 Good morning guys. Welcome to another week in my life vlog. Just had avocado toast. I feel like there's stuff all over my face I'm currently journaling right now. I'm using the Oswell deck. It gives you a little prompt, which I love I'm gonna do two today. First one is what kind of person do you want to be today? And the second one is go to the mirror. What does the person you see there have to say? I'm drinking my eyes coffee I just I love it fits. It's just getting the shot. This week is gonna be good So I made up goals for my week again. First one is get movement daily work out daily And I want to do 12 3 30 twice I want to add back in like a little bit of cardio because I've been doing a ton of Pilates I'm gonna start going back to class studios and go into their spin classes I'm not like the biggest spin person in the world, but I actually really do like class studios I like soul cycle a lot In class studios is the only studio I've ever been to where I've been like, yeah I like that spin class like as much if not better I want to journal 20 minutes a day. I want to finish two books I would I stayed up last night reading I read like half a book I don't like about 7 a.m. Every morning because I think a lot of my issue has been waking up early guys I don't know if it's just the winter or what but like it is so difficult for me to wake up really right now So so if you're new here, be sure to subscribe Hopefully this video is long and what you guys have wanted Subscribe follow me on Instagram to read the podcast. I just uploaded an episode Last week titled and I quote my breakup was the best thing never happened to me in living your best single life And you're 20 and then we just shared one with Victoria Garrick who I love I'm listening to her right now And it's gonna go up in a job, but she is a star I absolutely adore her sweetest person ever Anyways, we'll put it up as well. I think you guys really like it You guys can also last thing I'm gonna say you can also watch all the episodes on YouTube So once you're done with this vlog It'll be linked in the description and you guys can watch like every podcast episode for the past few months on YouTube as well If you'd rather watch them, so that's it. Okay off the new top 330. It's actually freezing here I just turned the heat on and the fan just turned on itself. I'm reading the book obsessed I always like to read a non-fiction book in the mornings. It's really good. It's on branding Obviously starting a brand in the next few months. Well, it's already started but we're launching in the next few months So it's just with like a really good interesting read It's basically about like kind of cult mentality behind brands in my eyes. It's called obsessed Anyways, I'm finishing my coffee and then we're off to do 12 through 30 All right, I did 12 through 30 Struggle through it as I first came back in a long time if you haven't done it before it's actually really difficult This set is from set. I don't ever know what materials I'm wearing or what line it's from or anything So I'm sorry. I'm trying to event about that, but I really like it even with this top I get asked about what sports bras I wear having a bigger chest working out. Um, this is obviously not the most ideal It's definitely not ideal for Pilates, but I'm wearing it anyways They're honestly just like don't care unless I'm running in which case like it has to be The perfect cut. There's a lot that I can't wear basically I'll wear like a v-cut But mainly I like the box cut sports bras Nike actually has a lot of really good ones This top is like not the most coverage, but it's also not like the worst things ever happened So anyways, I'm actually going to record my intro my outros my ads and then send in the episode Detail for this week with Victoria Garrick right now. So a little fitness update Pilates Obviously hot Pilates on the mat is my favorite workout. It's also like the most sculpting for me I've just been doing it for so long that I feel like I needed to add in more cardio I'm actually looking into getting like a personal trainer that I can start like lifting weights with like twice a week Maybe I feel like that would be really good for me And then I just want to make sure I'm doing like 12 3 30 or walking at least So I feel like I'm gonna start splitting between Pilates maybe like one or two spin causes a week and then Probably like weightlifting once I find a trainer and Dallas that I like and I can like take you guys through that I work out like completely for my mental health if I'm not working out. I'm not motivated I lose my mind. I have really bad brain fog. I already have bad brain fog, but um It's like all the mental and emotional benefits And I'm just gonna make sure I'm like walking works I feel like I will go to Pilates, but other than that besides like taking the dogs out I'm just not going I'm just not getting my steps in and I need to be getting my steps in So that's what that was about. I'm also on almost on season five already a Friday night lights And like I cannot believe it. I need to my new rug today my new front of trigger chair next week I'm setting some offers over today. I have just lots going on I'm about to go into Pilates ignore at my screen and get my car washed I guess, but I'm listening to the skinny confidential It's like this episode with a Texas oil man. So I'm truly living for it I have of course my little coffee tumbler that's available. I have it linked below We're going into Pilates after I might get myself some Starbucks there's like I Don't know