 Hi guys, welcome to a new series on my channel cook and chat with me I've been wanting to do cooking videos. I'm by no means a pro, but I can't talk So I think this will be fun. I have to make myself a little drink before we start I'm gonna do some mucca my drink of choice. It's the better finish can mucca Premium small craft morning glory. Love that if you're wondering. Oh, Kenzie. What's back there? It's the banana bread that I don't know it's a pumpkin bread that I already baked today. You can say I'm a bit of a But the mark is Stuart if you will. This is one of the best noises. I always Like prepare a kombucha if you will as if I'm drinking wine. I'm not the biggest wine drinker I do like specific wines. I like Abelene. I'm very picky, but I love kombucha Okay, so I asked your questions and I'm actually gonna be making my favorite soup that I make all the time It's the first time I'm making it this season Also, just one of the side unfortunately I am not the one who created this soup as much as I would love to make credit And as though I feel like I accidentally have because I've tagged in stories of people making the soup all the time Unfortunately, I didn't actually make the soup. I got this recipe from the modern proper I just make it like literally all the time It's everyone's favorite recipe that I may make or ever get soup that I make and I love making soup And I cook for friends on the shine and this is by far the fave Cooking class is a show you're supposed to keep it like that. I hope to God my cooking teacher Isn't watching this because he'd be very disappointed I'm actually enrolled taking nice skills class right now so I can learn how to possibly use my knife How do you not stress about finding a partner lol? I'm struggling, okay? So there are times where I will stress sometimes and I will say I really feel like I was stressing which is so So crazy and stupid looking back on it. I'm also only 25 now. I'm not dating. I'm not even almost dating I'm not even like I don't even crush on anyone like I miss having crushes on people But it's really hard to find someone that is even worthy of a crush these days And I'm not even like looking for much, you know, but like not even nothing nothing at all Okay, but anyways, I remember I was in a relationship. Those are really serious and after we broke up and gave him an ice 22 I think when we broke up he was older than me, but I was 22 and that's when you know You think you have her whole life figured out like whatever by the way guys I'm going to a next skills class. So I don't need anyone to like comment about how I'm cutting this Okay, like it's stressing me out and I'm performing worse because I'm filming myself I remember at 22 feeling like oh my god. I'm single one, which is so stupid. I know how crazy this is now But this is how I felt then and I'm sharing I remember feeling really stressed out Thinking like oh my god, I like it's so late. How am I ever gonna find someone? I actually don't really know what it was because like I can't even picture myself leaving with someone right now But at that time I felt really stressed out and it was more so like a time thing that was driving me insane So I'm not trying to give you guys a toxic positivity answer Don't be mad at me about this But I will also say before I give you this answer I have also had a couple like longer term boyfriends So I'm coming at it from that way and if you are someone who was like never dated or never had a boyfriend or anything like that One it is like totally totally totally normal I mean it's also like totally fine to want a partner I feel like that's also like for some reason there's a lot of shame that's been put on that I think it's a great like like being alone, but it's totally fine to want a partner That's not a bad thing By the way, I'm using my hour place hand to that thing utter obsessed with this thing. I like to think of my life and I talked about this in my podcast I like to think about it from the perspective of me 10 years from now Because 10 years from now. I'm just I will be in a healthy great relationship Right and it's like Kinsey at 35 looking back on Kinsey 25 I will be really sad for my 25 year old stuff But I sat around and waited my eyes are water from money now But I sat around and waited and I was like sad non-stop about not having a partner when like the partner was on their way like it was gonna happen regardless There was something I could do to like stop it. This is my sense. So it helped me be a lot more present And by the way, I'm using this garlic. I'm not chopping garlic right now It's like not my journey. I've been getting more into it, you know, like cooking classes But basically I just try to think of my 35 year old self Who's like happy and content and has that relationship and focus on that so that I'm thinking like oh It's gonna happen regardless. I might as well make the most of it right now and also not waste my time Like wishing that I was somewhere else because it's going to happen when it's like about to happen We're just cheesy and annoying and like I feel like that might be doctor positivity But that is what works for me and I look at it Like now in my life if I was like okay for instance 25 right now I look back at my 20 year old self and I wish that I wouldn't have been so stressed out about things So far the future because they happen anyways and like me stressing out at that time didn't help at all In fact it like really hurt me so I try to do that and that's how I don't stress out about not finding a partner But sometimes