 you guys doing I decided to record this video while I am on pause I've actually decided to go a little bit more at first I was only gonna be out for one month I'm gonna have to go ahead and do two months you guys we're gonna get to this hair in a minute yes you guys this is cute huh I may try to recreate this in the summertime anyway y'all we are excuse my accent honey my voice is my accent gets very very heavy when I'm tired or drunk and right now I'm tired I'm not drunk I'm very tired I haven't been sleeping well y'all I've always had insomnia but it's been a little a little rough and some you'll insomnia lately I'm okay nothing's matrix going on grasses dang on pandemic hey I'm so sick of this shit so anyway y'all so let's get into this hair yes so I blew out my hair when was it last week I blew up my hair and then I saw who did I see I saw Jeanette beauty she had taken down her protector styles and I saw she had beads and I'm like that's really cute I've always wanted to do beads but I don't want them all over my hair so I just did the front and I add a little jewel so yes I started this yesterday and finished today I could have finished it yesterday but I'm lazy and I don't care so this is the close of what it looks like this will last me for three weeks yeah it's very very pretty um honey people will look at this and probably think I have extensions and stuff this is all of my hair yeah I know this is all of money but y'all know how we do this I talk about what's going on in my personal life when I'm watching on YouTube and then when I'm watching on TV all right y'all so personal life is going well we just came back from vacation we just came back from Vegas girl there was nobody in Vegas which is good we say that the the at the Palazzo excuse me I will be uploading that vlog hopefully with them within this week of when I'm filming this chit chat okay it was really nice although Ms. Jackson that's my maiden name Mrs. Denza and Mr. Denza got a little too lit the first night y'all we are not young anymore we're not and so we thought that we could handle eating heavy fattening food and drinking y'all we were so sick he was sick more so than I was because he has some bubble guts and issues child even JB was like the second day JB was like did y'all learn our lesson I said we were laughing like yeah baby we learned our lesson I did and all we had were three or four drinks of cocktails but mixed with the greasy nasty food that was it so anyway yeah that was good it was good to get away and for me that felt like even though you know things were still kind of shut down that felt like the realest vacation we've had since the pandemic so yeah that's that's good so homeschooling is going good we had a week break there with so long break this is our spring break I do like to schedule in breaks for JB you guys I had to reevaluate some things and so we pulled back on several subjects and we were mostly focusing on reading and math and some writing so what I was doing you guys I'm like okay Vivian you are writer you write a little short story for him and see how he can handle it so I wrote a little two-page short story with J for JB and he read it and he liked it but that got him interested in other stories so what I it was so cute what I did is I wrote little mini stories for him to read excuse me I'm spitting I wrote little mini stories for him to read with him as the main character and then I'm trying to figure out okay what is he interested in right now cuz I know kids they change like that what they're interested in so right now it's Mario so I've been writing these little mini adventures that he reads out loud about him or Mario and Larry Luigi and sometimes I put in his little friends around the neighborhood that's another thing you to you guys every I thought I heard him he may interrupt me everybody has gone back to school he only has one friend now that is homeschool everybody has returned to school because some other parents when they hadn't got vaccinated and they feel like since they've gotten vaccinated that they should go back and my husband keeps telling me and keeps reiterating to these folks he's like just because you got vaccinated doesn't mean you can't catch cold it just means that you have a better chance of recovering from it and even that's not a hundred percent worse we still in my opinion there's too many question marks still so anyway I'm one of my say so any yeah he liked that and so I'm continuing that but definitely discovered that JB is dyslexic and he has an issue with transposing numbers with math so for math we are doing um Christian like education for math we have to go back to first grade which I'm perfectly fine with and he did his first quiz two weeks ago he scored a 90 so I think I was at first I was a little bombed out by that but I think this is the best step is to draw back and like I said focused on math and English for reading we switched up in I ordered all about reading y'all these school supplies homeschooling surprise supplies excuse me or expensive there are no joke his all about reading cost me 200 but that is specifically for kids that have dyslexic or dyslexic so I also got