 good morning guys welcome back to another day of vlogmas oh wow it is bright today we're doing like a day in the life of an influencer brand owner whatever whatever my job is that day if y'all are new here subscribe hope you guys are enjoying vlogmas it's 7 30 and i'm currently on my way to de novo today is launch day for the okine which is a brand that i co-founded we have a puff bag coming out and then we also have a christmas party next week so i'm going to the store that we're having a christmas party at to get content to promote it today it's kind of all over the place though look i am getting a facial i have an event tonight though subscribe if y'all are new here i'm gonna listen to world's first podcast my new podcast episode is coming out with rana roberts it's a really good one all about following your dreams and having confidence it's actually really good episode yay it is so festive and so beautiful here i had to hit some amulet un fits you he's the bestest of friends this is our little photo booth set up not photo booth christmas card photo set up you guys can come and take a christmas card christmas card picks with your friends i cannot off to my favorite back first place ever it's so good i can't believe literally literally every day guys this is my drink and you have to just trust me i'm gonna make a tiktok trying it but you have to just trust me i can't get over it like you have to come here have this drink it's literally the best thing i've ever tried in my life and i know it looks disgusting but people always like oh my god you try it it's the best thing i've ever had i don't know what entice me to do it one day also best breakfast food everything here it's the best we have a launch for the puff bag in an hour i got a good morning to go just because bishop arts is like 20 minutes out of the way so i don't always get to come here i'm coming a lot next week so i had to get another it is my favorite drink in the world it looks disgusting but you have to trust me i'm just making content right now because people are asking questions about the bag like it literally fits everything best bag ever so anyways that's what we're dropping today which i'm really excited for because i've been waiting forever launches in 30 minutes so i've got to post a bunch of stuff get all that ready and secured got a lot of stuff to edit i have therapy at 11 so i have to take a break then then come back i'm also recording a podcast for goss 101 which i'm really excited goss sites 101 the 101 pod very excited for that somehow my good morning drink hasn't kicked in i need everyone to go try this drink because it is so good okay so the clock that i just like have an apron i'm still not over the chicken i made yesterday you know anyways back to work i go it's a very exciting day we did a little pre access code um on our close friends on the okai which is just like something we do like if you comment a lot while you do close friends we have like not that many people on close friends we've already sold like a couple like quite a few and only like 30 people have seen that story so that's actually like a really high conversion um i'm feeling pretty good about it but i just felt like such a good move today and i was in such a bad mood earlier this week so that's makes me even more excited so i know do you guys want a podcast episode on how i plan out my days and weeks and like scheduling because i'm really passionate about that i don't really like doing it in like a youtube setting but i would do it on a podcast so let me know puff bag is launching i'm so excited okay well i have to get back to work um and start editing footage um i have some of my own stuff that i need to edit and then i also have some stuff for the okai so i can edit it and post it so we are ready to go get a listen to a podcast just in such a good mood oh my god oh also vlogmas started officially today i'm pre-filming some vlogs i'm a cheat i'm a liar to cheat when it comes to vlogmas this year because i would rather be a liar to cheat than nothing at all you know because realistically i'm not gonna be able to look i can't do it all i'm also editing my own vlogs and most people aren't and that's just really comes to me not finding an editor who has that fast of a turnaround um in time because i decided like last week it's all on me you know okay guys we are one minute from launch so i just need to go live i need to go live with a post on all the accounts which is mine and the okai and all the different tech talks and stuff posting that i need to link the bag this is so exciting all right guys launch has gone great it has been like half an hour and i was doing other things wanted to show you guys so you can see it like a live view the launch is like over and we're past this and normally like when it's launch is when this is like crazy um but you can see like a live view of the shoppers and i will say there's so many in texas there's so many up here and then there's a ton on like the east coast normally but anyways like so exciting i have therapy in 30 minutes i'm gonna get a little bit more computer work done before i do that i have a dibs event i had no idea how many people were like flying in for this so i actually think