 Good morning, everyone. Welcome back to my channel. My tan is so messed up right now. Anyways, um happy Tuesday Update on the yawning situation Getting better it's still not quite there like if you guys didn't do it last week of my life vlog I have not been able to fill you out in like a week and apparently it's linked to anxiety But like I've been the least anxious I've been in so long, so I'm very confused I know it manifests in other ways, but like I'm not anxious like I don't understand what I talk about it though Like becomes a thing, you know, of course. I'm a lot to it that you want, but um, I actually got a new brow gel Very exciting so Today is Tuesday. I've been back on waking up like really early again But the past two days my sleep control got messed up again, which is awesome Because it hasn't been messed up in forever. The first thing I finished Nashville So obviously that was a very emotional thing for me. I finally watched a show two years ago at Nashville, of course So that was one thing that was just like, you know heartbreaking I've been reading again, of course so much guys like I'm on like book I think like 26 or 27. There's something else too. Oh my gosh, we've done updates I'm actually gonna work out down there for the first time so you guys will see what else have I been doing I have a lot of like new purchases and stuff too that I should show you guys My like body though. This is what I'm talking about. I feel like right here and here and here where the tannas messed up That's actually messed up from like my real tan I got sunburned it actually turned into a tan and then it started peeling two weeks later And so now it's messing up like everything else. It's just like, you know, awesome Anyway, so I'm like really really tired and that's really annoying today's Tuesday So I didn't run but I'm gonna go work out down in the den and then get going with my day Okay, guys super fun Amazon purchases. We have my solid spinner Which is exciting and then I got two Primal kitchen Like Alfredo sauces because I'm trying to make I'm not gonna get today's cuz I'm not really feeling anything heavy I don't know. I'm trying to make it a healthier chicken Alfredo. So I got these I am gonna make my Hollywood bowl from sweet cream Which I'm really excited for guys. We have some big dead updates Question, what should I do for better lighting in here because this is gonna have to be fixed This couch came you guys have probably already seen it on Instagram But this couch came like guys I got this couch somehow for two hundred ninety dollars and it looks better in person like everything the lighting here So we are now and the floors have been done There's not much like there's just a run of things like that because my concrete was really bad before But it's gonna be fine because that's gonna be covered with a rug eventually and then my projector is here The screen comes this week. I got two like beanbag chairs. I need to get a coffee table still Okay, I just open this for better lighting. Um, anyway, so there's gonna be like the two chairs This will be very soon because the stuff supposed to arrive this week still need to find a coffee table Got this off Facebook marketplace by the way people who've asked. This is my little gym set up I hate how it's not all the way straight right now. It's driving me insane But I'm really easy with jet like I don't need a bunch of like equipment and stuff either a huge space If anything, I might get like a peloton or a stair master or something But anyways, it's gonna be super cute and really really fun and I'm really excited So that is my den update, but I'm really great like the perfect couch for entertaining I'll make a projector and having a movie night with so many people So I'm so excited for what I can actually like have friends over, you know extend like long out to the side for 10 Nine tiny little bed little all right. I just finished my workout. It was actually really hard I love Melissa would have so much as my first one of my den too, but that is it I honestly this is like the one day and forever that I haven't woken up in seven and I immediately regretted it Most people like stay up late to watch Netflix and stuff and I stay up late to like finish a book in one night You know like something's got to change Anyways, I have things to do today So I'm actually going to go shower and get ready because I have a lot to do. Okay guys So I got a new pair of Air Force ones because mine were absolutely trashed beyond repair. I'll have them linked below They came from Northstrom really quick and they're just the best white sneakers ever And then I made an order on pretty little thing already put the clothes away But I got this self tanner that Julia Havens like swears by So I'm really excited to try this and then I just got a new mitt because I needed it That's a bunch of things things. I'm doing an Instagram deal with them. So I need to get all of that put together All right, I just showered I got ready for the day. I'm have like a zoom recording. So my top is a little bit cuter I'm just wearing my sweats from talent list. I got them in a size medium I should have gotten a size small this is from Zara this pink tank top is or body So is misguided and then I just have my Amazon slippers and I've been wearing a ton I'm letting my hair air dry. I actually did makeup like got ready like really ready for the day But I'm gonna go downstairs and do my divo I need to prep too because we have