 Hello everybody, sorry for the mic tap on YouTube. Didn't realize that it was switched on. How are you guys doing today? It's been quite a chill week for me, not gonna lie. I haven't really been doing very very much of anything. I didn't really talk about it much in my social media this time, but I had a bit of a dip this week. So I've been trying to take a little bit of a step back, take some time to chill. It's also very very... I'm also quite in an excited mood because for any of you who don't know I do play a game called Rinscape and they've recently released this kind of limited game mode which I've just been chilling, playing in the evenings. It's been pretty fun, it's called Leagues. And after we do this weekly Q&A that I usually do, where we talk about autism, mental health and stuff, I will be going live to stream some of that at some point, so it's gonna be kind of an opportunity to kind of sit back and chill on a Friday evening but also perhaps talk about some autism related things. Hello Angela, it's nice to see you, hope you're doing well too. Dr. Melody Garcia says your content is very helpful, thank you very much. So if you guys haven't been to one of these live streams before, it's basically hinged on the questions that you guys have for me. If you have anything that's burning questions about autism, mental health, self-improvement, fitness that you want to ask me, this is the place to do it. And I do go live every week to do an hour of this, so you've got me for an hour. Go ahead and ask me any questions that are on your mind. Hello Victorious Spirit, how are you doing? And Joshua G, how's it going, our hydration minder for the chat? Let's go, we're all staying hydrated with some water. I do have some beverage here, which is iced tea. Hello Miriam, how are you doing? Welcome to the stream. So I'm probably just going to chill back, I'm going to try and get some things sorted during the stream so that I can go live playing a bit of Reanscape later. Probably going to want my drinking. It is a sneak sort of powder. It's like an energy drink basically, but it's in powdered form. And I do talk about it a lot and I'm not sponsored by them. I would love to be, but the reason why I drink it is because the meds that I'm on are quite sedative and so I feel quite sleepy during the day. So getting some caffeine in is helpful for me to be semi-productive in my sedated state. But also it's got alfionine in which is a natural compound that you can find in green tea. And it really helps with reducing the jitters and anxiety that you can feel from that. Fagi, how are you doing? Welcome back. Hello, Dean. Hello. Angela says it's been a stressful week. Happy it's the weekend so I can recharge myself. Indeed, indeed. I actually do have something exciting that's going on on the weekend. I did a podcast with a content creator, a music artist called No Tricks. We were talking about dissociative identity disorder. It was a really, really interesting podcast if you haven't seen it already. Basically they're coming to the UK to do a tour. Them and the neurodivergent crew. So I'm going to be going to see them in Manchester on the weekends. They gave me some VIP backstage tickets so I'm quite excited. I don't usually go to concerts because I do find it to be quite overwhelming a lot of the time. But I do enjoy the music. The amount of people in my vicinity. I can find that a little bit too hard sometimes. So it should be really cool. It should be really fun. Always have a magic society answer. I hope you're feeling well and are well. I'm not doing too bad. Thank you very much. So yeah, please go ahead. Ask some questions. No wrong questions. If I don't like a question I just want to answer it. So don't feel like you have to moderate yourself too much. This is an open space to chat about things. Hello Miser Mill. Welcome to the stream. Hello Abbey. One, two, nine, nine, three. How are you doing? Come on guys, let's get some questions in. So we can get started. While I'm waiting for some questions I will tell you a little bit about what is to come on the stream. Usually I do some reaction videos on my streams which I will be doing either on Sunday or next Monday. But tonight we're going to be doing some runescape. This is going to be nice and fun. Playing a bit of leagues. Doing some tasks. Should be pretty fun. Nice chill way to end up the weekends. The week rather. Hi Autistic Superman. What do you listen to when you work out? Probably not something that most people would listen to. I like listening to dark trap when I work out. Or some really dark based EDM. To get pumped. Although to be honest this week I have been taking a little bit of a break off from the gym. Not really enjoying it as much as of late for some reason. I don't know why. So I thought I'd give myself my brain a little bit of a break rather than my body. I think my body could use a break as well to be honest. Because I have been going pretty hard at it. But yeah I've been listening to some quite chilled music. I think like the past couple of times I went. And the drink in it is a sneak peach iced tea flavoured. It's pretty nice. It's not the most exciting flavour in the world to have the beverages. But it's a lot easier to drink. Because a lot of the other powders that you can get are very sweet. Which is nice sometimes. But if I'm drinking 500ml of sweet drink twice a day. It can be quite a little bit too much even for me. I've got one from Dr Melody Garcia who asks How do you manage coming out from meltdowns? There's someone I love going through learning symptoms of a meltdown. But coming out of it. Yeah I assume you're talking about the time afterwards. I don't know if it's definitely like my own understanding of meltdowns. But every time I have had one that's pretty intense. I tend to have a cool down period after. Anywhere from a few hours to a couple of days. Where I can find it quite difficult to... I usually feel quite relaxed because when you go through a meltdown. It's like you pretty much empty all of your emotional tanks. And so after that meltdown it can sometimes