 Chapter 8 It was not yet dark, but street lamps had begun to flare and flicker in the gust of a cold, damp evening. A thin and slippery mud smeared the pavement. Terran had walked mechanically as far as to the top of Park Lane before he began to consider his immediate course. Among the people who stood waiting for our omnibuses, he meditated thus. She may not get home until seven or half-past, then she will have a meal. I had better put it off till about half-past eight. That leaves me some four hours to dispose of. First of all, I'll walk home, and—yes, by all the devils—I'll finish that bit of writing. A year ago I could no more have done it under such circumstances than it built a suspension bridge. Today I will—just to show that I have some grit in me. Down Park Lane, and by Buckingham Palace, across to Westminster, he kept his thoughts for the most part on that bit of writing. Only thus could he save himself from an excess of fury which would only have injured him. The ire of shame in which a man is tempted to beat his head against stone walls. He composed aloud, balancing many a pretty antithesis, and polishing more than one lively paradox. In his bedroom study the fire had gone out. No matter, he would ride in the cold. It was mere Emanue Winses' work, penning at the dictation of a sarcastic demon. Was he a Sibirite? Many a poor scribbler has earned bed and breakfast with numb fingers. The fire in his body would serve him for an hour or two. So he sat down and achieved his task to the last syllable. He read it through, corrected it, made it up for post, and rose with the plaudits of conscience. Who shall say now that I am a fob and a weakling? Half past seven. Good, just time enough to appease his hunger and reach Grove Lane by the suitable hour. He went out to the little coffee shop, which was his resort in Spartan moods, ate with considerable appetite, and walked over Westminster Bridge to the Camberwell Tram. To kill time on the journey he bought a half-penny paper. As he ascended Grove Lane, his heart throbbed more than the exercise warranted. At the door of the house, which he had never yet entered, and which he had not looked upon for more than a year, he stood to calm himself, with lips set and cheek pale in the darkness. Then a confident peal at the knocker. It was Mary who opened. He had never seen her, but knew that this grave, hard-featured person, not totally unlike a born gentlewoman, must be Mary Woodruff. And in her eyes he read a suspicion of his own identity. "'Is Miss Lord at home?' he asked, in a matter of fact way. "'Yes. What name shall I mention?' Mr. Tarrant. Her eyes fell, and she requested him to enter, to wait in the hall for a moment, whom went upstairs. She was absent for a few minutes, and on returning, asked him to follow her. She led to the drawing-room. On the way, Tarrant felt a surprise that in so small a house, the drawing-room should be correctly situated on the upper floor. Here he had again to wait. A comfortable room, he thought, and with a true air of home about it. He knew how significant is this impression, first received on entering a strange abode, home or encampment, attraction or repulsion, according to the mind of the woman who rules there. Was it Nancy or Mary who made the atmosphere of the house? The door opened, and he faced towards it. Nancy's dress had an emphasis of fashion formally unknown to it, appropriate enough considering her new occupation. The flush upon her cheeks, the light of doubtful meaning in her eyes, gave splendor to a beauty matured by motherhood. In the dark street, a fortnight ago, Tarrant could hardly be said to have seen her. He gazed in wonder and admiration. What has brought you here? A cause quite sufficient. This is a little house. Can we talk without being overheard? You can shout if you wish to. She answered, flippantly. The servant is out, and Mary is downstairs. Nancy did not seat herself and offered no seat to the visitor. Why have you made yourself a shop girl? I didn't know that I had. I've told you go daily to some shop or other. I am engaged in a place of business, but I don't—however, that doesn't matter. What business is it of yours? Who is Mr. Luckworth Crue? Nancy kept her eyes still more resolutely, fronting his severe look. A man I used to know. You don't see him nowadays? It's many months since I saw him. Who then is the woman who has told him your whole story, with embellishments, and who says she has had it from you yourself? Nancy was speechless. I don't say there is any such person—Tarrant continued. The man may have lied in that particular, but he has somehow got to know a good deal about you—where and when your child was born, where it is now, where I live, and so on. And all this he has reported to your aunt, Mrs. Damrule. To her? How do you know? For answer he held out Mrs. Damrule's note of invitation, then added, I have been with her this afternoon. She is coming to offer you her protection against the scoundrel who has ruined you, and who is now living upon you. What do you mean? That's the form the story is taken, either in Mr. Crue's mind, or in that of the woman who had told it to him. Don't they know that I am married? Evidently not. And they think you are having money from me. That's how they explain you're taking a place in a shop. Nancy laughed, and laughed again. How ridiculous! I'm glad you can get amusement out of it. Perhaps you can suggest how the joke began. She moved a few steps, then turned again to him. Yes, I know who the woman must be. It's Beatrice French. I was in front of yours, of course. Nothing of the kind. But you've taken her near confidence up to a certain point. Yes, I have told her. And she told Mr. Crue. I understand that. Well, what doesn't matter? Tarrant was at a loss to interpret this singular levity. He never truly believed that reading of Nancy's character by means of which he tried to persuade himself that his marriage was an unmitigated calamity, and a final parting between them the best thing that could happen. His memories of her, and the letters she had written him, colored her personality far otherwise. Yet was not the harsh judgment, after all, the true one. It doesn't matter to you, he said, that people think you an unmarried mother, that people are talking about you with grins and sneers. Nancy reddened an angry shame. Let them talk. She exclaimed violently. What does it matter? So long as they don't know, I'm married. So long as they don't know. How can you tell this woman? Do you suppose I told her for amusement? She found out what had happened at Falmouth, found out simply by going down there and making inquiries, because she suspected me of some secret affair with the man she wants to marry herself, this Mr. Crew. The wonder of wonders is that no one else got to know of it in that way. Anyone who cared much what happened to me would have seen the all but impossibility of keeping such a secret. It is a notable instance of evolutionary process that the female mind, in wrath, flies to just those logical ineptitudes which most surely exasperate the male intelligence. Taryn gave a laugh of irate scorn. Why, you told me the other day that I cared particularly whether your secret was discovered or not, that I only married you in the hope of profiting by it. Wouldn't any woman think so? I hope not. I believe there are some women who don't rush naturally to a base supposition. Did I, Nancy exclaimed, with a vehement passion that made her breast heave? Didn't I give you time enough, believe in you until I could believe no longer? The note of her thrilling voice went to Taryn's heart, and his head drooped. That may be true, he said gravely. But go on with your explanation. This woman came to you and told you what she discovered. Yes. And you allowed her to think you unmarried. What choice had I? How was my child to be brought up if I lost everything? Good God, Nancy, did you imagine I should leave you to starve? His emotion, his utterance of her name, caused her to examine him with a kind of wonder. How did I know? How could I tell at that time whether you were alive or dead? I had to think of myself and the child, my poor girl. The words fell from him involuntarily. Nancy's look became as scornful and defiant as before. Oh, that was nothing. I've gone through a good deal more than that. Stop. Tell me this. Have you in your anger, anger natural enough, allowed yourself to speak to anyone about me in the way I should never forgive? In the spirit of your letter, I mean. Did you give this Beatrice French any ground for thinking that I made a speculation of you? I said nothing of that kind, nor to anyone else, to no one. Yet you told this woman where I was living and that I had been abroad for a long time. Why? Yes, I told her so much about you, Nancy replied. Not when she first came to me, but afterwards, only the other day. I wanted employment and didn't know how to get it except through her. She promised me a place if I would disclose your name, not that she knew or cared anything about you, but because she still had suspicions about Mr. Crue. I was desperate, and I told her. Desperate? Why? How can I make you understand what I have gone through? What do you care? And what do I care whether you understand or not? It wasn't for money, and Beatrice French knew it wasn't. Then it must have been that you could not bear the monotony of your life. Her answer was a short, careless laugh. Where is this shop? What do you do? It's a dress supply association. I advise fools about the fashions and exhibit myself as a walking fashion plate. I can't see how it should interest you. Whatever concerns you, Nancy, interests me more than anything else in the world. Again she laughed. What more do you want to know? She was half turned from him, leaning at the mantelpiece, a foot on the fender. You said just now that you've gone through worse things than the shame of being thought I'm married. Tell me about it all. Not I, indeed. When I was willing to tell you everything, you didn't care to hear it. It's too late now. It's not too late, happily, to drag you out of this wretched slough into which you are sinking. Whatever the cost, that shall be done. Thank you. I'm not disposed to let anyone drag me anywhere. I want no help. And if I did, you would be the last person I should accept it from. I don't know why you came here after