 I like fell and hurt my knee, so that's the thing that happened and it's hurting me. Yes Lydia, congratulations. You fell over and hurt your knee. And it's hurting! Don't let me drown Hey what's up you guys, welcome back to my channel. If you're new here, hi, hello. How are you doing? Today I'm sat in a hotel room in Wrexham and it's raining. Wrapping wails, always rains. I don't know, I don't know, I'm just alone in the hotel room. So those of you who don't know, I was in hospital recently and my medication got changed. Before I went into hospital I was taking diazepam regularly. I was also on zopi-cloa with venefaxi and propanenol. Issues with that medication choice. The propanenol makes me paranoid. The sleeping tablets don't do anything and the diazepam my body got very used to. Venefaxi, I'm still on. I don't use this, I use O2. All my meds are in there. There's the loazepam that I take. There's the venefaxi and there's the critiopean. There's the truzodone and there is my sleeping tablet. So I take, I'm gonna take my morning meds now to be fair. It looks like cocaine for fuck's sake. So I'm gonna take my morning meds and then we'll explain what each of them are and the changes that I've gone through to get them to where I'm at now. Because medication is something that I need for my mental health. And I know there's a ton of people out there who are 100% against medication, won't touch it because pharmaceutical companies are just in it for the money. I disagree with that argument. Medication helps. It helps. And it helps me sleep. And loazepam helps my anxiety. Two anti-depressants around truzodone and venefaxi help with my depression a lot. I'm actually able to get out of bed and do stuff. Like hello, I'm near the end of the country at the moment and about a month ago I didn't leave my bed at all. I mean I haven't made the bed but that's the side point. I'm lazy. I didn't bring any of my end-shore drinks with me so I... The ones that are new to me are weird like the critiopeans new to me and taking loazepam as a regular thing rather than just what I needed is a different thing for me. And the truzodones now. I'll talk about them. And so I've come from using venefaxi in extended release to using the Ventus generic effectsor which means I have to have it twice a day. So when I was in hospital my meds got changed a lot. I got started on critiopean which is an anti-psychotic. Those of you who don't know me will know that I've been on anti-psychotics before and they have been horrific. I've had such bad experiences on them. Critiopean is one of the ones that helps and I don't remember why I stopped taking it but it helps so I'm on it now and my life is a lot more stable. I'm a lot more here and happy and that's who I want to be. Loazepam isn't that one. I take that four times a day which it helps my anxiety. Technically I can have four milligrams a day. I choose to go for two milligrams and have half a milligram each time. Otherwise I'm just asleep all the time. It sends me to sleep. Truzodone is also an anti-depressant. I'm on two anti-depressants at the moment and I've got to say they do work very well together. People on Twitter have been a bit off with me about my meds just because they're like, oh you're on a really strong cocktail of meds and I'm just like, yeah but I need to be. One person in particular was like, you should be careful. You're on a really high, you're on a really strong medication. You shouldn't be going out or anything like me but I know what my body does. I know how I've been on medication for like nearly seven years. Seven years now? I don't know. I've been on medication for a long time. My body can take quite a lot of it and taking medication is just something that I have to do for my own mental health. I need to. It makes my life easier. When I go into taking meds I have a lot of anxiety about taking medication. I always get paranoid that it's going to stuck in my throat and I'm going to choke on it, especially with the capsules. So the psychiatrist put them all onto tablets apart from Trasadone because they didn't have any Trasadone there wasn't. So when I got my stop recording I was talking about how my meds are mainly a tablet form. I prefer that to capsules. I don't like swallowing capsules because I get scattered and get stuck in my throat. All in all I think that's about what I've got to say. I'm happy on the meds that I'm on. They are working. They are helping me. I don't think... Not everyone's going to agree with me being on medication or medication being the only thing I did have in place. I see a support worker once a week. But all my medication was changed while I was inpatient and it's been working. I've been out of hospital nearly a week now which makes me happy. I'm going to see Kay on Tuesday and I'm so excited to meet her again. I'm so looking forward to that break. I'm going to university tomorrow which big deal I haven't been to uni in like nearly two months because I'm into health so it's going to be great to go back. All in all I think psychiatric medication works and anyone who says that it's just pharmaceutical companies trying to make my nose. It's all just a placebo effect. It's not. These medications have been proven to help people. Would you say to someone who's in pain that taking paracetamol is a placebo effect? No, it genuinely helps with pain. Anyone who shames anyone for psych meds? Just fucking leave please. I know my mom gets a bit funny with me over how much I take but I have to. If I don't I'm not functioning well in society. It's something I'm not sure I'm ready to put out to be blunt. I hit a very low point and it just wasn't good. I was in hospital for nearly a month making it the longest admission I've had within the last year. You know what? It did help. It really did help and you know what? I don't know where I'd be at the moment if I hadn't agreed to start taking new meds. I don't think I've got much more to say in this video other than my meds were. I don't really have any side effects for any of the years. I don't have any side effects at all. No, they all do what they're supposed to do and I hope they don't have any side effects. Well yeah, this has been a little video talking about the medication I take for ramble about psych meds. I'm going to end this video here anyway. Thank you for watching. Thank you for supporting me and if you aren't new here hit the subscribe button and I'll be back very soon with a new video. I try and upload every day to every other day. I upload very regularly and I try to answer comments as much as I can. Believe me my life is quite busy. You guys don't see the full level of busyness my life is. Believe me I'm always running around London like I had this chicken. It's been a nice break being in Rexham. Not gonna lie. Anyway, I'll see you guys soon. Peace.