 Hey everyone so at the moment I am a bit of an anxious ball of like excitement but mostly nerves so today I'm handling my notice at my job which is super super scary for me. I'm a bit anxious because it's going to be the life of a freelance designer. A little bit different to what I'm used to but it means maybe I can work on more personal projects in between and also I have the really exciting opportunity of working with a company that I'm really excited about. I also got something cool in the mail from A-Patreon which was really nice so it's this little like formal letter it's like an artistic license. I don't know if you guys know the um Stuart Semple stuff you've probably seen it about um I've actually had some stuff on my channel where the glow in the dark paint or like the mirror paint the unicorn paint the world's black is black stuff like that so inside these letters um because she gave me four which is super generous is an artistic license um you can't use this code because I've already used it so don't bother but it's it's really cool you get like 25 pounds gift voucher kind of thing but also like this artistic license to carry around which I have four of but I think it's really cool I can be like my artistic license here I think it's a really cool prop and it's pretty fun I think Stuart Semple's culture hustle I think is the uh name of the company they do really cool stuff like that all the time so it's nice recently I saw that he was selling like a vial of his blood and I was like what's that for and I was thinking about like when Casey Golden did her paint with blood and I was like is it for painting and it's no it's just like a little vial of a necklace that you can have around your neck which is really weird I was like random but yeah so I'm thinking I'm just treating myself now because I'm just an anxious mess to like some stuff off of his website because I think in total I have about 100 pounds which is so incredibly generous um this is from Steph so thanks a lot Steph who shares my namesake it's really kind of you you're already a patron so you already completely support me but yeah and yeah so that's basically my heads up or my life update which is pretty big one for me and I'm very very anxious it's always hard to leave like a comfort zone I think which was definitely what I was in I was in a comfort zone so I think exciting things are ahead something cool um which is this tiger which I've put into photoshop and I've cleaned up and stuff and I'm gonna make him the monthly patron reward tonight so so we'd have him a voice then anxious mess um yeah I quite like him so there we go um I think like all my patrons have already seen these sketches by the time that I'm showing you because I update my patrons with like my rough sketches and stuff all the time all the time well when I have enough to show and uh yeah so this is kind of what I've been working on and well I haven't had much chance because I think as well my job which I'm now leaving has been quite stressful over the last month it's been really busy so I've come home really really tired and not really like not in the mindset to do anything so hopefully that will change another exciting news is that me and Chris are working on a comic together and more of that to come probably in this vlog but yeah I'm gonna get on with buying some stuff thanks again stuff super kind so great to it like nope you ain't having this shot I might be a bit stressed out I just rearranged this whole like area to be sort of my studio because I don't have a spare room for a studio and like this area is sort of that um space for me but it looks really bad and it doesn't really work so I'm gonna move everything back and yesterday we went to like this shopping mall and I think I definitely am going through like a quarter life crisis because I bought this hat what am I thinking why did I buy this don't know couldn't say bought it bought it looked cool I was like yeah this is this is it this is my look now and where who am I and what am I thinking so if anyone who wants a grey bucket hat um I also bought this like massive sketchbook from tiger and at least flat which is kind of cool I think it will be good for markers and like not water or anything um yeah I think it's kind of cool so that was a good purchase bad purchase also a bad decision to rearrange my whole flat and then realize that it doesn't work so I'm gonna move everything back to where it was and just try to get more space I'm trying to get more space because basically I've got like a freelance contract that I'm starting on the 20th um and I want to like set up the iMac because I think like because I have an old iMac that is like barely works and I much prefer it for like design work um when I'm using the PC the Windows PC for design work it's like it does it just doesn't like the experience is much worse um I don't know how to describe it other than that like if you know you know kind of like shortcuts are different um it runs differently when you drag stuff it doesn't really like connect it or it's like weird um so I want to use the iMac for that stuff and I need space for it obviously and my desk cannot fit that so I'm trying to figure out something I'm sorry for this massive explanation like no one asked the bucket hat and now this explanation anyway basically I am just really scared and um I think it's taking a lot of guts to like go freelance I'm also thinking just thinking all that cat whatever happened though um I'm also thinking of like redoing my book that I wrote a while ago but like instead of because it was a trilogy originally and I think I'm just gonna release it as like one big massive book because I just I got disheartened by it because when I first released it um I got like a couple of like two star reviews and it really really hurt me so I was like I'm never doing this again I'm not a writer I'm terrible but then I think like doing the comics has really like boosted my confidence with writing a little bit because I think people well have genuinely like them so I think I'm just gonna release as one whole book