the agreement we made the other night. Terrin stepped towards her. I came to find out whether you were telling lies about me, and I should never have thought it possible but for my bad conscience. I know you had every excuse for being embittered and for acting, eventually. It seems you've only told lies about yourself. As after all, you are my wife. I shan't allow that. Once more she turned upon him passionately. I am not your wife. You married me against your will and shook me off as soon as possible. I won't be bound to you. I shall act as a free woman. Bound to me you are, and shall be, as I do you. You may say it 50 times, and it will mean nothing. How bound to you? Bound to share my money? I forgive you that, because I have treated you ill. You don't mean it, either. You know I am capable of such a thought, but that shall very soon be put right. Your marriage shall be made known at once. Known to whom? To the people concerned, to your guardians. Don't trouble yourself, she answered with a smile. They know it already. Taren half-closed his eyes as he looked at her. What's the use of such a silly falsehood? I told you I had gone through a good deal more than you imagined. I struggled to keep my money, in spite of shames and miseries, and I will have it for myself and my child. If you want to know the truth, go to Samuel Barnby and ask him what he has had to do with me. I owe no explanation to you. Taren could see her face only in profile. Marbling at the complications she gradually revealed, he felt his blood grow warm with desire of her beauty. She was his wife, yet guarded, as by maidenhood. A familiar touch would bring the color to her cheeks, the light of resentment to her eyes. Passion made him glad of the estrangement, which compelled him to be a new wooing, and promised on her part a new surrender. You don't owe it me, Nancy, but if I beg you to tell me all, because I have come to my senses again, because I know how foolish and cruel I have been. Remember what we agreed. Go your way, and let me go mine. I knew I deal what I was agreeing to. I took it for granted that your marriage was strictly a secret, and that you might be free in the real sense if you chose. Yes, and you were quite willing, because it gave you your freedom as well. I am as free as I wish to be. I've made a life for myself that satisfies me. And now you come to undo everything. I won't be tormented. I haven't do it enough. Then only one course is open to me. I shall publish your marriage everywhere. I shall make a home for you, and have the child brought to it. Then come or not, as you please. I mentioned of the child Nancy regarded him with cold curiosity. How are you to make a home for me? I thought you had difficulty enough in supporting yourself. That is no concern of yours. It shall be done, and in a day or two. Then make your choice. You think I can be forced to live with a man I don't love. I shouldn't dream of living with a woman who didn't love me. But you are married, and a mother, and the secrecy that is degrading you shall come to an end. Acknowledge me or not, I shall acknowledge you, and make it known that I am to blame for all that has happened. And what good will you do? I shall do good to myself at all events. I'm a selfish fellow, and shall be so to the end, no doubt. Nancy glanced at him to interpret the speech by his expression. He was smiling. What could it do you to have to support me? The selfishness I see in it is you're wishing to take me from a comfortable home and make me poor. That can't be helped. And what's more, you won't think it a hardship. How do you know that? I have borne dreadful degradations rather than lose my money. That was for the child's sake, not for your own. He said it softly and kindly, and for the first time Nancy met his eyes without defiance. It was. I could always have earned my own living, somehow. Taryn paused a moment, then spoke with look averted. Is he well, and properly cared for? If he were not well and safe, I shouldn't be away from him. When will you let me see him, Nancy? She did not smile, but there was a brightening of her countenance, which she concealed. Taryn stepped to her side. Dear, my own love, will you try to forgive me? It was all my cursed laziness. It would never have happened if I hadn't fallen into poverty. Poverty is the devil, and it overcame me. How can you think that I shall be strong enough to face it? She asked, moving half a step away. Leave me to myself. I am contented. I have made it my mind about what is before me, and I won't go through all that again. Tired of standing, she dropped upon the nearest chair and lay back. You can't be contented, Nancy, in a position that dishonors you. From what you tell me, it seems that your secret is no secret at all. Will you compel me to go to that man, Barnby, and seek information from him about my own wife? I've had to do worse things than that. Don't torture me by such vacance. I entreat you to tell me at once the worst that you have suffered. How did Barnby get to know of your marriage? And why has he kept silent about it? There can't be anything that you are ashamed to say. No, the shame is all yours. I take it upon myself, all of it. I ought never to have left you. But that baseness followed only too naturally on the cowardice which kept me from declaring our marriage when honor demanded it. I have played a contemptible part in this story. Don't refuse to help me now that I'm ready to behave more like a man. Put your hand in mine, and let us be friends, if we may, and be more. She's not irresponsive. You were a brave girl. You consented to my going away because it seemed best, and I took advantage of your sincerity. Often enough, that last look of yours has reproached me. I wonder how I had the heart to leave you alone. Nancy raised herself and said coldly, it was what I might have expected. I'd only my own folly to thank. You behaved as most men would. This was a harder reproach than any yet. Tarrant winced under it. He would much rather have been accused of abnormal villainy. And I was foolish, continued Nancy, in more ways than you knew. You feared I had told Jessica Morgan of our marriage, and you were right. Of course I denied it. She has been the cause of my worst trouble. In rapid sentences, she told the story of her successive humiliations, recounted her sufferings at the hands of Jessica and Beatrice and Samuel Barnby. When she seized, there were tears in her eyes. Has Barnby been here again? Tarrant asked sternly. Yes, he has been twice, and talked in just the same way. And I had to sit still before him. Has he said one word that? No, no. She interrupted hastily. He's only a fool, not man enough to. That saves me trouble, said Tarrant. I'm only to treat him like a fool. My poor darling, what foul torment you have endured. And you pretend that you would rather live on this fellow's interested generosity, for, of course, he hopes to be rewarded, then throw the whole squalled entanglement behind you, and be a free, honest woman, even if a poor one. I see no freedom. You have lost all your love for me. Well, I can't complain of that. But bear my name, you shall, and be supported by me. I tell you that it was never possible for me actually to desert you, and the little one. Never possible. I shirked a duty as long as I could. That's all it comes to. I loathe and paltred until the want of a dinner drove me into honesty. Try to forget it, dear Nancy. Try to forgive me, my dearest. She was dried again, and his appeal seemed to have no power over her emotions. You are forgetting, she said practically, that I lived on money to which I had no right, and that I, or you, can be forced to repay it. Repaid it must be, whether demanded or not. Where does Barnby live? Perhaps I could see him tonight. What means of you of keeping us all alive? Some of my work has been accepted here and there, but there's something else I have in mind. I don't ask you to become a poverty-stricken wife in the ordinary way. I can't afford to take a house. I must put you, with the child, into as good lodgings as I can hope to pay for, and work on by myself, just seeing you as often as you will let me. Even if you were willing, it would be a mistake for us to live together. For one thing, I couldn't work under such conditions. For another, it would make you a slave. Tell me, are you willing to undertake the care of the child, if nothing else is asked of you? Nancy gave him a disdainful smile, a smile like those of her girlhood. I'm not quite so feeble, creature, as you think me. You would rather have the child to yourself than be living away from him. If you have made up your mind, why trouble to ask such questions? Because I've no wish to force burdens upon you. You said just now that you could see a little prospect of freedom in such a life as I have to offer you. I thought you perhaps meant that the care of the child would. I meant nothing, Nancy broken, with fretful impatience. Where is he, our boy? At Dolwich, I told you that in my last letter. Yes, yes. I thought you might have changed. I couldn't have found a better, kinder woman. Can you guess how many answers I had to the advertisement? Thirty-two. Of course, five and twenty of them took it for granted you would pay so much a week and ask no questions. They would just not have starved, baby, unless you had hinted to them that you were willing to pay a lump sum for a death certificate, in which case the affair would have been more or less skillfully managed. Mary knew all about that. She came from Palmyth and spent two days envisaging people. I knew I could rely on her judgment. There were only four or five people she cared to see at all, and of these only one that seemed trustworthy. To be sure, one out of two and thirty, I'll hire a percentage that would apply to mankind at large, I dare say. By the by, I was afraid you might have found a difficulty in registering the birth. No, I went to the office myself, the morning that I was leaving Palmyth, and the registrar evidently knew nothing about me. It is in such a small place that everybody living there is noticed and talked of. And Mary took the child straight to Dolwich, two days before I came, so as to have the house ready for me. Perhaps it was unfortunate, Nancy, that you had so good a friend. But for that I should have suffered more uneasiness about you. She answered