 what's going on guys welcome back to another video if you guys are new to the channel make sure you guys hit that subscribe button today's video is crazy isn't that crazy it's just very serious very serious or very i don't even know it's it's in a positive light yes overall with everything it's just very nerve-wracking it's just so weird to talk about so guys as you may know or may not know for those of you that are new jenice has endometriosis she's been taking medication for how long have you been taking this specific medication since i started september since september okay so we're going on about like more than half a year right so this specific medication you're not supposed to like try to have a baby when you're taking the medication and you need to wait at least three months when you get off the medication to try to have a baby i'll let you explain as far as why you're stopping the medication it's not because we're gonna start trying to have a baby that's not the sole purpose um but i'm gonna let her explain all that but yeah this is getting serious well should i explain as to why i got the medication to begin with you could because like i haven't spoke about my endo in such a long time i feel i feel like nothing has really changed with your endometriosis though like yeah nothing dramatic which is good but yeah if you guys don't know what endometriosis is i mean backtrack a little bit endometriosis is basically a disease where i don't want to say a disease that sounds so bad but it's like a full body uh disease and basically it's when scar tissue and lesions start going um where it shouldn't be mine is the same as cis uh it couldn't come with cis but it's not it's not always with cis that's just how i found out i had i had it but mainly it's just scar tissue and tissue in general growing on the outside of the uterus and it can be a cervix abdomen like and you know some people even find it in their brain which is something i recently found out so yeah endometriosis is a full body not that you have it in your brain that you found that information out that you could have it in your brain yeah for me i thankfully just have it in my um ovaries i i don't know it might be my abdomen too but i just don't know if it's there but anyway let it be noted that she had stage four endometriosis which is the most serious severe that it could get yeah so unfortunately with that um uh they put me on this medication because birth control it just didn't work for me it just made the symptoms worse and um went through a whole year of like trial and error with birth controls and it was very tough and then um this new medication got presented to me called my fembry and i'm also sharing this if there's anyone out there that you know struggling with endometriosis my fembry helped me so much and that's pretty much what i was on for these past couple months however um it took away my menstrual cycle so i haven't had my menstrual cycle since november and that's actually insane um for me it was a huge relief uh and it was making me happy for a really long time i felt like i didn't even have endo until the side effects started to kick in and that goes into my reasoning to why i decided to stop taking the medication uh in general i just want to be natural handle things the holistic way and i've always been that way until i had this medication i was like you know what let me give it a shot it was working great but it always comes with side effects and the side effects included hair loss i was experiencing a lot of hair loss and i thought it was just because i damaged my hair um from dying it but there's a significant difference in like the thickness of my hair um i have like patches right here um it's i cut my hair like all a year ago and it's still not as long as it would have been if i wasn't on the medication so that's one thing uh another thing is that i've recently started to experience uh cramps consistently and stomach pain is so severe and i ended up doing a colonoscopy and an endoscopy uh to figure out if there's anything wrong with me that i'm missing and i feel like it was just linked to this medication i was bloated all the time naturally i'm bloated from having endo but it was just everything was heightened and on top of that the worst thing was night sweats when i tell you i have not slept through a full night it's so long because i constantly wake up in the middle of the night like drenched in sweat like there's a puddle on the damn bed from like how much i sweat it's so bad like and i don't want to wake isiah up so that i just recently started telling him this like i look up the medication side effects and i'm like damn i'm feeling that i'm feeling that i'm feeling that i'm going through this and i just was like in denial i feel like in the beginning i'm like it's taking away my pain like who cares if i'm losing hair who cares if i'm sweating but this is like all the things that i'm not supposed to be going through that and i feel like it's unnatural i'm putting foreign things in my body and everyone has different opinions but for myself and for my body i feel like this is just something that i needed to get off of and another thing which touches on what he mentioned in the beginning was that on this medication you cannot get pregnant you can't have a little slip up you can't like of any of the sorts because it will guarantee a miscarriage