I do it just inevitably dating life updates. There are literally none. Okay. I've added in the Italian sausage I have garlic and onions. We're gonna saute these for about five minutes. How do you budget? Honestly? I know which is not good. I do invest and I do save But I don't have like a set monthly budget. I'm just like no on that level of organization And also budgeting gives me anxiety which like really doesn't make sense because you would think that if I had a budget It would really leave me with anxiety and I'm sure it would but yeah I don't know. I need to do that. How many of you guys have a budget like I hope I also forgot how easy this soup is to make So this is gonna be a shorter than I thought how to do without growing your old BFF I don't want to break up with her. So this is like the worst pain in the entire world It sucks because there's nothing that either of you could have done Most likely in order for this to not happen So what a lot of the time I think even people that you've grown up with or friends that you've had for years Even just like a couple years in your 20s that you've been close with at college or whatever as you get older Like inevitably you grow apart not inevitably, but oftentimes you grow apart and you have different interests And you don't really connect anymore and it just like feels kind of forced and awkward and this is like Literally the worst thing ever. It's not like a fun thing at all. I'm sitting here too thinking about What like the best advice to get would be it almost feels like it needs to be one of those things where to have a conversation sometimes people just grow apart and that is okay and You don't always have to have conversations I recorded an episode with a few episodes with like friendship coaches and stuff and they're big on communication But sometimes like conversations don't have to be added like things just fizzle out and that's inevitable But I would really recommend like trying to find friends that are in your Like similar life phase. So if you are the friend Who is single and all your friends are dating you really need to find single friends in my opinion because of being around that And that's something that really bothers you can be really miserable So I don't know. I just think it's like similar life phases and I'm lucky right now again going back to Not stressing out that much about not finding someone one of one twenty five and then two none of my friends are dating So I'm sure we will be having another conversation if in a few years all my friends are dating and I'm the only one who isn't That's like obviously like not the most fun thing ever will there be a podcast tour So I would love to eventually do a podcast tour maybe in the next couple years But we do have a top-side show Margo is our guest again. That is November 11th. You guys can get tickets down below. It's gonna be really fun It's at an even bigger venue. It's in the factory. I'm very excited. So if you guys are in Dallas, you need to come Favorite ball perfume. Okay. There was one that I loved and then Keen loved it Mason Margiela like fireplace or What was it? I need to go get it again because we were obsessed with it I will have it on the screen here. It was so good. Okay, when do you see yourself getting married? So many things about relationships. Well, see how I'm incredibly single right now not for a long time Realistically probably my 30s thoughts of New York Fashion Week where you invited So New York Fashion Week is also one of those things where you get invited last minute So I got some invites from the last minute, but I'm not in New York Not that I think I should be invited, but I'm not like a New York influencer in the city going fashion week I've been before when I was younger. I'm one year and it was fun It definitely is like very overwhelming and I would like me to like mental career But it's like such a cool opportunity. Obviously, how is it okay? I'm going what challenges have you faced you weren't expecting? Okay, I think only red I said, you know, it's going great I'm trying to think of productions, but a big thing we have a new drop in October walk to Drops of new of three new products before the end of the year So we do have one in October and then we'll have one in November or December That I'm really excited about It's just I don't know I was expecting all the issues because I asked so many friends who have brands so nothing unexpected It's just like things took a lot longer, you know Okay, so that takes a couple minutes and then you'll add in your can of crushed tomatoes 14 ounces not 28 and then you'll do tomato paste and Chicken stock and then that's the restrict of team and it's like this is literally the easiest you've done You could ever make next question was is there something about your job? You really don't like and I love my job like I'm so lucky that I can call this job This isn't even like about the job necessarily. This is more about like a insecurity within myself kind of thing But I sometimes we get like super in my head about YouTube. Oh No, this is really really not good. Okay. I'm gonna do this off camera But you want two tablespoons of tomato paste, okay, and then Chicken broth. Anyways, it's not like oh my god. It's not I'm gonna play it on my job It's more so myself But I will just get super in my head when I'm filming what I feel like you could even see it earlier in this video Where I'm like, this isn't good Especially if I'm not like sometimes it is in a really funny mood and then sometimes I'm not and then all the