be quite like... Because sometimes I feel quite chill. But my brain is just not there. And the dissociation is very very sort of heavy. So I characterize it as like the meltdown hangover. Because it very much does feel like a hangover from my experience. Where sensory sensitivities can be a lot higher. Your executive function can be a little bit more lower than usual I would say. Your social battery tends to be a little bit flatter. When you come out of a meltdown. I would say that try and rest as much as possible. You don't have to do nothing. You can take a sick day or anything. But you can very drastically reduce the amount of things that you're doing afterwards. I highly recommend trying to do that. I don't know. There's not really much else that you can do. Other than sort of rest for maybe the rest of the day or the next day or something. Just to come out of it. Well, I hope that's somewhat helpful. Questions about what if I may ask. Just pop by. Questions about autism, mental health, fitness, self-improvement. Anything that you can really think of. Personal questions either. I'm happy to answer. Not all of them, of course. But some of them, sure. So go for it, yeah. Is green tea not literally green then? This is not green tea. This is peach iced tea. And it's not peach iced tea. It's actually a powdered energy drink that has peach iced flavored. That's why it's that color. Do you get jittery during the day when starting gym? Jittery during the day. I'd say that if I'm consistently going to the gym for a long period of time, it tends to reduce my anxiety in general. If it's kind of your first time going and you're finding it quite difficult, then obviously it might spark up a little cortisol spike, some adrenaline about going into sort of a new place and doing something that you perceive as difficult. So I can imagine that you might get some jitters in the instant. But overall, sort of looking long term definitely helps go into the gym 100%. It's one of the reasons why I go actually, why I continue to have some form of sport or exercise as part of my daily life. It really helps with your mental health. How is your self-esteem right now? Slash usually. And do you have ADHD? I don't have ADHD. My self-esteem is actually not too bad. I'd say it's probably similar to usual. You appreciate me. Thank you very much. Hello, G&E. How are you doing? I'm getting regular burnouts at the moment. I'm sorry to hear that. Sorry to hear that. Miriam says, I was wondering if you had any thoughts around the connection to and differences between autism and highly sensitive people? Good question. I have been talking to my friend who had the characterization of being a highly sensitive person. I think I'm right in thinking that it's not necessarily a formal diagnosis and it's more of a characterization that some psychologists may point to. I'd say that it's a good way of grouping people together based on their experiences, behaviors and personality traits. I do think there's a lot of stuff just from loosely reading about HSP. It's not very defined and I feel like a lot of things cross over quite heavily with autism, neurodiversity, particularly social anxiety and anxiety. There tends to be a lot of crossovers from what I've seen. Hello, can you explain what HSPs are? You're a highly sensitive person, I believe. I hope that's helped. I don't really know much about it, but I'd say that there could very well be some crossovers because it's not necessarily that kind of... at least I think. Let me check. HSP. What is a HSP? A highly sensitive person is a neurodivergent individual who has thought of increased or deeper central nervous system sensitivities, physical, emotional and social stimuli. Yeah, that sounds pretty similar to the old autism in a lot of ways. Yeah, I think there's probably going to be some crossover. So it says, how do you know if you're a HSP? This is from verywellmind.com. This is the first thing that I've looked at. Avoiding violent movies and TV shows deeply moved by beauty being overwhelmed by sensory stimuli. Feeling a need for downtime. Need to retreat. Having a rich and complex and alive deep thoughts and strong feelings. Yeah, I'd say that it's kind of like a less autism geared version of autism. I don't know. A lot of this stuff that seems to be talked about in terms of HSP tends to, you know, when I read it, if it didn't have HSP and it instead said autism, it would be pretty similar, I'd say. I hope that's somewhat helpful. You bought a soda stream and love them. Awesome. I tried soda stream ones, but I just couldn't handle like the, what's the word, like the carbonation of it. It just didn't really suit me very well. Oh, so highly sensitive person is the same as sensory processing sensitivity? I thought there was a little bit more to HSP than just the sensory aspect of it. Interesting. Thank you for your transparency. It helps us near-typicals. I can't stand labels, by the way. Helping understand and not mislabel. And also, I can adjust with the ones we love. Well, thank you very much, Dr. Melody. How much appreciated. No, I hope that when I use the term near-typicals or I say non-autistic people, that it's not being taken as like too much of a negative, because I'm very aware of that. And I really don't want it to come across that way, because, you know, I have a lot of near-typical, what I would consider, near-typical individuals in my life, both within my family and my friends. And I've dated near-typicals as well. I've got nothing against people who aren't autistic, just putting that out there. Because I feel like that's some of the conclusions that some people might draw from reading about my content. The thing is that, you know, there are a lot of things that autistic people struggle in life with, and a lot of those things tend to be from other people, usually from people who don't really understand us, who tend not to be autistic. That's why perhaps I might talk about it a little bit more negatively in the context of autism, perhaps. But there's no hard feelings or hate at all. I mean, just as with autism, you