that to me is so scary it's so scary because if let's say like i were to get pregnant on this medication i wouldn't know until i miscarry so that was like pretty serious so yeah that's pretty much that another thing i was feeling is like my whole body is like super swollen and it's just a lot it's a lot and i don't want to like ramble because i feel like this point i'm like just saying all this stuff but she is basically sick of the medication it's making all these side effects just irritate her all around so again she's trying to go the natural way it just so happens to be during this time that she wants to quit the medication she has baby fever yeah so do i now again we're not stopping this medication to have a baby but however again you do have to wait three months before you can start trying for a baby you know three months of no medication and like we said we're not going to say that we're stopping the medication for trying to have a baby however don't expect us three months from now let's say in the fall when the summer is over don't expect her to be pregnant because one we don't want to plan it either we kind of just wanted to happen naturally and so be it and like how we said she has an endometriosis it can be hard to get pregnant for her it may it may not we don't know until it happens don't expect anything just like how we're not expecting anything however the baby fever is there and technically after three months she will be okay to get pregnant if god allows her to that's pretty much it so to summarize it up we're not stopping the medication to get her pregnant it's more so to make her feel better and go the holistic way because these side effects are crazy so is there anything else you want to touch on like are you do you want let's say if the three months past do you want a child sometime this year or do you just want to wait a little longer maybe next year like what would you want obviously if it happens in the fall before the end of the year it happens great but what would you uh lately i've just been kind of like in a place in my mind where i don't want to have so much of control of the things that happen in my life meaning i was leaning so much on like my own like understanding and trying to dissect everything and figure everything out and like plant things out so specifically and i'm just now learning to just let go and let god do his thing and honestly like if it weren't up to me honestly like i want whatever god wants and that's genuine like i just want i feel like god's timing is perfect and i don't even have an opinion and i don't have i don't anything anything that happens like in my life that's you know brought to me it's all in god's god's timing i've been feeling this so heavy lately there's just been certain things that have been happening i i feel like god put it in my heart to stop this medication and it's true because my doctor was telling me oh you know i was going to talk to you about getting off of the medication anyway because your insurance has given me problems like so that right there and i was stressing am i making the right choice blah blah blah for so many months and it's like that just happened so i started to stress about not being able to have children and all this stuff all this fear that was going in my heart and i'm like i'm letting go i'm letting go and i'm letting god decide what god wants to do so yeah that's the answer to that question so i'm happy with whenever it happens so overall we're basically going the natural way for your health and like we said if it happens in the fall and she gets pregnant so be it if it's in december so be it if it's a year from now so be it it could be difficult it could be not we don't know until we try but we're going with the flow man who knows maybe in september or october whatever we might drop a video saying she's pregnant we don't know honestly what i would say is i would love to have a fall baby but um everyone's saying it's good you're gonna have a summer baby so we'll see everyone is saying everyone there's a lot of signs there are pointing to her giving birth sometime in the summer no me like oh yeah giving birth giving birth yeah yeah so who knows like we said that's not our mission if it happens great but that's not why we're doing all this yeah we'll see we'll see what happens but we just wanted to do this video to like update you on our life because you know um we don't want to keep you in the dark about things and i don't know i just like want to be straight up with what's going on and yeah today you get pregnant oh my god i i'm in a point in my life guys we're just things are so different like i'm just finding peace and for so long i didn't really have that in my brain yeah so i just feel like whatever god wants let it happen that's all that's all i've been that's the vibe i'm into lately it gives it to us in the fall he gives it to us in the fall if not we wait yeah but this is gonna be it's gonna be a journey it's gonna be wild anything else you want to say i'm just ready for the next chapter in my life it might be coming soon who knows this is gonna be wild but with all that being said guys we hope you guys enjoyed today's video again giving you guys live life updates you guys are a part of us we don't want to keep you in the dark like she said um but with all that being said we will see you guys in the next video love y'all