 So I've just had a flashback episode. It was just one flashback after another. I used my anxiety rabbit to calm me down because of the ears. This is a little bunny's a life saver. I do have two of them But one hasn't got a magnet in its hand. PTSD sucks So you're probably wondering why I got a cup of milk. I got a cup of milk because it's already it's really cold on my mouth. It's way of grounding myself after having an episode I'm still really shaking from the episode that I had. I haven't won that badge in a while. I have nightmares every night But I can live with that. PTSD is just hard to live with and I wish I could explain why it's so hard But I don't know how to do it. Hey, what's up you guys? Welcome back to my channel. If you're new here Hi, hello, I'm Lidia, and if you are new here, make sure you hit the subscribe button during the morning Come on, turn notifications on and make sure you hit the thumbs up button because it really helps me out. Today I wanted to talk about PTSD It's obvious to go hard about PTSD, flashbacks, and nightmares There are two main horrible parts of PTSD But there are a lot of parts that are also bad. It comes to PTSD Dissociation Panic attacks Insomnia PTSD is a horrible diagnosis and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. In the beginning of the video you saw an aftermath of a panic attack caused by a flashback When I have flashbacks in the day They affect me in so many ways. I Can't move. I Feel like I'm stuck. But it's partly why I spend so much time in bed Because I just don't feel able to do anything If I have flashback or freezer PTSD is just a hard diagnosis to deal with And I've never done trauma therapy I've done self-help trauma therapy I've done self-help therapy PTSD, but I've never had therapy for it Because I've always been too unstable. I think I'm at a point in my life now where I need To do therapy for it because It's taken over my life. I hate it when I dissociate as well When I dissociate I dissociate from everything My body doesn't feel like it's mine Things move into shapes Shapes change. So say this rectangle wall It's just quite cool by the way, but if it's in every other bag It's just the cool science But when I see things like the wall ball and it changes shape When I dissociate it is hard to function Dissociation is one thing that I struggle to Deal with Again, I've never had any support and dealing with it I've just been left on my own to deal with it. The only support I've ever had with it is when I've been in hospital Flashbacks, why are they hard? I think it's pretty obvious why they're hard to do flashback. You're going back to a traumatic event You don't want to go back to What the fuck was I talking about? Thanks for watching I guess. See you in my next video. Peace