with energy, there's no husband in the world worth such a friend as Mary. At this, Terent first smiled, then laughed. Nancy kept her lips rigid. It happened that he again saw her face in exact profile, and again it warmed the current of his blood. Someday you shall think better of that. She paid no attention. Watching her, he asked, what are you thinking of so earnestly? Her answer was delayed a little, but she said at length, with an absent manner. Horse might lend me the money to pay back what I owe. Your brother, if he can afford it, there would be less objection to that than to any other plan I can think of. But I must ask it myself. You shall beg no more favors. I will ask it in your presence. You will do nothing of the kind, Nancy replied, dryly. If you think to please me by humiliating yourself, you are very much mistaken. And you mustn't imagine that I put myself in your hands to be looked after as though I had no will of my own. With the past you have nothing to do with my past at all events. Care for the future as you like. But I must see your guardians. No, I won't have that. She stood up to emphasize her words. I must. It's the only way in which I can satisfy myself. Then I refuse to take a step, said Nancy. Leave all that to me, and I will go to live where you please and never grumble, however poor I am. Interfere, and I will go on living as now on Samuel Barbie's generosity. There was no mistake in her resolution. Tarrant hesitated and bit his lip. How long then before you act, he inquired abruptly. When my new home is found, I'm ready to go there. You will duel honestly with me. You will tell everyone, and give up everything, not strictly yours. I have done the flies, said Nancy. Thank heaven, so have I. End Chapter 8, End Part 5, Chapter 1, Part 6, A Virtue of Necessity, Oven the Year of Jubilee, by George Kissing. Upon the final tempest in DeCrestmoney Park, they're followed, for Arthur Peechee, a calmer and happier season than he had ever known. To have acted with stern resolve is always a satisfaction, especially to the man conscience of weak good nature, and condemned for the most part to yield. In his cheap lodging at Clampham, Peechee awoke each morning with a vague sense of joy, which became delight as soon as he collected his senses. He was a free man. No snarl greeted him as he turned his head upon the pillow. He could lie and meditate, could rise quietly when the moment sounded, could go downstairs to a leisurely meal, cheered perhaps by a letter reporting that all was well with his dear little son. Simple, elementary pleasures, but how he savoured them after his years of sordid bondage. It was a blessedness of divorce, without squalid publicity. It was the vast relief of widowerhood, without dreary memories of death and burial. In releasing himself from such companionship, the man felt as though he had washed and become clean. Innocent of scientific speculation, he had them as fortune about this time to read in paper or magazine something on the subject of heredity, the idle verbiage of some half-informed scribbler. It set him anxiously thinking whether his son would develop the vices of the mother's mind, and from that day he read all the printed chatter regarding natural inheritance that he could lay his hands on. The benefit he derived from this course of study was neither more nor less than might have been expected. It supplied him with a new trouble, which sometimes kept him wakeful. He could only resolve that his boy should have the best education procurable for money if he starved himself in providing it. He had begun to live with the utmost economy, and for a twofold reason. The business of Messer's ducker, blunt in company, threatened a decline, and, at this apart, he desired to get out of it, to obtain an interest in some more honorable concern. For a long time it had been known to him that the disinfectants manufactured by his firm were far from trustworthy, and of late the complaints of purchasers had become frequent. With the manufacturing department he had nothing to do. He tried to think himself free from responsibility. For in spite of amiable qualities he was a man of business and saw a great part of life through the commercial spectacles commonly worn nowadays. Nevertheless, conscience unsettled him. One day he heard his partners joking over the legislative omission by virtue of which they were able to adulterate their disinfectants to any extent without fear of penalty. Their laughter grated upon him, and he got out of the way. If he could lay aside a few thousands of pounds, assuredly his connection with the affair should be terminated. So he lived, for his own part, on a pound a week, and informed Ada, through his solicitor, that she must be satisfied with a certain very moderate allowance. Mrs. Peachy naturally laid herself out to give everyone as much trouble as possible. Insulting postcards showered upon her husband at his place of business. After a few weeks she discovered his lodging and addressed the postcards thither. But she made no attempt at personal molestation. The loss of her child gave her not the slightest concern. But she determined to find out where the boy was living. She remembered that Peachy had relatives at Canterbury, and after a troublesome search succeeded in her purpose. An interview with her husband's married sister proved so unsatisfactory to Ada that she had recourse to her familiar weapons, rage, insult, and menace, with the result that she was forcibly removed and made a scandal in the quiet street. Then she consulted men of law, and found one who encouraged her to sue for restitution of conjugal rights. It came nothing, however, for in the meantime she was growing tired of her solitary existence. Friends, of course, she had none, and the spirit moved her to try a change of tactics. She wrote a long, long letter, penitent, tear-bustained. I have behaved outrageously to you, dearest Arthur. I must have been mad to say and do such things. The doctor tells me that my health has been in a very bad state for a long time, and I really don't remember half that has happened. You were quite right when you told me that I should be better if I didn't live such an idle life, and I have quite made up my mind to be an industrious and a good woman. All yesterday I spent in needlework and crying, oh, the tears that I have shed. My darling husband, what can I do to win your forgiveness? Do you consider how lonely I am in this house? Beatrice has been horrid to me. If I had settled I think about her, she wouldn't like to hear it. But I am learning to control my tongue. She lives alone in a flat, and has men to spend every evening with her. It's disgraceful. And there's Fanny, who I am sure is leading an immoral life abroad. Of course, I shall never speak to her again. You were quite right when you said my sisters were worthless. Peachy had never permitted himself any such remark. I'll have no one but you, my dear. Good sweet husband. So on, over several pages, reading it, the husband stood aghast at this new revelation of female possibilities. At the end he hurriedly threw it into the fire, fearing, and with good reason, that weakness in his own character to which the woman addressed herself. Every day for a week there arrived a replica of this epistle, and at length he answered, It was the fatal concession. Though he wrote with almost savage severity, at a reply in terms of exuberant gratitude, oh, how delighted she was to see his dear handwriting once more, how it reminded her of happy days when they loved each other so tenderly. Then came two strophes of a sentimental, drawing room song, and lastly, an impassioned appeal to be allowed to see her husband, were it only for five minutes. Another week of such besieging, and the poor fellow's foolish heart gave way. He would see the wretched woman, and tell her that, though never could he consent to live with her again, he had no malicious feeling, and was willing to be her friend, at a distance. So at six o'clock, one evening, behold him, tremulously, approaching the house in De Crestmoney Park, tremulously, because he dreaded the assault upon his emotions, to which he so recklessly exposed himself. He was admitted by a very young servant, in a very clean cap and apron. Silence possessed the dwelling. He did not venture to tread with natural step. He entered the drawing room, and there, from amid a heap of household linen, which required the needle, rose dependentant wife. Ostentatiously, she drew from her finger a thimble, then advanced with head bent. How kind of you, Arthur! How—how very— And she was dissolved in tears, so genuine, that they marked pale rillettes across the bloom of her cheeks. About a month after that, the furniture was removed from De Crestmoney Park, to a much smaller house at Brixton, where Mr. and Mrs. Peachy took up their abode together. A medical man shortly called, Annada, not without secret disgust, smilingly, made known to her husband, that she must now be very careful of her health. On one point only the man had held to a rational resolve. He would not allow his little son to be brought back to London, away from the home where he was happy and thriving. Out of mere self-will, Anna strove for a long time to overcome this decision, finding argument and artifice of no avail. She dropped the matter. Peachy owed this triumph, largely to the firm common sense of his sister, who plainly refused to let the little fellow quit her care for that of such a woman, as he wasn't fortunate enough to call mother. Christmas came, and with it an unanticipated call from Mrs. Fanny French, who said she had lately recovered from a serious illness in Paris. The nature of her malady, she did not specify. It had left her haggard and thin, but by no means deficient in vivacity. She was dressed with tawdry extravagance, wore a mass of false yellow hair, had her eyebrows dyed black, peaked in contrast, and her cheeks and lips richly carmined. No veritable information as to her past and present could be gleaned from the mixture of French and English, which she ceaselessly gabbled. She had come over for Christmas, that was all, could not dream of returning to live in wretched England. At Brussels and in Paris she had made hosts of friends, just the right sort of people. At a toll to her all the news, of most interest was that which related to