him a little reading guide so he uses that to read and so he's definitely improving with his reading definitely getting better with his math so that's what we're focusing on and I'm looking at his curriculum for second slash third grade and then we'll start once he gets his reading and math a little bit stronger then we'll start incorporating science actually we'll start doing science now in history anyway um what else is going on there was a little bit of some neighborhood drama which is going to tie me in to talk a little bit about the video with Kirk Franklin cursing the heck out of his son grown son by the way I discussed this at my blog too I mean yeah I'm a disgusted so this may be repetitive so couple of weeks ago I was over at my friend's house over here in the neighborhood she's also a neighbor and I guess JV and her granddaughter had been jumping on her trampoline and a part of the netting came off the father the little girl's father came down and straight curse her out the child she's only nine years old mine you I had two or three drinks by then cuz JV and I had just came back from Papa Dose and I must say what he said I may bleep it out but he came down the stairs and was like what the y'all do did I tell you not to do that yeah I'm gonna bleep it out cuz I don't like that baby when I tell you I looked around I looked at my friend and I looked at his wife cuz I look I didn't grow up in a household like that my parents bear my mom never never curse she doesn't curse my dad maybe said hail that's it my parents didn't curse us out and they didn't curse at us no one in my family does that so when I heard this I was looking at my friend cuz this is her grandbaby right this is the little girl that comes over here a lot you guys and she has a little accent you know she's starting to get a little accent when now she's in school so uh-uh no way I went out there I said oh we got to go I told you that so we got to go he's looking concerned cuz JV looked a little scared and I knew that he knew the guy wasn't directly talking to him but it was still very awkward cuz he did this in front of a bunch of people and no one no one said anything cuz I guess they're used to it this functional ass so I said we gotta go and so I came back and followed him cuz he was ticked off the father he went outside to see what they had done the babies have been jumping on the trampoline like I said and the net had came down cuz they were jumping on the net and then back off right he came back inside I followed his ass back inside I said um we don't do that he turned around he said huh looking at me huh I see a we don't do that in my house we do not curse out kids you may do that here in your household that may be okay but we don't do that so on that no we gotta go give me my damn pot I had made them something you know a couple of nights before and so the husband was her husband was the grandfather was cleaning a pot like okay I see yeah we don't do that so you need to give me my stuff and we need to go you don't do that to babies I was so pissed go I took my stuff and went home Ms. Lori my friend text me I hope you know that um he wasn't talking to your child I don't give a you don't talk to your is that normal even though why she she sent me a text but she said I'm so I'm so sorry for my husband's behavior I told him to stop using that type of language well clearly you're not telling him enough cuz his daughter wasn't even phased about that and I'm gonna get to the current frankly thing in a minute cuz I think that's disturbing too I'm a car if he is 33 there's something wrong with that we'll get to that in a minute but I was livid y'all when my husband found out he stared at me like my husband was very upset he actually asked he said I don't think he should be going over there at all anymore so unfortunately JB would not be allowed to stay over there unless I'm there and I told her that I told my friend I said he's not coming over unless cuz I had left him over there and I came back home I said that was the thing and so I told I say he can never stay over here by himself cuz the father went from zero to a hundred like that and so she starts she's like I know I know um but he did ask him to stop jump I said but that only you got a curse about some babies like that you don't talk to kids like I said let me ask you something did your parents talk to you like that she's like no they didn't I said that's what I thought so why would that be okay for your grandchild you have to do yeah I was livid so my husband was done too and we ended up buying JB his own trampoline after that that's why he has his own big trampoline I'm like look you don't have to go over there come over here and I feel kind of bad and so you know with that but there's something about that situation that they felt it was okay it's something my spirit telling me don't do that you know there's something about him and they're all stuck over there in the house you know quarantine got people acting crazy so I'm like no my baby can't stay over here not without me no so speaking on the Kirk Franklin thing y'all did hear about the Kirk Franklin incident and I did listen to some of