what's going on with me But that I put on my lip-pumping lip gloss. I must have like somehow gone it on my neck Okay, anyways, I'm walking into Pilates. I have been loving getting a lot of like random computer work done in the mornings Monday is typically all computer work and editing and stuff. So even when I get home, it's gonna be a cozy afternoon. It's raining Feels good All right, I'm out of the shower I put on my hyaluronic acid from in key lists and literally like six dollars can care. It's amazing It is my favorite product then sadly. Well, these are two these two are my two favorite face products That one is out of way lower price point. I'll start with the hyaluronic acid It is I watched my face with cure ology also use like the nighttime moisturizer But I'll start the hyaluronic acid and then I will put on at least ever Fridays Heavenly 16 on one face oil. I'm all out of it. I repurchased this a few times on my own I originally was sent it but I bought it myself because I just Like love the product. I'm vlogging because I wanted to show you guys the products that I've been using on my hair I always brush my hair with a wet brush. Her favorite leaving conditioner is the way by Rado leaving conditioner. It is just incredible and it smells so Good also, I use the way of body products that I talk about in the podcast just now in my entire Bathroom smells so good. It's the Morrow's placent I'll have it made below. I think I actually have a code for a way as well I'm gonna make the Emily Marico like famous salmon bowl quite literally six months later. I still haven't made it We're making it today. Okay. I'm really excited to try this. It's the hyaluronic acid hydrating hair treatment so it says That you just apply enough to thinly coat all of your hair. Oh It's my first hair product. I'm really excited to see like how I like this So it's really very hydrating for your hair. I hope I'm not putting in too much on But I guess we'll see anyways I really love that key list. They're sold at Sephora, but they have the best prices on skincare and hair care and it's Incredible stuff. This is my working from home outfit of the afternoon These sweats like let me show you this. These are samples for merch. I'm wearing the wrong size sweatshirt But I would say like look these sweatpants in general could be so good if they just didn't have these thick pockets To where they make it weird. I mean, there is like a pocket which I don't love But like why is this always a thing with sweatpants? It is genuinely so annoying the quality of this stuff that was incredible We've been sampling like oh We've been sampling a ton of rubbing housewife We have like two more drops for the year and they are the best I don't even know what's my favorite, but like the stuff is so good Yeah, so anyways, I need to get downstairs get to work make my Malibar eco bowl Let me know if you guys are interested and like what I do throughout the day I just never know like what you guys want me to talk about in vlogs or share like is work stuff interesting My computer is this starboard strength them by the way has been my go-to order you guys gonna screen shot it right here If you want it is so good or honestly, I'll make it a highlight on my Instagram That'll be easier because you guys if you're online. So if you're online, you can just like go to my Instagram and see in the highlight It is so good. Oh my god hoping that I have a lot of editing to do But I'm hoping that I'm no editing I can finish Friday night lights I have like one season left and I'm really I'm dying It's like even this What do y'all think of this even as like a picnic blanket or something? I just think it's so cute like I said so many Samples these days, but anyways, I'm just throwing things everywhere I'm currently cooking and WW just sent over a cookbook Which actually looks so good like that looks incredible So my favorite things to make prep 15 cook 25 like this is No way. Okay. That's my favorite meal. Anyways, they also sent me some candles. By the way, I have no idea what happened here I hosted Gallon dine's day and the next morning this was here and I'm there's just nothing we can do. I'm sure Which sucks, but anyways, I'm really grateful for these new candles because I just live for candles like right now I have one burning and I always do and it's just so nice to have they're literally the best gift because there's Something that's kind of annoying to buy for yourself all the time And they're just so nice to have on hand also this cookbook just looks so good I'm very excited. I kind of think this is supposed to be like really cold, but mine isn't it's gonna be okay We have salmon we have rice. I have these little seaweed stocks And then also I got kimchi which looks really good and then we have some sriracha ma'am So I am so mine on this All right, honestly, it looks really good, so I'm gonna eat this wash Friday night lights, and then I have like probably four or five hours of editing 630 I got all my work done. I'm listening to at my let right now. I'm actually gonna listen to Eli's podcast She is my favorite influencer I'm actually obsessed with her like I think she is just the greatest person ever Anyways, I just I literally obsessed with her my closet is back to being messy Actually, this stuff would take me quite literally 30 seconds to clean up, but I just cannot be bothered this stuff until I get this closet all fixed and Redone and reorganized. It's just gonna be there for a sec or you know what? I might order new U-line boxes so that I can put stuff