I think my problem was releasing it trying to like section it up into a trilogy just it didn't make sense so I think maybe the ending of the first book was a bit there because it was like it's not really a whole book it was anyway I'm over talking so I want to release that and maybe I'll just release it for like on Amazon for like two dollars each um copy so then people can just get it and I'll just do it for myself basically so yeah I think I'm gonna do that as well and Patreon stuff I'm constantly working on and also orders for the comic I have sorry that's Chris Boeing's nose I have sold out of Emily is burning so I need to reorder some of that but I don't think I can afford it right now and me and Chris are also working on a comic which I really want to just get going on and it's a bit of a different approach because I'm working with Chris whereas like before it would just be myself so I could just go for it like I mean it's difficult to just go for it anyway I mean before the comics my horror comics before took ages to like get started on so yeah that's where I'm at and um pretty scared would really like your support guys in any way that you can if you could just watch videos or comment or like just give me a you can do it go because you can do it go that's the bucket hat me talking but you know what I mean I'm just pretty worried um doing freelance but yeah that's it that's the the where I'm at so this is the final setup I think it works much better it's much more clean um down there we can use as our dining room still so it made more sense it was just like a big mess down there I still have so much stuff to sort out on this table but that's a problem for later because now I need to eat some lunch and uh then I need to package up some some patron and not package up I need to sort out some patron stuff and yeah that's my Sunday and tomorrow and back at work and I've only got eight days left hey guys so it is Monday night and Chris has been drawing some cats characters for our comic so it has the working title gem cats oh no cat gems and uh we're not sure if that's you know we need to think of a better title than that because it was like a bit mean it's a little on the nose but it's basically about like these mining cats that's going to be the basis of the story and uh yeah I really like this one well the main character she's kind of cool um and here's some inspiration as well for the characters I think some stuff yeah so I'm going to like write the script and Chris is going to design the characters and then we're going to work on the backgrounds together I think I'm doing the thumbnails or we'll do the thumbnails together then Chris is going to do the rough pages and then we're going to do the line work and the coloring together probably we haven't really figured it out it's kind of the first time we're doing this so we need to work out how to like work together properly but it will be cool I think it's going to be really interesting I printed out I printed out the like the script so far cool um and we just went through it so it's only like a couple of pages um right now it's not really that interesting it's just setting up everything with the characters and the universe and then we've got some characters here so what I've done is like I always do with my comic script is I write page one and then I use the entire page for that dedicated page so panel one so I write all the panels down and then I like to like do a little thumbnail sketch of what that page layout will look like and yeah so I'm kind of working out all the panels and then we'll do so we'll sort of do the thumbnails together but yeah it's kind of coming together which is interesting I'm home from work and I started watching um Jersey Shore reunion and there's this episode where one of them is getting engaged and I was like I'm like why am I like this why am I getting teary eyed over Jersey Shore I think it's another sent help moment anyway today I was also crying because I had to buy a new mouse for my iMac basically so expensive um but I needed it because it just I really like doing creative work on the iMac it just makes everything easier it's what I'm used to with Photoshop and everything even though I don't want to use Photoshop but like I'm gonna have to for a little bit worst design in the world where you have to remember to charge your mouse otherwise you can't use it I think this is the most stupid design that um has ever come from Apple but I love the magic mouse I love the trackpad and stuff that you can get on it and the like the ways you can use it it's just this is so dumb okay anyway there you go there's my mini unboxing beautiful wasn't it and um had my final day at work which was like a bit sad and a bit weird so I feel like I've made the right decision and I feel really happy right now so yay I'm a little bit tired I'm a little bit drained first oh yeah I was thinking I'm gonna dye my hair because my hair is like blonde but it's kind of gone quite dark during lockdown because I think I was inside more than I was ever and it hasn't just it hasn't like brightened up at all since then so I'm thinking I'm gonna dye my hair a bit lighter and then possibly dye it like a hint of pink could look really awful but you know what we're doing the mid-life crisis thing and we're going full full on with it so we might as well double down on it quit a job dye our hair buy a bucket hat this happened and um not sure if I regret it or not the saga of the hair continues I'm seriously not sure if I'm making it worse or better but I tried to dye it pink and it came out blonder what what's happening there like what it it's super patchy um but you can sort of hide it if you like do this so it's not like the worst so I guess that's my hair now um thanks for watching the vlog I'm gonna end it here because um I'm pretty sure that I don't really have anything else interesting to show you guys for a while but yeah I wish me luck in my new job on Monday and uh see you guys next time my new freelance job I should add but yeah I'm excited so I don't like crouching like okay uh bye