 Wa ki toka, this chupi dango comes on top of me. I'm asleep. So ni ki jiske na patam tuju yango. I'm like, angu na fanya? So mimi kuzaliwa mam, ame niza mamake. So ni bisweni mamango, so niza nyonya. And he start to care racing me and all that and you know. Hello, good people and welcome back to SPM Buzz. My name is Shiko Gitao and today we are right here with a beautiful lady and it's a purity of money. Purity of money is a psychologist and of course, akona story of how she found herself in this sector. Purity, karibu sana? Asanti sana. Nendeliaji. Nendela salama and I'm very happy to see you. Thank you, I'm happy to see you. Actually you are more beautiful than in person. Thank you, thank you. SPM Buzz is blessed to have you. Asanti sana, but Nendelia fiti. Nendela salama, na shkoro mungu. Ya health wise, am okay. Mentally? Ya, mentally, emotionally, am okay. Ya, it's just, I'm not financially stable, but mentally stable, emotional, health wise, I'm stable. Apokwa financially na jatuni kila mkanya. Are you kusia? Apana e kuna. E kuna o kuna. Kusia me too most. But anyway, of course today we are here to tell a story on how you find yourself as a psychologist. Labdoneza tombia. Kido go to about your childhood story? Lianza wapi? Okay, and before I say, kuna maali nili perna story, na watu wakani tu sisana, but if you abuse someone because of what he has been through, he doesn't define that person, he defines you. One a perna story is not the first time or the second time or the third time. One a perna story, not because of anything, but because kuna watu wanyakua is strong as I am. Kuna watu wame pitiya, maybe a kajiwa wengina na panga kujiwa, wengina wame zama into depression, but me opening up, because actually the more I open up, the more I get many people. Watu wengana mbe purity, nili ona nini interview ako and whatever you went through is the same thing I went through, but I'm not as strong as you. Can you help me? And that is my happiness. So far I have eight ladies, I have eight men. Yeah, because it's about rape kwenya hawa jwe, not only ladies who are raped, only even men are so domised. And then God, through these interviews I'm doing, wengi wana open up, wana kuja, nina wa saidiya, tuna na saidiya na, we walk the journey and at least wame zakuji penda and smiley and to me, that's a fulfillment. You know, it's beautiful that we have men who are ready to open up because I know that's one thing men avoid because society me wa fanya wakwe kama if you open up or rather if you share your challenge with someone, you are weak. But that's not the case. It's okay not to be okay even as a man. Ebuton bia labda your story. Okay, so I'll give it in brief to see it take time off because it's something I've been talking about. Actually, guys, I'm completely healed. So if you see me not being emotional, it's because I'm fully healed right now. Gekwani some other times I would really be crying, but right now me handa go a lot of therapies and talking, the more I talk, the more it becomes strong. So me me chaldu loza, a very bad childhood. So na jo ukembyam tu li kwa na chaldu dumbaya na dani maybe ule na shule mi go tu po maybe umkwa nga na chakula I had food, I had clothes, I had education, but I didn't have that clothes. I was lonely, timid, I suffered. I'll start with a stepfather. I had the worst stepfather in the world. Not only was he toxic, but he was also an assist. Umtu manye, because I remember when I said my story, kuna mtu li kuji aka na bia, ay, purity. And the way Vaita, because that was his nickname, Vaita li kwa na penda watu injange, penda watu injene na kusekua penda, because uko injame tenge na zaji na, but in the house, a few who knew him. Diwali ni defend, mpa na wu umtu, we knew him. He was really toxic. So any time mamangenda kusa, nili kwa nalala injene. Na, ni melelewa kwa geto shi. Na geto at least, squeeze at least. Dos kitambo, especially pali ni lelewa, otutwa li kwa na ibi wo siku, na utawa iwa ona tenna. Where was that? Marigo ini, South Bay. Ya, dosu wu injame lelewa uka mamazaluwa uka, kuna wakati marigo li kwa ni tuwa rigo, it was really bad. But thank God, nili kwa that tiny, na kamuli kwa dogo, sun kwa jifichi akwa, that's the big. Lemi ask you, labda kwa ni ni na kufu kusa mama kituwa? Ali kwa anta kani enda kwa babangu, of which mi sujiwe babangu. Sujiwe imu ona. Na yoto na ito akim, so suji ni kimu gani, and I know he aneshi na nyuki at a hotel called Joskaki. That's the only thing I know. But I went to look for him sometime and yonili amini, whatever my mama had said, mi uko eliju. The receptionist by then, that was 2010, where receptionist ma nyalini on, na nifuna na na kamu abo suetu, kwa nuwanim totoa ake. Then there was this who came, piauli ni pigangaka lukufu lani, na jilemtu na kuwangaliangaka, na nifuna na na kufu uetu, but I guess, ni kamu asdu yogo pa ibor, na jomasungu na ku tangeneza jina. But me mi sinashidana at the moment, nilimsa mi akitambu, the way I have forgiven all the defilers, I did not forgive them or him because they deserve, there's something called inner peace. I deserve to have that peace. Sombon na ni jumizana watua na shuguli na mi mi. The people defiled me, others wali kufa, wali chizu, wali nini they moved on in their lives. Sombon na ni kayapa, nimi jifinia, nimi jifinia, nimi jumidu so to move on so that I can help others. And since I got that help and the first thing to getting healed it's acceptance. The first time we started saying a niu ekituli na nifani kia dome anza kupona, and to me I accepted, yes. I have been defiled nine times by nine men, but life has to move on. Nitesi kuru di numa. Let me start moving on and God gave me the purpose Because even after I attempted suicide 4 times na sikuwa nda So I thought God give me the purpose Ebu! Ebu! Make us understand this story because you're strong I'll say you're strong, you are strong So tumkot me fika palelabda Mama me toka babana Ya, nani, fukosa Ejwa lasu mani ngekwa njesha, njesha ndo kwenata Even the view was itok ya kaya po aju emboona So my dad apparently wanted me to go to my father Mon njesha sikuwa na jua Na ali alikwanta katu maimam, sii meimi Alikwanta katu maimam So na jua na jua mama ngohezi kubali Jua shii leta na jumpa kakasamata mpeleka Polisi In her own way maimam loved me She loved me The only thing is that she had her pasts Fun enough I've not told you She was also defiled ndo nipate On she at a tender age Now see, yo e ya hakuwana jua Tua kitambo akuwana Jua tasi zi ndi yo watona On embrace cancelling No na, so e ya hakuwana jua So machungu Na jua zi wa kitambo sa hatapigam tu Machungu yote li kuina tokia kuwango Siya tia nipenda na nipenda But akuwana jua oni wa depressed Zime pael So kituki dogo tu zina li puka And again she was also ignorant She trusted so much And in her mind alikwana sama ay Mtumkubu ezu fanyam titom dogo kitu So and now she was busy It was one hand anu zangu Anu pika chipsa mosa Na badjiya Ako na duka Ako na mazi Ako na maziwa One person So she was ever busy Kozi ya kusoma The mam died a few of four years And the dad died when she was I guess seven years So alia zaku jilea tango a few of seven years Until wakata li nipata Nuna sa li dikaza kusoma kafuka klas 3 Ndi ajiwa kwa dika Jina ke na kusoma mahali So nali kwa na tamani kusoma sana Actually atasize iwa na niyambia Pirutuki pata pesa please nipele ke gumbaru She loves education And I promise that And I always tell God I'm putting me shama refu So that I can fulfill it to her So the way she was busy Ha kwa na temi eto as kids Jua tangi eto pelika ukuru pak Yali kwa na shinda kulala Kus ewa na lalamasa matatu So hana time Na ukenda kumongelasha Anadani ni kumunam distract So ilikwa toka apani ni Onasi chakulana kwa kia po Kwa ni umeni Saya ilikwatu Shule chakulangu Shule chakulangu So ha kwa ikubali kwa amba The stepdad was mistreaty No She until a kafa ni investigation Na josa sa watu aliaza Kuku akuras Na jua geto nyomba za mabati So ukionge a huyo naskia Ula naskia So ukanzaku mombi At first alikwa na kata Taiki mitom kubwa Aji sa asa Atalalisha jem doto inje But then she came to know but later Nabda li wali fanyani ni Alikwa Yemoni ali eka Mtego akadi fanyami enda Up country kusamangu wali kwa na fanyami But then akarudi So kurudi usiku akani pata Akani pata inje So many kwa nadani mibe tuta enda ni ni But what she did was She took me to boarding Boarding school So she by the time na pili kwa Boarding school I had been defiled 3 times By our house boys alikwa me Amia Jiri Na a certain guy Ok entamuita 2 house