 hi hi live from uh oakland california yes we are here having a potluck with a lot of friends from the area from the bay area yes welcome i see the hearts are are showing this 11 people already 11 people have joined us from around the 12 high from new zealand and they type in 13 who they type in the little hearts oh wow that's that's they're sending their love and they also hi from sydney new zealand oh that's sweet this is a different world yes yeah we're just having a great time here after a weekend swirl to come out here yes we uh we did a beautiful gathering last night and uh had um lunch with the publisher of of course miracles judy and um with wit yeah for about five and a half hours so but what did we take away from our our lunch today yeah we we met with judy and judy's daughter and husband and um we talked a lot of things she told us a lot of parables um with ken and halyn but i guess for me what um i felt after five and a half hours talk is that we are we we we are having a mission in this life and every one of us really we we come here to do forgiveness work that is really the essence of the only thing that we are here to do and yet in in in form it looks different ways and it seems like we all have our mission and it's for us to really accept it that i actually accepted fully that's really what i feel as i was talking to them to accept our function so fully and we don't have to play small or feeling like we're taking an insignificant role because as as long as we accept our own function with our part is so essential and it's up to us to say yes and really step up in our strength and in accepting that the atonement and the function that was given to us that's what i felt yeah how profound that is and also i had mentioned to some people this year that thought this should be a year of surprises and happy surprises but nevertheless surprises and so i enjoyed hearing some of the parables today one of them was judy was talking about how she had this profound healing after being emailed by a young woman was maybe 12 10 12 and following the instructions of this 12 year old which led to an amazing healing in our life one of the most profound healings in a life and in our community you know we always watch the use of of pairings and relationships and configurations and there's all kinds of little configurations shifts happening we're watching the possible budding relationship of of someone who's 59 with someone who's 23 that's kind of an interesting one it's all kinds of surprises that are coming so i think that's what i took away from it was uh you can't prepare for the form that the healing will occur you just have to desire the healing and then you have to accept whatever form shows up and and seeing all these amazing synchronicities that are happening we're just just amazed at all the different ways it comes in and and you can sit back and and judy was saying today how the things even the difficult times in her life and the times when she felt was some of the struggles she can see now how perfect it was like everything on nuance was leading to what needed to to happen she said like nothing is um it's by accident and all all dots in your life eventually connect and you'll see it so and she also said that there is no skill or anything that she developed throughout her life that was not used by the Holy Spirit so so it's like even the mistakes very encouraging you know it's nothing is by mistake and nothing is by chance and anything that somehow we're good at it or we don't have to feel that that is not gonna be useful in our journey of awakening is all going to be really really essential eventually to serve the plan and and it's our job to embrace it so fully and really allow this body and all our skills to be used yeah yeah it's been beautiful too because in the last 14 years of having lunches with judy I think this was maybe my like fifth or sixth time but she's always relayed these experiences whether it seems to be something extreme going on with the body whether it's a a massive heart attack or it's a falling and not being able to move or whatever and then there's just something inside of her that's just either smiling or laughing when these things happen that's so far back and so detached that it's it just finds if she finds it laughable and I think that's a good little symbol of the spirit too in us that no matter how much the ego judges something or judges a strain or something difficult or challenging there's a part of our mind that really is is having a big laugh and we actually can tune into that part at any point even when you're laying on the floor or even when you're in the middle of what it seemed to be a massive heart attack or whatever you can always quickly zoom into this point and feel the lightness and the left or around the whole thing and that was beautiful too that's a great reminder and another thing is she said her husband Whit is actually very much into measurement and precision and he actually asked Bill Bedford once how to measure my her progress and how far am I into awakening and Bill said how long do you hold grievance that is a good measurement and I thought that's that's really beautiful because it's not on the linear timelines like you know that's something that we all can connect with how long do I hold the grievance really yeah yeah we also talked about I think the one of the early themes was perpetuation perpetuating what's been given like foundation for inner peace is the original publisher of A Course in Miracles and they go through their challenges and and shifting and changing in terms of who's on the board and leadership and all kinds of things that are going as as the founders and the elders are growing older and stepping out there a new one stepping in and really I look around the room we're all part of it's like Star Trek where this is the next generation we're not Spock and Kirk we're actually the next generation you know we've come in to carry the torch and you could feel it you could feel Judy is part of a winner part of a handoff they're handing it over and and we're kind of saying job well done you have done very very well and there's a passing of the torch but there's a there's a perpetuation with it there's a continuity and yet we all agree that it comes down to moment by moment prayer and that seemed to be the theme that was coming up tuning in in a prayerful way feeling the prayer staying with it and trusting that and that was one story after another about that prayer yeah that's really beautiful yeah I really like that you know they're both in their 80s and they're still talking about their forgiveness lessons and how they they use everyday lives and and watch the the emotions that come up that to be forgiven to be forgiven you