like the Bible City tonight So I need to do a little bit more prep even though I like a pretty much have everything I need my hair to just dry But like I don't have time to actually dry and do it today also guys listen I am in literally a tick tock. I mean, I'm not a tick tock star at this point But I'm a big tick tocker all the prints you guys asked for we've got recipes on here my book recs Just like random stuff. We had this fun. Oh the sound isn't available. Dang it. This video is really cute But I don't know what happened. So anyway, so we guys haven't followed my tick tock. It's Kenzie Elizabeth Hey, I'm gonna start on dances soon. I think don't worry, but here's like an outfit of a day one Here's mine from yesterday of what I wore Um Yeah, guys, you need to go follow me on tick tock. It's just Kenzie Elizabeth. Hey, I got sunburn from this outfit But it is what it is, you know My hair feels so weird. What ever since it got Redone hi guys. So since today, it's just a one day vlog I'm gonna share a little of my divo so many of you guys have been tagging me which is so cool I it's jaw the circle by mark batter said my favorite divo ever It's a 40-day my mom texted me This is the text I mom just sent me out of the blue I would just look for an older washer and dryer because I absolutely love the set here at the lake house And they're so old the dryer is so quick. Wow the more you know I have to buy a washer and dryer this weekend So here we are people fun things, you know anyways I've shared a few of my divos and stuff in the past few vlogs I want to do a video also like a week in my life the devotions But I just have so much to say that I just feel like that video would be like 40 minutes long Here we go guys new Nespresso machine that might be arriving tonight. We have to check. This is very important out for delivery Oh my gosh. Okay. Also. I've been living without lip balm for Like a week and I'm waiting for a new one to arrive and there's literally not one at my house And if you know me, you know, that's like literally the biggest problem of my life Because I'm so like obsessed with lip products. So I just feel so Weird, you know, okay I'm on day 18 of the Java circle and it's just keep circling the scripture is Joshua six four on the seventh day March on the city seven times. Okay, so I'm gonna read my notes. Also starting a new Shinola today exciting things Big moves. We've moved on to Graphen paper. So, you know, it is what it is. Anyways, it's like a few pages long I'm gonna give you guys the short summary just kind of a my notes I feel like regardless of what you believe this is a really encouraging Like little message thing today. So yeah, so I was like prayers a difference between us fighting for God and God fighting for us His situation still seems like a lost cause, but it's not over till God's it's over If your cause is ordained by God, then the battle belongs to Lord. It's his victory to win not yours These are like exact quotes. I don't believe in coincidences. I believe in providence I believe there's a God in heaven who directs our steps who prepares good works It's hard to read out loud when you like can't really fully breathe Okay, who prepares good works in advance who causes all things to work together for good who fights our battles for us If you pray through there'll be breakthrough. Don't lose heart. Don't lose hope Don't lose faith keep patience keep asking keep seeking keep knocking God really does things how or when we expect him to and it leads us to question his strange mysterious ways I'm sure the Israelites questioned God's battle plan at Jericho. God told them to circle the city for seven days It didn't make sense, but it had to feel like and it had to feel like forever, but I kept circling so like obviously when you're like at battle You like to circle a city for seven days sounds like you know kind of insane and like does not make sense So I think just in the idea of like you feel like God's saying something and you're like this is so confusing and like literally Doesn't make any sense and like I don't understand but There's like the what if and it's like what if they had stopped circling and it's like the miracle Would have been forfeited right before it happened So sometimes God will push us to our absolute limits the limits of our faith of our patience of our gifts that like obviously built faith So it's like when you've quit circling you don't just compromise the present every promise every miracle every blessing your future is forfeited They kept circling and if you do keep circling the walls will come down breakthroughs never will go ahead keep circling Especially in times like this how many times am I like in times like this? I think especially just in like Covid there's so many like plans and dreams and things that Are either like paused or have kind of just been like this isn't happening and so many things that it's like you're just so confused And like life just doesn't seem that appealing right now And it's just the idea of like keep circling and like pushing through Because obviously it is gonna get better and if it's like a God or a dain thing it's going to happen Sometimes that is in God takes you on detours So anyways, I literally love this diva book. I'll have it linked down below, but I Literally am going crazy with that lip balm guys. I'm actually losing my mind I ordered the most beautiful whiteness personal machine that comes today as we know very exciting We're