the tape let me say this before I get started there's something about something about Kirk Franklin that always made me feel uneasy so when the allegations that came out well when he came out and said he had an addiction to porn I was like okay that's part of it but that's something else about him first of all I really don't even listen to modern gospel because it's changed so much and a lot of them love working with secular artists which again if that's what you want to do that's your business but I don't listen to Kirk Franklin but I'm also not the type that's like oh is that Kirk Franklin I don't want to listen you know what I mean it's not like I go out of my way to not listen to him but I couldn't name a song or recent song I don't know a silver and gold and that's when like 20 song so anyway there's just something about him that makes me you know what I mean y'all so anyway I listen to the tape the audio tape and he straight cursed his son out and I know he has since came out with an apology let me tell you something there is something this is the reason why I couldn't even listen and I understand that the the his son is 33 years old he's an adult but we sing we tend to oh say things like oh he's just human oh you know God may be working on him we I don't I don't want to say that we pacify this but or I saw some comments like oh my parents said that to me or let me tell you something if you grew up in a household where that type of language was used towards you or you heard that please know that that is a abuse that is not okay we have got to stop this y'all there's certain something very wrong with a parent flat out cursing out that you may not agree with this and yes I do believe the son was wrong on his he's not he's not innocent I'm not saying that it was the anger behind it I think he even said like he was gonna choke him out or step on his neck or what he say put his foot up his butt or it was just I was like oh it was it was a bit much and like I said maybe it's maybe it's because I wasn't I didn't grow up in a household like that but that's not normal um we have got so we haven't got to stop this we have got to stop the cycle of this abusive behavior we wonder why we continue to have generational curses in our family that's and yes I get it he is a man and yes we all fall short but that's not that's not right in my opinion I do think it was very wrong for him the cursed son out like that just like it was wrong for this man the curse you know his daughter out you see what I'm saying so it's just something about us I'm talking about my people that we all he didn't do anything wrong or even when it comes to strong discipline like I seen videos of family members completely like what is that one video of the father the little girl had snuck out and he was literally beating the crap out of that child and people were like oh my parents gave me worse beatings that's not something to be happy about that's abuse you do know that and especially if they come after you in anger oh my god y'all we gotta do better we we are hurting as a people it really saddest music and I can't and I will say this to I'm not gonna say I would never ever do that I don't know what I would do if they if I'm pushed to a limit limit but I am hoping by the grace of God that he would give me the strength okay we got to really start praying over these type of situations if I put it like this I don't want my child to pick up any type of behavior like that from me and I'm so glad my parents never talked down on us like that because you be you basically are speaking deaf over your child think about the words that you think about the curse words I know we're gonna go we getting a little deep there but think about the curse words themselves you are cursing you're speaking deaf over your child you got to be careful you really do I don't know it's called a curse for a reason you're speaking negativity and death and you're you know perpetuating that and continuing that cycle of hurt the it's not the first time his his fall back or some out on top of that I heard a snippet of a audio in that same breath and I really don't want to spend a lot of time on this because I haven't heard any other sources on this but I heard a snippet of another audio apparently is an audio of allegedly his son calling Kirk a molester so that the the music Kirk Franklin's music is playing in the background and you can hear a young man's voice on the audio scene oh you're playing my molesters that's my molesters music and so I don't know for sure if that's a son or another young man saying that but in this particular YouTube video the person who made the video is saying that they think it's the son calling Kirk a molester so y'all the music industry whether or not it's gospel or secular it's very very evil and wicked and it's her song oh what does she make baby you able to draw this what in the sound child this is me walking with the danger sign right there you got child you get a panic attention to detail that's what I'm talking about y'all now he gonna bring his raggedy but I just talked about that no my baby can come in here so yeah you guys that's what's going on you know