 The door. The door. Blows off the smoke. I had a roommate pull a knife on me. What? Well, we don't find you sexy anymore, but we do find you old and offensive. That you're old. Straight up, she goes, I saw Jesus in front of me, and Jesus looks at me, and he goes, tell Sean, don't quit. Like, here's an idea. I have no idea how it's going to happen. Let's set a date. Oh, we've been doing this more than 20 times now. 20 something. By the time you see it, 20 something. And we've had a lot of f*** ups. And we wanted to kind of do a greatest hits. I mean, that sounds a little presumptuous, like, oh yeah, I can do a greatest hits album. Like, I'm Daryl Hall and John Oates from, I don't know, circa 1982, right? They weren't ready for that. But we decided that we are. Mostly because we know that you like to see people who are learning from their mistakes, people who are f***ing up, and then recovering from it. And so we've got a greatest hits. We think you'll dig them. Enjoy the show. You were trying to smoke? Our smoker gun broke. Our smoker gun broke. Okay. John, you guys up there. Yep. So someone had the great idea to put in a pan. In the smoker. In the smoker. Wait, wait, shut the door. Turn it on. We were open for business, by the way. Restaurant's full. Wait, wait, what did you put in the pan? Whiskey. Filled the pan with whiskey. Yes. And then put it into the smoker. Shut the door. Oh, this is gonna be amazing. Full restaurant. Full restaurant. Was it 20 minutes later? About that, yeah. The door. The door. The door. Blows off the smoker. Boom. In the middle of service. Explosion in the middle of service. In the middle of service. There was two guys at the bar. This is my favorite part of this. Who just thought that we were putting on a show for them. Yeah. Restaurant empties, they're like. They thought it was hilarious. They were just like, this is the best thing I've seen. I can't believe it. I'm so glad I came to this restaurant. We had one of the big, what they called at the time, mobile food rodeos, right? Where they have multiple trucks in one location, using on a Saturday or Sunday. And everybody can come and experience this. So of course, on Tuesday, our truck breaks down. We got everything, brought it to McKang's like, hey, I have to have this truck back Friday night. The guys at the shop actually stayed late Friday to make sure we had it. So I go Friday, we had to load in Friday night for this event. And so they back it out, and it's all sounds good, looks good, and the guy just has this look on his face. I was like, something's not right. It's the wrong part. It's like, what do you mean? He's like, well, when I turn left, the truck goes right. No, what? Cause they had to change the gear. And I'm like, let me see. Like I'm gonna change, you know, physics. Like, no, I have the touch, right? Right, right, right, right. And it's like, I'm a good driver, and I feel like I can handle things like that. But I'm like, all you need to do is have somebody coming at you, and your reaction is to swerve out of the way, but you actually go right into it, right? And it's like, oh my gosh. So there's no way you can miss this. So what I did is I called the tow truck company that towed us there, and I was like, hey, I need a package deal. And I called the producers of the show. I'm like, hey, we're gonna make it there, but we're on the back of the tow truck right now. We need some extra room. Yeah. That's amazing. I called them and I was like, yeah, that's our one thing. I was like, yeah, you never say die, right? Like. Were there moments when you're like, no, no, no, no. I f***ed up. Like this is not gonna work out. Oh, I mean, I'm pretty sure that's the whole way. Like all the time. Like the whole time. I don't know. I mean, did you have like this week? And you're thinking like, no, no, no, no. Or even at that point, like something happens and you're like, I don't think I'm gonna recover from this. I bounce. Yeah. You know what I mean? I bounce back pretty well. Like you wanna know how I do it? I'm like, here's an idea. I have no idea how it's gonna happen. Let's set a date. That's great though. Let's set a date, tell everybody you're doing it, sign a contract and then figure it out. I opened up this antique store in West Seattle and so I started with this little shop and then my friend said, hey, I've got this building in Soto, south of downtown. And I opened up this giant building and there was no parking. Oh no. Yeah, duh. So you know what I mean? It's like, you've gotta think of all these things. And I always had this drive to do my own thing because I've had some really f**king bosses. All of the sexism and bulls**t that happens when you've been at business for 25 years. Like ageism type of thing comes up, right? Then it rolled into, from sexism to ageism. It's like, well, we don't find you sexy anymore but we do find you old and offensive. You're old and offensive. Yes. Like, did you ever have a moment like when you're like, no, we should probably go back to what we were doing? No, never. Never, never. Daily. Daily. All right, this isn't even an exaggeration. Yeah. Never, no. To me, it's so much of a privilege because it's something I've always wanted to do. To be able to have someone who works off-farm help support my addiction to farming and enable me in this pursuit and enabling can be a bad thing to do. Addiction, enabling. All right, keep going. Yeah. What did you run into that, like things that you wish you would have known that you didn't know? Or like f**k up your things where you're like, oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, this isn't going to work anymore. Or I think we're going to have to close, close shop. We did, we quit. We quit six months into it. You quit? We quit. We didn't know the business. And we sat there and we looked at each other and we're like, this is too much. Let's stop, let's just quit. And we literally, on that night, we said, we're done. And the very next morning, a lady in our church, an older lady in the church, and if anybody knows anything about old church ladies, like their dynamite, she