Nancy Lorne. Only a month ago it had become known that Nancy was married and the mother of a child. The barbeques found it out somehow, added narrated. She was married to a man called Terrent, someone we never heard of, on the very day of her father's death, and, of course, before she knew anything about his will. Then, of course, it had to be kept dark, or she'd lose all her money. Her husband had enough arthing. She supported him, and they say he lived most of the time in her house. He's a regular scamp, a drinking, bedding fellow. While it all came out, and the barbeques turned earned in the street in a moment's notice, serve her right. Fanny shrieked with merriment. And what is she doing? She went on her knees to Beatrice and begged for a place at the shop, if it was only a few shillings a week. Nice come-down for Nancy Lorne, wasn't it? Of course Beatrice sent her off with the flea interior. I don't know where she's living, but I've heard that her husband has gone to America, and left her to shift for herself. Now there's nothing more to be got out of her. For self-ementory details of this racy narrative, Fanny sought out Beatrice. But to her astonishment and annoyance, Beatrice would tell nothing. The elder sister urged Fanny to give an account of herself and use some very plain speech of the admonitory kind. What has become of that, Jack and Apes Horace Lorne, asked Fanny after a contemptuous remark about sermons? I don't know. The question is, what's going to become of you? Whereupon the girl grew vituberative in two languages and made off. Her relatives saw no more of her for a long time. To Mrs. Peachy was born a daughter. Naturally the months preceding this event had been for a husband, a renewal of martyrdom. His one supporting solace lay in the thought of the little lad at Canterbury. All the old troubles were revived. From morning to night the house rang with brawls between mistress and servants, and the paroxysms favored by her physical condition. That behaved like a candidate for a bedlam, and more than once obliged her husband to seek temporary peace and lodgings. He left home at eight o'clock every morning, and returned as late as possible. The necessity of passing long evenings made him haunt places of entertainment, and he sometimes had recourse to drink. He by nature the soberest of men, in fear of what awaited him on his tardy appearance at Brixton. A month after Atta's confinement he once more acted a sane part, and announced by letter that he would die rather than continue living with his wife. As it was fine autumn weather he went down to a seaside place, where his Canterbury relatives and the little boy joined him for a holiday of several weeks. Again Atta was to receive an allowance. She dispatched a few very virulent postcards, but presently grew quiet, and appeared to accept the situation. In early winter Fanny French came over to England. She had again been ill, and this time with results obviously graver. Her first call was upon Beatrice, who still occupied the flat at Brixton. And here she unbosomed herself of a dolerous story. While her money had vanished, stolen, most of it, Fanny declared, she was without resources, and as anyone could see, in a wretched state of health, would Beatrice have compassion on her, would she lend her money, until she was well enough to look round. Miss French at once took the girl into her own home, and had her looked after. Fanny coughed in an alarming way. The doctor, speaking privately with Beatrice, made an unpleasant report. Was it possible to send the patient to a mild climate for the winter months? Yes, Miss French could manage that, and would. A suitable attendant, having been procured, Fanny was dispatched to Bournemouth. Once in a day or two, she wrote to her sister, thus, You've been awfully kind to me, and I shan't forget it when I'm well again. Feel a good deal, fit her already. Dolish placed this, but I've got to put up with it. I've had a letter from Ada. If you see her, tell her she's a beast, and I wish Arthur would ring her scraggie neck. She says it's all my own fault. Wait till I'm back again, and I'll pay her a call. My own fault indeed. It seems to me I'm very much to be pity. Walking one day along the sea-front by herself, Fanny observed a young man's figure, a few paces in advance of her, which seemed to awaken recollections. Presently, the young man turned and showed, beyond doubt, the countenance of Horus Lord. He met her eyes, gave a doubtful, troubled look, and was going past when Fanny accosted him. Well, don't you know me? Why, it is. It really is. How glad I am to see you. But what on earth are you doing here? I'm using myself. Comme vous, foyer. And you? Oh, doing the same. They had shaken hands, and were sauntering on together. Anything wrong with your health? Fanny asked, scrutinizing the pelfin face, with its touch of warmth on the cheeks. Oh, I've had a bit of a cold. Really to speak of. You've been out of sorts? A little rundown. Over study, they say. Horus looked to surprise, why, I didn't know you went in for that kind of thing. Didn't you? I've been studying abroad for a long time, thinking of taking a place as French teacher in some tip-top high school. I'm very glad to hear it. Capital idea. Sure, I hope you'll be successful. Softly. Tell me something about yourself. Why, it's two years since we saw each other, isn't it? Are you married yet? Horus smiled and colored. No, no, not yet. I'm in business with Luckworth Crue. Sort of a sleeping partner just now. Are you really? And how's your sister? The young man bent his brows uncomfortably. Don't you know anything about her? He asked. I've heard she's married. Yes, a man called Tarrant. Very clever fellow. He writes for the papers. I say, Miss French, I generally have a glass of wine and a biscuit at the confectioners about this time. Will you give me the pleasure of your company? Charmé, monsieur. I generally go in for that same kind of thing. So they repaired to the cake shop and sat talking for half an hour of trifles which made them laugh. And you really didn't know me, said Fanny. When her glass of wine was finished, have I changed so much? A good deal. Not for the worse. Oh dear, no. The girl giggled. Why, don't mind saying that you have changed a good deal for the better. Horus flushed at the compliment. I'm a shoulder. He answered with a sigh, as though the years of a sexagenarian weighed upon him. That's just what I like in you. You're so much more of a man. Don't be offended. They went forth again into the sunshine. At the door both coughed and both pretended that it wasn't a cough at all, but a voluntary little hem. End chapter one. Chapter two, part six, a virtue of necessity, of in the year of jupilee by George Kissing. This labor box recording is in the public domain. Chapter two, Mrs. Damrule was younger than ever. She had spent October abroad with her friends Mrs. and Miss Chiddle, and the greater part of November at Brighton with other friends. Back in town, she established herself at one of the various boarding houses honored by her patronage and prepared to enjoy the social life of winter. Half a year ago, an unwanted depression had troubled her serene existence. At the close of the London season, she seemed weary and spiritless, very unlike herself. Having no invitation for the next two months, she withdrew to Whitsund, and there spent some cheerless weeks. Whitsund was the as yet unfashionable seaside place, which had attracted the speculative eye of Luckworth crew. For the past two years, he had been trying to inspire certain men of capital with his own faith in the possibilities of Whitsund. He owned a share in the new hotel just opened. Whenever his manifold affairs allowed him a day's holiday, he spent it at Whitsund, pacing the small esplanade and meditating improvements. That these improvements signify the conversion of a pretty little old world spot into a hideous brand new resort of noisy hordes, in no degree troubled Mr. Crews' conscience. For his own part, he could appreciate the charms of Whitsund as it stood. He was by no means insensible to natural beauty and the ancient peace which so contrasted with his life of every day. But first and foremost in his mind came the necessity of making money, and to fill his pockets he would no more hesitate about destroying the loveliest spot on earth than the starving hunter would stay his hand out of admiration for bird or beast. It was with much delight that he heard of Mrs. Damrell's retreat to Whitsund to the note in which she acquainted him with her arrival. There he replied effusively. The patronage of a few really fashionable people, such as yourself, would soon do wonders. We must have a special paragraph in the local paper, drawing attention to your being there, and so on. An answer by a return of post rather disappointed him. On no account, wrote Mrs. Damrell, must her name be specially mentioned in the paper. She'd taken very simple lodgings, very inexpensive, and wished to live as quietly as possible. But after seeing the place, she quite agreed with Mr. Crew that it had a future, and if he could run down someday while she was here, it would give her great pleasure to hear his projects explained on the spot. Crew ran down, and speaking of Mrs. Damrell as a really fashionable person, he used no insincerity. From their first meeting he had seen in this lady his ideal of social distinction. She was in fact the only woman of skillfully pretentious demeanor with whom he had ever spoken. Her distant likeness to Nancy Lorde interested and attracted him. Her swath of superiority, odd his conscience, roughness. She seemed to him exquisitely gracious, wonderfully sweet. And as little by little, he attained the right to think of her almost as a friend. His humble admiration became blended with feelings. He took particular care not to betray. Lest he should expose himself to ridicule. Let her age exceeded his own by some years, he was of course aware, but this fact soon dropped out of his mind and never returned to it. Not only did he think Mrs. Damrell, a type of aristocratic beauty, he saw in her countenance all the freshness and the promise of youth. The slight mystery attaching to her position only increased his susceptibility to her charms. It seemed to him very probable that she had but a moderate income. Perhaps she was not free