boys Unika pili kwa na kapa Batali kwa mem patia kazi akuni fanya To show Ni tuta ringa ma ni to show ringa To show English here too So this guy also They took advantage And I remember It's like wali kwa me discuss So she ina kitu Ina fanyi kana pattern By then singe elu ako So naiv, kati made Kata any Kaino sent Kani kani kali ambi wam Tumkuba kwa miya kitu na skeza Akuna kupenga So this guy Ali fanyu jinga Ya kuni rep alone And then later na ni ambia Wakati I saw blood Because it was really painful And na ni ambia ni urafiki Tume silu urafiki eto That's what she told me Iza wajendonga zina ni uma Zina ni kasirisha actually Zini oki sikui So emotional But what I get I become angry Because this guy was Around 30 if I'm not wrong by that I was 7 years No, 7 or 8 years there Nili kwa Nuna kumukawa to trukit Ambosia ikawa squeeze Or squeeze Even me kids who are 5 years If you touch them Kwa zini me kwa nikiwa fonsa Ataku jana Ya Si siya tu kujiwa Mimi, I mean personally Si kujiwa Jaku na mtashen Kalisha cini ya kwa Ambia mani Ki guzo hapa maha Hapa maha pa namtu Ni ambia Mimi si kwa iambia Miki tu nilimbo Okia maiki tu namtu Mkubuna skia Usiposki utenda kwa shetani Uta patalana So anything na ambia Na kubali So after I went to boarding Nuna pasani me defilio The first guy Who took my innocence My virginity Aka anza kwenda distance The second one Aka jifanya bado ako Urafiki na mimi He took advantage of me After that Aka anza distance Then now there is this The Tuta man Ya pia Siya miha jiriwa na maha mbado He did the same thing So those are three guys And whatever I'm always happy And I am grateful to God Up to now Si ku pata ugunzwa Or maybe si ku get pregnant Because I have a cousin When I started menstrual She was defiled at 9 And she became pregnant So that's another thing I usually tell God Thank you Because my mum She's her temper She's a merian Onaji wa meru Asira Actually the time I opened to her last year You only opened to her How many years? Okay, right now I'm 30 And I was defiled When I was 8 years All those years up to now So you can imagine Almost 23 years And one thing She told me That when I was born I felt relieved And when I was born I was so impressed I understood And when I was 30 I started working In a business Because I was in a committee And often I was working at your firm So thank God And I knew Because the kind of Approach me Approach my uncle Because my uncle To defiled me I'll get to that The kind of approach I will approach And I'll get to that I'll get to that My uncle had to run away Let's talk about life Umepele kwa body So That After me rude Nili pele kwa Then when I was in class 5 Kukuja My uncle said Okay They have a problem And I usually talk to them You Asira nimbaya So So Akato roka Akakuja Nairobi By then I took out Jutuljoba Dai So see Obvious me brother Amam Atam host ito Remember we are living in a single room So Ni paziya Then kitanda yanko Kitanda yango Paziya kitanda yamam And wana toka usiko Wana toka uskuko Ndakuza maziwa So waki toka Kitanda yanko Kams on top of me I'm asleep So ni kijiske na patam tuju yango And I'm like Ango na fanya So mimi kuzaliwa mam Amenza mamake So nimbiswa ni mamango So niza nyonya And he start to care Racing me and all that And you know Penetrating And I feel pain Nnamambi yanko Wachi and all that And I'm like Actually kenye na fanya When he comes to Ango So na fanya bizuri Atamamaya ko Akiskiya Anashida Nukimuambia tataku chapa So this guy is manipulating me Psychologically And since I'm a kid Na tulia mbo Na obei watu akubwa Siyambi mam But pamudena utoto yango I feel now Whatever Why am I feeling pain? Why is yuchunguzo? Tewa izi Na udim tumkubo Mbona na nyonya And all that Nditu ni tumenza kutokia You know that pain So after that Na rudi shule After na rudi shule There is this By then we'll go to guidance and counseling Wana letwa shule Wana zaku tuwangelesha And all that Manu mafipu guza apani Then I start asking weird questions Na wana notice So na itwa After now Ya after Waka notice So sii mii kawambia Na mii nambia nga mama Mama na kuwanga Mkali Uzi muwambia Uki mwangelesha tu na shouti wapa So Nika wambia Waka nambia next time Kituka ikfani Kwa wambia nani Wambia mama Mke So siit kufka classics Management na badilishwa Is it ya classics Kenda second term Management shi yote Ika badilishwa Aja siisaha Awa rudi weli kwa shan Jua su weli kwa nani Handle na kia Kus Most of the time Nginza kufikiria Mr. L infaniya iwi Mr. Biel infaniya iwi So ya Ya ya Kus rudi nisha Nyami wanya Nymianza kufaniwa Guy Dance Isi zia yaw kuaact других That was Guy Dance No, no For the record Yatia ni fani two examples Guy Dance Nymtu ana kuwambia Shii kunyu imaji Help ya kukwesawa Kunyu ayote Kansla ataku diya kuwambia Ono na juki maliza imaji Ono na zikuni You say the Kansla Allows you to make your decision but the fashion guide wouldn't allow it to affect us So, we changed our Muyun Thank you. You should have put your hand up It's okay it could lead to a very big difference Because the counselor doesn't guide you the counselor allows you to decide But when, you come out of lumps and tell anybody, go pulse bico mi namtikio Defense w ranked bico mi yalai n ambama didentika nili hiisit kwa mada kila mutum paka wachiman woto wa meba delishu So isko dumpi mekuja they don't know anything about me So any takni ki jitenga jumi ni kwa ni mekotas kwa na fanya ni ni duties because they wanted me to heal So how I wa jui nili kwa ni meketisha na osu chana how I wa jui ni kwa na onu ni kana ki jiana So it affects me na ambuwa ma ni kei patwa ni kwa off-guard na kelewa Concentrate So onu jiyo se sata kushika maso mo ni kaza kudrop ni kaza kudrop So kufika kkla 7 do ni kaza kuji kahetred kak kuja tu because size already akili anguisha koma ma mange ni skiza butukaisi Okay lot of regret Ya Okay, sitaki kudua so much on that because shule nili pitiya nili kapitiya I was bullied me size okay I don't know akunamta naiza ni bully size because I've been bullied ever since I was young after your day school nili kwa na bully wakoza was kataini ni kishinda wamaama hachani wa itwa wamaama na atandi kwa wakam tu kadogo sani mba ni sita ambi ya omito so I've been bullied all my life I had it one extend of suja kumbi ya inili ya kewa bairu na kumukazule big zenezil kwa sharp nisha ya kewa mi ni mejibuswali kwa na kukani kakali ya bairu kwa na kutaku ambi ya maimama but now the doctor said no should anything happen will be blamed nipatiya nama mama ko that's when kitu li kujun ataka mama penda ni mamboya kukumi ba doa na nizial because she came at night kujana usiko ya that's the only time li kujashule mi misuja that was the first time ever since ni ingiya okay sasa ni maima ni mesoma kwa 7 kufika kwa 7 3rd term sasa mamangu kila kitu ali kwa na pebabango magina kila kitu so wakati ilfika ni kikua 3rd term kwa 7 akanza kutuanga mamangu actually no the step dad my step dad even as we are speaking right now maimama is very sick it is affected really gongangu wa kifuwa na nyundo aka gongeshwa na ni ni kwa fridge so yuf sumulu wa na mugongo ali gongwa kifuwa na nyundo kifuwa na sumubwa plus piya li kanyangu wa mugu ika twist mugu ka then bada pula kospitalia ika shikwaterna so right now she is sick and then iu kufanya kazi li kwa fanya kazi usiko una kumbukizu so maimama li kwa beba tano na ni usikwata kukiniya ni suya baridiote chazathritis plus anabatulizo pain and everything is on me but I thank God at least through counseling nani fanya nisi kwa any way down kuna ma times na eza ni weza so aka telichapo wa ali chapo na nyundo aka faint aka jisuki aki usi aka nomu za tani ata ni uwa so aka anza kupanga gaku toroka ali toroka bata sa aka time a very bad timing nikiwa nanda kufanya KCPE so after metoroka my stepfather kwa una metoroka echa ni katolem tu toa kwa sira aka kuja mande KCPE mande yuku usyama loka kufanya rehearsals ame kuja jiyoni now the step dad na since shileo tina jiyeni dad ata mukataza ana kuja nambi ali kwa meza kuni ta kafope mama kwa metoroka na ukimalza shule oskuja kwangu and all the best na kaenda so imagine tu na fanyam tia ni kiesho umesyambiwa mama kwa ya sejupali ako na nisi ele pe nina joy me kwa home so usi fanyam tia ni tuku fanya unafanya tu time ishe tu I just nili fanyam enough I got a 327 after kufanya and thank god na aka kuja na step dad nambu na nili ok this is your dad na me since ok na penda mama nili kwa na nili kwa na mchukia badawa na penda I don't know how that relate you hate someone and at the same time on penda it makes sense so nili kwa na tika fanya kitu ni