sudden I'm not funny. No one cares about me. No one likes the videos This is so boring whatever like even earlier before this I was like try to stop filming like in my head as I'm filming the videos Just thinking that they're like not good enough or like I think it'd be better on like another day or like I don't know comparing myself to other people's videos Just like overalls and as I'll get really in my head when it comes to YouTube specifically and I think that's because it's the Platform that I started on I talked to a lot of other creators and like the platform I always struggle in the most one is the one they started on so I don't know I've been on YouTube for like 10 years at this point. I don't know But I definitely like really hard myself my videos and like they're not good people hate me people like them like well Whatever Which I feel like all of us feel that like other areas of our lives obviously something only one that I feel that way Wish it was no, but I feel like mainly it is YouTube and then other days I feel totally fine and confident and I love my videos and I feel great So I don't know I feel like that's just like being moving. I don't I really don't know How's a celebrity been in your DMs lately? No, but I think it finds what you or it depends on what you define as a celebrity Let's a comment or the question of the day comment below what you define as a celebrity I'm assuming it's probably people who are like not famous from the internet or like have a following I don't know whatever but let me know my great ACL. I don't think that I am I'm gone pretty much all of October I'm going to national next thing get back early October Then I go to New York and then I have to go back to national real Knoxville For a wedding, so I don't think so. That's actually so soon. Okay, favorite part of living in Dallas my friends Probably I also just love everything in the city Look, I it's my ideal place to live going through post break up and trying to heal any solo dates Love you so much. Love you, too I need to get back on this but I'm about time so I started doing the artist way which is like a 12-week course You do morning pages every single morning you read this book It's Julia Cameron and then you take yourself on a solo artist day once a week And I got to like week five and then I was traveling and then I just totally like missed it also fits literally guys Hold on one second when I'm cooking. He just like stares at me like that for hours Anyways, and then I got off the wagon and I really need to get back on because I really loved it Anyway, it's good so it is I like going to coffee shops Oh, you know what? I really like fear and Dallas or really anywhere find a bar Bookstore in Dallas called white wild objectives and oh my god sitting at the bar reading your candle There's really nothing like it you can do it anywhere, obviously But it's cool if it's a good bookstore environment too because like everyone's reading it's like a little more chill But I love going and sitting at a bar and reading I do that more when I'm traveling than I do at home though I like taking myself on like solo lunch dates. It's way less scary than you think I want to start going on solo movie dates. I really want to go to my favorite museum in Dallas Which is the sixth floor museum by myself And I'm not a huge museum person, but I want to start going solo Going on walks taking yourself to the Pilates class taking yourself on a date to the farmers market I mean like literally anything that you like to do solo. It's just it's incredible Someone asked how much money do you make and I think it's a very invasive question on the other hand I get it and I will ask and then again. I also think that Like being financially transparent is really helpful one thing I need it's all alright. I'm solving this and Then I'm bringing it to a simmer And once it's simmering When I said it's higher 50-15 just because I'm filming, but I normally don't do this I Read a Jason Tardick's book and I had him on the podcast and he just talked about Financial transparency and how it's really important and it's really great for women And I think it's a good thing when you're with people who are in the same industry as you The only people you're hurting by not sharing and common things like that is yourself It's really set up to like protect your employer So that you don't ask for a raise or you don't leave for better pay and things like that I do think it's helpful when it's within the same industry and I actually think it's great And he made it even better point. He was like especially women. They really need this because it Is obviously Guys also look at this. I cannot believe I haven't been wearing this the entire time. I actually shot it today Comes out. I think on November 3rd for opening housewife home. Get excited Okay, so we have like a minute left my next question is what are you excited for for the rest of the year? Well, let me just tell you we have a beautiful year ahead. We have a new album Taylor Swift We have a new book from Colleen Huber Look lost my stuff. It's been better. Okay. What else we have we have a Dallas live show We have Dallas book club that I'm starting which will be on November 18th. We have the Dallas live show on November 11 We have a lot of travel in October. I'm trying to stay home on November December Maybe a New Year's Eve trip. What else do we have? Let me see. Oh, I want to start a garden I'm excited to get back into cooking soups. I'm just excited for it to be cold Bar season is the best this time of year