from anxieties on that score. But such a woman would of course marry again and marry well. The thought grew troublesome and presently accounted for ebullitions of wrath, accompanied by more than usually vigorous language when business matters went wrong. At Whitsand, Mrs. Damrell showed herself more than ever sweetly affable. Decisions, she said, have been rather too much for her. She must take care of her health. Besides, and her smile played upon Cruz's pulses, there were troubles, cares, of which she could not speak even to so value to friend. I'm afraid you're anxious about your nephew, remember the man of business, though at the same time he suspected other things. For the lodgings in which he found Mrs. Damrell were certainly modest. Yes, I trouble a good deal about him. If only dear Horace would be reconciled to me. It seems such a long, long time. You know that we have corresponded, but he refuses to see me. It pains me deeply, Mr. Crew. And after a silence, there's a special reason why I wish he would be friends with me, a reason that concerns his own future. Why should I not tell you? I'm sure you will respect my confidence. He will very soon become independent, and then I do so fear he may make a foolish marriage. Yet all the time there's a chance waiting for him which would establish his fortune and his happiness for life. Did he ever speak to you of Miss Chiddle? I don't remember the name. Such a dear, sweet girl, and with really large means. He was introduced to her during the happy time when we saw so much of each other, and she at once became interested in him. Her dear mother assured me of it. She was a very shy, retiring girl, and has refused many offers before and since then. Isn't it a pity? But I am losing all hope, and I so fear he may have formed some other attachment. Crew went back to London, resolved that Horace Lord should no longer play the fool. And he was successful. Horace at all but lost his resentment against Mrs. Damrell. He kept aloof out of stubborn conceit. It had not dignity enough to be called pride. The same feeling that still estranged him for Nancy, though he would gladly have welcomed his sister's offer of affection. Persuaded or commanded by Luckworth Crew, he took the train to Whitsund and remained there for several days. Mrs. Damrell wrote her friend in Farringdon Street a letter of gratitude which acted upon him like champagne. In a post-grip, she said, Mrs. Chiddle and her daughter have consented to come here for a week or two. They will take rooms at the Imperial. Before the end of September, Horace Lord was engaged to Winifred Chiddle. Two years had made very little change in Miss Chiddle's appearance. She was still colorless and abnormally shy, still had the look of one who sheds secret tears, and her repugnance to society had, if possible, increased. Horace thought her pretty was impressed by her extreme gentleness and refinement, but she obtained no power over his emotions such as that formally exercised by Fanny French. It struck him too as a very strange thing that a young lady with a large fortune should be willing to marry a man of his social insignificance. My dear, said Mrs. Damrell, it was a case of love at first sight. But Horace, who had gained some experience of life, could not believe this. He wooed and won, yet even when Winifred accepted him, he felt that she didn't under some constraint. Her pale face declared no happiness. Had she chosen, Mrs. Damrell could have explained the mystery. She knew that several years ago, Winifred's name had been blighted by a scandal and that the girl shrinking from every proposal of marriage was due, in part perhaps, to the memory of love betrayed, in part to a sense of honor, and to the suspicion that men, knowing her just grace, condoned it for the sake of her wealth. Interest made Mrs. Damrell generous. She admitted every excuse for Winifred and persuaded herself that in procuring Horace such a wife, she was doing him only a nominal wrong. The young people could live apart from that corner of society in which Miss Trittle's name gave occasion to smiles or looks of perfunctory censure. If Winifred, after marriage, chose to make confession, why, that was her own affair, and Horace would be wise enough, all advantages considered, to take the matter philosophically. That was the view of a practical-minded observer. To read Winifred perfectly, there needed a much more subtle and sympathetic intelligence. The girl had in truth conceived a liking for Horace Lord and it grew stronger when she learned that neither by birth nor present circumstances did he belong to her own world. To please her mother, she was willing to take a husband, but the husband must be of her own choice. She wished to enter upon a wholly new life, remote from the social conditions, which of late years had crushed her spirit. From the men who had hitherto approached her, she shrank in fear. Horace Lord, good-looking and not uneducated, yet so far from formidable, suggested a new hope. Even though he might be actuated by the ordinary motives, she discerned in him a softness, a pliability of nature, which would harmonize with her own timid disposition. To the thought of deceiving him on the subject of her past, she was reconciled by resolve to make his happiness the sole object of her existence in the future. Horace was amyability itself and seemed, if not to love her ardently, which perhaps she did not even desire, at least to regard her with an increasing affection. Nothing was said about the condition of the prospective bridegroom's health, though Horace had confided to Mrs. Damrell that he suffered from a troublesome cough, accompanied now and then by an alarming symptom. In her boundless exaltation at the end achieved, Mrs. Damrell made light of this complaint. Horace was not free to marry until nearly the end of the year, though money would henceforth be no matter of anxiety. He might as well secure the small inheritance presently due to him. November and December he should spend at Bournemouth under the best medical care, and after that, if needful, his wife would go with him to Madeira or some such place. No wonder Mrs. Damrell could think of nothing but the great fact that Horace had secured a fortune. Her own resources were coming to an end, and but for the certainty that Horace would not grudge her an ample provision, she must at this moment have been wracking her brains even as through the summer, for help against the evil that drew near. Constitutional lightness of heart had enabled her to enjoy life on a steadily and rapidly diminishing fund. There had been hope in Nancy's direction, as well as in her brothers, but the disclosure of Nancy's marriage and Horace's persistency in unfriendliness brought Mrs. Damrell to a sense of peril. One offer of marriage she had received and declined. It came from a man of advanced years and small property. Another offer she might or thought she might at any moment provoke, but only in direst extremity could she think of bestowing her hand upon Luckworth Crue. Crue was in love with her, an amusing fact in itself, and especially so in regard to his former relations with Nancy Lorne. He might become a wealthy man, on the other hand, he might not, and in any case, he was a plebeian. All such miseries were now dismissed from her mind. She went abroad with the chitls, enjoyed herself at Brighton, and came home to prepare for Horace's wedding, Horace himself being at Bournemouth. After her letter of gratitude to Crue, she had ceased to correspond with him. She did not trouble to acquaint him with Horace's engagement, and when Crue, having heard the news from his partner, ventured to send her a letter of congratulation. Mrs. Dammer replied in two or three very civil, but cold sentences. Back in London, she did not invite the man of projects to call upon her. The status she had lost when fears beset her must now be recovered. Let Crue cherish her passion for her, if you like, but let him understand that social reasons made it laughably hopeless. Horace was to come up to London in the third week of December, meant to be married on New Year's Day. The honeymoon would be spent at Ventnor, or somewhere thereabout. Afraid to lose sight of her relative for more than a week or two, Mrs. Dammerle had already been twice to Bournemouth, and now she decided to go for a third time, just to talk quietly over the forthcoming event, and whether Horace broached the subject or not, to apprise him of the straits into which she was drifting. Unannounced by letter, she reached Bournemouth early in the afternoon and went straight to Horace's lodgings. The young man had just finished luncheon, and all things considered, including the fact that it was a remarkably bright and warm day for the time of year. He might have been expected to welcome Mrs. Dammerle cheerfully. Yet on seeing her, his countenance fell. He betrayed an embarrassment which the lady noted with anxious suspicion. Aren't you glad to see me a dear boy? She began, with a kiss upon his cheek. Yes, oh yes, I never dreamt of you appearing just now, that was all. I couldn't resist the temptation, such a morning in London, almost as fine as it is here. And how was your cough? Even as she made the inquiry, he answered it by coughing very badly. I don't think this place suits you Horace, said Mrs. Dammerle gravely. You're not imprudent, I hope. Don't go out after dark. Oh, it was nothing, Horace maintained. For several days, he had hardly coughed at all. But with every word he uttered, Mrs. Dammerle became more convinced of something unusual in his state of mind. He could not keep still, and in trying to put himself at ease, assumed strange postures. When did you hear from Winnifred, she asked? Yesterday, no, the day before. He shrank from her scrutiny, and an expression of annoyance began to disturb his features. Mrs. Dammerle knew well enough the significance of that particular look. It meant the irritation of his self-will, the summoning of forces to resist something he disliked. There's been no difference between you, I hope. No, oh no, Horace replied, wriggling under her luck. At that moment, a servant opened the door. Two ladies have called in the carriage, sir, and would like to see you. I'll go down, excuse me for a moment, Aunt. Who are they, Horace? Asked Mrs. Dammerle, rising with an ill-concealed look of