i'm gonna see a lot of people tonight i need to add it get back to work the puff bag is now out into the world thank god oh god okay i'm out of therapy and i honestly need to leave very soon but i think i might just change into jeans because like the outfit is cute i just want to be like a little bit more dressed up but it's so casual i'm really hungry so i'm gonna run through the starbucks drive through um and get a snack and a coffee go to the recording and then probably get food and then i'm going to get a facial at my dad's new meds ball he just opened i haven't seen it yet today i think it's like the actual opening day so this before the day's just been getting switched so that's why i keep getting confused all my friends and i are getting facials this week i'm getting a hydro facial which is really really needed okay here is my outfit casual easy obviously with my puff bag that's downstairs we are off i'm using the way perfume what is your spare perfume i honestly i'm not really loyal to any right now i do love alien i'm like out of this actually i'm because it's completely out why was i even spraying that okay okay i lied i changed into this jacket because i felt like i needed to dress up for the girls getting my coffee i also ate lunch and i shot a bunch of like walmart stuff um can i just get a grande iced coffee i guys i know this is my third coffee of the day but like it was a shot of espresso like that wasn't really i mean like what else classifies it as coffee i know okay i don't know the end of the day the only thing that really gives me energy is ice coffee from starbucks like no other ice coffee will do in colbu i'm not asking for an anxiety attack i'm really excited to go record though at stylus sites 101 if you guys live in dallas you definitely know what the account is it has all the dallas wrecks and then the 101 podcast and they just started like a few weeks ago i've been listening it's great i feel bad because i don't have the girls numbers to get them a coffee i hate when i show up places and i like didn't get someone else coffee you know but i should have prepared i should have thought of that in advance hi good how are you thank you you too it is so cozy the leaves are finally changing took long enough let's go ahead and speak into your mic just a casual conversation just to make sure that everything looks good hello hello one two three four five six i like forget words i know i do it all the time do you like do you not like the same thing you say every time it depends do you media always says like would you have your breakfast so then well that's a good one she likes the one like my favorite animal or color yeah i'm like well that's usually a one word answer so yeah one moment i don't remember i bachelor quarter two so i'll do like eight episodes in a day i don't know how you do that you i'm just really on one it gets it all out i wanted that less now i'm gonna say eight in a row i feel like by the end of it you're kind of not so do six yeah i'm just out there just bringing your voice for the first time i still correct okay same yeah i can't listen to myself ever yeah even when people will tag me in clips of when i went on someone else's podcast i can't listen to it because i won't want to share it like i'll share screenshots yesterday i shared screenshots of a podcast because i couldn't stand my voice and i was like oh my god i was actually talking about how i really liked your voice oh god you know what's funny no you really liked it and i was like wait i don't love her i know it's so weird i really like your voice what i have i'm also very proud texan as we've already established and i have this like god forsaken valet girl accent i don't know where i got it from it i was before i moved i like i have no idea where he from so for so long on youtube everyone was like oh my god you're so annoying like whatever i don't care and then podcasting which i would say i'm the opposite of a calling person i'm very whatever like it's so soothing and i'm like i do this like on drugs so literally what is their baseline it's no they'll literally wow and that doesn't interest listen something can be calming and still be full of personality full of energy you know yeah i guess the thing is is it's really like the it's a little bit too i would never describe myself like i like i like you know i don't know it's really weird though but just so you know i'm not agreeing listening to your voice but i didn't hear mine for the first time and i was like yeah it's hard it's tough yeah it's hard just finished recording their offices are so cute like i knew they were cute because people have told me but it was just so different seeing them like it makes me want to move also these dallas passport things alright so like i was saying basically dallas 101 has these like passport collections that you buy and then it gives you all these like discounts or like you have like one free truffle you have 25 off here and it also like gets you out like a dollar specialty cocktail like all throughout the neighborhood but they have different neighborhoods they have different like categories like wellness like things like that i think like health because like god jeff what is this airing