 At this point, you may go through a very heavy self-reflective stage, and with that self-reflection, your whole identity can be up for grabs. You can feel like who you are just kind of dissipates. It's almost like having a second adolescence, where you're learning so much about yourself that you just can't really comprehend it, you don't know how to process it. Quirky and unique things that you might have loved about yourself and said like, oh, this is a defining quality about me that no one else has. Or even the bad experiences that you may have might actually just be reflected in a lot of the autistic people online, or at least it was for me. And that can in turn make you feel less special, sure. Also makes you feel a little bit less alone, and gives you a bit more hope for getting through things.