dismay. Some friends I've made here. I'll just go and speak to them. He hurried away. No sooner was he gone than Mrs. Dammerle springing to the window where she could look down upon the carriage standing before the house. It was open, and in it sat two ladies, one middle-aged and the other much younger. To her vexation she could not, from this distance, clearly discern their faces. But on glancing rapidly round the room, she saw Horace's little binocular. An instant brought it into focus upon the carriage, and what she then saw gave Mrs. Dammerle such a shock that an exclamation escaped her. Still she gazed through the glasses and only turned away when the vehicle drove on. Horace came up flushed and panting. It's all right. They wanted me to go for a drive, but I explained. He saw the binocular in Mrs. Dammerle's hand, at the same moment, red detection on her countenance. She gazed at him. He answered the look with laurine challenge. Horace, that was fanny French. So it was on. What is going on between you? The young man took a seat on the edge of the table and swung his leg. He looked suddenly obstinate. We met by accident, here, the other day. How can I believe that, Horace? Said Mrs. Dammerle in a voice of soft reproach. And she drew near to him. Be truthful with me, dear. Do tell me the truth. Is she anything to you? I have told you the truth, Aunt. She came here as I have done for her health. I haven't seen her for two years. And you don't wish to renew acquaintance with her. I'm sure you don't. He looked away and said nothing. My dear, do you know her character? What about her? The tone was startling. But Mrs. Dammerle kept firm, though agitated. She's led the most disgraceful life. I heard about her half a year after she ran away. But, of course, I wouldn't tell you such painful things. Horace readened with anger. And who is to blame for it? He cried passionately. Who drove her to it? Oh, don't. Don't come back to that again, Horace. Pleaded the other. How can anyone drive a girl into a life of scandalous immorality? It was in herself, dear. She took to it naturally, as so many women do. Remember that letter she wrote from Brussels, which I sent you a copy of? It was a forgery. Thundered Horace. I have asked her. She says she never wrote any such letter. Then she lies, as such creatures always do. Bitterness of apprehension over came Mrs. Dammerle's prudence. With flashing eyes she faced the young man and dared his wrath. As they stood thus, the two were astonishingly, like each other, from forehead to chin. It's no use. I'm not going to quarrel with you, aunt. Think what you like of Miss French. I know the truth about her. He slipped from the table and moved away. I will say no more, Horace. You are independent and must have your own acquaintances. But after you are married, the other voice interrupted. I better tell you at once. I shall not marry Miss Trudel. I'm going to ride this afternoon to break it off. Mrs. Dammerle went pale and stood motionless. Horace, you can't be so wicked as that. It's better, he pursued recklessly, to break it off now than to marry her and make her miserable. I don't love her, and I've never really thought I did. I was going to marry her only for her money. Why, she wants to marry me, I don't know. There's something wrong. She doesn't really care for me. She does. I assure you she does. Then I can't help it. Mrs. Dammerle went close to him and touched his arm. My dear, her voice was so low that it seemed terror-stricken. You don't mean to marry anyone else. He drew apart. She followed him. Oh, that would be terrible. What can I say to open your eyes and show you what you are doing? Horace, have you no sense of honour? Can you find in your heart to cast off a girl who loves you and thinks that in so short a time she will be your wife? This again is your fault, he replied, with a violence which proved the conflict of emotions in him. But for you I should never have proposed to win a friend, never dreamt of such a thing. What do I want with her money? I have enough of my own and I shall make more in business. Why have you driven me into this? Did you expect to get some profit out of it? The blow struck home and Mrs. Dammerle flinched. I had your happiness in view, my dear. My happiness, that's your view of things. That's why I couldn't really like you from the first. You think of nothing but money. Why you objected to Fanny's friendship first was because you wished me to marry someone richer. I don't thank you for that kind of happiness. I'd rather marry a woman I can love. And you can love such a creature as that. Again she lost herself command. The mere thought of Fanny's possible triumph exasperated her. I won't hear her abused cried Horace with answering passion. You are the last person who ought to do it. Comparing her and you I can't help saying. An exclamation of pain checked his random words. He looked at Mrs. Dammerle and saw her features rung with anguish. You mustn't speak to me like that. Once more she approached him. If you only knew. I can't bear it. I've always been a worldly woman, but you are breaking my heart Horace. My dear, my dear, if only out of pity for me. Why should I pity you? He cried impatiently. Because Horace, give me your hand dear. Let me tell you something. I'm your mother. She sobbed and choked, clinging to his arm, resting her forehead against it. The young man, stricken with amazement, stared at her, speechless. I am your own mother, dear. She went on in equivering voice. Your mother and Nancy's. And neither of you can love me. How can that be? Horace asked, with genuine perplexity. How could you have married someone else? She passed an arm about his neck and hit her face against him. I loved your father, and he made me free to marry again. You were divorced? Horace did not mean to speak brutally. In his wonderment he merely pressed for a complete explanation. The answer was a sob, and for some moments neither of them spoke. Then the mother, her face still hidden, went on in a thick voice. I married because I was poor, for no other reason, and then came the temptation. I behaved wickedly. I deserted my little children. Don't revenge yourself upon me now, darling. If only I could have told you this before. I did so want to, but I was afraid. I had to conceal half my love for you. You can imagine how I have suffered from your anger and from Nancy's coldness. You don't know me. I've never been able to let you see what I really think and feel. I am worldly. I can't live without luxuries in society and amusements. But I love you, my dear son. And it will break my heart if you ruin yourself. It's true. I thought of Winifred's money. But she is very fond of you, Horace. Her mother has told me she is. And it was because of my own position. I have spent nearly all of my husband's left me. It wasn't enough to supply me with an income. I can only hope that something that you, dear, would forgive your poor mother and help her. If you cast me off, what shall I do? There was a silence. Then the young man spoke gravely. You are welcome, mother, to have my income. But you must leave me free to marry as I like. Then I can't take a penny from you, she answered, weeping. If you ruin yourself, you ruin me as well. The ruin would come if I married Winifred. I love Fanny. I love her with all my heart and soul and have never ceased to love her. Tell me what you like about her. It will make no difference. A fit of violent coughing stopped his speech. He turned away and stood by the window, holding his handkerchief to his mouth. Mrs. Damrell sank upon a chair in mute misery. End Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Part 6 A Virtue of Necessity Oven the Year of Jubilee by George Kissing. Below the hill at Harrow, in a byway, which has no charm but that of quietness, stands a row of small plain houses, built not long ago, yet at a time when small houses were constructed with some regard for soundness and durability. Each contained six rooms has a little strip of garden in the rear, and is, or was in 1889, led at a rent of six and twenty pounds. The house at the far end of the row, as the inhabitants described it, was then teneted by Mary Woodruff, and with her, as a lodger, lived Mrs. Terrant. As a lodger, seeing that she paid a specified weekly sum for her shelter and maintenance, in no other respect could the wretched title apply to her. To occupy furnished lodgings is to live in a house owned and ruled by servants, the least tolerable status known to civilization. From her long experience at Falmouth, Nancy knew enough of the petty miseries attending upon that condition to think of it with dread when the stress of heroic crisis compelled her speedy departure from the old home. It is seldom that heroic crisis bears the precise consequence presumed by the actors in it. Supreme moments are a want to result in some form of compromise. So Nancy, prepared to go forth into the wilderness of landlady's babe and arm, found that so dreary a self-sacrifice neither was exacted of her nor would indeed be permitted. She had to reckon with Mary Woodruff. Mary, thanks to her old master, enjoyed an income more than sufficient to her needs. If Nancy must needs go into lodgings, inevitable perhaps as matters stood, her friend was ready with kind and practical suggestion to wit that she should take and furnish a house for herself and place a portion of it at Mrs. Tarrant's disposal. To this eve in Tarrant for no objection, he stipulated only that his wife should find a temporary refuge from the home she had occupied on false pretenses until Mary had her new house in readiness. This was managed without difficulty. Nancy went to Dolwich and for several weeks dwelt with the honest woman who took care of her child. Of the dealings between Nancy and her legal guardians, her marriage was avowed and all benefit under her father's will renounced. He did not visit the house at Dolwich and only saw his child after the removal to Harrow. On this occasion, he asked Nancy what arrangements had been made concerning the money that must be reimbursed to the Messers' Barnby. She replied that justice would be done, but the affair was hers alone and to her must be left. Tarrant himself suggested the neighborhood of Harrow for Nancy's abode. He united the conditions of being remote from Camberwell, of lying beyond the great smoke area