out tim i'm like really into jeff fm um move these days so anyways i'm gonna facial not i have to i'm gonna get a facial um my dad's mad spot opened so it's my first time going to see it making a tick to oh making a tick tock and then um after that i do have a dibs event and a lot of people are in town like i said earlier so i guess i'm gonna see i don't know anyone who's going and i really don't know the attire oh guys we're here for the first time look who it is guys i don't want to be in it uh why because i'm just being it for second guys come see my dad he opened up well it's a franchise uh that's all i can't talk i'm so hungry then i'm like losing my mind he's giving me a tour of the space looks so nice back here i'm gonna get a hydro facial those are my favorite facials this is an incredible thing for me i'm very excited i will have a code eventually oh wow it looks really nice oh my god yeah that is really nice it's gonna like go fast you know right which is head here right yes so before we get to recording sorry go ahead but dalat you know dalasvice the instagram dalasvice 101 they're like really good for rucks and stuff but we have a podcast so i've recorded with them um so your sensitive you guys are sensitive to your skin the closet post facial i don't even think you guys can see my skin is glowing i love hydro facials i'm so proud of my dad very happy for him he has wanted to do something like this for like literally my whole life so i will have a code um on the screen or i'll say something i don't have it right this second but i will have a code so i'm very overwhelmed but i'm going i'm excited i'm going with myself i don't even know i know jenna's gonna be there i know obviously corny will be there i like i don't know who's going and going to these things alone can kind of be like nerve-wracking sometimes even if like i don't know like i don't know how to describe it it's just like soon i don't have an outfit picked out because i thought we're like watching elf i thought they said to wear something really like cozy so i thought like cozy casual house is like really freezing right now oh i did just get these new pants it'd be cute i got the um good american black pants i wore these in pink to the live show and they were incredible also by the way i have a dibs code kenzie 25 or 25 percent off i use dibs every single day those sticks that i use that's dibs do i just wear these pants with like a sweater and some cute boots i think that might be the bad all right y'all so this actual sweater okay what the fact that my bro is just laying like that these pants are incredible i'm not wearing heels just because i don't feel like it i am wearing my cowboy boots this actually like this big normally but it's like slightly too short to wear as a dress i guess not really why did i think that actually it's literally fingertip length why did i ever think that about this sweater i can definitely wear this as a dress i'm gonna find a different sweater and while i'm talking to you guys but what i wanted to say oh you know what i could do i did wear this yesterday but it's a turtleneck it's kind of boring though it is a little bit boring these pants are really flattering anyways what i was gonna say is i feel like i've talked about this but i always edit it out just because i feel like i'm being annoying or whatever but i don't know i just think like i haven't struggled more in the past like year or so with comparison or like not feeling good enough or not feeling like i'm doing enough or i'm like filling the blanks and it's a problem for me i guess i don't really know like i just get like really emotional and super hard on myself if like things are not like overnight success sold out in two minutes like i don't know i think it's like really easy to compare yourself and i'm trying so hard not to look the other day that's why i wasn't such a big funk because i just like i mean in diagram three like my biggest fear is failure and like even though i don't necessarily always define failure as like a career or success as like a career related thing it's important that i start using rubbers of like i sometimes feel this way because i don't always feel these things and i don't always feel this way but i just think more so recently i've just been like really hard on myself and like comparing myself and like thinking that i'm not doing enough or it's not enough or it's not success like i don't know just get really in my head and then i just get really emotional and then i'm like i want to just quit everything and like not even try and like who cares anyways like no one like if i wasn't like who cares like i'm not it sounds so stupid and annoying and like almost pick me but it's like i'm not someone like favorite influencer i'm not someone's like what i feel like i'm just kind of there sometimes that makes any sense which hopefully isn't the case i don't know but like i just have been so hard on myself and like if things are not and like again the thing is like something can do so so so well and i still am like all right well next time it's gotta be better and like next time it's gotta be you know whatever like it's very um i don't know like i was in a really weird fun the other day and