downstairs because I do have things that I need to put Outsiders, but anyways, I Planned out my outfit for tomorrow. I'm so proud of myself I want to get back to doing this so that one I wear cute outfits and two it just like Takes away so much anxiety for me about the morning and just feeling rushed if I have my outfit picked out In the morning. I'm going to a Revlon event and then I'm getting dinner with or lunch with Bria and Peyton I love both of them so much. I'm just like so glad that we're all in Dallas together It's so nice like obsessed with them But anyways, I have this dress that I got from Abercrombie. It needs to be steamed will I steam it? No, of course, I won't this blazer by the way is from Zara. I honestly haven't talked just about this I want to make a blazer from the Okine just because it is so hard to find the right blazer I actually really like this one. This is definitely like the best black one I found But it is so hard to find a blazer that is good quality, but it's also the right cut, but it's not too big It's not you don't even think it's very difficult and then I'm gonna wear these Prada loafers Yes, I was gonna wear a dress with cowweb boots again, but but I'm making myself wear these loafers by the way of Expensive like purchases that I've made in the past few months I would say that both of these pairs of shoes from Prada are Definitely worth it. I I wear them all the time honestly, especially these I wear these as well I really like them and they're gonna look really cute with the clothes from the Okine But unless I'm wearing cowboy boots I'm wearing one of these two pairs of shoes or just sneakers in general like the white ones from Nike that it I just got but I will say these shoes were both very very worth it to me in really good Designer purchases if you guys want an entire video on like the best designer purchase that I've made in the worst I can let you guys know and I can do a tiktok or a video on YouTube or whatever you guys think But anyways, I have my outfit ready long story short, so I'm feeling good about that I have some point because I have some tiktok My house feels so peaceful. I'm actually gonna take some CBD I've been really liking these soft gels my brother I think took my other stuff But I do really like these soft gels. You just take it daily with food I just ate some gonna have one of these like this is the cutest thing in the world if that's just moved but they Though oh my gosh, they're just waiting for me from when I want to get a bed. Are you guys ready? Are you ready Fitz? Just look at him. I Mean, he's perfect. They're getting baths tomorrow. It's gonna be so good. All right. I'm ready for bed I'm hopefully I want to finish the rest of this book. I have 50% left. We'll see if I do it I need to send over like two things to a designer for some upcoming drops And then I'm off my phone. It is currently 8 21 p.m. And I will be off it for the rest of the night Which is really what I need. I love Monday nights because I spend them alone and it's just so Hey guys I'm gonna try out these Ilya Super serum at skin tins. I have two different Shades, I love this this coffee order. You have to get a grown-in. I went a lot this morning I got coffee. I walked back. I walked past an office I just need to find an office space in Dallas. The problem is not that any of you guys care about this I need it for the okay not for me, but the problem is You need to sign at least like three to five years and one That's such a commitment to make like when you're starting a company and we don't know how big it's gonna get We don't know what size we're gonna need what I mean Oh what we really need besides like literal space for inventory So that's just like not even a possibility So we're trying to figure out like alternatives as of right now We're gonna do everything on my garage. Um, this one's like shipping and stuff goes, but I've been hearing great things about this People have been raving about Ilya, but I know my face is pale in my body right now, but oh my god That's really light. Okay. I don't know. This is definitely too light. Okay. I actually really love that. It's really pretty on But wow what I really like it. It's too light Maybe I'll stop at Sephora and get like a darker color tonight. Okay. I mean I really like it, but I Don't know it's not like that way through my body right now. I can make we're bronzer, you know I think it'll be okay. I don't know if I'm supposed to be putting it on like this, but I'm going to anyways I listened to a podcast this morning and then I was listening to country music I'm like walk back and I'm just trying to implement moments of peace throughout my day and the times that I feel Very at ease and peaceful. I'm in this constant Like struggle to where I want my life to feel like I live on a ranch What I mean by that is just like feeling calm I'm naturally not a calm person. Wow. I really like this though. I will say I'm actually not a calm person I'm just not so it's kind of difficult I'm pretty like high strung and I'm very like go-go-go happy doing something every hour work work work work whatever Even if it doesn't seem that way if I'm like at my house in sweats. I'm still like working and stuff I don't know. I'm just like I'm trying to Fix that I want myself by the way this color is actually perfect from what the heck this product is incredible I love it. Anyway, I'm trying to get better about that. So I'll talk to you guys in a second. I'm gonna get ready I just got ready so fast here is my outfit of the day and notice