and of permitting him, poor as he was, to visit his wife whenever he thought fit. In December, Nancy had lived thus for all but twelve months, seeing the while none of her old acquaintances and with very little news from her what she heard came through Horace, who, after learning with astonishment, the secret in his sister's life came by degrees to something like the old terms of affection with her and went over to Harrow pretty frequently. Of his engagement to Winifred Chiddle, he at once informed Nancy, who tried to be glad of it, but could of little faith in anything traceable to the influence of Mrs. Damrell. With that lady, the Harrow household had no direct communication. Taren had written to her on the night of crisis civilly requesting her to keep aloof as her advice and assistance were no wise needed. She answered him with good temper and wrote kindly to Nancy. After that, silence on both sides. It wanted a few days to Christmas. With nightfall had come a roaring wind and sleety rain. The house door was locked. Within, lamps and fires burned cheerly. At half past six, Nancy, she occupied the two front rooms, sat in her parlor, resting after the exertion of putting her son to bed. To judge from her countenance she was well and happy. The furniture about her aimed at nothing but homely comfort. The pictures and books being beyond dispute her own had come from Grove Lane. Save when Taren was here, Nancy and Mary of course lived like friends who share a house, eating together and generally sitting together. During an hour or two each day the younger woman desired solitude for a reason understood by her companion who then looked after the baby. This present evening Nancy had proposed to spend alone but after sitting idly for a few minutes she opened the door and called Mary just then occupied in teaching a young servant how to iron. I shall not write after all, she said, when her friend came. I'm too tired. Bring your sewing or your book here. Mary was never talkative. Nancy kept a longer silence than usual. How? She exclaimed at length. To poor women with a lot of children manage. It really is a mystery to me. Here am I with one baby and with the constant help of two people. Yet he tires me out. Not a troublesome baby either. Tothy and good tempered. Yet the thought and anxiety and downright hard labor for a good twelve hours out of the twenty-four. I feel that a second child would be too much for me. She laughed but looked seriously for the reply. Poor mothers, said Mary, can't give the same care to the children that you give to baby. The little ones grow up or they don't grow up. That's what it comes to. Yes, that is to say only the fit survive. A very good thing when other people's children are in question. But I should kill myself in taking care of them if I had a large family. But I should kill myself in taking care of some others who did marry Remart. It comes to this. Nature doesn't intend a married woman to be anything but a married woman. In the natural state of things she must either be the slave of husband and children or defy her duty. She can have no time for herself, no thoughts for herself. It's a hard saying but who can doubt yet I feel revolt to be silly. One might as well revolt against being born a woman instead of a man. Mary reflected, but held her peace. Then comes in money, pursued Nancy, and that alters the state of the case at once. The wife with money says to people, come here and be my slaves. Toil for me whilst I'm enjoying myself now. I want to read to play music to see my friends, to see the world. Unless she will slave for me I can't budge from nursery and kitchen. Isn't it a queer thing? The less sophisticated woman had a difficulty in catching Nancy's point of view. She began to argue that domestic service was no slavery. But it comes to that, Nancy insisted. And what I mean is the thought has made me far more contented than I was at first. After all, one can put up with a great deal if you feel you're obeying a law of nature. Now, I have brains and I should like to use them. But nature says that's not so important as bringing that little child to whom I have given life. One thought that troubles me is that every generation of women is sacrificed to the generation that follows and of course that's why women are so inferior to men. But then again nature says that women are born only to be sacrificed. I always come around to that. I don't like it but I am bound to believe it. Children grow up said Mary and then mothers are free. Free to do what? To think of what they might have done in the best years of their life. It was not said discontentedly Nancy's mood seemed to be singularly calm and philosophical. She propped her chin on her hand and gazed at the fire. Well remarked Mary with a smile. You at all events are not one of the poorest women. All seems to be going well and you will be able I am sure to get all the help you need. Perhaps but I shall never feel quiet in my conscience. I shall feel as if I had defeated nature by a trick. And fear that she will somehow be revenge on me. This was quite beyond Mary's scope of thought and she frankly said so. One thing I am quite sure of Nancy she added and that is that education makes life very much harder to live. That is why I don't hold with educating the poor. Not beyond reading and writing. Without education life is very plain though it may be a struggle. But from what I have seen of highly taught people I am very sure they suffer worse in their minds than the poor ever do in their bodies. Nancy interrupted her. Hush! Was that baby? Only the wind I think. Not content Nancy went to the foot of the stairs. While she stood there listening Mary came out and said in a low voice there is a tap at the window. No. You must have been mistaken. I am sure it was a tap on the glass. She withdrew to the back city moom and Nancy with quick stub went to open the house door. A great gust of wind forced it against her as soon as she turned the handle. Standing firm she peeped into darkness. Anyone there? No enemy but winter and rough weather. Chanted a familiar voice. Why, what brings you here? Frightening lone women at this time of night. Shut and lock the door for me. The house will be blown out of the windows. Nancy retreated to her parlor and stood there in an attitude of joyous expectation. Without hurry Tarrant hung up his coat and hat in the passage then came forward wiping rain from his mustache. Their eyes met in a smile frank and confident. Why have you come, Lionel? No reason in particular. The fancy took me. Am I unwelcome? For answer his wife's arms were thrown about him. A lover's meeting with more of tenderness and scarcely less of warmth then when Nancy knocked at the door and stapled in. Are you hungry? Only for what you have given me. Some teeth in after that wretched journey. No. How's the boy? He drew her upon his knee and listened laughingly while the newest marvels of babyhood were laughingly related. Anything from Horace? Not a word. He must be in London now. I shall write tomorrow. Tarrant nodded carelessly. He had the smallest interest in his wife's brother but could not help satisfaction because Horace was to be reputably and even brilliantly married. From all he knew of Horace the probability it seemed that his marriage would be some culmination of folly. I think you have something to tell me. Nancy said presently winter hand had been fondled for a minute or two. Nothing much but good as far as it goes. Bunbury has asked me to write him an article every week for the first half of next year. Call him in a half. At two guineas a column. Three guineas a week. Oh, rare head. So there's no anxiety for the first half of next year at all events. Said Nancy with a sigh of relief. I think I can count on a margin of fifty pounds or so by mid-summer towards the dead, of course. Nancy bit her lip in vexation but neither made nor wished to make any protest. Only a week or two ago since entering upon his patrimony Horace Lord had advanced the sum necessary to repay what Nancy owed to the Barbies. However rich Horace was going to be this debt to him must be cancelled. On that, as on most other points Tarran and his wife held a firm agreement of opinion. Yet they wanted money the past year had been a time of struggle to make ends meet. Neither was naturally disposed to asceticism and if they did not grumble it was only because grumbling would have been undignified. Did you die with the great people on Thursday? Nancy asked. Yes, and rather enjoyed it. There were one or two clever women. Than anywhere else. And now we're at a smoking concert the other evening. Pippet, the actor, was there and recited a piece much better than I ever heard him speak anything on the stage. They told me he was drunk. Very possibly that accounted for it. To a number of such details Nancy listened quietly with bent head. She had learned to put absolute faith in all that Tarran told her of his quasi bachelor life. She suspected no concealment. But the monotony of her own days lay heavy upon her whilst he talked. Won't you smoke? She asked. Rising from his knee to fetch the pipe and tobacco jar kept for him upon a shelf. Slippers also she brought him and would have unlaced his money boots had Tarran permitted it. When he presented a picture of masculine comfort, Nancy, sitting opposite cautiously approached a subject of which, as yet, there had been no word between them. I oughten you to get more comfortable lodgings. Oh, I do very well. I'm accustomed to the place and I like the situation. He kept his room in Great College Street, though often obliged to scant his meals as the weekly rent day approached. Don't you think we might make some better, some more economical arrangement? How? Nancy took courage and spoke her thoughts. It's more expensive to live separately than if we were together. Tarran seemed to give the point his impartial consideration. Hmm. No, I think not. Certainly not, with our present arrangements. And even if it were, we pay for your comfort and my liberty. Couldn't you have as much liberty if we were living under the same roof? Of course I know that you couldn't live out here. It would put a stop to your work at once. Suppose we moved. Mary might take a rather larger house and needn't be much larger and a part convenient for you. We should be able to pay her enough to set off against