mfraisha hello dad I remember those greetings say hello dad aka furaida tukachikuli wa tukanda kumbali kwa menda rungai hei achasa sama ishe yanzi so ame tuka from the first step dad second step dad life ika kuwangu mu shi life ika kuwangu mu tu ajere bukuza majani yendi ay step dad namba tu I think before actually nini interval kumeni yambia when mama litu kwa the first step dad ali kwa memuachia vitu kitu kwa jina ya the first step dad that's a loss big one so step dad too ame enda me kwa ngingi aka enda me kwa ngingi na yon na hard working lady atatadzirika kumzai step dad ali kwa menda kawaganga ali pelika picha amade uko na picha yango do picha yango ali pelika leita and then aka fungani kwa mama kashindoku omba so ya because kwa wone this is true wakati wali patterna na yeye ali kwa na renta raise ya na mama liyeza kuilipa within two months do ya meansisha maziwa duka iso vitu zote wone azi kwa azi kwa zina perish until wakati kwa meachana kuito nili toa shulemzori provincial school na juna idua chukagals nili enda wuko because i had good math but kumuna je chukagals so inu it's really expensive inu itadzim tu mwenya neza ya because you kuf good money so after nia singia weza so nika meyama mazi bora ni maziwa fom fom nipelike any school actually ni kakalika whole month second term fom two first term ni kakalika whole month so many li enda second month nika enda fanya interview ni kapas na nika ingia shule so that was the worst year of my life ono na sasa ile the worst thing ini mi me personally as purity of money sezi we shatakoma the worst enemy I remember it was 2009 muizuwatano 3rd 27 Saturday siwazi sahaw nili kwa ni meto kakuza kumbe doze this animal was trailing me nili kwa nani trail daily from my stepfather's order let's say first so nika sema first ni stepdad ni wiyotu juu mingina li enda hiya kuka so atana nga impatsana so ni was stepdad umtua li kwa na kufuata ane tumuana the stepdad so mi I was working all the way from Rungai to Karen kuli kwa na campani sezi ni kubu asana na jengwa then wali kwa na tangene zama so na tembe asubui juu sasa amefunga nisha mama kia enda kuna ktuna faniika so mi mi ni meenda na wuza chapo na wuza githeri chayu na izo witu watu omji uziwa na manage kuli piya mam nomba na manage kuli piya maibro shule na manage kutriti maima kikonjeka so ilikui me kwa hard shule in the meantime nita rudi badai so the expectation that my father had my stepdad kwa na expect witu kwa household pwake na dikasaidichi kali pata dikasaidichi kwa ziveni yangadana mi ni me mocha na 2 years and you know you can imagine ame acha mamangu na 40 years and then umu niya me let umu mocha na 2 years so you can imagine the gap almost 6 years so the guy was old we'll say really old kupata mamangu siya telim pata me muka tia mani hapana wali tu mi ujanja na mamayake maima ma li kwan takakuja na irobi ok mi miku zali waku wangu ni ma zaliwa na nyuki siya zaliwa na irobi kulewa ni ma luluwa na irobi so maimam ali kumbuanyumba ali rent karibuna umu sho uyo umu sho sho sasa na totoakia li kuja na irobi since 1972 haja wai pata bibi so akona stress na since amana paku na haka hardworking lady as a mother I don't blame ma any mam wants the best for so even the ali connect kusas gachikulia umu yu akazi feature kufika na irobi akambio sasa umekwa waif so she was manipulated siya tia li katiwa ka in gearboxa it was like a forceful marriage now let's talk about this day so this guy ane bia baria ko ane mi kwanikipu onu konu na fanyanga ni ni uku ane zaba ii cha poza ni zime baki so ni kamo eleza and this is the right thing the right day for you actually indios kuya ko ya baraka, nimi kwaniki taftia wato akumpiki and all that because they are so busy tamiwa piki ototua wawa party so ane taka ototua kwa piki ya kwa fulia cha kule ni aneza kula like a whole days na joma suon kwa aneza park e opportunity she nene wama bia e niseidesi mi akone pigi ama imam araka raka ni siya pigi ama the mam ni me pata kazi wana taka ototua kupika ni ni ni and sasa we were even with my cousin because na ali kwa medanga ni liwa aka acha shule kapa tamiwa sotu li kwa tunisha e bado so ako e di kwa tatu araka wu kipika mi na fuwa kazi niya kwa na panga kwa wambia saka nbenda na ea lafutu na jitairi shat of tefe feia kumpili kwa like aneza iya instant sasa ea me kwa sas nile wana skiangamana from heaven kumbe it's from hell kumbe umtu vene tunongi ane zubaisu na jwa current kwa masonko na pando na pende me iti kumu metu liya tu nuna size ea tapatawun nye ngegarii na nifuatafu mo al rana we all scream nisha ee begandu rwa pamaia veni kwa oki kufo bia akaishangia raka we fight it but akaishangia raka mi non na gari ni umu sinini kitu kaiso haiku jikua keli ako ì Iro ​Mia. Yo gari manifiki ni me, she kwa ni mi rushu kwa gari, she wumpa kwa ngong forest. Mifali kuzubaisha, aka kwa nzake na gari. Nngi yotu neza place, nga nge ni she kia popa li kuna watu. Of course ni ta scrim. So ni li scrim, but aku kwa na wasu aka ni help, ni kafikishuwa. Situ mutu. Waki kwa kwa gari ili kwa sangapi? Nili toka sanane. So it was around apu sanane na nusu o something. Nili kwa yomasa sanane. So those guys, she wali kwa hiyu. Jum tumoja ni mi mi kwa nga ni kitambia from Rungai to Karen. Na siyati wana kula sana. So I was less than one jibi. Nili kwa kataini. Very tiny. Yes, I tried. I did try my best. But wali mi akelia mango miza tumbo. And so kumbe my dad had told them, na jia babangu sa sabahi, na kwa na jwa kama ni medifilo or anything. Kokas chana ni kapiwa. Nili na ako. Now at least I can talk without pain. But badu wangana fi lile asera. Mbona wanoma yunginu wana kubali. Shetanya wakontro like that. These guys did the worst you can do to a human being. I tried, she tried for it. Singe wa weza. I was alone. I was scared. Nili wana visu. Wali ni threatened. Wali ni weza. And it was painful. And it was really hurting. At least I thank God right now I can talk without shedding tears. Or without that pain. But anytime I remember it. Because we walk through the pain. You can't forget. You can't forget. But after walking through it. Right now I can just recall it as a memory. A bad memory. Wanga nomba sana. Mtu mungi na sui. Experience what I experienced. This means it was a gangrip. Ya, it was a gangrip. The four of them. So after that. Niku bali ni kunyomaji. I know. It's quite a tough one we must say. It's a tough one. And for you being here telling. Good job. Thank you for staying strong. Thank you. It hasn't been easy. I told you I've gone more than 30 therapists. For me to be this strong. It hasn't been easy. Because anytime I remember that day. It makes me want to hate some men. Not all of them. But I have a very bad spot for rapists. How they destroy someone's life. Kuna mtu sui a strong as me. Ya meripua once na kajiwa. Ya, because they don't know what they do. I always talk to whenever I have a chance of talking to a man. Wangan na mumbe. Usu iku bali. Kusema e kwa yoshi tan. Fight it as much as possible. Fight it. Because it turns you to a devil. Not even ananimo to a devil. So after these guys womanfanya whatever they did. Akusama e akakadem ka me pigakelele. Maybe kana za kwa kaliatrat watu. So wakan tokwa ngongfores. Kama ushe yenda. Nakuanga kicha kanjiya, kicha kanjiya. So tu kato kako yo. Where they did the thing. Tukanda kwa apili tu kengiata. Kesa palimagari zina pita pita. So the three guys. Waka mga the person manya liniin. A linii zubaisha. Wa baki na ya ya. Achatwe nange to chimbe. They wanted to kill me in the most painful way. Wanu rushe kwa shimoni kwa hi. Wanu zike. Then mamangwa ishi. Una jasa hata jwa palinii lienda. Alienda nga wapi. That makes me nga zata manisa na gava wachungu zangizu vicha kasaano. Kus maybe kuna hotu ali zika nwa niwa siyanga. Mtu ali disappear ujuwangi palinii yenda. So had a lot of incidents happening there. Nga azikwangi nzuri. For example, I think two months ago we had one photograph alienda kupiga picha mahalitu but they were dragged all the way into the inside. Sa sita usiku my friend menyanga niwa kila kitu mefa niwa vitu. Polisi wana for government ruta aseme watu vijana waake waekwungung forest because that place maybe oneeza pata mii liningi sana because kama hotu ali kwa nafa nivyo which means and even I usually see my dad was a killer because kwa na yo mentality which means maybe ashei fanya ashei fanya kituka yo tena so but maybe God said yeita kwa siku yango so these guys waka ena kanya chana umtina I'm dragging kwa nenda kuchimba, shimu malute palinta, nita e kwa So gari ya kwanze na pita nikasima miisha aka kata