all the brown in the cowboy hat I got this weekend from Fort Worth if you guys didn't see the vlog you go watch it I love Fort Worth Peyton told me she'll take me soon for a video. So I'm Dress is Abercrombie. It actually has like like very puffy sleeves. Did you guys saw? laser is Zara purse is Blondy Aga, I don't know where these socks are from but I'm wearing my product loafers and here we go I'm gonna drop the dogs off at pet bar, which is where they get their baths They're going we clean up because I have this membership. It's a really good deal And then I'm going to a rebel event in West Village. I'm meeting and Peyton and Brita So I'm very excited. I think I'm actually lost but I do a podcast today too. I'm supposed to spend tonight We'll see I have editing work to do but I am like as much as I don't think that this is the best lip gloss ever It's a drugstore. It's the Loreal infallible pro Can't talk pro a gloss plump lip gloss. It doesn't plump, but you actually let the color actually stays on your lips So all right. We're off All right guys. We're at my casino Look who's here Peyton and Brita your hair looks insane. Um, I got a meal. I never get I'm making myself try new things So it was freezing. I shouldn't have been wearing a dress I was like really committed to the look, you know 143. I might be recording. I don't know if I am in hot I'm home now. I went to Mika's seat. Oh, I have so many emails We went to the Revlon event in West Village then Brita and I went to Sephora. I picked up two things I was like very easily convinced by the girl working at Sephora, which I'm normally not that person But she showed me and I was like, this is what I need. It's the rose ink skin enhanced luminous Luminous tinted serum, which is like just like the alias stuff, which is what I like I got that in the brush with it. So I'm really excited because that's just always what I need Like something light and luminous then Peyton, Brita and I went to make a scene out which I didn't really vlog. I don't know why I Forgot it. So I'm gonna do emails and then I need to edit the weekend of my life vlog I might go to spend tonight. I haven't decided. I honestly just like need to get my life together I got the video edited. I've actually been uploading randomly enough with YouTube shorts Here's the weird thing about social media is that I don't know Anyone who watches Instagram reels like I don't watch them But for whatever reason they always perform well and that's where I see growth I've heard from a lot of people that YouTube shorts like don't do anything, but I've been seeing otherwise. I just like posted some and then I'm also Scheduling some out just to like try it for a week or so see what happens right now I'm just sending off the final emails of the day It's 4 20 now. I need to finish my Emily Marico like salmon bowl kind of a 5 30 spin I have to leave in like 40 minutes or 6 30 But I kind of want to get over with sooner rather than later. I'll let you guys know This is where I've been sitting and working recently and all day today. I just made the Emily Marico bowl I like smashed up avocado and it looks pretty gross. Honestly, like this does not look like how Emily How miss Emily Marico makes it, but I promise you it's very good I'm gonna get ready in like 20 until then I'm watching Brooks vlog. All right. I just changed look at my Sock and shoe game Incredible we're gonna go to spin class. I'm just wearing it this set active set This mad happy crew is from a happy shoes are brought out obviously my normal stuff I'm gonna leave in like 10 minutes probably. I know you guys probably all feel this way at work Maybe I don't know if it's a screen time thing or if it's like social media thing But once I'm like just zoned in and like online and I think it's really a social media thing Eventually sometimes it was get like really anxious and I feel very anxious So I'm really glad I'm going to spend cause because going to spin class you just like write it out and you're fine My favorite spin studio and Dallas by the way is class studios like by far It is the only spin class I like as much as SoulCycle Which is saying something because I'm a little bit of a spin snob I think I'm really picky about spin classes music obviously matters so much But I'm honestly gonna take some CBD. Should you do that before work out? Okay, I'm back from spin and my bathroom is absolutely ridiculous This is the mission for tomorrow afternoon I'm going to declutter this closet because I have just like so much stuff in here That's actually like it just it's so messy and that's so Not me like I'm so organized So I'm gonna go through move these boxes move this stuff over organize it better Figure out like my towel situation get all of that just to be a lot better because like I have pool towels that I only use in The summer things like that but just it all needs to be better So that is on the agenda for tomorrow and then a lot of this product will go in my organization stuff in there But I do have just like empties. Oh, you know what we're gonna film an old-school Empties video two products that I've used up all the way this capari Body like coconut body milk. It's incredible. I loved it this bus city soap shower oil oatmeal, honey I don't know how to describe this. It's like a true oil It moisturizes your skin so well also oatmeal honey Just like reminds you of my childhood both of these were absolutely incredible this I think gives you like a deeper It's a very nourishing product and then I just like anything from capari Billy shaving