now man I'm in a better place with my neighbors but for I gave it a break like I took a week long break from over there but she has asked that I help keep one of the I'm gonna be keeping one of the babies we were he's so cute he's a baby I used to help watch now he's a toddler but I used to watch him when he was a baby he's so cute y'all love me some babies if I was younger I would probably have some more babies that's picking up babies so many people are pregnant look Linda Linda's pregnant Linda's having a girl um what is her name Morgan is pregnant but a ripple she's on YouTube is but to ripple I don't think she's posting in a while Morgan is pregnant my Starbucks girl is pregnant so y'all what I'm watching on YouTube really not much of anything I'm really not watching a lot of YouTube honestly I'm started to watch a thousand pound sisters on YouTube one of the sisters actually had COVID y'all the bigger one had COVID and then the other one just recently had a baby look I saw them I guess it was the grandmother feeding the baby food their babies like four months oh why are you spoon for them spoon feeding the baby at four months so anyway y'all country people so what is that that looks fabulous baby you did really good I know one thing if you are get pencil on my my blank so y'all what I'm watching y'all excuse the feet I know that's distracting um what I'm watching on TV girl I'm watching a lot so girl first of all let's get into this little series behind her at behind her eyes girl get it together behind her eyes it's on Netflix it was seven or eight parts but well all the way over that is very distracting cuz so whoever's watching it they can't concentrate cuz they see two brown chocolate Twix legs thank you that's good enough um behind her eyes very interesting very different I wasn't sure what was going on by the sixth episode I was a girl what what is this and so look my anxiety was off the rails for a minute I'm not gonna really get into detail but check it out again it is called behind her eyes on Netflix okay like I said I am watching a thousand pound sister I am watching my six hundred pound live that one girl y'all I think her name is Samantha Samantha I don't call everybody Samantha so her name is Samantha this woman has got to be the biggest I think she's the biggest woman I've seen on here um and she's a eater so she appeases the feeders um you know they call them feeders of people who find who have a fetish with bigger women eaten so she eats for people on cam they have a request she eats it on cam that's how she makes her money and so I think Samantha is what was pushing 900 pounds y'all 900 pounds now I think she's like six one yeah she's tall she's six feet she's over six feet but her she looks like if she was thinner she would be pear shit because her face is very small her face is way smaller than her body and her upper part is small but then her bottom like her stomach she was literally eating on her belly like sometimes I could do that too but her belly was like a little table so very very attractive beautiful woman which is well probably why she's got a lot of only what they call them only fans or whatever um but anyway I was watching 600 round life is my point um behind her eyes like I said good girls is back yes season four of good girls I'm here for it I want episode well we're on episode three and I know one thing they better you know Beth and Rio we need I need to get a shower scene something go pop off okay all right y'all so married to medicine it was interesting to watch the first episode what are they on season eight I'm not gonna watch this bless you baby don't cough like that man of a pandemic and you sneezing like that married to medicine season eight yeah I'm not gonna watch this season it looks boring but it was very interesting to see JB be quiet it's very interesting to see how things are in the middle of the pandemic how the pandemic basically affected these people's lives because they're in the you know medical field I will say y'all that dang on who is her what is her name don't want married to Eugene she is so annoying he's up here talking about you know people dying and they're running out of what is it PPE and she's talking in her main concern is oh we didn't we didn't get to go to Italy for anniversary like really is that your priorities have always been off but that was so insensitive for her to say that but like I said it's very interesting to see how these people have basically reacted to the pandemic and we're seeing you know how it affects their livelihoods in their family life so I just watched the first episode I'm not watching Toya that's a name toya y'all even sometimes in the previous season some some of the things she says or was worried about it seems like it's some so mundane you know that she's worried about all of these anyway so yeah marriage and medicine it's back I'm not watching it I did see a movie that I liked on Hulu called tip tempted by danger and what's good had a black cast I like that honey just as soon I was I was about to cancel my Amazon Prime I saw our preview for a show called them let me tell you something it is giving me us and then