aka speed garibata pichu namkono yango umsa aka notice aka niya nisha kisu nbununa nii nita kuhu kufata bifu kufavenya kwa je uka kaisiku kada kia tuwa apa tukuziki okume kufa ofkosa kuna mta haugopi kufa but the second kwa niliku jashii misi juveni nili stretchum kona remember nili stretchum kono ya left pa gari kasi mama gari kusimama umsa aka kujanyu mayango naja sana jwa kuna kisu apa so na jaribu kwa ambi e muna zitu nipia lift nifiketu kwanjiya imagine driver ha notice kitu pungiya na wa badu the driver apa ana drive the police juwaka meva civilian ya shkanishi kufungu umsa aka ni rushia na kanzaku kimbia na kumbukangatu nisa maka na kisu nani kaisi angovo wacha sasa rushia skari kisu skari waka toa bunduki kwa kanzaku umshoot sijawu that was my first time yabunduki nili stuka shinkabas sasa andoa na nimaliza vizure ma gangsters juwamaeva civilian niya kujia kakwa moto vizure mbekai nimeruka frank pa anka jirushia kwa moto hei nga samasa wacha tu mungu sa idea tu mama ango tundali kwa kwa kele usa idea tu apona matiyam tu muzuri nika kachini flat tega was shot tabisa aka kufa on the spot sami meile woga na kutete me kata sikuza kwa mbe kuna mungine bata na ngewa mbe kwa wala skia gang shot definti wali kimbia anakuja na nembi enge kwa gari nani nili kata until the OCS na OCPD waka kuja ahuman police and man mail police na kasa ma panawa niya skari wame ni kwa sababu niwa me koko andu akona kesiya kwa mama nga kapigiyo kupigiyo aami anza kuteta kwa kwa pikoni kazili kwa sanga pa mama tuliza nipolisiwa na pigi anefa hema kosa gani ajafanya ma kosa ndo mefa niwa ma kosa kujia kujia current police station madhia liyan zangakuli ali kujia all the way from Rangai to current police station na kili yanga so actually sasa mimi nimi hatiwa bati na bidi sasa ni kwa strong for her kwa zali ishaka bisa so ni kandikiwa barua, ni ka pelikwana irobi women and the procedure was painful kutalwe wichia fund all that kupa tizu ma dawa tizu ma air base kwa zi feature ju yu aibu ni ni kudungwa masindano but then sasa suku pelikwa cancelling because like ok na kwangas dini wikna sama ni strength I'm always the smiling person miha tani actually my mama was the first person to say I'm strong mis muna na tuwa niata na piga smile up kwa kosa awa I'm not ok but miha tani kumika surika jishi I will smile and laugh that's why people wanna say akuna ma shido na piti yanga it's not me, it's my nature I'm ever smiling ok na tu situ nimi fika kabisa pastia smile it's worse maybe I'm going to die I'm that sick because even at your time nili jaribu tu nika smile kido mama musiji asuna na ni kohaisu diya kufa so sick when that cancelling nika Rudisha shule 3rd term moizu apili so na na the whole of 2nd term suja suma na first term nili suma 2 months only so nimi Rudisha 3rd term 2nd term ishule nili kwa sayze at least ni girls but then nili kwa mixed ma boys so uche na uche ni meji tukia ni meji tukia uche sujuka uche di tukia nini uche di ono ko water less so nimi ataku suma nini nili kanga kitulifanya ni kandela kashule nini kwa anta kakutoka but kitulifanya ni kakashule ni pesa uka una jua akuna shile kosangi masungo so na fuliangu na uta nikiya bed na peoka 50-50 by the time na fika end month na ni kona tu do na nimi rushizo zingina nyumba na nisa idea bro shule so yendo kitulifanya ni kakayo fom 2, fom 3, fom 4 baso akati ni fika fom 3 lai fika kwa kumu hadi ni kaendanga kwa mai step dad kaendanga kwa piya na bro kwa matatunidu du kwa maathe niku fangenikia kwa maathe aku kaka sideichi kumambukaite mam kama tukadoga kukuli ko kana pika food food na pite jubi then by the time mama li kwa naendali kwa mi expand yo nyumba ya ukogeto so kuli kwa na double so kuli kwa na kani kaka kitchen kaba bedroom na sitting food na tokainje ina pitiswe na enda bedroom hau kuli unakuli otem msi kwa na shida but akuna kutumbaka kufanya kazi onan empty stomach onan empty stomach is the worst mimi ni kaza kwa hatu hatu machinani nini yango wanga na nini sanabaut nini tuwaze kwa nimesa upads kwa nili kwa nimi nimo adipads ina bidi sasa perioziki fika unanda kujifinia kwa chwa ufiniu kai uko kai uko na boljokos iya understand so piwa nga na nga na sana wapate pads juli fanya nga paka ni kanda kusa vi atuza babangwa na i'm not sorry for that nili kwa hatu kwa ya li kwa na penda class so iza vi hatuzi na na amenu nua 4k, 5k mi mese na pads na zichi kwa na nga na huza 2k na nua pads because sasa utaka hazi na wana tako fanya kazi yo nyumba li kwa ina janga mi na li kwa na pesa so li kwa na marafiki so wana ja wana saviya yo mi mese ni kwa ni imagine that embarrassment yaa so ni kwa saima okona vitu supe jizon tako wana huza so yo kwa survive yo so wana na nini sana ma demoni na fiki ya kwa patia frecansling ako sangi pads wana na fight sana kwa nimi kwa piti ya na jua tia ni kwa tia na rudi kwa but my brother sasa aka kata ya kwa baki atilisa takana teswa na patatitia kula sapa ya kwa atiwa mi ni kwa rudi kwa madhe so ni me yo vini nili rudi ni kwa fikiri yanga kutafita babangu na sindoni li yanda waka sema on imagine na kwa mi hakujui lakini na kupatia foodia ma VIP na on top of that na kupatia 3k na na sema hakujui because waka tinili na nili kalishwa palpazuri kwa VIP nika saviwa food poa maziwa na mimi chekeshe my favorite food is fried meat na rice niki omoka ni takuanga food daily how did these people know that was my favorite food because that exactly what they served me na na zeku ingiwa kani yanga nga lezula zeku na niki itangu ako ofisi and after that na kapa 2a 3k stranger na zatu kuja kwa ko na ni kwa mo ataka mo alikana nili 100% shuwa nili joa unwa 2e tu basa sa wanakava deka aibu aibu ya nini and your son did whatever he did after all he's my father ataka ma yaa so ni nga machungu na certain patana na ya tamsele mi atuka ma koha yama yosuji I don't know because ali kwa na tumia kapia kwa nga na tamani tuni mi pata ni mumbi I forgive him for whatever he did na joa nga tu yo familia kuiko yo nili ji jazi after the treatment so ni kama zafom 4 actually siku fanya pepazote kenya nili kwa na fanya nili kwa na jazadzina na peana na jazadzina na peana kitutu nili fanya na nijuna penda love languages English nili fanya pepazote sueli pepazote siari pepazote na history ni kaguzia jumini nika boeka so in toto lei goto Diplas pouring us carbon but I thank God so after nika gaingia hasling nihini near N�� ni ga re Reid acting poo kn yoi na bi kuik alomi ma fishna plats heals insia yaskaa yusupa ksika udu because naiji tjukiya nahinini So anybu wa nyakuja theater na kumbukata uli kuha nandutaka toto laki ni howadji what vituni mepitiya So this guy okay, he was handsome really a man to die for no alio wa onuma nombangwa no then he is clean so he hako nadema li kwa nanbia I love you aseme no ata madema li kwa na pega na juie ken pa chasa mi me kwa go atu yo huhandi sa amete siyoni I adjusted to gotuba, but I have been looking for a tie. Did you know that on the way, the apology is worth the cost and she gave me these $ gymnasties I would lower the settings so that I could pay gone in order to connect. elle, tu m требu k12 k yogoh SB I mentioned her. I asked her what she meant to get back from Dagmadi, she said I am reallyור. she gave me a penny for 7,000 ridiculouscares. Haji, a handsome man like me, because even if you see my kids, they took after him, they are really metosans. Ya, ya, they took after him because he was, but asa alish tuka jini me mkata, na kajam the whole journey, the whole trip hakuni ungelesha. Kumbe back in the mind, ali panga revenge. Nasa asa haku panga na watwenye tuliko na ugrup, kus niko sho wange ni ambiyama o mkata zi. So na jata kawko kazi kwa na mabistwa kwa nyumbani and all that. So it got to meet a friend, ni limu introduce ali ni zindiki shio rafiki, to kia enda. So wakati ali meet, wakati tulipata na naiu, exchange of numbers ni no kawaiida. Aka organize na ya ya, josa sayo de ma lima mbe, kama hayu koreya, so usie, ofu anguo, anapiki ya watu, ni ni ni ni, ni jobu na ampati ya. Borasi ya kujuza mwili ama ya kweiba, any other job bata fanya. So aka organize kapaati kali kwa around watu na ni ama kumi, na kambio de ma ni invite. So I was invited, ni peke machapu, ni peke rice, ni ama and all that. So mi nikiwa na pick and all that, wu de ma kakuja kani patia. So daya fanta, actually up to date. So daya fanta, orange, nai chuki I don't take, up to date. Since 2013, up to today si je yonja fanta orange. Atari ni, I do black current na ni any meji fungulia. Atam tu ni nipali na kumboka kuna skuni she fungulia wasoda kouteli and I left it there. Kus nili