like you can't You can't argue with me. Oh, okay. You know what it's only crazy about me. You would have just seen that we're just now I just I just touched like I'm gonna burn myself I couldn't have a burn on my thumb for that reason alone. It's looking good guys I feel like I lost my mom for some reason. I Have no patience. Just gonna stop that the bars at home like in Dallas at least for me are So much better also all this kale when I put this in here We'll turn into like this big just wait for it. Actually, I haven't even cut this kill. Like what am I thinking? Amateur Work, but we're gonna make it work You know here we are Bars from like October to April the energy is unmatched especially in Dallas Like I had the best like two or three months of my life from like October to December last year To the point where like when it was ending I cried because I was like, no Like it's just not gonna be the same anymore because obviously people are moving, you know, whatever, okay? I cried so I need everyone to know how serious I'm about that. This is the best time of year It's the most fun everyone's home if it's cold people are like more likely and more down to go out It's so much fun and I am just looking forward to it Like I really couldn't be happier and I couldn't be more excited I am over binge drinking as a whole. I just heavy drinking. I don't know We'll see like I like waking up not having over, you know, so we'll see anyways. I'm adding in the kale Gotta do a lot of kale here. It's not even honestly that much because I'm too lazy to like really really cut today This drink so good. Okay, and then we want heavy cream You're supposed to do like half a cup of this Gotta just do what I want, you know, I made homemade tomato soup last week for my grandmother when she came over It's just like the most wholesome thing I've ever said and it was Okay, this is a lot. I do put a lot more in this soup. There is a way to make this to where it's like a little bit healthier But I don't know. I just find that when I'm cooking by meals from home It doesn't even matter like how Like nutritious it is. Maybe that's the word I'm looking for. Oh, I put a lot of heavy cream in I also need to put that much tomato paste in So it is gonna look a little bit different and I put more bone broth or more chicken broth But whatever it actually looks like really different. I'll be honest with you The tomato paste and I're like not getting along and turns out that makes a really big difference I get this like five more minutes. Oh, it's looking it's looking back to normal This is literally the easiest soup in the entire world to make Takes two seconds. Okay, let's see if we have more questions See now I'm kind of like getting back into the swing of things like I have a personality again It's like I've lost my personality in the past like a month or so I'll give you time. I'm not funny But like my it's just my personality's gone guys is anyone else still sad about Pete Davidson and Kim Kardashian Like I know it's been so long People have moved on but like I haven't moved on. I'm actually very sad. That was For a couple. I really didn't think was real I have never shipped to people more than my life. How to make friends in your 20s. I've always struggled making good friends Obviously making friends in your 20s is hard the first time most likely you don't have friends like said place like with school Some of us are not lucky enough to like a lot more co-workers I feel like it's actually pretty rare to love your co-workers that much honestly social media like it Especially if you're in the new city join my Geneva chat We have room of group chats for every single say like not every single city But a lot of cities that you guys live in especially you in Dallas or like New York or Houston There's a ton of them Social media. I think just reach out to people especially on like tick-tock it like it's really not weird But there's a lot of social groups that are being made on tick-tock in different cities for people I would really do that if it also To have a friend you have to be a friend So you might have to be the one that's like reaching out and making that effort for a while And even if it's not someone who you think is like your forever friend At least it's someone to like get you out there and you guys will like be friends every okay like that sounds easy Like ish but like not a friend that you meet or hang out with it's gonna be like your friend forever You know what I mean? And I think sometimes we expect our new friends to feel like our hometown friends who have noticed forever And obviously the feels and the vibes are gonna be very different and you're starting at ground zero So I would and you're starting at the bottom I would make an effort find one person that you think that you could maybe be friends with start going out today I work them and then maybe they have a group of friends and we move through them You have to be yourself out there. It is a very hard time. Thank you for talking about gaining weight How are you dealing with like the body changes in your 20s? So I mentioned this briefly in a vlog and I think in my 25th year I have noticed way more than ever like my body just changing which is like totally normal Everyone's body goes through it and everyone feels that way I actually heard the other day that it's like your body preparing you for childbirth And I'm like, oh god, that's really scary it's a natural thing of life and I always am so afraid to talk about body image online honestly because I'm just Afraid that I'm