then i woke up and i really got out of it and i was just in a much better mood this morning and like things are going great and like whatever but like i don't know i just have really really unrealistic standards for myself and even when i do do really well in something i'm just like expecting i guess like more or something i really don't know guys like i don't know and like that's not to say i'm i am genuinely so grateful it really isn't me not being grateful it's me being like i am not doing enough or i am not successful enough or i am not this or that and i think my emotions and while at other times i don't feel this way i have a healthy mindset and a healthier outlook maybe it's like the holidays just like where there's more added like emotions and pressure and stuff that makes it like worse i don't really i don't really know guys but i don't know that is like also the reality i think with me of like having my own business or businesses because like i'm like the boss and i don't want to like there's not someone that's like you're doing a job you know what i mean so anyway it's not complaining it's not about my actual job or anything like that it's just about me and how i feel about myself towards my career at this point in time that makes any sense here's my outfit i feel like it's just like a little subpar it's fine i guess i don't know i'm in like a really weird mood i'm so grateful for my life for y'all for my dogs my family dallas texas everything trying to like i don't know it's weird too because like it truly is an anxiety thing because it like doesn't make sense like it's not logical but i don't know like i just i feel like i'm like in like a hamster wheel or something like it doesn't feel good all right my car's almost here and i changed and i feel like more myself with this fit i mean it's really boring don't get me wrong but going through these things can be really nerve-wracking alone like i said and i honestly rarely do go alone also i will probably know someone there like i just don't know who's coming from dallas um and i've never met these girls then i know we're coming but i'm going okay also my skin like actually is glowing i know it's like what a hydrofacial does but love that for me and back from the event it went well i made new friends and i got new dibs by the way y'all can use code i think it's kenzie 25 or 25 off dibs everything they have is incredible like their lip glosses are amazing their statistics are amazing their beauty island sticks like i use these like i was saying all the time i'm using another one i also want one so so probably take one of mine i don't know if i've had this color exactly but they are so good one side is a bronzer they're not over hyped at all like they really are just not good so anyways also a little bit of products we definitely recommend i also got these cute little earrings they're so different from what i normally wear but i feel like could be fun i have my headphones on because i just came from an uber i came back because well i needed to be at my house really fast or something but um i had to leave the movie a little early because i need to see you back here and also i was like i have so much work to do tonight so i need to like edit and just like a bunch of other to-dos and whatever but it was fun i really thought i went it was really great and yeah i'm still really anxious honestly so part of me is like maybe i just take a bath and make myself read but like i i don't know what's gonna make me feel better sometimes actually relaxing makes me feel better other times actually working makes you feel better so i don't know i'm i just like make water make water guys i'm not okay anyways so thank you guys for watching i hope you guys enjoyed um i'm sorry i felt like i was like complaining or being annoying or like whatever i won't i can never talk about it again i'm sorry it's just like anxiety and it's also like the reality of just like work stuff normally i just text my friends or call my mom which is what i was just talking to but you know i don't know i feel like it's also like literally like the reality like i see other people online who have businesses and they just seem like or like calling wise they just look the happiest people who are like not stressed and like everything works out so perfectly and whatever which i know is obviously probably not the case like social media is not real but that's why it's like important for me to be like that is not my journey at least was like anything um but anyways i love you guys so much hope you guys enjoy shop the puff bag subscribe stay tuned for tomorrow's vlogmas we're doing cooking class in the morning at 10 a.m so i'm really excited loren's going to work out with me i'm gonna bribe her with some dibs products she's gonna be mad when i wake her or when i pick her up at 7 a.m so love you guys so much and i will see you tomorrow on one hand i always do have this like little doubt of like oh will people actually like this song like it might be told trash and i just don't know it um but at the same time if it's just like one person that can connect to the song and um can inspire them to do what they love or inspire them in in any way then i'm like okay i've done my job