 So, in that sense, there's nothing to challenge, there's nothing to confront, there's nothing to defend. And I've just watched over the years, even with the Course in Miracles as it's seen to go through, its copyright things and copyright controversies and different things, it's just been the soft, gentle watching, knowing that there's nothing to fix or change that nobody's really wrong, it's just the playing out of the script and it's a very peaceful sense of watching, but there's no sense of fixing or changing anything. And that's what I would like to talk with you about in the coming days, because to me this experience I'm describing to you is most practical. A lot of times people can say, sometimes these things sound kind of high and mighty or they sound glorious, but they don't seem very practical when it comes down to day-to-day decisions, day-to-day decision-making, and what I want to talk with you about and really join together with you in is joining in the willingness to just let go of every belief, every scrap in the mind where there seems to be the slightest bit of controversy or conflict or ill of these feelings, just to suddenly get in touch with what those are and to be willing to let them go. And to really see that there's no cost in releasing these feelings, it's not really like something terrible is going to happen to you if you quit judging or if you quit discriminating. If you quit trying to picket things, it's not like something will be lost. I find in my life that as I've gone on this journey deeper and deeper, where I had anticipated a sacrifice of some kind, it's just like getting up close to it and going, that was nothing at all. I could laugh. I can't believe I was so afraid of looking at that. I can't believe that I pushed that down for so long. You have the feeling like, wow, just let it all come up. I think too when I talk about trust, it's not so much that you have to develop more trust, because a lot of times people think I just need more faith and more trust, but it's just that the power of our mind is enormous and when you have invested that power in a false belief system, it's more that you have to unplug from it or divest from it. Instead of getting more trust, and that's just another ego trip. When an ego is telling you you're not trusting enough, you don't have enough faith, that's just another kind of a push from the ego that you're not good enough and you need to be better. It's not so much that we have to be better at anything, we just have to expose the ego and pull all of our faith and trust away from it and see that the spirit is worthy of our trust, that our guidance, that small still voice inside its guiding us is extremely worthy of our trust and if we follow it, it brings states of unlimited happiness and freedom. And more than anything, that's what I want to convey to you. I have really dedicated my life to living the experience of the course of enlightenment, to actually living it. I went to one of these big conferences back in 1992 and at that point I had effectively memorized the course of miracles. I would show up at groups and I would start speaking passages, whole paragraphs, verbatim even with quoting page-noters and I was introduced at this conference in 1992 as a walking course of miracles encyclopedia and I didn't like the ring of that somehow. You see that as an epitaph on your cravestone. Here lies the course of miracles walking encyclopedia. This doesn't bring me very good for me. So that was actually a good moment in my life in 1992 because from that point on I swore not to be an encyclopedia but to really get into the core of the experience and to really feel it and extend it and radiate it and so that's been my devotion. And as I was saying last night, I feel very honored that Gary was saying that being so fortunate to really be able to meet people in a very close and direct and intimate way where you really feel that deep heart connection like you've known them forever. That's to me what this is all about. The words, they come and they go. The books, for years I just traveled around and I really had the experience that the course was such a great, exquisite tool for me that I could not even imagine writing a book about it and actually I didn't. I mean I just continued to travel and speak and people started transcribing these words. They made the book. So that's kind of fun for me because I've always thought, you know, this is just an experience and anything that gets used I'm all for it. But the idea of trying to put things down and form. I like to show movies. I use a lot of music. We do experiential exercises. We did an angel bath last year on the side. It was fun and everything. I'm really into those kind of things. And yet I've also been open to answering thousands and thousands of emails and that's where a lot of these writings that come out into books come from is just from emails and not from me trying to sit down and put something down into a book. And I've loved it. I haven't regretted one moment of it. I even take the time occasionally to answer. I answer on Facebook and MySpace, all those funny little social networking gadgets that they have nowadays. I just feel like whatever I have the opportunity and somebody writes a sincere question that that's just an opportunity to extend to myself and that's how we keep it in awareness is by giving it away. So to me it's just very precious. So last night we talked a little bit about some topics. Good morning, Emily. And basically that's what I plan to do on these days coming up in these sessions and also in the shared question and answer sessions with Thierry is just make myself fully available to connect with you where your practice is. Where your spiritual practice seems to be flowing and working and also if you have points where you feel like there's stuck points. A woman just wrote an email to me this morning in the early morning hours and just was saying she feels kind of a flatness. She went through a period where she was feeling a lot of joy but now things are starting to feel kind of flat and meaningless. Kind of like, what is the point? It's more feeling where I'm like, yada, yada, yada, yada, yada. And it's like, I don't know what's going on down there in my mind, she said, but when I feel this flatness it doesn't, I don't feel that intense joy so I really think that there must be something that I need to get in touch with that I'm not aware of. And so that's what I would like to use as a context for our gathering if there's something that you feel like. It doesn't really matter what the emotion is but if you're not feeling a sense of supreme joy and happiness then that's a good starting point to just say, check. Okay, I really want to take note of what's going on in my awareness and my consciousness because my state of mind is important to me because I am worthy of the peace and the joy and the happiness. I am worthy of true freedom. Not the freedom like we talk about living in a free country or financial freedom or those things but I mean true freedom of mind like Morpheus talks about in The Matrix I'm trying to free your mind.