know that's still like a very much part of what they practice and and which actually said until you start to practice across the miracles it means nothing like it you haven't started yet until the moment that you start to practice that yeah there's some interesting things because Francis and Whit were going back and forth with the Mandarin and then there was one point where Whit was talking about how when he's was in Taiwan and when he's been over in China and so forth that that the most fascinating thing for him was not the Asian was not the language it was trying to merge into what he called the Asian mind or looking at being so much like a curious child almost wanting to say how are these people that I'm with how are they viewing the world he found that fascinating you can see that sparkle and also he was was part of the United Nations you know embassy emissaries to China so last time we had lunch and if you remember Sundari he was telling some of those stories of of how he he was over in Taiwan and then finally he he in a delegation from the United States got called into into mainland China and the purpose of going in was to meet Mao Mao Zedong and so there they are they go in as an American delegation to meet Mao and it's a weekend I think he said and they're waiting you know to meet Mao and then Mao dies Mao dies the only reason they've got into the country is to meet Mao and Mao dies and so the people of the Chinese government around there they're like they didn't know what to do with the American delegation they had in there so they just sent them off to I think it was Tibet they just sent them I kept them out of here we didn't know what to do we got an American delegation here so they sent them to Tibet and just turned them out on the streets of Tibet this is the American delegation and Whit was one of them so he was out there and then I think it was cold it was wet he was thrown out into the streets and at one point I think he developed he got very very sick I forget what it was poisoning or something like this he got very very very sick and so he was dying and so he at one point he said told the story where he was like dying there and he said Jesus I just want to thank you for all the things he said I've lived such a wonderful full life and I just have to say here as I'm dying I'm so so grateful and he almost stopped his prayer there but then he said and if you have anything else that I can do for you at all on the planet then you just I'm your man I'm your man and then they get they get rescued somehow he makes it back he isn't marrying Judy scutch and and being ahead of charge of all these I think there's 25 he said 25 translations of of course the miracles so it's like if you ever get to the point where you just offer your life up to Jesus to say thank you for everything and if there's anything else you want me to do I'm your man you can say that because there's a saying in the Bible too much to those who much is given much will be asked or required and I think his life took that way and we find that's the way our life did you know as soon as you have that prayer of the heart and you say use me take over my life you know you are in charge and I am no longer trying to run my life if you think you were busy before if you think you were working before at a job a corporation or whatever you ain't seen nothing yet you will to those who much is given much is required and so when you give your mind to the spirit and you take it away from the ego then the spirit's going to use all the skills and abilities that the ego developed in the plan of awakening for everybody for the whole universe like that movie the island some of you might have seen Scarlett Johansson you and McGregor they get away from from the cloneville and and yet when they get out there they have a temptation to just kind of go off and and live their couple human life and then they are called back to go back right into the beast and free all the prisoners set all the captives free and that's what's in our heart we we're here to set everyone free and as Jesus says as long you will not be free as long as one slave walks the earth so you have to have such a complete change of mind not that there are individual slaves but as long as you believe in the ego in the little in the tiniest bit then everyone you see is in slavery including how you perceive yourself when you heal with your mind by releasing the judgment and the perspective of the ego then everyone is set free simultaneously so very quantum so we left some books there yeah yeah we did yeah we listed gifts when they were talking about Helen receiving the course and how she was not her mission her function was such that she wasn't to apply the course and that was so interesting just that the rest of them were applying it to their lives and their situations but that wasn't her function that wasn't her her mission her dot by dot because it wouldn't have worked well if she had and just the perfection of David being David and Gia being Gia each of us just be valving val and I mean how we're on our own perfect dot dot path and even if it doesn't look like it even if Helen wasn't applying the course to her life in the same way the others were and that was very very interesting to me just thinking about that thinking about the perfection of the dot by dot place we find ourselves and how our path piggybacks and fits all together over time and the other thing that was really good for me to hear was that the atonement was not at one minute but the correction because sometimes I think of it that way and that seemed to give me a seating for fruitful contemplation of that and what the atonement is and what it isn't yeah yeah he actually uh also had heard the story of Willis Harmon some of you know Willis Harmon he's quite a famous uh transpersonal psychotherapist from right out out in this area and um I think he wanted to meet Helen and so uh they arranged for Helen to meet him and he was on he had to catch the plane so he didn't have much time so he had kind of a brief encounter and that was beautiful that Judy was talking about how um finally Willis just looked Helen right in the eye and says so what is the what does the course mean to you and Judy saw this little look in Helen's eye almost like she was going to give him a quick flip flip flip an answer but actually she she was very very sincere and she said which has been quoted I think by Judy a very famous line I know the course is true I just don't believe it and Willis was like thank you okay gotta catch my plane and then later the the rest of the story like Paul Harvey the rest of the story was Judy basically looked at Helen and said something like I don't buy it and and I don't really think that's really what you meant