kosa nga trust na drinks sana especially za kupia. So this lady spiked my drinks, my drinks sorry. The lady ama the guy? The lady, so suju ni nani between the two of them. Jumi ni the lady ali nilete ya nini. And fedoreva you are, I forgive you, toke lezea to. It's been 10 years deyku na I forgive you kwa bisa si Julien danga wapi. She disappeared. So after he defiled me, a kani osha na kani valisha ngu. So na kwa nga nashida anemik, ama anemik. So at times ni kakuja auto sana, I do pass out. So because the lady knew it, ali tumia yo. Nami ya wuli pass out. Shagia si ni, si na jedi boku fikiran ni li pass out. Nikiwa si juizo drugs wanga zina chukwa kamaimori flanikam tu I don't know. But the last thing I remember ni wudi makin patia, drink. So another thing na mimi mi shi? Kuna drink you are taken somewhere and now the guy moni wuli kata, aka take advantage of me. Kumbe the moment nisha nza kwa fatal. I became pregnant. Sasa mimi mi shi echa ni kuchekeshe. Sinanga symptoms is a pregnancy. Watoto wa tini mi kwa nao. Okay, I have four kids, two boys and twins. For all those boys, si ja waip, ya ni, hati boys, all those pregnancies, si jaipata symptoms, sinanga morning sickness, sinanga cravings, sinanga change, mi ni kutu. Setu sa matizu, neski umechu ki ashi, sta ki opa filmi, ya, ki asi din. Natapika subi mi atasda ita pika. And then na kuwanga, o utela ni kusama na kuwanga irregular. So I can't give in two months without receiving. I guess ni venye nili umbanga mungu sa nakani skia ni kwa ni ni ni kwa my stepdad venye ni kwa na nye mwa pads. So I became irregular. So na zakaata, two months of which these days wanga nenda kupimo. Justa ki nyongi asa. Niki malzatu two months, mi hi yo nenda kupimo, nambuko sawa, sumisawa. So by then si kujua. So do you know my mum recognized I'm pregnant while I was five months pregnant? Ya, tumetoka. And I'm doing everything, acting ni ni ni ni. So na kuja mama nambia aya. Umemu nifanyam juku. Nini umemu ea shosh mape maji. Nek shosh ki juskua nela. But that was very innocent. Dia osisi tumenda osi osi. Aka nambia keisha tumenda hospitalikubo. Okipatikana na mi sinashida, uni ambi uli pata aji. Nikaito yo besti, the faith now. I'm mentioning her because I don't know where she went. It's been ten years I've never seen her. Tukanda na ya ya. Kupimu osi nikapatikana ni kuna ball. So the lady said, alisha uti juna kumukangada rose the last words ni neleskiya from her. Kai, akutumia protection. So the dog, my mum and me. Oh, she knew. She knew. So my mum dali ni ambi achenia li fanya. Jumi after li sema flani. Acha ni muita e. Ni e, ha? What? Ni li shituka ni kafint. So after kwa muka na muka na pata na pepetwa ni mefa ni omafastida apo. No na tafta ma feda kwa apia me toroka. But before toroka, ame na imbi a li kwekia. Dawa za kulala kwa a kwanini. Ah, it was painful. It was really painful. Ya. Because this was the lady. Ok, sikuwa ni memfungukia ki lektu ni mepetia, but I can't say she was my first friend. Ma ingine ni li kwa tuknaongia na, but sikuwa ni me pata. Juh, ni li kwa ni metawisha at a home. Sikuwa ni gana marafiki. I was ever loved. So this ni me pata. Nimi memfungukia, kidogo. And then ane ni betray this march. I was hurt. I was really hurt. To top it all, my stepfather kwa ma, mwenya li murekumpe leke kwa ke. Mimi sdake, story zaibu. So ma ima ma li kubalim toto. Tukalea akani, akani saidiya tukasidiya na. And fun enough, I gave birth to a very handsome boy, a big one. It was 4.9. And I thank God it was normal. Even the doctor. I was there. So Tukalea, so wakati my son, ako 9 months. That was 2015. Moezi wa January. So this man calls me stepfather. He calls me, niende. It was 15. So siji juo pata ni li kwa ni ni apu. Because alinita 15th ni kwa enda. Aka ni umbamsama. Mini kadani ni benya li kwa ni tupa. Injya and all that. Aka tukwa my son. Aka mbariki. Aka mnyo anyoa. Aka mpikiya. Wakakulapa moja. Aka ni kwa mbeni msa meju. By then back in my mind, ni li kwa nadani ni benya li kwa ni tupa inje. Benya kwa ni benda. Izo mateso za kawahida. So si mi ni karudihom. 16th na zidiwa. Anasa ma hata enda usi, hadi mama kujesasa. The wife. Mama na katana mbembeleza. Anaku bali, 17th na enda. Tukiana na zidiwa 18th. Na zidiwa 17th ni ni. Ana adimituwa 18th. Aka pela kwa, apo South Bikuna usi ni tangwa Maria Kani Cottage. Batsusika Shendi Kana. Aka pela kwa kenyata. 15th februari. Aka tumana ni yende. Sindeloshia li kwa na ni fungu kia? No, the step does. The step does. Anasa ma ni. Kwanza anaza poli nambi. Kuhama na neli kusamana nia nambi. Is globally here. Neli sukomia pethorkana mbembeleza, do springswaganda na nig verkuru communications KUWA But when these people showed up inbalanced nloadging k usama when we were tired into the kut poiens Nili uka sob We've only 4 out of 3 Now we have only 2 2 days left for each. Kwa nبembeja kut ftuzi But junior Pataik assembly Washed Post skipping 3 Mamuzazi ni kulea na kufungua na piyashikili ya mungu sa ana ufanya mambo ya mungu Na siku muadza utaenda mbali Simi kasa maimen Anemela kinsasa kuna kituna tako ni sama eka bisa Nya mbuki, kituga ni kubuanya menefanya kuleko vituli nifanya Mbia, ona kumpuka teretran 7 Mei 209 Nya neli kwa mbia Nya mimi nkone metuma ono mo ono Ushi kosa reaksion Ushi dooruka ruke, upigenduru, umugongke Ushi kwa nampi, mbia tenei kwa kufia time singe skiyotu Nde he goes on to explain Nde neli skia wevu, jini liona veneo kohadu working Sen kono mamako Hatakuja kwa medveni nili kwa na taka Nkwa ajuwa atendelea, akueta jiri Sama utama taji rishata ni ringia Nusi nili kuwanta katu ni mupanesh aku worrying Hadyuika wali kufa mu kuko ja B gamesa tu na nika na patiwa After Alimaliza, onni tini nili ezakusema Mungu tuakusema Kuz bedensing ezakomesa게 It was really hard Pake in my mindi, nene ni nisha eifowser mnuma mene Umtu mazymungu ali yonatu nili Szyamwa eikасu sihuiyomtu, amakumijibish Despite him calling me all the names in this world, we've been… come a babayako? Hota indolmana? Haku juwi nene nene... Eyyy Ali wana nituwzi. Ali wana tukanishana bababango. Bababango nimalanya, yem paka taji kakana wa tuato jwa meto a toa a toa, tuato all over. And toka hinge. Toka hinge ndako beback. Ninia. Soza, sijava njibu. You see my brother? Yeah, Jifu, puza and all that. But una jwa washe isi ka nanaya iya, masha'etty! Yes. We shall never have insomnia that could be made up of pregnant women, we'd be under forパクター 5. ανα. I feel sorry for her when she explained this to me in a message. I was in shock that I appear before her only name is detective Tyress Refton. She indicated that she wrote logo claims against male catchy from her next word. Infran enough, after I go home, I ask kwa ma mango ke to, hak ujua Isovituzote na kwa misovituzote na me petia Imajua 2022 Ni liya nda nda n this guy, na kufa 18 I cried U Sheili yam pakotu Kwa? Amani li kwa a pendulum a back Nani Kwa liya na machiungu Mungumu muma wuha umtu Mungumu wika at least uponataka ni muzimojya lafua kufa I was crying 2y machiungu Angi ya kaka ato at were the other three guys Yundo kitu li fanya ni kaliya Siti ni Naka wukuna mtua liwa ni kiliya kasi Mi I don't love that man Siku wa na mpenda Before But after ni liya nzaku chanyu Kanika jumtu wa na nitesa And all that Love Kitu li ba kitu ni yashima Yone zahishimu mtu bilakumpenda Ya Siku liya tijiwa mi kufama jini kwa Niyoma chungu I li fanya ni kaliya Kus mi mi ata Ato ki ana pitcha tikiwa bariol Nili kwa kumedi imbaya sana Nimi nda kwei gari kwei I didn't cry Naliya ni ni sasa Kwa kwa kuna lost Aku first kufa Kuna kitu Kwa kwa aku kuna ni ni Any change Siku wana any big deal But the first day I cried junili Yuliza mungu Mbonu mechiku umtu Anyway Ika pita yubyo Sili fika sanga So one day Nimi atoka church Na fika home Before ni fika kwenyumba Jusisa madhi venyali kufa Sima step Dado mechiku kwa kila Kitu shamba Mai mama li kwa Ekane Ajo timao Veni landiko Sasa to menyanganyu Nyumba li kwa mejenga Sika nyumba Gunyumba Amenyanganyu ango mbembu zima Piki piki Everything Amenyanganyu as masawa So li kwa nakataia kijiji Nanyali kwa mejenga But sasa watu akastand Unyangane Mama Amani nyumba Tuna kufunja mi gukozia li Jenga tukiona Naji at least watu akua pwanam tete Ushagua kunam tu anaju So tumeru tumetoka Nini jituli hamarungai Tukenda gedurai So tumetoka gedurai Tumekuja So be Sela kengene So one day ni metoka church Na patak Umzai Ako So tam Ako tu Anasi fiyot Eh wasumu angukia sasa Mama nia mekubaliku Aka zama ayapana Miku na vitu ne mefanya Wanda seji ja Badia mamba zaugangu Kiyonuna penam tu sana Ebandu wombe wei It has happened to