 He was sharing with us, you want to share a little bit about your experience with your phone call this morning? Because it was such a, I don't know if people know the whole story of coming here, but it was so precious. Oh, but you can understand this movie. It's so relaxing. You want the microphone or? I don't know. I broke my partner this morning to check in, which I normally would bring. My partner and I have been together for six years and have not spent one day apart for one night. And coming up here was something that I really, really knew I needed to do. Susan addressed it in the office on Tuesday and I went, yes, I'm going to do it. And then I went, oh, I can't. I can't leave my family for a night, for two days. And so I went through the whole process and I didn't talk to Todd about it and left it for a day or two. And then all of a sudden, one morning it was, I felt like I, and I said it and he just didn't want a bar of it at all, whatever. And then we, and then I was speaking to him on the phone and I said, I really want to go. I really need to go. And I think it's great for you and Tamaki to be together, you know, for Tamaki to know that that mummy around you're safe. You know, your daddy and you'll always be safe and my mum was there. So anyway, the full roll along all week and weekend and that's a massive fight. Massive. I found myself, I was telling myself screaming in a car park and I thought, well, what am I doing? And then I said to Todd, go, you know, and then the ball turned and turned and then, and I held on to, I was definitely coming, no matter what. And I locked it in by, I said, yes, to picking up boxes for David to bring up here. And then on Sunday, I thought, I'm not going to go forget it, you win. And then I thought, no, I've got boxes to take. I have to go. And then I thought, no, I'm going, there is nothing stopping me. And then Sunday went and we worked through our stuff and Monday came and, and Todd was really moving into it was fine. And it was great. And then I came up here on Tuesday and yesterday at lunch, I went to a slight moment of I should be calling. I hadn't spoken to him all day. Todd would bring me 12 times a day just to talk nonsense and that's fine. And anyway, so you should be calling. You have a call. And so I went through this whole massive thing yesterday. I miss, I didn't miss my son and I still don't miss my son. It's past 24 hours and I still don't miss my son and I don't miss my partner. And then this morning I rang in to check in and Todd is, Todd is a married man who's, I don't know if anyone knows Quite hard people and he's not, Todd's very in tune with himself and his whole family background is born again Christians. And he's been going to church which he says is for him and it's not, I mean he hasn't done that. He just goes every Sunday for him. He sits there, he comes home and he shares with me and we bounce off. Wow, I really agree but I don't need to go to a building to do that. And this whole, this whole thing was going and then he went into this major thing with Parnia's partner. I love you to know Parnia. That am I going to a cult? Am I going to run off with a more spiritual man and all of this came out in him and then this morning I rang. He was so calm, he had this soft voice and I said, the phone was ringing and you're ringing and ringing and then that beep beep. And he went, hello my girl. And I was like, I thought I called the wrong person. And I was having a wonderful sleep and I said well getting there was a bit hard but once I fell asleep I slept the whole night. I had to tell everybody I slept the whole night. I didn't even have to wake up once. And I didn't have my son leaching off me somewhere. It was my total space in my single bed. And he said, he said, you sound so relaxed. And I said, I am. I am so relaxed. I am so happy. And he said, that's wonderful. He said, here's your son. And then he got the phone and rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang rang. Hello and my mum's in the background cooking breakfast and Todd and my mum were talking and my mum and Todd get on so well but Todd doesn't talk much. And when he talks all the moment, it's like, what? And my mum's partly deaf so it's like, what? And so he gives up talking to her and she gives up trying to listen. They love each other dearly and she lives with us at the mate walk. She's living with us. And they were talking in the background. Mum was like, where did you learn, Todd? I was like, where did you learn? Todd is walking around with me on the phone and talking. And it was, I kind of stopped from talking and heard mum and she said, how do you want your eggs? And I went, I'll just get you Todd eggs. You know, and then Todd got back on the phone and I was waiting for this conversation to drag out and drag out which it does. And I did this and I sat down and I stood up and I turned off the light. And I was waiting for work. I turned on the pen myself. I walked out the back and I sat down in the cafe and we got ready. And he went, all right then darling, well you have a fabulous day and if you don't need to check in the call we're going to do a few things and I'll see you when you get home. And I instantly went to, like, I was like, wow. But then I was like, don't you care what I'm doing? She's going to her home too. She's going to run off with a spiritual man. And all of this stuff went on for him and then it was, you don't even, you haven't even asked me what I'm doing. And then I was like, okay, I love you. And I was like, I love you too. And he hung up the phone first and I'm always the one that hangs up the phone and it was just amazing that giving, and David said it to me this morning giving myself the permission just to go and do what I had to do with me and the snowball effect that went through my home. And Todd, I'm going to share this, I don't know, it just came to me to share. Todd and I had another blue one night and he was, he gets so caught in anger and Todd feels that he's allowed to be angry and he's had a horrible life in all these experiences and it's never going to change, so deal with it. And then he goes, well, I'm going to church and I say, well, I'm sorry honey but no one's going to come with a magic wand and wave it and then you're going to be better. And then it turned out, well, maybe I should go when you're in retreats and then I'll be better. And I was just like, whoa. Anyway, this is a time we had a fight and I was trying so calmly to stay soft and calm and just talk to him on my beliefs and turn what he was so frustrated with that it was okay to be angry and it's not going to change and he didn't even want to help himself, you know. And I said to him, would you read a book? I had no idea what book it was going to give him and I was going to go to the office the next day and say, what book should I give Todd to read? And he said, I don't read books. And I said, okay. All right, then I said, he goes, no, I just throw him away. I've never been able to finish on my dark mic and I don't want to read. I kind of sit still to read. And I said, okay, well, I don't know what to do anymore to help. Anyway, he stormed off and he went for his drive and he came back and, you know, the slammed door and I slammed this and you still know I'm angry and I'm banging this. And then all of a sudden he went into the room and I just stayed away and it would have been two hours later I walked down to the room and he was laying in bed with Eckhart Tolstoy. And I put a long list of books like there's Raj's book and there's Eckhart Tolstoy's book and then all these books and he picked that one and I walked in and he said, is this the one you want me to read? I said, I didn't know what I wanted you to read. I said, but obviously I meant to read that one and he read and he was so proud like I'd get a report I read 32 pages. I'm up to page 56 and then I'm thinking and then I'm like, okay, so I picked up the power of now and I couldn't even get through the first five pages.