her increased expenses. Smoking calmly, Tarran shook his head. Impracticable. Do you mean that this place is too dull for you? It isn't lively, but I wasn't thinking of the place. If you lived here, you would have been too much. That sounds so prettily from your lips, Nancy, that I'm half ashamed to contradict it. But the truth is that you can only say such things because we live apart. Don't deceive yourself. With a little more money the life of ours would be as nearly perfect as married life ever can be. Nancy remembered a previous occasion when he spoke to the same purpose. But it wasn't the time she did not like to think of. And in spite of herself the recollection troubled her. You must have more variety, he added. Next year you shall come into town much oftener. I'm not thinking of that. I always like going anywhere with you. But I have plenty of occupations and pleasures at home. I think we ought to be under the same roof. Aught. Because Mrs. Tomkins would cry, if her husband the Greengrocer was in her elbow day and night. Have more patience with me. I didn't mean ought in the vulgar sense. I have as little respect for Mrs. Tomkins as you have. I don't want to interfere with your liberty for a moment. Indeed it would be very foolish. For I know that it would make you detest me. But I so often want to speak to you and then I can't quite feel that you acknowledge me as your wife, so long as I'm away. Territ nodded. I quite understand. The social difficulty. Well, there's no doubt it is a difficulty. I feel it on your account. I wish it were possible for you to be invited wherever I am. Someday it will be, if I don't get run over in the strand, but I should like the invitations, but you still don't understand me. Yes, I think I do. You are a woman, and it's quite impossible for a woman to see this matter as a man does. Nancy, there's not one wife in 50,000 who retains her husband's love after the first year of marriage. Put aside the fools and the worthless. Think only of women with whom you might be compared. Brave, sensible, pure-hearted. They can win love, but don't know how to keep it. Why not put it the other way about and say that men can love to begin with, but soon grow careless? Because I have myself an instance to the contrary. Nancy smiled, but was not satisfied. The only married people Territ pursued who can live together with impunity are those who are rich enough and sensible enough to have two distinct establishments under the same roof. The ordinary aid or a ten-droomed house inhabited by a decent middle-class folk is a gruesome sight what a huddlement of male and female. They are factories of quarrel and hate. Those are spectable, brass curtain-rotted sighs. They are full of things that won't bear mentioning. If our income never rises above that we shall live to the end of our days as we do now. Nancy looked appalled. But how can you hope to make thousands a year? I have no such hope. Hundreds would be sufficient. I don't aim in a house in London. Everything there is intolerable, except the fine old houses which have a history in which I could never afford. For my home I went to find some rambling old place among hills and woods. Some house where generations have lived and died. Where my boy, as he grows up, may learn to love the old and beautiful things about him. I myself never had a home. Most London children don't know what is meant by home. Their houses are only more or less comfortable lodgings, perpetual change within and without. Your thoughts are wonderfully like my father's, sometimes, like that Nancy. From what you've told me of him I think we should have agreed in a good many things. And how unfortunate we were. If he had recovered from that illness, if he had lived only a few months, everything would have been made easy. For me altogether too easy, Terrin observed. It has been a good thing for you to have to work, Nancy assented. I understand the change is better than you. But, she smiled, you have more self-will than you used to have. That's just where I've gained. But don't think that I find it easier or pleasant to resist your wish. I couldn't do it if I were not so sure that I am acting for your advantage as well as my own. A man who finds himself married to a fool is a fool himself if he doesn't take his own course regardless of his wife. But I am in a very different position. I love you more and more, Nancy, because I am learning more and more to respect you. I think of your happiness most assuredly as much as I think of my own. But even if my own good weight is nothing against yours, I should be wise to resist you just as I do now. Hugger-mugger marriage is a defilement and a curse. We know it from the experience but at large. Which is perhaps more brutalized by marriage than by anything else. No need to test the thing once more to our own disaster. What I think is that though you pay me compliments you really have a very poor opinion of me. You think I should burden and worry you in endless, silly ways. I am not such a simpleton. In however small a house there could be your rooms and mine. Do you suppose I should interfere with your freedom in coming and going? Whether you meant to or not you would. So long as we are struggling with poverty however self-willed I am I am not selfish and you see you living a monotonous, imprisoned life would be a serious hindrance to me in my own living and working. Of course the fact is so at present and I often enough think in a troubled way about you. But you are out of my sight and that enables me to keep you out of my mind. If I am away from home to one or two in the morning there is no lonely wife fretting and wondering about me. For a work such as mine I must live as though I were not married at all but suppose we got out of our poverty urge Nancy you would be living the same life I suppose and how would it be any better for you or me that we had a large house instead of a small one. Your position will be totally changed when money comes friends come you are not hiding away from society because you are unfit for it only because you can't live as your social equals do when you have friends of your own social engagements interests on every hand I shall be able to go my own way without a pang of conscience when we come together as well as of mine living as you do now you have nothing on earth but the baby to think about a miserable state of things for a woman with a mind I know it is miserable and I am struggling tooth and nail to help you out of it Nancy sighed then there are years of it still before me heaven forbid some years no doubt before we shall have a home in contact with the kind of people you ought to know you shall have a decent house socially possible somewhere out west and I of course shall still go on in lodgings he waited for Nancy's reply but she kept silence you're still dissatisfied she looked up and commanded her features to the expression which makes whatever woman lovely you're still dissatisfied on the faces of most women such look is never seen no I am content you are working hard and I won't make it harder for you speak always like that Terence face was radiant that's the kind of thing that binds man to woman body and soul with the memory of that look in speech would it be possible for me to slight you in my life apart it makes you my friend and the word friend is better to my ear than wife a man's wife is more often than not his enemy Harvey London was telling me I'm a poor devil of an author who dare not be out after ten at night because of the full fury waiting for him at home Nancy laughed I suppose she can't trust him and suppose she can't what is the value of nominal fidelity secured by mutual degradation such as that a rational woman would infinitely rather have a husband who was often unfaithful to her than keep him faithful by such means husband and wife shouldn't interfere with each other not a jot more than two friends of the same sex living together if a man under such circumstances worried his friends life out by petty prying he would get his head punched a wife has no more justification in worrying her husband with jealousies how but were the wife that excited suspicion asked Nancy infidelity in a woman is much worse than in a man if a man really suspects his wife he must leave her, that's all then let her justify herself if she can Nancy cared little to discuss this point in argument with anyone else she would doubtless have maintained the equality of man and woman before the moral law but that would only have been in order to prove herself modern spirited Terence dictum did not revolt her friends are equals she said after a little thought but you don't think me are equal and you won't be satisfied with me unless I follow your guidance Terence laughed kindly true I am your superior in force of mind and force of body don't you like to hear that doesn't it do you good when you think of the mob and humbug generally talked by men to women we can't afford to disguise that truth all the same we are friends because each has the other's interested heart and each would be ashamed to doubt the other's loyalty the latter part of the evening they spent with Mary always found something new to admire he regarded her as the most wonderful phenomenon in nature an uneducated woman who was neither vulgar nor foolish babies slept in a cot beside Nancy's bed for fear of waking him the wedded lovers entered their room very softly with a shady candle Terence looked at the curly little head the little clenched hand and gave a silent laugh of pleasure on the breakfast table next morning lay a letter from Horace as soon as she had opened it Nancy uttered an exclamation which prepared her companion for ill news just what I expected though I tried not to think so I write a line only to tell you that my marriage is broken off you will know the explanation before long don't trouble yourself about it I should never have been happy with Winifred nor she with me we may not see each other for some time but I will write again soon he doesn't say whether he or she broke it off I hope it was Winifred I'm afraid not said Terence from the tone of that letter I'm afraid not too it means something retching he writes from his London lodgings Lionel let me go back with you and see him by all means her grave is spirit Nancy would not communicate and it hit the truth End Chapter 3