my ma'am So ameki kumbe umsalinda kamchikulia Izo vitu Be a there they exist Ziko So kitu akus Mimi ni meyone Sasa siyo ni mara apili sasa So aparent liya nasema Hapendi ma'am Avuchi ni ukulia kwa nampenda Ame kuja jusi wana jua Historia ma'am the hardworking lady Afanya biashara ni nini Apita na do Na do Aki dasa men Okonuna heaven tu Nimungu wa onuruma Lakin ni Story ziko inja Uku inja eti women are gold digas We also have men who are gold digas Tensiali Akuna wa zuri We can say iti Kinadada noa But we also have men We also have men who are waiting on ladies To really work hard Wapita tu ne yon The legs of my stepfather And this guy So mimi sii ni meskia Howakuni ona ni meskia So na fika home do ni ambi e ma'am What I've had Kufika ma diya kani tu Maso ni kacha My son Nani katoka ni kaenda Kwaenda kuruudi I met this guy Shafika Of course Ka ma'am In toto Upatemtu O meskia kisengenia Your ma'am Uta reactor Ya numim pata me ketikoni Mika pita Wai wai wai Ma'am Sasa kumbe ni mesika pabae Hmmm Am takangi gu Konza acha Allow me ni tumie accentia kimero U takangi gu ni ona na mutu Ona takatoni ka epeke hangu Ona taka ni kufe peke hangu Saita ni wewe Sendresana Ngohambe wewe Konda wewe Nika jam Chitam Jibu She's my ma'am So nili ma'am Chaponam Jukuake Nika toka And Studi shetani Amani ma'laika Amani nani Kaki toka kaningi And guess who my called she Eh Not the dad to your son The dad to my son Atali shituka Puritim na takakumda Okohom Eh Nazakuja Eh Nazakuja Ebon tumie fe Mimi suju ni nili nishi kanga I called him So kind Uli na namchoto Epeke hangu Amen tumia toso No yo mimi Kwenofu piangu Nika fika kwa ke This guy same levi So he akwa na Haji eleo Actually same onakiyo me leo Wich ni iskia hakwa me levi But kumu na doi akwa na mabeshte Kumbili tumana kitu ni itua Amarula That was my first time to take alcohol So me ni kona stress Akini ni uli zimbo na umtuakuni Ya me ni ekiya tuniko Nini onjaka ma'yogat Yo kitu By the way Okipati wa yogat was chana Jeribu kulizi akama ni pom Because me mi nili Me mi nisi kulizi Or me becha semi nili kona stress So me ni ekiya na kuni Imagine ma Mutu mi ni memskiya Nini me Nika maza glass moj Obvious lim tumu niya simlevi Nika bleki Akafanya the same thing Halifu Sinanga craving Sinanga anything Nika jua tena kwa And then atoto Fun enough atutongo Anzanga kichiza kwa 5 months, Ima 6 The same thing My ma ma ka notice Aa, this time Maka tokawa zimi Wakwanza uli sema Nini lakini Huyu sita Me ni atukini Nini so sitakium Toto hapa Kitua kwanza kwa Kiliangu nili sema I will never ever Do something called abortion Though I don't judge Anyone ma niya share About or anything I can't judge And I will never judge But to me Nili kwa ni mi sema I will never do it So raise Imi ni distract I will never so When ma ma mi leta ju Anika jua To savings in kwa ni mi shika Asubu yake Nika chomoka Nika enda moe Moe ako li kwa na rafiki Fla niya Okay, not a close friend Nili atu mu na jua Nanga na mtu Nisi ma adu Nisi ma rafiki So li kwa mi ni ambia Nisi moe Nini li kwa na nambayake What I didn't know Is that she was a hookah She uses what she has To get what she wants Nami mi hiyo So kufika ka niya Atu li nili fika kumbia Shani taftia mtu Sa nambitze Nika wambia Imi mi Kitunili sema nga kwa Idu niya kujuzama And then Plus vi tu ni me piti ya Oni ambi ni kwa na moe Nomi sintamu osiku Nbi oki That Amo toke Nika choose number 2 Kalo shumto onko mu gongo So sa apu moe a town The other time I was there Sikui pata guess wali toa Kuli kwa na lori Nimi isha Nika tangineza kanyumba apu Nika kaka Niki folia atungu Kwa choteo maji Ono nikenda kwa shemboko Kuchukua Kungua ni ni Nichele Nloda kupanga kwa ni Until bowl kwanza kupaku Bo sa sa watua kwanza kugopa Oni pyama kazi So I remember one night Hey she Wachatu Okana toa tuku Watu vi toa me piti ya I was 8 months Oki Oki pata Utajua kenye na sema Kuna aka ka stage ma Wama mo ufeka Hai zila lo usiko So ni kwa apu usikun me Npepeta my son Kaka kanyumba Kanyumba Alafuna skia Sindhila chakula ni li kwa mbia Nwili kwa na kudanganya So I peep And I say I don't know kwa chokorama Li kwa waka adono Kuz at a quick glance And the approaching Onanga li angaleo na kudza Nika me mongu mambu ni mawili leo Aida dai Amo ni okoe Balsita aribiwa ni kiyona Nika chukwa ka bag Nika chukwa maisan And I'm 8 months Nika kanyangala me ni kanzambio So ona kudza kusima Uwoni venya me choka Chana na ya ya Ata chokia tu paletutam pata So they are working fast and running Mongu na ya kaskia Mombia nga But the second option Haute aribiwa So an elderly Poli An elderly couple Was coming from Nairobi Uwoni kwa me choka kuchukwa Bail zamanguo Kuku kujaka o Na so these guys are male Kusuna kwa nga na ya Uki fini na Na ita nwa ya sigindi Njora Aka chumo Njora thanks Wakwanza aka piga step Aka nandia Ngia Ngia kwa gari wewa Nika ngia Aka speed off na Bedguards Badua aka nza kumiza Laki na sasa aka wangeza Speedy So tu ketu na yenda Don Karelaze Aya uni ma na ume Laki na uni muze Futangangana Kwa nga leisida abibiakia ako Haa ni Karelaze Nema Misa namu dago kama Wewe Uko na musigo sana point tombu Uko na musigo Musigo na musigo Saka bag kenya ni kwa na Kwa tumbo nam toi Tumisigo to tatu Unenda wapi usiku Wakwanza uku vidini kumbaya Saka ata quick glance Fasta ni kwa muambia Nili repewa Nini ni kwa patam toi Sasa uni kwa fukuzu Uni kwa inja Wa atu ni wabaya Nini sista kusa india Raki ni ta kupatia Ta kusa india And that's how alini connect Nini flanya Hope Ma sisters Iko dandora Wakwanza chikuwa mama Wakona shida Na atoi Sasa mi ni kwa yenda Nika za Sinili kwa 8 man So kuanda the next man April April ta re na ne Ahimbona na nga April Meni meru Ta re na ne Nika pata second bone Stila boy Uni haku ambaya Sana li kwa 3.5 I guess ni mezaliwa Na kuangatuna jeans Ya kutawatotu Wazito So out of excitement Si meni kwa post Facebook And the second bone Sasa ni yo anaka Kupirit So ali yambi wana what we guess Aikona ewefamele mi kwa kubo Ali jila time onyo hosi Aime kituwa kwanza nilimi shituwa siku toa atoto Nimeza, water Despite what he did to me So akani yambi ya The first thing I'll nyo bamsama And all that Okay, sii iti nili kuwanda kakumama But there was something I was in my mind Si jalewa na baba So akuna jani dinaimai Kids kuwana ichans So suachetunuape Maybe maybe Love it aikuja Badaya So mi ni kwa wambia So akani yambi ya Si di kasha yambia mama ke But what he told me Is ayende atari shia mama ke Venyata muwambi ukuweli Na jo Siu kitu reisi konda kwa wambia Mama kumawang Nili repoms chana Marambeli Akuna atoto It's actually Atama rafkiwake Wame juwatu juzu juzu So mi ni kaku bali nini Mami pia Aka kuja kini Aka nebi apa na Autakana mi mi apa Iniya ibu Nika rushu anjiru So mama li kwa na niseidi Aku li pa nyumba wuko Na epe li kwa na niseidi Na shopping and all that So tu kanda Tu kata futa nyumba Getu rai Yatu bedroom And all that And all that So ali kwa me promoti waka job Ame pata job Kwa TV Peyo stata ja So na kumbukanga Iosiku Ok, ali yenda Despetu mi kumkata za But itwa ni nika chana nae Ame ae Ata su diya kwa na Oshanzakoni kaliya Only to come and realize later Vema pia li kwa mi mkata za Kwa yenda Ali kwa mi ota Vibaya But then maybe li kwa tuta imiake Aka yenda So iosu kuna kufa Kukuna vita anjiru Anani kwa lasubui Anani emiia Nimesu kia kuna vita na Sin su kuna ato yuko Na baduni kwa moshi eire Sita kiyu patika Nesu nemi tumabish Tekuna bishta Kujia pelike kwenyo Na ali kwa kujia Yo weekend Yo ali kwa later was ae home Adasikon mambia mamangu nani wana kujia Nkwa tun mambia kuna wagen wana kujia weekend So tu mefika home Yo time to toa kia kaliya Yo kujirusha kaka second born Kaka dirusha kaka Yundi kwa kalimona Venya liza liwa My son The first born Alimona Venya tuliyenda injiru Akiwa na one year eight months Bonda ikwa But sasa aakaka dogo Tangu kazaliwe Ame kwanako Until kaka gonga one month Again he died May 27 So to me even May 27 Na chuki yo tarahi I really hate that bit Because he died that day And I remember Umtuli ni ambi Ani beshte ake But hakwa na ju I don't blame him But koza lika mene mietu ekesiri Pa ka amalize Everything Dosa sata za kufungu kia Just na jua maaktas Special yo atiata So lika mene mietu kanya gie And I respected that So Yusiku After mene rudisha ni shasimu Jua tuli nili kumbuka ftama Ima mene yu liza Uwa geni wakalo Umekonfa moutapu za And this guy na ni call Ehi weni me kuta ftasa na kone Na jua eha li kufa Sia mene mietu abraple E mugani Konu na jua mugani Sinule moja Ushi na mungo na kuchuki And pa konu na God Nini ni nili kufa ni anga E ni umekonfa Uwa na kufa Uwa na kufa So After