emails me and she goes, Sean, I just wanted you to know I was praying for you this morning. And she said, I've never prayed for you like this before. She said, I found myself in tears and I was on my knees. And she said, and she was straight up. She goes, I saw Jesus in front of me and Jesus looks at me and he goes, tell Sean, don't quit. Tell Sean, don't quit. Wow. And we hadn't said anything to anybody about our conversation the night before. Really? Yeah, dead serious. And so I went to the team that fried, so it was Wednesday that we quit. Friday we get together and I'm like, here's the conversation I just had. What are you guys thinking? They're like, do you remember the conversation we just had on Wednesday night? Yeah. I'm like, oh crap, like maybe that's, maybe that's it. And so we re-upped our commitment. We're like, we decided to, we tell people we decided to stop quitting and we jumped back in. Quit being quitters. We quit being quitters. I liked my job, my last job job that I had because after the recession and after, starting another business that ultimately failed, I blamed the economy, but who know, I didn't know if I was going to be any good at it anyways. Took a job in the building materials industry, I was a sales rep, so I was running around being a sales guy. And I probably would have stayed there and it was great, I'm making great money. And that's when I had a little personal trauma come through, I developed a testicular cancer. What, really? So yeah, went to the docking super fast and I said, hey man, this doesn't feel right. And he was like, it gets down. I was like, yeah, it doesn't feel right. And then he says, go get an ultrasound. They send the slides back to my urologist. She then later enforced me that it's cancer. Oh wow. That's for your same day. And she says, what are you doing tomorrow about two o'clock in the afternoon? What? And I was like, yeah, I'm gonna come in and we're gonna chop it off. Yeah, I know. But I was, I far wanted to just get that poison on my body. Let's go back, let's go in there and do it. And as they were like putting the gas on me, she's like, oh yeah, by the way, it's malignant. So like, you know, you know, stage one or two. We don't know. Yeah, yeah, yeah. You may not wake up. We'll find out. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm three and a half years. And that's like, yeah, the nasty ones not gonna come back and they said their tins are very, very low. So they're like one CT scan. What? All in the same time. Like, just one day you go in, the next day you go in. Yeah, I face immortality, man. It's only really, really if you don't recover. Yeah, you don't recover. If you don't recover from it, a f*** up turns into your f***. And I don't have too many of those moments to speak on. I'm extraordinary resilient. I was built for hard work and I've taken quite a few ass weapons in my life and gave back twice as hard as I got. So I have mistakes that I've made, f*** ups that have happened that everybody just looked at each other like this. Like, yeah, that's a wrap. Yeah. One, I was a special labor and I was doing demo. And there's a door on the side of the house that we need to get in and out of but the owner lost the key some huge time ago and he was like, just cut it off. And so they tell me to just cut it off. I have never cut a doorknob off of a door or a door off the hinges before, right? And they hand me a reciprocating saw also known as the saw saw because it saws all. And so I'm like, all right. So I angle the saw saw and I turn it on and it's scraping against the door. And I'm like, okay, they want the knob off. So I dive into it. So I get the doorknob off. I go straight to my supervisor, here's the doorknob. He's like, dude, you cut it in half? And so he comes and looks at the door and he sees all this dude, you scraped up the door. You gave me a saw saw and wanted me to cut off a metal doorknob from a metal door. So I don't know whatever happened after that because he looks at me and he's like, do you know how much that door costs? Oh no, no, no. So the guy's looking at me. He's like, we don't have that in our budget. So I can take it out of your check but I can't keep you working on a job where you become a financial liability. Oh no. So I got fired from a demo job. You got fired from a demo job. Yeah. To Amphir, it was again, like I'm drawing all day. This is heaven, like amazing. But my personal life was a freaking train wreck. I had moved to Philadelphia. I'd never been to Philly except for like the job interview. I get off the plane and it's like 90 degrees, 100% humidity. There's like a drunk man yelling in the airport. I have my cat in a carrier and like two of those like really big like expedition like body bags of my personal belongings. And I'm like, what have I done? We have made a terrible mistake. It was not my place. It didn't work for me. I just, I had like really living situation. Like I had a roommate pull a knife on me. Like I was connected with some friends of a friend and she just was like crazy. Like why? Because I forgot to take out the recycling. I took out the trash and I forgot to take out the recycling because I got distracted. Though seriously? So she like woke me up at three o'clock in the morning when she came home from the bar and was like hella aggressive. And so I was like, I'm done. And there was like a week span where the cat and I, always with the cat, we slept in my Volkswagen Golf. Yeah. Outside of my office. Not many people know this. That's a stuff. Actually. That you're going into anthropology after sleeping in a golf with a cat and a litter box. And nobody knew. And like too. Nobody knew. And there you have it. Thanks for watching. We're gonna keep making these because we think that they're amazing. We hope that you think they're amazing. It's great to watch people recover from what they're talking about. And you know farm people. It's really great. If you have an F-Up of your own, go to fups.com. And if you like what you're watching, ring the bell, subscribe, do all that fun stuff. Hope to see you on the show.