 have to say today with extremely low energy. I got a full night's rest but I don't know it's just one of those days where in competition prep it's just hitting my body I'm trying to really feel it and today is just like grueling everything that I have to do. My motivation is like not where it should be. Every time every minute I just have to tell myself for the next minute okay just do this. Just make breakfast. That's all you got to do it worry about right now. Just go do cardio. I did cardio earlier. I didn't work out. I don't think I'm gonna have time today but it's like everything is just really dragging today and that's just a product of my diet and my cardio and getting ready for competition so there's really no way around it and all I can do is like drink coffee and stuff like that. So yeah I did cardio this morning I really need to do laundry because I've literally run through all of the clothes that I have. I just haven't had time. I've been getting up early and going about my day and at night I've been editing these daily vlogs and anything else I need to edit until about 1 a.m. and then I'm going to bed setting my alarm for about 7 30 or so and repeat. So come to think of it that's probably not enough sleep. I on average need like seven and a half and I've been getting about six six and a half so that probably also explains why I'm feeling extra lethargic and tired today. So after this I'm gonna try to get some laundry done hopefully get my vlog my next vlog for the 25th at least partway edited and then I'll finish it tonight after work but then at 2 30 I'm going I'm meeting up with AHF like we talked about in our meeting yesterday and we're gonna go film it out of the closet for their Halloween contest and then after that then I'll go to work another event at that restaurant that's been shut down but we're doing an event and I'll do that most of the evening so you know it'll just give me a little extra cash in my pocket. So I got an email from Avery about 30 minutes ago saying that she is swamped with projects and stuff going on at AHF so we're gonna have to postpone until next week which is fine by me because as I was saying I'm really really really tired today really worn out and on top of that I was kind of stressing because you know I'm trying to catch up with these daily vlogs I don't want to fall two days behind three days behind and so on and so forth so I'm trying to get as much stuff as done as I can and that frees up my afternoon before work to play catch up as much as possible. I just got one little laundry done even if I don't get it all done just I think if I just get a little bit done in between projects and in between work and vlogging and all that and going to the gym just do a little bit here and there I'll eventually catch up so I just got to remind myself to make time to do it here and there I feel bad for Doki I need to take him out I haven't taken him out hiking or on a long walk in a while I've been so caught up in my own stuff that I just I just didn't make time and forgot and was kind of too busy it's crazy that I'm here I am unemployed and yet I mean I'm working a little bit but man I managed to fill up my time real quick especially with these daily vlogs yep it's like you don't realize how time consuming it is in reality I'm not filming that much of my day it's just a little bit here and there but it's like for example if I have an hour and a half or two of footage at the end of the day when I need to edit I have to watch an hour and a half two hours of footage that's already an hour and a half two hours right there and then to go back and edit it you're gonna throw on another couple hours and if you want to go back again and again and perfect it that music well you have to go through that footage over and over again to get it right so really I have to start being smarter about what I decide to record and how much because that'll just save me at the end of the day if I have to do it every single day yeah learning curve the video I put out yesterday obviously if you heard it or if you watched it there's no music in it because I just didn't have time I didn't do any effects nothing it was just literally the clips that I had I cut out any boring like stuff that was just dead space as much as I could and then I just strung it together and posted it because that's all all I had time for now I need to so I got the editing done for September 25th which is two days ago as of me working on this right now although when you're watching it it might be three days ago who knows weird time warp I don't know what's going on we're getting real meta and now it's time to find a little music just to spice it up a little bit and that's how boring so that's the goal right now it's 3 p.m. I have an event at the restaurant to go to that starts at 5 30 so I have two and a half hours to finish this hopefully uploaded to YouTube maybe I'll take my back book with me and I can work on that while I'm prepping the bar and I have to cook food I have to cook my beef for the night I got a shower change and get there and have that already by 5 30 okay let's go focus so the song is actually really different from what I've been using so I think I'm just gonna go with it I love it when they happen I just pick a song and then it's the one sometimes I'll go through like 30 plus songs and I'm like searching and it takes a while and I'm like I don't really know over thought but this is so different from what I normally do so and yet it's similar in ways so I'm gonna go with this bad boy it's a good I feel like it's a good tempo to all right cool so I download one track with the vocals on it and then I download another version of that with no vocals so I have them both so in the video I'll have them lined up and then when I'm talking and I just want the music then I'll use that part of the track without the vocals and then when it's just like you know me doing stuff and there's no talking then I'll put the lyrics back in sometimes if it's not too distracting or whatever so that's what I'm doing now so this is with the vocals and then this is without starting at the same place or continuing from where I just left off I think that I think that'll work really nicely so okay guys so I'm trying to set up this shot that I had as an idea of watching me as I'm do editing I wanted to do a little clip of me just sitting here like adding the music tracks to this video but I'm like how do I do that if I can't see what's going on so I took out my phone and I'm like looking at the camera to see where it's focused on when I have my back to it like this I'm like okay is it in the shot can I see what's going on just gotta get creative you know