reading up from Ruth this week with everybody done But I'm gonna kind of get everything together for tonight And then I'm actually working on my church today, too But also I need to like you work and I'm recording with Yola Roberts from my second life today So we're doing that podcast And I'm gonna make oh my gosh I'm making the Hollywood Bowl from sweet green which is gonna be incredible. Stay tuned. All right I'm still in the exact same spot Do I have an office in my house and do I still choose to work on my coffee table half around my kitchen table half the time? Yes, but I have a vlog in the background. I'm working on Some Instagram stuff for church. Wait, I was gonna. Oh, this is why I was vlogging. Okay. I set a timer Oh my gosh 20 minutes. That's not gonna be enough time. Oh I just like have been sitting my phone and literally a puddle of water. It's totally fine. Don't worry about it Like literally was wrong with me. Oh my gosh guys my kitchen table. Oh my gosh the CB21 literally was thousand dollars and I like hate to even say that because I like hate myself for it, but And it just stains all the time which is so annoying, but I finally got I ordered on CB to placemats Which is really exciting. Also. Oh my gosh. I have a new bonus solo episode So by the time this week's episode goes up. Who are we posting this week actually now that they think about it? Oh, we're doing Hannah Ashton. So um We're having Hannah Ashton on the podcast this week Which is already up when this vlog goes up and then also we had a bonus solo episode of myself all about my new life as a bread-winning housewife because somehow I have turned into a literal housewife over quarantine and I'm not a wife and You know, I guess that's really the only thing that doesn't make sense But like, you know, we've been through this cooking organizing working at my house non-stop Working out like I just do all the housewife things, but also like with a spice of bread-winning. You know what I mean? So anyways, we talk all about that all my book reads. I'm on book 26 of quarantine like it's really something to answer your questions on how I'm reading so much I just don't really watch TV. So like if you factor in how much time you normally spend watching TV You would probably read that many books too. You know what I'm saying, especially during quarantine So I'm really excited for what I'm working on right now. Like I'm actually probably I'm literally just so freaking excited I've actually been watching the morning toast lately as well Didn't think I was into it for a long time and like I don't know I literally think that Jackie is like the prettiest most perfect human being ever and then I'm actually recording I'm obsessed with Margot. I'm obsessed with all of them, but I'm actually recording with Margot this week So I'm really excited. So check out the new podcast episodes The reason I even started recording is because I normally I'll like put a timer on for like 40 minutes of um I need to upload a vlog I'll put a timer on for like 40 minutes And it's like you have this much time to do this but I need it more So anyways, basically what I was saying is life hack set timers like I do that when I clean all the time So I don't just like lolly eye on my phone. I have to get it done It's like the adult equivalent to like don't step on the floor like the lava game to me You know what I mean? No one's gonna understand that all right guys exciting things are happening. My espresso has arrived I'm also roasting chicken Because I'm making the Hollywood Bowl if you guys don't know a sweet green It's like the best out was ever and the Hollywood Bowl is my favorite salad and since I've really actually become a chef I thought my next thing that I need to perfect will be salads and I have kind of last week I made some really good kale salads, but I wanted to make the Hollywood Bowl because it's my favorite So anyways, we're working on that. I'm probably not gonna eat that for lunch So I'm just gonna roast the chicken and then recording from three to five and then make it for dinner I'll show you guys, and I'm also gonna make a tiktok. So very fun. Anyways, I'm so excited This is like the most beautiful Nespresso machine and I actually would love to make the coffee right now I'm gonna be at the lake house on Monday to Wednesday, but if it's not that then I can pick you up Just planning things with my cousin. Okay, so here we go. It's most beautiful beautiful Guys, oh, okay, so life hack this Nespresso was originally like $400 It's on sale currently on Amazon for like a hundred dollars off Which I still was like I'm not gonna spend that money because I have an espresso. It's in my life, blah, blah, blah, whatever then I Forgot about the like new thing on Amazon, which is what I always used to buy my cameras So if you go on Amazon you go to the like new tab you can get things like so cheap I got my camera check $400 at originally like a thousand Anyways, so I ended up getting this for a hundred fifty and one of you guys DM'd me and reminded me about it And so I found it for one hundred fifty dollars guys I'm so Excited it is like beautiful. Oh my gosh We're gonna we should probably just move over to my coffee. This is like so exciting guys. Oh my gosh I'm so excited. I mean it just looks absolutely beautiful Like I got all of these new pods on Amazon and then I also got actually I'll show you a bunch of For sigmatic stuff, so I'm really excited. Okay. I have some tortellini