mene Zasa Nili feel Actually sijawai Meme kifo ya Uwa muzae kuni affect But kama kuna kifo Ishaini affect Pa ka saizi Anytime memory Iyo ina pop ko Facebook I shared tears Not because As doing kwa na empendot anything But why was my kids also denied that chance Nili moa sita watoa ni wa eke Iotat ni ni sijawai wachuki Namin kwa sita fanyat utoong veni fanyuana mam So what did God do this? I don't know But God always has his own plans So after Amezi koa Something else started happening At that time I was introduced to the family The second born Akanza kugonze kanga tu Magonzo e iweleweki Nami mi Kukutunza atoto Sinanga jokes So anytime na notice Any chance Biyo any change Why? Any change Biyo si mtotoa poni Mtotoa manza pata rikets Mtotoa na doyame Any mtotoa na kapa na kufa Kufa ganza kabisa So remember one day to kyu Aspaino enzeri Nikiwa kwa lain Mdem tu Aliongianga ilewak sentia Excuse me madam Achi ni kwa mbia kwa kitu na uska Osika sirike Mtotoa na awestan Nikiwa kwa mbia Kitu mojali ni ambiya tu Rodisha kwa mtotoa kwa atu Indokitwa li ni ambiya Ngunbora mi ambiya ibu So the curiosity Nikanza kuchunguza Kumbumto ii Mam na Mtotoa Aki misulem toto Juhu indwali shikawa kwa anza Nikiwa manamuita So not unless ni pele kumtotoa uko Ata kufa Na another lady ni limuza Kanigokitaka kujone Kweni mtoya ki anza vitu Osika Shukuwa pichababa kumwake Mtoya ki anza kufa li anzi Nika shukuwa pichababa Nili shitu kakaribu ni tokemio Mwone siyemto ii kakwa sawa And So kia alone amtua western Juhu anga utenda na wa toto So for the first born Hawangereza ju Ali niliwa na mai Mam Naka niliwa na mai Stepdad So Hawangereza kumshika Juhu nili ngangana Umtoto shimpa kaka fika na in mans So mi nili kultu Te mam Atas kumambia watiza Peningbata wali kwa na juhu amtua ii Aponi na waha Hawanyambi Dunum tu tanguende wuko It's He's now Almost eight years Nimi amtua megonjeka once Na bai then nili kwa na shindana We'll see every now and then But tanguende wuko muli li Badeli kaka kwa sawa Right now he's okay Stil saibadu yuko onyumba ni Ya nili have kupiana Let me ask you Ya Okay it's a tradition Ya that's what I had It's a tradition Ya zifika like Pointu neza kumchukuwa Not unless ya yemo niya jilete But see mi nimi chukuwe Ya yemo niya jilete That's why ata kwa affected So nili mpa na kwa nine months And you can imagine the pain Nemi pain That's why actually Then my mom As always she was not understanding Ako na juhu na pain Umto Iri wendu shika mi mpa isugine Kwa sabusa sa nili Nimi maangalero I wish you knew I just wish you knew So ni kwa na And since mama na penda My grandson kuna Ata ni kikufa Kuna mtu ata liya by the way Actually ni liya anza kwa Nili story Akuna mtu na nipenda kwa iidunia Kamen nili rejectuana My own father My own stepfather wanted to kill me Nde weo mama takangi kuna Skiza Si shula ni shei penda wasi Everywhere na kwangatu Ni kipenda mtu ana ni betray Nde weo faith Nde weo respect my drinks Nde ni So ni kikufa kuna mtu ata shuguleka Nde ni I attempted suicide by then 3 times Ni kakuniwa ratshati kakusa kufa Nye mpa kana nda kumze wa duka Nya kusatbi nda ambi yemze Aitanga ajulika na kumze Mza kwa ni zida waza kwa zini expertia Pa na certain zonili tumia jana na uku Nami ni mi meki apa niji Kufa kumbi apa niya ni mi Imagine I only vomited Nothing else happened Ni kawashaji ko juniliwa na kwa ni ni Komitandao Venyoto na kufa Iunakuniwa pirito nuna lala By the time nuna mkulia nda ata kuna uchungu Ni kawashaji na nika kachini ni Nya kitanda Mai mama kakuja mapema She saved me there Ni kajirusha mombasa road When mombasa road was mombasa road Dunu na nile Nangu dia gari na fikasa moya pana si mama Io gari si mama Ikatwampa kamoshe Ilebrekili kanyangwa Ikatwampa kamoshe Mini kadani basi Nita tukana mani pigwa ma kofi Umse alitara misha tu Bi blessed so wherever he is mungo mbareki Kana miya dota Io na jina mitu miya Konata kaku kufa usikufe na nji Nga gari yango Nga kanda imagine Ha, hapuni tu si Ha, hapuni shautia Danya asked God Mungo mani tesa Nata kaku kufa na nji Siku jikuwa ko sinanda ko shetani Na juobiasi kikuwa na nanda ko shetani Swatcha ni yende kua ke Junipendi definitely Naka abasu makatakuni Wasunia nisha maipapas And that's where his story is cancelling Imi opu zanga All your opinion and all that up to now Okay Ask me Now because of time today the same Later on at least you found love Ya, in a most awkward way A lot of me in 5 minutes So kuna yospitali nili kwa nimi ajiriwa As a cleaner Does this guy Atkawa marafiki But always nili kwa naika boundary So akan ni respect But then kuna wangi na kudzali kwa na pita na So apparently aka amisha From Panyitko Nanda kanda placing gini And my mum had grown fond of him So that ata saizi Atapali ni mempelikawsi aka pewa dahua Amem pigi aka muliza Naka ni ambia piga picture to miya doctorin Aki approve aksimezi kosawa She loves him As a son So this time muguika nza Kuleta Shida So nipelikia kwa da My son Kuna yoda wana paka ngo yazulu And all that And a massage muguina tulia So wakati tulia Nda kwa nza tulipiti ya kwa ke Ndi o mama tulia kwa nza Because the pain was so much So kumbali kwa na kampango uko Kake Ya he's married but he had a kampango Na kwa kampango Oka li kwa kana panga wedding Church wedding actually Na jwa na ni ambia kila hitu So the sister kod and all that So aka moambia aka ambia koka dem Uko kwa ke So I don't know whether she fault in Secure or is Jels I don't know But when I tulifika she did something bad And mess with me But never mess with my mama Or never mess with my kids I react very fast Sidi juwa I do react So aka piti shama mango kwa line Mgunjomengi na kain I became angry Mgunjomengi na naka kama mango So back in my mind I was like Weh weh Do you know your husband Do you know what I want to show you Kwa picture So what I did I started planning revenge Kumbemi munga na ambia I planned revenge Lakin apelika kwa bonako This guy is a photographer Say videographer He was by then Ali kwa photographer So Mi mi na befriend Kwa Facebook Siya ti Yakitwingine Ndi oni mo nyesha whatever This lady and the guy does Napa swadia Facebook Ya the doc So kila kitini kwa nae So say hi ya nae ujinga Venya ni mem Ni ni mem Ni ni tango di Friend request a kaku ba Ni kwa na kwanza ni mtuwa Kamera na bai then ni li kwa ni meanza kufanya Ni ni Izo acting Na uza masidi na patiawa Say Chakula ni ni nanguo Uko geto Si tu kami tinae Kupa tinae a kanzaku ni katia Nika jam Fadas tako ambia Ba then sasa ni kawa interest Na historia Shute So ni kamao ambia tuna fanya Iwi na iwi na mewa A video ntawa fanya Kumbia nae sasa alkuwa Now with my now husband A kind a kamao ambia Actually ni me patama chakura I'm now giving back to society Nasa ni mem patia 30,000 30 Jiyoku zungusha sidi Neli kwa na zungusha Asuna kona E hachani milipenda tufanya Yuka video kazuuri Kakuuliti Jutkotu na fanya na Yo Sanda ita Jikunak tule Aka Ako na kameranzuri Aka kumbia le Izi kameraki Za tape Nutkotu na fanya na So quality kikuja Asuna na sektor Kwa tape kwa sidi Aile tisha angwe So akata ambia zi Nami akana ambia Kona student Anam funza Ba then tako ambia Kwa ground And now my husband Ame sume He's a professional videographer Ni kitu Ame sume Izi aku funza Ma nini Ame kashule Aka sume Ni anapenda film Anapenda sana kukaba Handi te kameraz Actually mami akai mbeli akamera Ha Ha ta kwa komforta Bukos every time atakwa Anangali angali akamera So ya venyaliski ni film Ata venyaliski atini Ku give back to society Aka ambia fanya igotans Mami atu fea tu Wende So Ame kudia So this guy An expect since to na fanya Nini free Yendo atakwa kusema Na mimi na jasinsu ni student Mendo entakwa kusema Can imagine the clashing Nili kwa namchukia By that time Funtsevente ni na nambia atakwa Nanguata ni yekula kofi I hated him Joli kuja Ame tisha script Mi na kuja na patanasomati Itu na have to change No We're not changing anything Tuna ifa nyevi So na nangali zule Muna saidu na mkuna kiburi He hadjuwi Hadju tu melipa So ika happen Ujib mambu ya munguveni na kuanga Iti Ame itu naenda kuhedit This guy Dio naenda kulipa mahari So hata kuwa Na mimi lasma ni kuwa kus the guy Hakwa tu gani ka script Kerehaas and all that Sini kaenda Yeye ufa ni ata aleo Okay Yeye kuhedit Adi waleo Wedding Anything Ata film 2 hours ama 3 hours enough But fun enough she 12 days ina kata Maras juiko Okay siju anina Izi vi tuza media But na skes juini na mehang Si juini na account Anama Ilkwan zitor But izi ni na ziki kuji anama leza Kumbe there's something God was So in that process Tokensika isha Nde na kakuja tu nilu kaliake Guys Nimi afaniya everything free