cream. I like it a lot. I love Billy. The only problem is I got through it really quick I have extra razors that I don't use because I always use my Billy ones or like men's razors You know, I actually don't have as much garbage in here as I thought maybe No, there's some Okay, well, I don't have as much as I thought But anyways tomorrow We address this and I will feel so much better All right, I showered I did a little self-tanner on my face I lathered my buddy my buddy my body in The way like cream body lotion stuff the mother's place that it just makes my whole house I like upstairs smells so good. You know in the last vlog I was like organizing and decluttering my main closet But I really need to just do this closet and that's a bigger project So I'm so excited for that to be done because I don't know like my anxiety is so much worse when there's clutter When things are just organized and there's not too much stuff. I just feel at peace. All right I have my little nighttime setup smart suites, which are like truly my favorite. I have a nighttime tea right now My journal my Kindle. I'm gonna read tonight. I might watch Friday night lights I Am so hungry right now. Oh my god. Well, we have another like winter weather advisory You might be like Kinsey. Why were you in a dress yesterday? And that actually isn't even on Texas. That's actually just on me. It was so cold I wish I would have blocked more like I don't know why I didn't vlog more three out We should have done a Sephora haul like what was I thinking I have been really making it a point to Meet up with other like Dallas creators going to meet up with Sloane Sloane bird If you guys follow her on Instagram or to talk or anything like that I've been just like really making it a point to meet up with other like Dallas creators or like entrepreneurs Whatever they are who have a more like nonchalance That's ice People who don't have as traditional of jobs Oh my god, just because it is one good for me to like actually go out and meet different people because on the weekends I'm just with my friends the same people 20 30 people that I'm with people that I'm with every single weekend During the week. I'm trying to make it a point to see other people that do like weird jobs Just because it's helpful on one hand living in Texas. It's so nice It is so nice not living in this like influencer bubble world. There's a lot of pros of it But it's also just like nice to have people around you who do some really things. So anyways, I'm going to get with Sloane I'm making it a point to have like friend days throughout the week because if not I don't see anyone besides who I see at Pilates and when I go into like my workouts That's my hour for me and I really don't talk to people there, which is out of character But we're going to white rhino, which I actually really love All right guys here's my closet before that's where the laundry basket is but I'm doing laundry. This is just like not okay. Give me Give me 35 minutes and this closet is gonna be a new space Guys this took me legit 15 minutes I move these up here. They're not the most Organized I know that but like I'll actually see them. So it's fine. I move my boxes here That's like office stuff projector all of my dirty clothes are right here So ignore that my Dyson box obviously. I actually don't even know if this is oh They're light bulbs turn my rooftop actually. Okay. Well We have like stuff that's hung up. These are dresses and like summer stuff that I'm not wearing right now I haven't like already organized and like made everything look beautiful my shoes I need to go through and donate like majority of those awesome stuff here It's still like probably feels and looks really messy But it feels like so much better and it's good enough for me in here because it's really just not much I even do in this closet besides like put my dirty clothes here, which those will go there And then I'll have like better shoe organization It's fine, but that is what we have right now guys. I just self-tanned. I look crazy I'm pretty sure it's going to like hail again and like an hour All of the like evening and night workout classes and things I keep getting emails have canceled I know like schools have already canceled Anyways, I'm wearing all black because I self-tanned. I'm gonna look a little bit crazy for the rest of the day I would call up my lawyer in like 30 minutes and then just a bunch of like random stuff I just send emails. I have to like send a bunch of emails at it all about stuff. So all right I've been working here I ordered lunch because I was really hungry and I just had a lot to do and it's that was that was an hour 45 minutes ago, and then I finally got an alert that the dasha has arrived like none of the bad weather has started yet It's just cold in hour 45 minutes in to the order as I'm waiting and I'm starving They can't do it. So I hate my life. Anyways, maybe I'll just eat some cookie dough. I don't know. I've been working I honestly just like want to sit on the couch. I'm gonna sit on the couch watch Friday night lights And I think I'm gonna go get Marx with a friend tonight We've got Friday night lights on I just made my first home chef meal I mean talk about perfect timing It actually smells really good, and then we also have chicken and I'm gonna add to this like pasta Happy Thursday everyone my Pilates class has been canceled I let myself sleep in a little bit last night I went to a desert racer, and I hang out a frozen bar in 20 degree weather. I've been on calls all morning We actually