gonna say the wrong thing or that yeah I guess I'm just like afraid that I'm gonna say the wrong thing and that I'm not like an expert in this field So I always say like a follow Eli. I'm a draker and these people who are really good when I'm like more focused on Wellness or like taking care of myself and that for me a lot of that is like I love my walks I love working out not for the vanity of it I like working out because it makes me feel better mentally and it's like I know I'm taking care of myself therefore I Like have a better relationship with myself almost because I'm taking care of myself not because I'm working out to look a certain way Even when I'm journaling or like I have good relationships just things like that when I'm focusing on wellness in my life I thought and cooking at home like a cooking is something that for whatever reason I think again it just goes back to like me telling myself I'm taking care of myself and again It's not about what I'm cooking. It's not about cooking chicken versus like like it doesn't it's not about cooking like healthy Versus I don't even want to say that I'm like deemed food certain ways But it's not even about what I'm cooking. It's just the fact that I'm taking the time to spend time with myself And then I'm also taking the time to take care of myself invite taking care of myself. I just mean like nurturing myself not In I'm I don't mean like I'm taking care of myself necessarily like a super healthy way if I make sense I just find that has helped me a lot also your clothes fit you You don't fit your clothes if you need a different size that is okay That is what clothing sizes are for like you are not a better or worse because your clothing sizes and just remembering that When it first started happening to me I was like, oh look I don't really feel it great about that and obviously we all have our insecurities But those are just the things that have helped me and also again It is so normal for your body to do this and you shouldn't look like how you looked when you were 17 18 years old That just isn't realistic. So yeah, again, I'm always so afraid to talk about this because For whatever reason, I think I'm gonna say the wrong thing I can leave you with anything your clothes for you. You don't fit your clothes and It is so normal and everyone goes through it and it is okay. It is totally fine See, I'm afraid when I'm saying that even that though I'm worried that it's like but like you still right. I don't know guys I really I'm like so afraid of because I think I just care so much about How people feel about themselves that I would never want to affect that in like a negative way But I just find That the more time I'm like spending taking care of myself Emotionally physically mentally what in every other way? Uh, I just find that I have a better relationship with myself and then I'm stronger and that stuff Like doesn't bother me as much if that makes sense It obviously bothers me and like things will bother me from time to time some days I feel horrible sometimes you feel great like it's just Unfortunately normal, especially being a girl. Um, this is my theory guys I think like at first I thought I was getting a lot of weight Because my jeans weren't fitting me and then I thought maybe I just have a juicy ass now Like maybe that's what's happening because of Pilates and weightlifting and so that is my theory and That is like what I'm sticking with now, you know, okay guys the camera died on me and I'm not gonna lie to you I am like two seconds away from stripping on camera because it is so hot outside And I just went to go see I didn't go outside and now I'm like no I actually can't do this anymore So anyways, my soup it looks incredible. I'm gonna give you guys a little visual I'm gonna be honest with you. I doesn't look as good as it normally does and That is due to my lack of to a no pace and I know I know I know choice What was it supposed to do feels a lot more like a soup than it your like a pasta than it doesn't soup because of the tortellini But it is just so good I actually the one thing I prefer at tender Joe's versus sprouts is their Italian sausage I prefer it for the soup and I also got this from sprouts. It's hard when you're the health queen, you know Just kidding. Okay. I have my beautiful soup here. Look at how perfect. I love it And of course you gotta add your red pepper flakes And then you've got to add parmesan and then you're like good to go With the best soup of your life That is so easy to make Here we go Look at me. I like a lot of parmesan It's so good You guys will just be in heaven. Yes, I still haven't finished my drink yet. Which is typical. Here's my meal Um, oh, I guess we're gonna answer one more question one second Someone asked what is your favorite ingredient when cooking? I love when a soup has a carrot and celery base I think that's what I'm gonna have to go with. Anyways, hope you guys enjoyed. This is actually really hot I'm gonna go eat my dinner at literally like five four. I think it is um 459 p.m. I'm a grandmother. Hope you guys enjoyed. Let me know if you guys want to see more of these Love you guys so much subscribe you guys have it and I will see you guys in the next video Bye. I always like with everyone that I've dated like I've always tried to see if I could imagine some Sort of like the future. Yeah with them and like you always kind of are like, yeah, I guess like Sure be fine. You know what I mean? Yeah, and then like With him I met him and it was just like oh like everything just felt like at ease