me who lived in california for years and years and she heard the word oneness So many times that she would get creepy when she would go out she would I think kirsten was out of gathering and was a friend of rogers and he's she said oh just I'm so burned out on oneness Overused word and I think in spiritual some spiritual circles its guidance is overused, but here here's the witness She just goes Help me help me help me help me help me with everything in her heart And what how we get it is I say to francis. I think we should go to carolin's house and and then Jason hears i think i'm gonna call carolin and and they show up and then jack, you know It guidance is very practical I sometimes poop people poo poo and they say well i've heard a teacher say you can't actually Hear guidance if you work your whole life For 40 50 years, you know, you're still not going to hear it And even the course says it's very difficult You know many very few can hear the voice for god directly and everything. I never bought into all that stuff To me guidance was very very helpful If call it a practice or a symbol or a concept or whatever you want to call it I hear it I let it speak to me through me as me You know the whole deal and the thing was so great with all of them is I think that's what We were drawn together with what was that there's a practicality to it And here you show up with help me help me help me help me help me And tell the the rest of the story and from our Perspective so to speak is we hear call carolin go visit carolin and we talk we you know Oh, you want to chicago you're going to chicago? Oh carolin You know it comes in very directly So it's not like this happenstance thing or this pie in the sky thing That's what the witness is is that it it is actually very very very helpful And and the prayers are answered and that's a beautiful witness just by you showing up You've you've showed us that you've kind of been a witness to all of us Yeah, thank you. I mean I I wanted to go to a really fancy retreat in santa barbara Comfort and warmth and you know hot tubs pools and all that Um, but all the strawberries came into my life strawberry gums strawberry chapsticks strawberry fields tic-tacs, you know It was just That's it. That was that was it and there I was spirit works fast in here. I am it was just Just amazing. I just love it. I I don't didn't know how it worked on your end I I just Help me. Help me. Help me. Help me. I don't know how you get the message, but wow, it's just amazing. Yeah Well, there's a line in the course is Reach a point where miracles are natural and I had that experience with you when you gave me those strawberry fields tic-tacs You're like look look and I crack it open and take a few you're like no look strawberry fields I'm like, oh, I know I wanted the tic-tacs, you know Like of course you were drawn here. It's like it becomes so natural that this this play together So thank you I have a question I want to ask you David and I don't even really know what the question is that I want to ask But I had a fantasy this morning of asking you a question. It was about a fantasy scenario That's good because I had a fantasy of a black gospel Pano revival We're helping each other out here It might happen might happen. I was I was imagining you in a room with Adolf Hitler And I just had the question What would David say to Adolf Hitler? And I and and where that comes from for me Is I think not knowing how to be with people who Evoke anything for me. I'm here with all these loving people And struggling with The masks and feeling unworthy and if I were with Adolf Hitler, I mean, you know, I'd be out the door so fast I don't know and there's other parts of the question too I don't I don't completely know what the Yeah, I think that's been the greatest joy in my life is that That this deep kind of interconnection with God Is has grown so strong and so immediate and so unshakable That actually I am used in those kind of ways Where I will do like a long retreat and end up doing like 41 on one sessions And among those 40 there are those that come up and they look into my eyes kind of they're fishing Are you going to judge me? For what I'm going to tell you now Like I'm going to unload My deepest darkest Most disgraceful disgusting almost like they think subhuman Things and they kind of look into my eyes and then they They unload It's not so much what I say In the same with Hitler or Mussolini or Salman bin Laden or you know on and on Saddam Hussein Yeah, I'm asking would you judge? Yeah, what would I say? Would there be any impulse or any impetus to to heal something? I mean, I'm I'm I'm I'm imagining a scenario of Hitler there in the room saying hey, David. I've got this plan to exterminate all the Jews Let me tell you all about it. I've had that happen. I actually I actually She's saying with me, but she's she says some interesting things Uh No, I actually I actually tell the parable. I mean, I've had so many interesting parables, but but I remember one time I went to Chicago speaking of Chicago. I went to Chicago and this woman Um came to one of my gatherings. I was hopping all around Chicago and and then I she's came and she said would you come To my house to speak and share a gathering And so I said sure and so I went there and the gathering wasn't in her house the gathering was in a Like a real estate office her husband's real estate office during business hours and her husband Was in there and she said oh, he's not into any of this at all and I go in there and all these people come in and we I just let whatever love was flowing There's lots of love and joy and everything and he was at his computer working and then He sat there at his computer working during the whole gathering people were hugging and kissing and joyfully going on and finally the whole The whole place emptied out. So I was the only one left And so I was in there and I just went right up and sat sat across from him just because I feel loving towards everyone and He was in there And so I went up to him and my assistant at the time remember Kathy Kathy Martin she had gone in to talk to his wife and they were in doing some dishes and just chatting and everything for For a couple hours. I think over a couple hours and finally they're in the middle of doing the dishes and His wife turned to Kathy and said where's david? and Kathy said Oh, he's out In in the office with your husband and the woman was kind of shocked She said, oh my god, that's terrible David and my husband have absolutely nothing in common And as I was out there and as I sat down with him and everything he He felt very comfortable and relaxed and he started off with That whatever happened in this office was the most pathetic thing I've ever seen a bunch of people coming in pretending they're happy Reading this stupid blue book You think they're