 Hello hello, I'm feeling much better today. I just feel rested Like I got up this morning and I have energy I got up around nine because I went to bed around three because I was editing the vlog And I was kind of almost like three days behind so I'm pushing to do another one This evening and then have another one ready to go by tomorrow morning And then I should be caught up completely Anyway, so I'm feeling better today, which is awesome. It's great. I love it I am getting ready to go to the gym It's time to do back today, and then I'm gonna try to hit a bunch of errands while I'm out. I gotta go to the bank Pick up some groceries and then yeah practice posing all of that good stuff, and then I'll be back I don't have a whole lot scheduled today So this is gonna be a good day for me to catch up and just get a lot of stuff done That's just been kind of like sitting around. I have a huge pile of papers right here that just I've been avoiding for a long time All this I gotta get through all that stuff. All right Time's a waste, and let's go one of the unfortunate side effects of this extreme dieting and what I'm doing is Vertigo I get bouts of like Vertigo and dizziness here and there When I don't have my meal exactly what I'm supposed to and I'm just experiencing that right now, so feeling very Dizzy vertigo E right now, and I realized oh I didn't have my lunch yet So I need to have lunch real quick and take care of that, and then I'll be all right All right, so I'm attempting to cook as fast as I can right now The nausea has led. I mean well Rewind the vertigo has turned into nausea and a very acute painful headache, so I Need food in my body My potatoes are ready to go. I just need to heat them up Just do the broccoli and chop that up and this beef will be done in a couple minutes And then I'll be able to start Scarping down some food. It's my mistake. I should have been eating like an hour and a half ago But I just got caught up, and here we are. I won't let that happen again Pretty pretty pretty awful and miserable right now. Yeah, I'm just trying to push through it and focus You know part of the part of the difficulty is I'm pushing really hard right now because I have to in this last week and a half two weeks because of that You know a couple week period where I was at the conference, and I couldn't eat on diet And then after that I got laid off, and then I was like just down, so I wasn't doing anything diet-wise and That caused me to get behind on my schedule for Getting ready to compete and because I'm behind, well now I have to diet harder in these last two weeks And that's just making the whole experience way more difficult So that's just a product of the situation. You got to do what you got to do If you want to get to where you want to go I almost hesitate to share all the stuff with you guys because I have so many people in my life especially you know like close close friends loved ones and stuff who all worry about me especially at this time and all of that and I just know that When you guys see this you all are gonna get worried and Yeah, but you know I Know my body. I know I'm pushing it to its limit, but it's only temporary That is the name of the game especially when you're natural you don't have like all those extra things to like help you lose weight faster and You know testosterone to help you hold on to muscle more, so it's just becomes a trickier game But I would rather that than have to deal with the consequences of injecting myself with all these performance enhancing drugs they have God knows what kind of Consequences over time to my health and my body. I'll be back