 Hey Cecilia is in the house. Hi, Jonathan. Hi, everyone. You got the rock star sunglasses on Yeah How are you Jonathan? Happy holidays, Merry Christmas Happy holidays Merry Christmas. I'm very happy to be with you everyone Especially you Jonathan. Thank you so much for a wonderful You've been commenting commenting commenting on videos and I have no fucking clue what you're talking about So I know what's going on you have this are okay first off. Are you married? Yes or no? To a polygamist So wait, you're married to to somebody who's married to other people Yeah, he didn't tell me about we were gonna be just how long have you been married to him? since April April of this year. Are you getting a divorce? I? Probably can just get an annulment. So I have documents to divorce, but I'm gonna try to get an annulment Okay, so and now are you flirting with some other man because you keep talking about a man and Feelings who the hell is this guy you're talking about? Well two years ago I was told by my cousin who had never met before that he wanted me to find him a girlfriend and we had kind of like a friendship like a Platonic relationship, but then last Christmas he says I wanted you to be my girlfriend and for us to get married Okay so So have you been seeing him? Have you been seeing him physically? No Okay, have you had sex with them? No So do you communicate via text messaging? One-sidedly What does that mean one-sidedly? The last time he communicated with me was last month and it was just a cold and dry communication about Transaction that we were having for a kitchen that he wanted me to he wanted me to save money up For him to make kitchen or remodel the kitchen at my home Okay, so it was just about that. All right, so what's your why do you follow my channel and what's your what's your question for me? well He and I have had a lot of feelings for each other sexual of course But when it comes to communicating It's almost felt like he's been lying to me. You can't tell when he lies or so tells the truth So when I listen to your channel, it helps me to Kind of understand Where I just don't have to go through too far into my feelings with him Okay, so do you love him? Yes or no? Yes, very much. Okay. So are you ready for some tough love? Yeah, yeah, I mean are you sure this is Christmas, you know, I'm gonna be I'm gonna be the Grinch for a moment. Oh I'm I have a very very strong inner critic. So I'm yeah, I'm fine. Okay, you haven't strong inner critic But do you have thick skin? No, I don't have thick skin. I like to make I like I'm a composer I'm a scientist too, but but it's okay. It just means that you're gonna handle the criticism I'm gonna give you so first off you are in what's known as Artificial intimacy with this man you haven't physically met him connected with him So when you say you have all these feelings These are false feelings because they're not based on any real time spent together as I say Last year we did spend a lot of time together Last year was 365 days ago when last year because you just said you okay So you got married in April to somebody. No, I'm not thinking about my ex-husband not anymore. Wait, wait You just told me you're married Yeah, you said you you got married in April and you're still married It's it it was not a conventional marriage. We never met in person. I'm gonna have an annulled Preferably if not divorced. Okay, so wait, wait, see okay, let me be clear here. Yeah Uh Wait, Gigi My cousin world would be a boring place without her. Okay, so let me be clear Yeah, you you married a man That you never met Yeah, we had communication in prison No, no, he's a worker. Okay, so where does he live? Well, right now he lives in Dubai. I don't want anything to do with him though Okay, so how did you two physically get married? Oh We went to um, I Used distant marriage calm and we had our ceremony Yeah, it was nice. Oh my god. This is news to me. Oh my god Yeah, okay so What was the last time you got laid? Mmm That was like four years ago with my A boyfriend that I had and we we're gonna live together, but we didn't we live that Sorry, but sometimes you just can't make this shit up. I mean you need to be on a reality show really You know what I can't give you conventional advice because what you're doing is Most likely there is an emotional wound within you that makes you gravitate to relationships that are are really almost fantasy type relationships and Highly recommend that you see a Psychologist a psychiatrist a therapist and really work on your stuff because I suspect you are really just Living most likely in some sort of delusional state because of your choice. These are purely based on the choices And the way you've communicated in previous messages. I'm not saying this I'm not a professional mental health professional, but I would say I'm gonna say everybody else would most likely agree with me. You highly need to seek somebody for professional care Yeah, because of your choices But then again, you know what who am I to say you can't live in the delusion? Okay? That's the thing. I'm only giving you the advice. I would give somebody I know But whom I to judge your choices, so I'm not here to judge it, but I'm here to say you're going down rabbit holes that aren't going anywhere Okay, I like that. Um, the three of my Deepest relationships were people that had bipolar Schizophrenia and some other type of delusion. Let me ask you a question. What's the definition of insanity? Doing things over and over again and Change No doing the same thing over and over again So you literally said I have a habit of choosing bipolar schizophrenic this that so maybe make new choices And maybe have relationship dated maybe date face-to-face for a while So you can determine this stuff a lot sooner rather than later That's that's a thing. It's just that since I still have feelings for my cousin I'm thinking of just letting things pass Yeah Okay, if I go to another relationship another I might just Yeah, I want to give other people a chance to jump in I've given you my recommendation I'm sending you off with a big gigantic Jonathan bear hug I'm wishing you a better 2024 and I truly hope you go seek medical attention Because it is clear to most likely me and everyone else watching you probably need a bit of love from a professional, okay? Uh-huh, okay. Thank you. I have G. Uh general anxiety disorder. That's what my doctor said. Okay. Well work on that Well, you know Cecilia has been following me for quite some time she posts comments on a regular basis I think it takes a lot of bravery to join us live. So we got to give her a lot of props for that So let's give her some props a few people think she's cute, but I also think She's she's a perfect example of people that live in a a world in their head and not really