 It's Julia and welcome back to my channel and for today's video I'm going to be doing my second review video of 2018. I'm not gonna be starting all my review videos like that but whatever. So today I'm going to be talking about Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell. This book is a YA contemporary book that deals with a girl named Kath who is going to college for the first time and she has some anxiety, social anxiety, and yeah she's being separated from her twin sister and she's really used to kind of sticking with her and so she's on her own kind of thing. And it's about her and she writes fanfiction for like a similar kind of Harry Potter kind of thingy. It's called Simon Snow. It's similar to Harry Potter and that's what she does in her free time. Start off by saying a quick disclaimer is that I personally did not enjoy this book very much. I gave it two stars and I have reasons why. So chill before you dislike this video but this with my friends Jesse and Kayla and we both all like we all felt the same way about it and it was it wasn't funny but it was kind of weird how we all didn't like it. It's considering we all like had we all thought we would really enjoy it. So it was just really surprising but let's get into the review. The first part of this will be spoiler free and then we'll get into some spoilers. Next up let me pull out my phone which has my good reads review on it. We're gonna put this somewhere. We're gonna put it near Voldemort. Alright. So things that I actually enjoyed about this book was one was the anxiety representation though I wish we had more of it. I really liked and like appreciated the way it was described. So a quote from what I have was to take anxiety she felt like black static behind her eyes and extra harden her throat and shove it all the way down to her stomach where it belonged where she could at least tie it up in a nice knot and work around it. And there's obviously the relationship with Kath and Levi which is on the back of the book so it is not a spoiler but there was some things I like like I'm not gonna lie at the beginning I was really loving Levi just his I don't know the way he was described he was described as like smelling like coffee and cologne which is kind of like something I like. And then there's just a few things I like that are more spoilery but that's about it. And yeah it wasn't horrible like I wasn't I was just kind of met throughout the whole book but like you know I never thought about DNFing it so it wasn't like that. Getting into my actual issues with this book so start off with my obviously my cons with this book so there was many offensive jokes made about this book and I feel and like so do like Jesse and Kayla we were saying that like if this was in any other book it would be highly criticized but because it's in a fangirl like I've never seen anybody talk about it before. So one quote that says are you one of those freaky eaters which again you may not think this is a big deal but like really because Kath is like only eating like granola bars at one point because she had she stressed and like she didn't want to leave a room and then her roommates like are you one of those freaky eaters and I'm like oh geez. Not to mention Levi making jokes about gay couples constantly so Simon Snow is actually a gay fanfiction that Kath writes so he literally goes up and says do you have to make gay homemade Simon Snow posters? Is it your job to make Simon gay? Like I'm like really can you like relax man and like stop like really like then there's some things with her dad that goes on later in the book so I'll talk about that in the spoilers but there's a few jokes that are made that says because he's North bipolar that's not a joke like are you kidding me and then there's another one that says because the chimneys make him claustrophobic like are you kidding me like did no one really notice any of this and it's just surprising to me like I get why people like like part of me gets why some people like it but like I scroll down my Goodreads everyone that I follow is giving it five stars and it's just like I get that it can be relatable for some people who are going to college or the anxiety representation but I just felt like for a book that is set to have such great representation for mental health they're constantly making fun of other mental illnesses and other thing like oh my god I couldn't up and Levi were so gross near the end of this book that it really bothered me well now I'll talk about this in my spoiler okay so here's the thing with carry on like at first I was kind of liking it like and then I just stopped caring so I'm not gonna even carry on but then there was like this cliche of like Wren the outgoing twin and then Kat the uglier and quieter twin who doesn't go out much and she was constantly shaming Wren for like going out and then this book could have dealt with alcoholism so well but it just totally skimmed over it and like page later everything wrapped up fine that was so jealous of everything like a quote is she hated listening to him talk to other people huh Kat constantly threw around the word crazy because there is some things going on with her father and she constantly like oh I'm so crazy like him oh my god he's so crazy blah blah blah so I felt like a lot of things were like scammed over or implied but they were just never said or stated fully and there was just so much sugarcoating about somebody topics and that was just really sad to see because I felt like it could have made such an impact with the topics that the book was talking about I mentioned Kat think she's honestly top shit like she goes around saying because I'm writing Gemma T Leslie's character sometimes in some ways I'm better than her the fuck and there's Levi who's literally a conformist and goes around saying I don't really smoke unless someone else is smoking too okay and then Reagan Kat and Reagan like their conversations one I can relate to like Reagan I partly liked but partly didn't like I liked her in the way that she was like one of the only like semi interesting characters in the book but she like they're talking they're like and no being a horrible narcissistic bitch who goes off on her ex-boyfriend's affection like can we relax okay I'm gonna talk a little bit about spoilers stick around if you have read this book or you don't care about being spoiled stick around and we could talk about it a little bit but if you've read this book then if you haven't read this book might want to leave basically when I was talking about the alcoholism components in this book so we know that near the end of the book Ren goes through a really hard time she's in the hospital and then it's funny because a page later she's fine like I felt like it could have done so much more with alcoholism and could have really talked about the risks of like teens and like new adults and alcoholism and alcohol alcoholism in a social setting in that college and just totally skimmed over it and it was like oh she's fine now not how it works like I don't get why that happened obviously the things going on with cats dad which again it was never really stated what he was going through I know I've seen a lot of people say it was bipolar representation I'm not sure we barely got much insight to the dad all we got was cat kind of being upset about things that he's going through and again but if they're bipolar representation why do they joke about bipolar disorder like okay I get joking about some things can make it seem like not as bad or there's like dark humor but like really and like no one talks about it too like it's the fact that I've never seen anyone mention it like it wasn't even there like did I even read the same book as everybody else like I'm very confused and I don't mean that offensively of course it's just my opinion so relax then there was the relationship between Kat and Levi this was the grossest thing I've ever seen in my life one I used to like both of them at the beginning but okay like no not anymore and then there's Nick by the way who is just there for like no reason like why is Nick there I don't know then there's also Kat handing in her fanfiction to a professor like are you kidding me like I'm not in college or university but I already know that I would not hand that in to a high school teacher an elementary school teacher anybody you you don't hand in fanfiction like at least change up the names and change up the general concept of the fanfiction or else like they'll know it's fanfiction so like chill there's a thing that bothered me the most which was Kat and Levi's relationship towards the end of the book so basically they're talking about having sex okay great okay and he's talking about how he wants to please Kat or whatever and he goes do you want me to show you on a doll did anyone else not think this was super weird like not to mention like when someone gets sexually assaulted especially a child they usually show like the police officer or a social worker like on a doll and because they don't want to talk about it or whatever and but no he asks her to have sex this way on a doll like showing her on a doll when that's used oh my god I like I just couldn't how is it that romantic at all like that bothered me so much and then also knew the end he goes as long as you're reading you let me touch you okay so she's comfortable reading she's just like I want to read great and he's like then you let me touch you okay so basically those were some of my problems with fangirl by rainbow rowell again please chill in the comments like you can hate some books that I like like everyone has their own opinions and if you did love this book please let me know why down below or why you didn't like this book and I was super nervous to make this video but I posted a review on Goodreads and like a lot of you guys were saying that you felt the same way and how no one talks about how they dislike fangirl and I know Jesse's already put up her review so I will link hers down below and as well as her channel and Kayla's channel I'm not sure if Kayla is gonna be coming out with a video soon about it but if she does I'll have her channel linked down below and the video effect drops thank you guys so so much for watching if you are new here be sure to follow me on any of my other social media so I have all of them linked down below my Twitter 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