met with a like potential PR agency for the Okai so I've been doing that I made breakfast I need to edit this week in my life love Which I think is what I'm gonna do now And then I'm literally gonna spend the afternoon like making tiktoks and just like having fun with stuff and just like having fun And working whatever therapy my Pilates class. I was gonna get lunch with my grandma I have something else everything got canceled So I actually have a lot more time days like this sometimes where I'm just like stuck at home And I'm like well I have to edit and like make YouTube videos and things like remind me of the days when I started my channel when I was like 16 and how it was so exciting and it still is really exciting But I feel like obviously when it just becomes your norm you just get used to it. I am very excited I'm gonna get that get that going. I'm probably gonna do 12 3 30 I guess tonight been so good about being on my workout game and I'll say I am Meeting with like a personal trainer next week Which is exciting because I do want to start like weightlifting almost so doing like Pilates man and weightlifting and then also like walking a lot That's just like when I feel the best my motivation for working out is solely from me feeling good So anyways, I'm gonna edit and I'll see you guys in a few hours It is now nighttime. I'm kind of cleaning my closet. Would you believe that I've already run out of room for my cowboy hats It's just crazy Look at this one that I got for one of my girl strips cute Anyways, I guess that will do up there This hat that I got from Fort Worth My favorite cowboy hat that I have from Devon Carlson's collection I'm going to be stacking like three cowboy hats in the airport anyways, I Just wanted to have like a nice closet talk Something that I did all growing up was playing on my outfit tonight before and I just kind of stopped as I became like an adult Isn't it so crazy that I'm an adult like I own a house and my car and every like There's actually nothing more adult that I could do other than get married and have kids Like there's my own business. There's nothing that I could do, but I still I still I'm fake I'm fake. I'm fake. I'm funny. I want to get back to like plenty of my outfits out the night before because it makes me feel a Lot better. Today was a good day Sad on my computer literally all day. I Guess I'll wear this pink one. Do you guys have like I have two folders of sets probably like a hundred workout sets There's a really big bug. I don't know what to do about that. So I'm just talking to anything I'm just gonna pretend I'm a sucker Like can I just go away? If Dom was here, she would fully be having a panic attack. So at least she isn't here who misses Dom, you know I do. Anyways, I looked away in the bugs. Oh, there it is. There it is Anyways, I was just thinking about my day and I have just been working a working gal if you will which is so boring to vlog the upcoming vlogs by the way I went through and like plan them out because I just feel like the vlogs where I'm at home And I wake up. I literally go to Pilates. I come home. I work on my computer all day every day, which is like a lot of my life They're getting boring. All right, so we have other things coming up such as Furniture shopping next week and we also have furniture arriving the whole new living room kind of reveal Whoa that light has been out for a while. It's still now. It's good. Um, actually, I don't think it's been out It's the next one come back on you sure That bug like can it just act like it's not like let's just you know Also, my photos came back from Heather from our shoot last week Don't you dare go my cowboy boot. Don't you dare go on my shoes go away have oh my god With this set my photos came back in there really cute But it's so crazy because this week I feel like I've had so many like career affirming things happen and like career affirming things happen and Felt just like on top of the world like really confident and good about myself and like good about my career We're going and then the other part of me has been like I And nothing I've done nothing everything I do sucks. It's not good enough blah blah blah blah blah Which obviously like Hopefully isn't true, but I just know there's a part of being in your 20s I hate to say it, but I think that's probably just the like life thing Unfortunately, but I do think it's like a bigger issue when you're in your 20s And how I will have such high highs and feel so good And then I will have such low lows where I'll either like start comparing myself to like where I think I should be or Like playing down things that I've done making them. I mean, it's not that big of a deal I like I did this but like someone else is something else a bigger deal So therefore like what I did doesn't matter and that's just not a good way to live life And as I'm really you know reevaluating a lot of the ways that I even want to live my life In general, I'm like that is not something I want to do I want to like celebrate and be happy and like I'm proud of the community. I've built on YouTube It doesn't mean I have the biggest community in the world But I am proud of the community I built on YouTube like it's a hard thing to do try all the time If you look at like everyone in the world who has started YouTube channels versus those who like made careers out of it Or like gained a following it's pretty low like it's a hard thing to do Think we look at all of the people who like blew up overnight and then you don't look at like no Like you're doing