you you have to change in that a d to a w and it was Judy saying uh I I know that the course is true I just won't believe it will not this volition involved don't is more of just the way things are but won't so so in one sense we got to feel the perfection is that Sundari was talking about everyone's playing their part perfectly regardless of how they judge it if they think they're in resistance or denial or they're not fully able to do it or not that doesn't really matter there is a perspective that shows that everyone is playing their part perfectly from this higher perspective but we have to be willing to open to the higher perspective and that was what I took from that story it was a beautiful a lot of don't but it won't and then we're constantly having to really be honest with ourselves how willing am I to practice how willing am I to transfer the training and you know it's one thing to study whatever pathway you study but how willing am I to just let go and truly practice I think Bill Thetford was a good example of that I know in the last couple years of his life he just took it so sincerely that he just used every moment to practice regardless of whatever happened in his life before that that's really what it's about practical application so we're here with the beautiful group of people and yeah this is our our wrap-up to our quick trip our quick tour two-day tour does anyone have anything you want to share or ask or and it ties into what you were saying oh my hair it ties into to what Francis was saying like you know the answer about how long does it take to which word verb did you forgive how long does it take to forgive the grievances oh yeah how long does it take to let go grievances and then and then when I heard you say that I'm thinking wow well I'm holding grievances of myself since ever and uh and that goes back to that unworthiness like I'm trying to learn to play the piano and I can play a certain way and then my sister she's visiting and she came next to me to hear what I was playing and all of a sudden I make a million mistakes and I feel very uncomfortable as if like this sense of unworthiness or I need to get punished if someone wants to think that I'm good at something I'm kind of sabotaging myself so it's like I can't let go of grievances against myself as if I have something against myself and so my question is uh what do we do with that this sense of unworthiness and holding grievances against ourselves it's just something about letting go grievances but other people but when it's about your own self like I don't even have like some with other people's as if okay I'm not going to see that person for a while and I'm going to breathe and pray and and uh but it's like when it's like inside you can't even see it so I don't know if you have something to say about that. Yeah actually um today we talked about um everybody's called but few choose to answer like we actually talked a little bit about that and I I felt like um um Judy also said that like everybody's called not necessarily called to to be on the pathway of a course of miracles but everybody is called regardless and I feel like the spirit really is calling us to accept his guidance and to take that on and and that is scary so a lot of the times unworthiness isn't something that is static is is you know this is me I'm just unworthy a lot of the times is this resistance unconscious resistance and fear to accept what is given because we know uh some part of our mind that that we're gonna be expanding so much we we're not gonna be the same anymore because our consciousness is gonna expand as we accept the function as given by the spirits step by step even as um Tamara who is Judy's daughter I think she she had the foundation for all her life Judy all the way till she is now 84 and she never thought her daughter would be interested to take it on and and they never had this kind of discussion I guess and then her daughter was called and it was her time and Jesus is calling her and she just suddenly said yes and and Judy was like surprised oh my god I would never have guessed that she would have said yes but that is really our function you know we're not really here to battle with the ego to to like you know like go of certain kind of self-concept but where our our responsibility is to accept the spirit calling and the spirit guidance step by step and that is the only way to to take us out of this unworthiness this smallness and weakness you know yeah and I think this thing too about mistakes you know it's like when you when you watch animals in nature or you watch animals playing and they do all kinds of things it doesn't seem to be that self-consciousness that's that's so concerned or even when you watch children playing um they can do all kinds of goofy things uh we were just you were just saying oh look at my hair you know you have kids they look like him and they're not thinking about their hair or they're not thinking about what they're wearing if they've got stains all over their their shirt from playing in the mud all over the face and everything that's they don't really care it's like reorienting away from this idea of mistakes as if there's some kind of standard you know they always say dances if no one is watching you know be in a place where you just relax and relax more and more and and it can just flow through and flow through and flow through with with no judgment about how it looks and I mean I've even met people that are like singing coaches and they actually will tell me everyone can sing in their mind that's their mindset they just believe everyone can sing they don't believe that there's some that can sing and some that can't we're same with dancing and different things like this so it's it's really this the guilt is coming from this sense of a of a personality self and world outside of that somehow that that this personality self has to measure up and there's a lot of comparison with other people and those kind of things and you know to get into a place and even to practice that in relationships of of letting everyone off the hook so that you can let your mind off the hook as well you know judge not let's you be judged if we're still categorizing people and judging and then we'll do the same to ourself and that keeps the mind bound onward and upward not the real you yeah yes that's right they've a very contemplative group here oh i'm doing reading that oh i'm on hey just like us the people watching unlike other cameras when you look into a lens you're looking you say i'm in the motion picture that's for dinner they type here's dessert bliss bliss is for dinner thank you all for tuning in we thought we would do a periscope and we remembered yeah the hearts are flying we'll say goodbye come again