left over So I decided I'm gonna make tortellini for lunch just so I can get that out of my fridge This is probably my most boring meal I've made. I just cut up a bunch of tomatoes garlic I didn't want to use the kale because I want to use that for a salad later And then I use like a primal kitchen no dairy Alfredo sauce like this is not what I would normally even want I'm honestly just kind of in a rush and I Really actually need to go grocery shopping. I've been cooking so much that all my food is like gone So gotta figure that out. This looks absolutely beautiful and incredible. I have to figure out how to use it But I need to make a coffee like right now. So that is the plan guys This is just the cutest thing ever. I'm in my office the tragic Reality of my life, which I just ordered a fan Why do I do this? I return a recording a video. I start talking to the mic I look at grandma right now. I just ordered a fan Which I'm gonna use in my office, but I'm gonna start using it in my den until I get my den insulated but it's just hot in here always but the rest of my rooms are freezing and I literally can't breathe. So actually talking for two hours is gonna be something because I'm recording today with Yola Roberts of a second life It's another podcast with tier media. I'm doing so many podcast swabs this week Like I'm recording with Whitney Port from the Hills sister Diaries of the Orlando sisters Who was my recording? Oh my gosh, Margot Osteri, which is exciting That's not a swap, but who else I need to come like you a pounder. I don't know guys Honestly, I've gotten so much done today, but I'm like realizing how much literally doing this and I'm realizing How much I need to do still and after this I need to cook and into the Bible study and then figure it all out So here we are all right guys I have been recording for the past like 30 and a half hours Um, I'm about to go upstairs and make some dinner I realized like today just one of those days where I'm so mad at myself for sleeping in a little bit because I needed to Wake up early because I have so much to do Update on my awning situation. It's going it's getting a little bit better So I'm gonna head downstairs right now and start on the Hollywood Bowl salad, which is very exciting I just whacked myself in the head with my phone charger my favorite time of the day when I'm not stressed out Which I have a lot to do right now. So I'm a little bit stressed like I literally haven't felt Any amount of stress and quarantine probably like two months at this point Okay, my settings were off, but anyways the recording was great I did a bunch of other stuff I did make a to-do list and like it just keeps getting piled on with more and more stuff And I really just want to read tonight But I think I might have some work after the Bible study so we'll see Anyways, my law time is incredible. I'm actually going to start on our beautiful Hollywood Bowl now the long-awaited Very exciting portion of this vlog guys. I actually have really good news. Um, oh, I hate this fridge Let's move over here. Okay, actually really good news I I think that I actually don't have to work after the Bible study tonight and I can read my new book I don't even know if I mentioned this today I think I have but live constantly the new book came out Which is actually two people, but you know what I mean whenever I mean You don't know what I mean. Like why would you know what I mean? Whatever you gonna say, so I'm really excited for that to come out I'm looking forward to it. So we're gonna make the Hollywood Bowl I found a recipe on their Facebook like it's nowhere else on the internet besides their Facebook So we're gonna use that. I'm currently roasting some chicken. I have my stuff out for the salad I'm about to De-stem all the kale and clean that Listening to the morning toast, and I'm eating my second bag of smart sweets for the day Literally so freaking good. Like if you guys haven't had smartsuits before you need to like run to Whole Foods. Okay, because it's like that good Okay, I just like majorly messed this up so it like doesn't look as pretty as it once did But I made my Hollywood Bowl so good if you guys want the full recipe and stuff It's just on my TikTok, but um I'm a huge fan and I'm very proud of myself and I have everything ready for tomorrow It looks so good. Wow so beautiful Look at us go. I don't know if I'm doing this shirt. I think I'm not guys Yeah, that's definitely probably wrong Even when we die, he'll be there with us So I think that it's like the little things that even like we're like All right guys, um, I'm off of the bible study This one went by so fast bow's about to FaceTime me because we always FaceTime run after these It went by so fast. Seriously. It's such a good one I feel like she's calling me right now at the end of it every woman like literally. Okay silk scrunchie We're all buying these silk scrunchies on forever 21 because they're like a dollar each I guess But I'm gonna wait till they post. Oh my gosh. No, she's serious Love these big silk scrunchies and I was actually thinking the other day how I need more But they have them on like every color And they're a dollar each that is so incredible see Val laptop so knew it Okay So what you guys have all been waiting for I'm finally answering, um All of your questions This is like such a weird thing to have to do on the internet But like I live a weird life So I've been getting so many questions Q and I are no longer