a really good job and a lot of people It's a really hard thing to do like having a channel of any size is a really big deal One because like what it's a very like courageous thing to do making a YouTube channel or doing any sort of Career that's kind of out of the box. I've been thinking about this a lot even more recently Recently have I really sat back and thought one Post posting my life online is actually a really weird thing to do like and also just kind of how it like messes with your psyche Like I've just been doing it for so long. I don't think anything of it and I love love what I do I love you guys so much I genuinely feel like we're all like best friends when I meet you guys in public It's so much fun when I meet you out I normally like hang out with you guys like it is just so much fun I really genuinely love it But it is really weird to like share your life on the internet for so many people to judge and have opinions of and Like literally send death threats and like stupid stuff or make fun of how I talk or I mean whatever Like the list goes on a lot if you don't like me like that's fine I really don't care it really takes like a certain kind of person and then number two Almost allow myself to like be proud of myself because it really is a courageous thing to go outside of the box Try a different career path like even starting a new company like taking a chance on myself consistently I'm saying this after I've been so hard myself all day But even having been able to one have the courage to Make you channel in the beginning in the first place because that was hard Like people have a lot to say there are people who made fun of me like post-its to miss out trust them that I actually see like out and about and I have a few things to say about this so the first being I Like live with the mentality of like big thinking versus small thinking and how I always want to be a big thinker I'm almost like a stalked where I have to make a decision I'm always thinking like is this a big thinker decision or is this like am I thinking in like a very small way a big Thinker it makes everyone's world around them a bigger place or a better place. So I love connecting people I love making people feel good about themselves making them feel confident or like believing in them Because I feel like I had that with my dad growing up and a lot of people don't have that or like would never Take the chance on themselves small thinking is someone as they insecure and makes fun of people who like do things You're never gonna be talked about by people who are doing more than you So if you are making decisions out of fear or making decisions based off of what other people who literally will not matter Five years from now are saying about you like don't do that Whatever you do. I was talking about this on Instagram today But like everyone does care to a certain extent about how people view them or what they think of them I kind of like this closet talk guys. This is like fun I still have to figure out what I'm wearing But but I think the key is like not make decisions based off of that and then over time You have to decide what matters to you and like it make your priorities And my priority is like what I think of myself Which is why even career wise like I haven't done certain things that people have told me to do that would help my channel grow because at the end of the day I Just know that like it's not me and I would feel better personally Being true to myself that I would doing something to like that like gaming a certain follower count or whatever just because I like the pillar of my life is being authentic I didn't really realize that until recently. There are obviously people like when you are doing something different We're gonna make fun of you who are gonna like post you especially a high school like post your self chat I will say for the most part people were like really really cool and nice to me about it But there's definitely people who would post that there is a guy that I'm around like pretty frequently actually and I like him I'm not even mad. I think it's just like honestly really embarrassing on his end But also like like imagine being the person who makes fun of other people For doing what they want to do like that genuinely is embarrassing and also like just being so insecure But I will say I don't like fault those I don't really fault those people and I don't like I do feel bad for them in the sense of like I would hate to be that insecure and that sounds so condescending But I genuinely mean that like I think one of my favorite things about myself is how I believe in myself And I'm confident and I will do what I want to do. I would hate to feel like I have to Make myself smaller to fit into a certain friend group to then get their approval for everything and not set by the box And be who I want to be I also like don't fault them like people are like asshole sometimes or like say things They don't mean or act out of insecurity and like the world is hard And like honestly like making YouTube videos was is kind of like a weird thing to do Not that I would ever make fun of someone for doing anything that they want to do But like I just don't care to like Be mad about something. I don't I just don't like care to hold something against someone or anything like that But just doing some reflecting of how I'm so grateful that I listened to myself and did what I wanted to do years ago And now it's just been like kind of a snowball effect of like slowly But surely taking like the right steps and I made