How about him to elfumbi livi Ama elfumoja tulipet tokens So si kuanda peki angu Nini cast Nini kwa ni mendana Adi free Adi free Adzi Nia sii I did free for you If you Nia sii na shanga ati free adzi Nia sii fanya kazi ingi Nia sii sa kama amlipet tokens Kama excuse me Free Ega nbia Kuhani ni lembo ni free Nikam tole I really delete message Sii za impesa nika mo anya Nia sii nbia Aga su na juya Wedye beshtia kwa na ito Alish tuka So kaha kumkul Sole na na jam Pilutu na na kufanya ni niku Sole kumwambi Nini na wende nika wambi Ini film Isi wedding Last man ingi kwa Pandoni wambi the next Na pali na takama slow motion ni nini So last man ingi kwa Kumbam sa adi wani na film Hataki dog Sali skia ibu siya katumizu do Tulipet tokens Nbia pandom sii sa saka ni ambia Nini lembo it's giving back to society Nika wami ni lembo ni monafunzi Adi aka ni anisha ni nizaka za shole Nia was in school So in that process nga ok Noanda uli kuja ni yo utoritem Nanda uli kwa uneni So na na nika nza kwa soft And all that Fani nafuna jwa bunangwa kwa ni katia So this day Atuli kwa peketu sa asa Wata wami choka Kwa na diti kitu Pakasa na ne And actually after that Kupite kwa fanya kazi So he He's looking at me Jusani mechakumangale na ma Siiravajinkona mangalia So I'm just looking at him I'm wondering ok this guy Anajito lei yote Hajalipua Anipenda So I guess he really confused my stare Into something else And he stole a kiss from me Sii dei kissi wa iwi avai shiangu Yote Tango ni zaliwa And I don't know what I felt Sii juizun dumuni tanga Butterflies amani ni But I felt something Then the next day My mum calls me Sasa wewe I hope u yanda kaftata U mekasana Kwa na ekitu na yama skunga Ok Acha sasani wa pate When he kissed me the second time Nili sii wangu wukabisa And that's what twins came Actually what's now Itanga wa toto wa editing Ya Ni wa toto wa editing They came during that time Ta niya ku edit And that's our love group Mi hakuni katiya Or anything And after that took a move in Before moving Nili muambia storyangu yote And he told me Some very nice things The fact that you have not Denied your kids Wujachu kia Watu toa ko Jawa kana How to abort I respect you for that And he has always been protecting me Ya Even the channel that we have started But there guys you can go and check Heart to heart With purity of money He's the guy behind the cameras Ame kwa kene push Tulikwa toa in the 2020 But nili kwa na yoshida Procrastination juya woga Otoata What embrace cancelling Wata kubali But since it started I can say Over 200 people Wa me piti ya koemi kwa noyangu And the positive I'll even show you a message Juna fani ya watu Not only Kenya But kuna nyanant after via Online And they can tell me Since it started Namia ya mga unikuwe I can eat it to unikuwe I don't sita kange ni kuwe serious And that's what people don't want That's what I'm trying to say And cancelling Mwa jambili tatu Kuna kitu ame fani But if to me Aki amosa komedian So me who makes comedy Na cancelling So neza kuja ni one uko down Nia kia ngaoma To dance So adakansia being able And also the rape victims Pia The more I do the interviews The more one open up So I can say Thanks to my man Atakatu li kwa na ups and down Jumi maybe akua ready ko settle Or maybe a li pigwana shok Or something You know it's maybe normal Sometimes cheating You know this and that But I forgive him To me even if you give me Ukiwa ume kwa mzuri kwa ngo You know like my stepfathers In kwa nashindwa kwa samia Kwa si kwa na anything good in them The only one thing alifanya Ni koni piasa anim Only that But the rest hasn't Pati anything good But to my man Nona ameni kubali Because kunam tuasha ni ambia Sosa wewe ume bakishwa ni ni apo Ni mi apana Another person Mami staza kudil na wewe Kus iso vitu zikianda Kuku approach Sita jueveni enta deal Uya nili moishimo But the one who told me Nili me bakishwa please We women Uko tuliyumbu akama Inanga Ikanga ebi sana Especially kama tuja zoe So inajiru di shanga I wasn't bad My husband can't tell you I wasn't Ya So I was saying This guy has accepted me Hazaini basha Hazaini e He is always protecting me Ata By the Ata kuna atu wali kumeni Buu li Me I don't reply Because I've been bullied Me I don't if Let me tell you That's why Okay na tamani sana ni kwen Ah ma celeb Ni I teach them how to Goa ya bullying Pipu ilolo is have something to say No matter what Atu kwen ni muzuri aje Atu kwen ni malazima Sasa kama yesu monewe Mohamedi monewe Sisi ni kenanani Sisi ni naani Pipu ilolo And I always tell my people who comes for Interview Kuna atu akuna bail Na una atu atu utumone Wata tole yo bail Mebi wali achua Mebi wana regretali achana Sasa na una atu palkido Achana tu estresu zanguna Don't always learn to take Media things Persona usi wai They will hurt you Sema tu ahu Ali kwen na bailzake That's what I shall say Because even the other time I was bullied Nime bully wana Nime tukano Amto mani tu usi And it affected me husband It did not affect me And then He was asking me how do you handle Me kama ya I've been bullied Until mimi monewe I met in the women opening What's up Nawa na ita Purity a money bully group I'll send you the screenshot I have them Neli kwa nimi panga kwa Mela bada ni kwa kuna She's dealing with that one issue So anajaribu Tafta paliata toa So I don't want to take them Persona achani mua achetu Nime kwa bully Da kuna kusude ito kwa i dunia So I understand But the beautiful thing Is that you are here right now Akonkara You have overcome everything And you are now But still At least you are in a better position Than you are True Very much Ya I thank God Ya man You are strong Thank you also for sharing Your story with others Out here and also For choosing the path Kusu idea wa tuengine Hu ko ninge Thank you Watu anezaku pataji? Thank you for that chance My number Zero seven Eighteen Nine seven two Four eight three Eighteen Nine seven two Four eight three My hubby ameni peru usa So you can call me anytime If you need a counselling So kuni katia please I'm taken Ya So okini pigia please Maybe Nakamuna takaku sa idea Pia hatu hatu machinani We go to machinani Tunendanga ku patiana Pre-canceling Because what you call jafikiwa And to me Jiyo kitu kwa rohoyangu Neli amua why not And I have a supportive man Me tunendanga na Just that Okituna tu me bebanana na magunia zangu Na mapada We just go the two of us So tunendanga mero Bosea Kisumu Uko up countries We talk with them And what we wanna funguka But na josei na kwa challenging Maybe transport Pesa kwa nulia paz And all that So kwa uko apapi Wana takaku kusapot In nambatu nia iyo Kwa wana takakanceling Whether open counselling Or private counselling That is the same number You can also help us Support kwa YouTube HAT22 Number two HAT2HAT With purity of money Everywhere Facebook Tiktok YouTube We still use the same name And also kunanya na Penda kutuma email It's HAT2HAT Money at gmail.com Na uta kwa kwa miko na mizuri Ya because ata Yo intervenili kwa na buliwa I still have like seven people From there Ya and I thank God Every time I do an interview And I get people And I help them And they give me positive Remarks It is my joy Because counselling Kondanyango Ya So if you're out there You need help Remember you can reach her Out via the phone number Meza Kup Kupia Or via the social media platform Meza Kupia But please This claimer You are out there You feel like you need to vent In a negative way It's venting in a positive way Because when you reach out to mambia You're going through this And you need help That's okay But if you're out there You are using the social media platforms Or even this platform By the way to buliwa please Save yourself that energy Because you'll need it tomorrow Save it So please Tuachana na buliwa Meza, call her In case you need help Call her In case you need to chip in Kwa projectia ke You can call her via that number So thank you so much Puriti for coming Thank you Good job One thing is that God dana ona Amen Na apu maliwa na sama Maybe kwa puvatibado Ujatoka atakutua Anaona You're helping someone And God will also help In one or another Thank you Kwa butita For allowing you to be here Kwa gama unge kuapa Senge kuapa So Siduika kuna mwingine Na jwa tu butita And the whole team And the whole team Thank you for taking our girl Because kama unge mchu Kwa singe kuapa So God bless you so much Thank you too And to our viewers Thank you so much For watching this video Until next time I've been a host Shiko Gitaonol Platforms You can find us at SPM Buzz KE You can find me too At I&School I'm Shiko Gitaonol