together. I know I know I know I've been getting so many questions and Honestly, just like out of respect for the situation I didn't feel right like coming on days later and saying something I'm not the only person involved in this and just like Out of respect I think for the relationship. I wanted to give it a few weeks I like don't really even have much to say on this topic I like this isn't the case of like, oh, you don't know what happens like off camera or anything Like we had a really great relationship. It was probably honestly better off camera. Like it's not a like Oh secretly this was like really bad or horrible like it's really not even about the relationship I think sometimes just like life happens I know like a lot of you guys are probably like really really confused and shocked and I think like I don't know. I think to be fair like we were both kind of in that place Yeah, that's pretty much all I have to say I just obviously I needed to address it on here so we can just move on and like I don't want questions about it anymore I don't want to be like asked about it Not this into like obviously like he was on my channel like obviously I was always going to answer But it's also like I'm moving on with my life and I don't want to like see that all the time I think also just in the past like I mean obviously in the past few months like my life has changed so much to the point where it's like actually insane, but I think just over the past like Month just like being alone has been So unbelievably good for me. I also think it's really important like wherever you're at in life to like lean into that season I don't want to miss what I feel like God has for me in this time of my life like relationship and like breakup aside There's so much more that's going on in life I don't want to miss what God has for me in this time And like I want to get everything that I can out of this season I think just kind of like leaning into that has been really good and also just like When you ever have like a month period of time where you're like by yourself in your house like it's actually been Absolutely incredible Like I know that sounds ridiculous and obviously there are times that like suck in our heart and like we're quarantined and everyone feels You know, whatever there's like highs and lows 100 percent, but I think Overall, I think I've grown more probably in this past month that I have in my entire life I feel like a completely different person Not that I didn't like myself a month ago Like I think it's just I have just grown so much and again Like I always sound like a hippie when I'm like learning growing whatever I think it's like I love who I am and I love where I'm going and I love even more I'm out honestly and the people in my life like the relationships I do have are so Like incredible. That's all I have to say the relationship was great. He's so great Like there's nothing bad. It honestly had literally nothing to do with the relationship That's pretty much all I have to say. I think this is like the best community in the entire world I literally think this all the time and I'm so grateful for you guys I feel like I have friends literally everywhere and I love you guys so much And I'm so grateful for this like just group of people that we have Like all across the world that I feel like it's such a tight knit Group of people and you guys are so supportive and like literally the best people ever So I love you guys. Um, that's pretty much all I have to say It's a very weird thing to like have to like do this on the internet. Um, oh my gosh Wait That's so cute My friend Liz just sent me a we were talking about silk scrunchies Literally in the at the end of the bible study on the group zoom And it's literally like the most beautiful silk scrunchies I've ever seen in my entire life I like don't know how to end this portion of the vlog, but anyways moving on the fly Okay, so I don't even know what's on there right now Um, I do have like a little bit of work that I need to do but I'm also like I don't know. I also Have so much energy. This is the problem. Like I got my sleep schedule So great. And now I'm back to like staying up so late and the chisels just like Not what I need to be doing right now. So we've got to figure that out Maybe I'll get a lot of work done today, but I have a run at 7 a.m. So I need to like, you know, go to bed All right guys giving you a little mini book review. I am obsessed with calling hoover right now I read Verity and then regretting you and I am obsessed. I'm going to read live cosentine's new book Which I pre-ordered so it actually should be on my kindle And yeah, I finished this last night. It was just so good. Like I loved it I think calling hoover is just like a mastermind because she does it all she does thriller romance and adult Like she really does it all, you know, so I pre-ordered the wife stalker, which is live cosentine's new book Um, it's downloading right now. I have been waiting for this for so long and I'm so excited. Oh my gosh Oh my gosh, my hair looks crazy. I just took it out of the bun But hope you guys enjoyed today's vlog. Um, it's 9 30 and I've just been working. I actually edited this entire vlog already And I'm just gonna get some work done from my computer because I know it's gonna make me feel like Less anxious and then I can wake up from my 7 a.m. Run It's gonna be incredible, but hope you guys enjoyed this vlog. I love you guys so much and I'll see you soon. Bye