going to get something out of a blue book and that just started it all then he went on into Who which races he hated who should be? Exterminated from the planet a just absolutely opened up And that's the funny thing because his wife was saying Where's david because I was out there for hours hours with this man Because in this state of presence You see everyone Exactly like yourself regardless of the words that are spoken What Hitler would be no different. This guy had had some very choice words for who should be Exterminated and I mean really really really but the best part was too in fact his his Wife said well sometimes when we go out our friends have a nickname for us Edith and Archie So here is a scenario of being out for for hours with Archie Bunker But but I didn't see it that way And you know what since everything's a reflection of my mind After this went on for hours Uh I said what what are some of the things that you're really interested in and he said oh I do impressions And his little inner child I Stayed there Seeing the Christ in him Firm and clear because it was the only thing in my mind and after a while he said I do impressions Would you like to hear and then this guy started doing jimmy steward? This is probably what hitler would do for me too. He would just relax so much In my presence that we would we would go are we good? We good You know we got to the point where he relaxed so much He started doing impressions jimmy steward james kagney. He said is oh my son's doing impressions, too You want to hear I'll play him from I've got a website and he turned his computer around and he started Just the love started pouring through him. I had found the the portal And he started his little inner child of joy started coming through after hours It happened and then he said Here was the one it was seemingly so opinionated all these who should be exterminated and who Who was terrible on this? He he looks at me with a little twinkle childlike twinkle in his eye after he's been with me for a few hours and he said he said Well, I don't know I don't know I've never heard archie bunker Say I don't know See he's reflecting my Mind it has to be so It has to be so everything Hitler most everyone's a reflection of what's going on in consciousness. He said, well, I don't know Maybe there is some kind of universal intelligence Behind all of this cosmos and I went. Oh my god. Here we go archie bunker speaks the truth and it happened and so I just share that parable a lot because You know, that's why Jesus told us not to judge Because because it lets us experience the love that we are and that everyone is And whenever we have an opinion or a judgment or we even interpret their words Anything it's really Blocking the light that we are that everyone is the love that we all are and so Those things when you talk about them those are real practical things for me That's that's what it's been like for me and my Shining the light all over in 32 countries on planet earth. I come across those things And and we've had some things I guess you could almost call them like exorcisms I just want to yeah, actually That's the gift that like that that's that's been my gift. That's exactly that that there's been so much Like direct and uncompromising love that it's like naturally everything that doesn't something within just relax is so deeply that you don't even notice but it's like everything just like you know Comes up to your awareness like even like everything it could be I was The recent example because I was joining with I was joining with Jenny very closely Very closely she was given and I kept saying Jenny She's like I'm like a baby here and now it's Jenny's turn to babysit me That's what it felt like baby Nikita Right. It's like every so And so I was given to Jenny To babysit and if and in the way I really felt like it and at some point I really started to notice that I swear a lot like I was just like this language will come out. I was just like I just really started to notice that that I would It was just something else. It was just some kind of and not a Jenny Just in general just the language I would talk and talk and it was just like intense some kind of like Waves there was just like these waves and then almost but to the point where I It took me a while to really notice it. I just started to notice there's something there's something but Complete emptiness that's happening And then I prayed about it and then I started crying because I was like in such gratitude and what I felt was there's such Deep love unconditional love. It's just like nothing but Christ. It's like I can feel it's like Jenny's joining with me And she says she sees nothing but Christ And so naturally there's just trust and something just open up Opens up and then there's like everything is allowed and it's like let it all go Like no need to like no need to hold together anything. No even little threads of the mask Concept let it all go and I just I was crying because I'm like I can breathe like the experience of it It's like I can on the very deep level I can breathe Much deeper and I knew it like it's not gonna last But it's just that experience and then like every time Like let's say Jenny and I would go for a ride or somewhere and I would like, you know Whatever will It will be like a whole I don't know scenario and what we'll come back and and And Jenny would she would always giggle and laugh and be like, oh my god. No one talks like you do You know and then in the end my experience would be like You love me so much and that's like that's the spirit It's just like allowing to be loved like that because the love is so direct and it's that's the gift and it's so Yeah, so it's Yeah, I'm sure that's when I'm like, oh, yeah for sure that would happen with hitler if david met hitler There's no this would be it He would just relax so much and so deeply he'd be like Probably jumping around like a kid doing funny skits or something, you know Like there's that's for sure. That would be the only scenario. I'm I vowed for it. I know So, yeah, yeah Yeah, you just have to listen to the parables. They're all online and Of these adventures over the last 25 years. It's not of this world And and yet the more you tune into it you you feel it you you go Wow, that that's in me I've got that capacity For love I could I could face anything I could face anyone I could transcend it the things that the world thinks are so big, you know, these Terrorists and this and that that's nothing That's nothing I have healed the world, you know, I have healed the entire world through Christ and me, you know through through God's love and and that's It's it really is impelling, you know I think I when you think about Gandhi's life or some of the greats, you know, people love being around him it was exciting To be around that presence Because it undoes