 growing up I did not want to be a woman. That was my biggest fear. My biggest fear in life when I was a little girl was to grow up and be a woman. Because of the view that I was taught about women in society and all of that. What were you taught? It just I want to go into it. But that was my biggest fear. Over and above everything else. I did not want to grow up and become a woman. I did not want to have boobs. I did not want to have a mental cycle. I did not want to have boyfriends. I was frightened to death. Well, you are one of the most. I wanted to attach that to something. Because along with that came a whole river of things underneath that I had to overcome. And there was a point in my life where I had to put on my mirror every day in the morning and I had to write on that mirror. I am a woman and I love being a woman. And every time I had my menstrual cycle I hated myself for that period. Every time because I hated being a woman. And I had when I had my menstrual cycle and people thought that I was crazy. And all of my friends around me and guy friends but I would make it a point to go, okay, I'm starting my menstrual cycle. I know I hate this but I'm going to celebrate this. I'm going to wake up and I'm going to say, I am a woman today. I had my menstrual cycle. I feel good. And I would have to look at myself in the mirror and say no matter what I saw because what I saw I didn't like. But I would to convince myself you are a beautiful person and you are a beautiful woman. And I am going to love this experience. And it took me years to overcome that. And I had to discipline myself and put that on the mirror every day and attach what I wrote to what I saw.