 That's kind of profound to undo the belief in reciprocity. I mean when you go to a restaurant And you're you're ordering you're enjoying your meal and so forth You may have exchanges and dialogues with the waitress or matredee or whatever But you don't really have a like a platonic or a Socratic dialogue afterwards about now should I pay my bill or not? Here, what do you think? What's your name Tran wait should I pay the bill now, you know Is this something that I should do, you know, truly is it in line with my purpose and so forth, you know You don't have those kind of dialogues You know because there's a lot of assumptions between even the little scenario of going to a restaurant You go in you get to your seat, you know You you pay you're going to pay the bill you may have a thought about how much should I leave as a tip? Should I tip you know all those kind of things may go through your mind, but there's reciprocity is kind of an assumed thing They will give you the food and serve you the food sometimes unless it's a fast food restaurant and you pick it up at the counter serve yourself with drinks and so forth or They will give you the food that will give you the service and you will pay them in exchange for that food and service It can be the same with going to buy a blouse or a sweater or buying an automobile. You don't Kind of go haggle with them. You think I should pay for this? You know, it's usually about trying to knock off a couple hundred or a couple thousand off the thing But the assumption underneath is there's going to be an exchange here, you know, I'll give you the money I'll sign. I'll pay it off in credit or the future I'll give you the money and you'll give me the car and this is very much an assumption I remember I wasn't here at the monastery, but someone came by one time and wanting They have a some a jug of water or some tanks of water filled up and everything like that almost like Here yeah, I'm here for a fill and then actually it wasn't just the one-time thing coming back for a refill and a refill It was almost like well, you're here and you're in the canyon and there's no one around for miles and you've got water So I need my water and you will fill my water and so forth you know, there could be even assumptions of reciprocity with with many many things and I think it's kind of profound to say that It is necessary to have reference points or prompts that are trusted to undo the belief in reciprocity and Come to an experience of true giving come to an experience of true abundance in your heart Which just means you're happy and joyful and peaceful and that that goes beyond this idea of exchange of things you know Like the that song by the Holly's We're going for a little higher than that even Beyond the the air that I breathe even all I need is the Beatles say this is love All I need is to give and extend love and everything will be taken care of Including perhaps an ascension when you drop the world and the body aside and go, it's true I don't didn't even need the air You know like in the matrix, you know, do you really believe that's air that you're breathing? Morpheus tells Neo and that one Context that I've I really really love because it keeps my mind constantly in prayer It's not taking anything for granted and that comes with like not having expectations that any of it is mine It's like this is all the spirits and this context is that I'm here to give and I'm here to be in service and then I'm given what is helpful for me to be in service by the spirit continually But it's it's constantly undoing that part of the mind that then takes it for granted and says oh well I need this thing or that will always be there for me and Yeah Yeah, I'm doing a reciprocity I Remember when I first came because I wanted to just be really mindful of my motivations for coming And I used to ask all the time like you know even cleaning or whatever I was you know Whatever was guided for me to do and then I would really get clear in my mind and say what am I doing this for really? Was I expecting something in return was I what what am I doing this for and You know, I could see the the times when like it's just so healing to to see how that is really ingrained And then the people pleasing and like really using it to heal that for me to know that what am I doing this for really? what's my motivation under doing this and then really getting clear and seeing that if I had any expectation or anything like that it was Okay, like I need to look at my belief in you know Seeing that you know trying to get something instead of to give something like I'm here to serve and to be in that experience of the spirit flowing through me and Yeah, and seeing where the blocks would come up so that it would block me from actually being like a channel for the spirit You know is like ha You know watching my own Stuff come up and saying there that is that you know there that is that wanting you to love me wanting wanting maybe to Feel like I earned something because I did you know just really being honest with myself and using That as my key. What is this for really? You know in my motivation for cleaning the toilet or you know, what is that and really? For me to really get into the experience of true giving You know and to really trust That there was a washing away that needed to happen for me to really truly feel the spirit doing it through me for me To step back You know and watch the blocks come to the surface It's a strange notion to this world all that I give is given to myself It seems like in this world if you give you you don't have it. You've given it away. It's gone. It's used up Goodbye kiss it. Goodbye. You'll never see it again. It's out. It's somewhere else. You had it now They've got it they And if you keep doing giving in that way, then they'll have more you know and and I'll have less You know you see how the ego it's very strange. All that I give is given to myself. It's a very strange notion to the ego But to us it's like it's the core. It's the heart. It's the it's the pumping Heart like in the body. That's the part of the body that pumps the blood to the rest of the body Like all that I give is given to myself is spiritually. It's a divine principle That's true. It's our relationship with God. It's what it is It's like having that experience of being in that relationship with God So yeah, so all I give I give unto myself is like knowing that and experiencing that and Yeah Monastery is not like a hangout place. It's not a place to kind of okay. What can I what can I get from the monastery? I if I'd have ever showed up with these homes and houses and gone to all these countries With the attitude of what can I get out of this? It would not have been a very joyful experience. I'll tell you you'll get disappointed Really quickly when you're looking to get something. Can you give me time? Can you give me this? Can you give me that? If I'd have shown up at all these places and I'd say oh You have to have a minimum of 50 people before I'll come Or a minimum of 25 people wherever I would have missed out on a lot of places Believe you me and it's fun because sometimes you show up and it's like a whole theater a whole theater full people And you have the same experience and sometimes there's one or none and you show up and rejoice Because you're there to give you're not there looking for numbers. You're not there looking for money. You're not there looking for Recognition you're not there looking for respect You know, you're not showing up and say saying respect me, you know, you don't care You are the living respect, you know, that's a way to undo Expectations around respect is if you are so respectful that you are the living respect You don't aren't gonna care what people say do whether they Stand on their hands or whether they twirl around or whatever they do You don't care because you're there to give you have one purpose