the world that that's certainly sent reverberations And even Gandhi when I read his autobiography, you know, he didn't he hated being called Mahatma great soul Because he still was very aware Of what was still coming up in him. So he couldn't stand having Hundreds of thousands of people calling him great soul. Please. No, no, no Because he also lived in India where there was the you know, the Ramana Maharshi's the Yoganandas and so forth that that Were amazing reflections of this unified Spirit and he felt a little modest actually. No, please not the Mahatma label You know, you don't know but it was he revealed all that in his autobiography. So this is a very high calling Yeah, what's being undone is the belief in an external world and Like the more we come into this presence of knowing who I am Yeah, the belief that there is an external authority is getting washed and That there's really external teachers outside of my mind or external successes or external failures or And then the encounters just become Like a unified experience of self commuting that communicating with self And even like encounters with police, you know, they're not what they once were Like an encounter one time I was in a car and the with friends and The driver ran through a red light In the front car and then the driver in my car ran through a very red light In florida at midnight after we'd had a spiritual gathering and In this cop, you know florida cop big guy comes walking up to the car And we were in such a presence of love that I'm like, oh here comes a holy encounter and We were just about to run out of gas Like the car was running out of petrol and we didn't know where the gas station was and so Something in me knew like this is the help that we're actually asking for So he comes up to the car You know, oh like serious and starts to talk about the You know running the red light and what do you think you're doing and I just looked at him and I said you're an angel And he kind of did this double take And he he's hang on a minute. Let me just do my cop roll I just need to say what I need to say and then I can I can yeah We can we can see what's happening here and he's so you did run a red light and it's florida and he you know He was kind of stuttering a bit because he couldn't remember his his mask And the driver was so funny she because she was a bit scared She had a bit of guilt that she'd run through a very red light. So she said to him Um, they're spiritual teachers. They're not normal people And we just have this beautiful encounter and I swear it was like he was my little brother I have this this younger brother in New Zealand and he's much taller than me and you know, he's this big kind of his He has this presence where he's Yeah, like the protector the loyal protector and I just looked at him and felt such love like I know who you are And uh, he said okay girls, what do you need? We said well, we're just about to run out of gas Do you know where the nearest gas station is and he said yeah, follow me you put his lights on And he led us you know passed a couple of closed gas stations around to one that was open and And that's it. That's what life becomes about. It's like the veil The veil of separation disappears when the fear disappears and you see that truly there is no one And nothing that's really outside of my mind. It's That was an attack thought and so the experience of that external world was full of attack And full of defense and protectionism as if there really was someone or something else out there that had a different purpose to me And was not here to support and and didn't understand me didn't really know who I truly am And as that has just been washed through forgiveness I know who I am And therefore I see You know who it is in front of me and just that awareness calls it forth And and any veil that still seems to be there is so thin and it just drops Oh, yeah, let's go eat No All right So I just wanted to kind of echo what It's being said From the point of view of somebody who's never been to any of your stuff Read any of your books You know, I basically just met y'all a couple weeks ago But I mean the this exquisite experience has been happening of Whatever I've needed has been right there Who um a couple days ago I I said a prayer about You know, help me let go of whatever's in the way of being with you all the time and then all this stuff came up And I was like What's the you know, I forgot that I said that prayer and um And anyway, the good news is what happened was Right in the middle of having all these feelings that I haven't had for a long time and letting go of some real old script stuff I I realized oh, this is this is my movie Of course these people are being controlled freaks because I'm a non control You know, it's like I have authority issues So no wonder, you know, it was like I woke up and realized I asked for this Movie right now and so here it is. Anyway, so that's one thing that's happening. The other thing is happening is You know, I've never uh, I've never seen So much authentic love, you know, like people that don't even know me have been coming up to me and Holding me and it's just I don't know. It's I feel like I'm home, you know, and it's uh And um when Suzanne was sharing, you know, it's like 17 years ago is when I joined the community I moved to Arizona to be with And none of the expectations that we all had came came to fruition But of course it's all, you know, perfect and um I just really respect what you all have done and wanted to give Credit to the to everybody, you know, it's not just it's there's there's no Levels like for a while. I'm thinking why I don't know about this. There's like seem to be these levels and these different categories, but really the people who organized the event have been Just as conscious as anybody is, you know, so anyway, it's just been a really great experience On the guidance In case anybody's tight about not hearing that guidance voice because I don't hear it But um, I watched the video and I heard Dave say he uses it like the yijing so I grabbed a book and said, okay What do you want me to know? Open it up and there's the coaster from uh From the um, you know the tour Strawberry fields And here you are That's great. That was direct. That was very specific too boom Okay, well, I think it's time to move Towards lunch now and this has been so much fun. We haven't done this. This was kind of fun We maybe Yeah, we've never done this. We sometimes we have a smaller group in australia or here or there, but this is We did in china. We had maybe five or six People there in china. That was a lot of fun too, but so yeah, maybe we'll do this again sometime Yeah, I'll speak at three o'clock and then tonight I sing at seven Yes, there's open mic open mic at seven and a dance party Right down here tonight So get ready We love you