remember that scene from I saw this on you do because I stopped watching the series on Lovecraft country the jiggable scene with those two demons let me let me in let me in let me so them is apparently about a black family that moves to an all-white neighborhood in the mid 60s but then they start acting crazy remember that once that once trailing we saw a y'all at the very end of the check out the trailer get your Bible at the very end there's this character with the white lips the black face and white lips and he's singing he gets really close I said oh no let me go ahead and not cancel my I want to watch that I really do again it's called them and it's something about it give me step for why so like I said us Lovecraft country I'm here for it so that is it you guys this is just a preview so I do have several videos that are scheduled on my channel so please be expecting that I know a couple of you have asked me if I'm reviewing certain products now I have several videos hopefully by the time that I have set to record and review we're down to of just a few and these are the few that I had carried over from last year honestly and so yeah gonna start limiting or slowing down on the product reviews because my hair is finally thriving after I felt like I had protein overload that a few times last year in the end of last year and y'all this is my hair is stretched but it shrunk up a bit because it's still a lot it could be a lot longer sees past my armpit if it stretched down so yeah my hair I guess my point is is that I don't want to start using a bunch of products in my hair and not know how it's gonna turn out now I'm gonna stick with my singing products now I will have a review coming up or a hair video affordable wash day using drugstore products and some of those products are new to me but the lines are not new okay if that makes sense you guys so I want to share a little bit of something and this has to deal with the series that I just got finished binge watching behind her eyes so share a couple of mini stories and spoiler alert if you have not seen a series girl you don't want to watch this part but hopefully by now it would have been two months since this has came out and hopefully by now most of you all have seen a series so overall the series is about a woman who ends up making out with a guy comes to find out that this is her boss she ends up having an affair with him get some creepy vibes from his wife who turns out she's been I'm not gonna give all of it away just give it all away but turns out she's been visiting her husband and the mistress through what is it called basically she can leave her body white dreaming so the young woman the mistress and I hate to refer to her the main character who's a young black woman she's also a single mom to believe her child is seven or eight years old cute little actor in the movie she's excuse me the series she's been having night terrors and so the wife convinces her be able to figure out how to control her her dreams and that way she can she can ultimately control the night terrors so choose a door go through the door before the night terror come and go to basically a happy place now how this relates to me is I'm what you call a lucid dreamer and I actually have always to a certain degree has I have always been a lucid dreamer and I thought this was normal I thought most people were aware that when they're dreaming they're dreaming I would say a good 90% of my dreams I am aware that I am dreaming I was for a while writing down my dreams and all that and documenting it but I haven't done that in years so a couple of things you guys have happened I'm one of those who gets the visitations from people who have passed on I received a very much needed visitation and try to cry after a good friend of mine was murdered by her husband I felt lost I felt confused I was living in fear I was very fairly young her and I were in our mid-20s and I had this weight on me so I received a visitation from every woman matriarch whatever you want to call it woman is a matricle paternal on my father's side paternal so basically his mother his grandmother and his great-grandmother visited me I have a story time on that I'm not really ready to release that I don't think I ever will but that was very very I needed that as soon as I woke up boom I could feel the weight or whatever that was to fear leave me thank God for that another quick thing my now my life is blinking besides visitations and people who have died and I literally feel like they are them because again I'm very aware that I'm dreaming my husband and I dreamt shared this was like two years into us dating and it was a funny dream but we basically I don't want I don't necessarily want to call it dream sharing but we basically had these same exact dream on the same night I was being well he was being pulled over by a cop the cop was trying to arrest me I was heated in his dream he was pulled over by a cop I was arguing with the arguing with the cop and almost got arrested isn't that funny but yeah I just want to share that tidbit on me personally do you believe in all that like I said are you a lucid dreamer so that is it everyone bye