a lot of wrong steps but overall like building a career that now I'm able to do so much more from and More more than that though like building the community that I've been able to build like I meet so many Of you guys who have become friends through me or like following me which to me is the absolute coolest thing about my job Like it's just my favorite thing ever. Anyways all day today. I was really hard on myself and getting anxious And I was like I'm not doing enough. I need to grow more. I need to do this I need more views and you're like whatever and it's just like I feel like in the past year That's hit me more than it ever has before and I think it's because I've been a student up until the past like year And a half when I graduated college and now I'm like if for whatever reason that was kind of a safety net And now I'm like actually full-time full-time like career. That's it even though I've always been full-time at working and hasn't changed anything. Yeah, anyways, all that to say Sometimes you feel like you are absolutely on top of the world and other times you feel like you are The absolute worst in doing nothing and sometimes that happens within the same five minutes. So here you are You know anyways, I have my outfit for tomorrow I'm gonna work out in the morning and then I'm gonna get ready. I have some meetings I'm gonna have a hair appointment if I start at 1 15. We actually face time tonight I feel like I haven't even seen my sister recently. It's gonna be a really good month. I have so much going on I have a shoot for my buddy house life. I have a shoot for the Okai fingers crossed. Hopefully if we like our samples next week I have two girls trips. I have a week trip to Nashville for recording The girls are meeting me. I'm not trip. My new furniture is coming like the vlogs are gonna be very good So I'm really excited. I also just think I know that like no one really cares about like seeing me vlog with Friends like you guys watch the channel because you watch me But it is difficult when like none of my friends here that I'm with like most of the time Film if for whatever reason I always for it to even film with like Peyton and Brea And I have like nothing else to feel like it was so much easier to vlog with Dom was here because I would just Vlog everything and we had the conversations and I liked the vlogs a lot So yeah, here we are. I hope you guys like the closet talk. Let me know All right, we are off. I've been talking for 15 minutes. This kombucha by the way is so freaking good It's the best kombucha ever I would love to do more like videos in my closet Styling outfits or like showing you guys that would be such a fun series like Getting a glass of wine and styling my outfits for like the week and showing you guys like my favorite pieces and my wardrobe things like that Let me know can see closet Genius I got it. All right. Well, let me know if you guys want to see Good morning guys, it is seven I was out the door by 7 a.m. And let me just tell you That was the best thing in the world. I have hip-hop Friday spin class Which I've decided is gonna be my Friday morning tradition. I used to go a lot actually at class studios Anyways, I love it page teaches a great playlist I'm probably gonna sound crazy But the difference between a 45 minute class and a 55 minute class that 10 minutes genuinely feels like an hour So I just love it. Anyways, I'm gonna head in in about five minutes. We're sitting here drinking my coffee That's my new thing in the morning I like you to sit and drink my coffee and not talk not look it not say anything not see anyone just sit Oh, I finished a new book last night. I see that I keep talking London is the best city in America by Laura Dave. It was good I think sometimes the way in which I read a book either makes it good or bad I think if I read a book in two days, I typically like it better and it sounds obvious But it's not necessarily because I like it that I'm reading it in two days I'm just reading more. Um, I would give it like a three seven I do think it was sweet and I think if I was like in a better reading mood, I probably would have liked it even more It was cute. Do I marry this person? Do I not kind of sorry my white shirt then would have been oh my god Back in the car my hair, uh, it's had better days. We're going to get it done right now Oh So exciting live in Dallas my sister does my hair and she's the best she does a lot of people's hair And if she wasn't the best I wouldn't go to her I went in today not thinking we were gonna change anything up and then my sister said my hair has gotten a lot thinner Which I have naturally really thick hair so that makes me very sad Um, and she wasn't the one who did it recently So it like wasn't her fault, but who even knows who's follow it whatever but like it just sat I like keep touching my hair because it got extensions I was just getting them for like the fullness and now and then we ends it up like keeping them a little bit longer This is what they look like. She specializes in like color and extensions. So I love it I'm gonna love them more when they're crowed I just don't have time going to grab dinner with friends that I'm in a rush But I hope you guys enjoyed this week in my life vlog. I love you guys so much I'm so hungry. So I have to go but I'll see you guys next week. Bye. I Was afraid that if I evolved in my brand the people who followed me wouldn't be interested That's a part of it like me being able to evolve and move on from that trauma and to be happy That's a part of the story