can't really decide to be autistic. You can't really decide to be near-typical. I'm not gonna like hate on a specific group for no discernible reason. Matias says, tips on how to unmask and be your best version. I won't stop looking for autism info because I get obsessed for it. Can you say the ultimate tip to have a better, to better understand myself and life? Wow. A big top tip. Goddamn, let's... I mean, I could stretch to give some sort of general advice, but that would just be for everybody. I wouldn't say that is necessarily to do with autism. I'd say that the best piece of advice is to notice things that are going badly or that are difficult in your life and take some steps in order to mitigate how difficult it is or in order to start something. I'd say that that's probably the best piece of general advice that I could put across when it comes to autism because everybody does differ a lot and has different needs, different sensory sensitivities, so you've got to try and figure out what are these things that are causing me stress? What are things that are my good at? Try and reduce the amount of negative things. Try and increase the amount of positive things. Will DM you in a trimedia platform and would love to have you as a guest an article you are a blessing to many? Of course, Dr Melody, that sounds great. I'd love to. I'm not sure if my question went through. I have to go soon. I'll check your question always. Magic, I've got it. From the spectrum, how do you manage and deal with situations to overcome, move forward and feel inspired on life, being in the spectrum for literally causes my levels of depression to be usually high? Yeah, I mean, I think the main cause of a lot of difficulties that autistic people have generally come from mental health. I would say there is a really big crossover there. We do experience disproportionate amounts of negative life events. We tend to live a bit shorter. We tend to struggle with employment. Let me just check the question again. How do you manage to overcome? I think it's just a willingness to step outside the norm a little bit when it comes to moving forward with things. You get told a lot from other people how you should be doing things, what you should be focusing on, what you struggle with, what you're better at. It doesn't really give you the opportunity to really find what is good for you. Quite often the best path for an autistic person might look a lot different than perhaps how a lot of other people might live their life. Some people might just want to get a good, stable job, go out on the weekends, perhaps, and start a family. That might be something that a lot of people want. It could be similar, but it could just be little differences. It could be, perhaps, instead of moving in with your partner, you could have separate houses and you could see each other or you could have separate bedrooms. In terms of the workplace, it could be that perhaps you don't work as much and you try and get some benefits alongside that and you contribute to society in whatever way seems good for you and that you can do consistently. I'd say it's just about you have to have a lot of, I guess, personal strength and independence in your brain, which I don't think a lot of autistic people lack, but you definitely have to craft your own path. It's not going to be as easy to find the best path, I guess. I don't know if I'm explaining that very well. It's a lot of good questions. My spurs just tends to elevate my depression on top of the life I was born in. I wouldn't say that being autistic necessarily makes mental health worse, although if you don't have an environment and a schedule and you're life-crafted that suits you, then it'll obviously make life a little bit more difficult and as well, like just the crossover in mental health and autism, a lot of the symptoms particularly for me that come up when I'm having a low mental health period might be a lot different to perhaps a neurotypicals. You know, my executive functioning drops, my sensory sensitivity goes up. I'm even more wanting to isolate and be by myself than perhaps other people. So it's just about, it's different. Experiencing mental health is different for us and it can look differently and it's also a lot more likely. But I wouldn't say that autism necessarily makes mental health worse. I'd say that being autistic can put you at a high likelihood of experiencing mental health problems, I would say. Not necessarily just inherently, like biologically either. No worries at all. I hope that's helped. I hate carbonated drinks. Find it hard to drink flat water? Yeah, flat water, it just, it gives me a bit of a stomach ache. I'm not sure what it is necessarily about it but I find that every time that I do drink water I do get a bit of a stomach ache. Kayla says I have become so into autism and ADHD and my husband swears I'm obsessed and he's very annoyed when I speak about it but I'm not diagnosed yet. Yeah. I think some people have got annoyed with me when I was just starting, because I was diagnosed when I was 10 but I only really started getting into understanding the experiences and some of the more complex kind of literature around autism. And yeah, I mean if people don't really understand it and they just think it's kind of, a lot of people will say oh it's just kind of one of your, you're just obsessed with it. Like you're not actually autistic, it doesn't make any sense because they don't necessarily understand it very well because they haven't delved into it as much as perhaps you have. But I'd say that if you are struggling with that currently once you have done a bit more reading and research into it then people will learn to sort of accept that part of yourself. I guess. My mother doesn't want me to talk about autism. Sweet and tender hooligan, it seems like you've changed your name. Honest question, please don't take offense but if you had to see the brain scan test and it came back negative for autism what would your reaction be? I think it would be pretty surprising just considering how stereotypically autistic I was when I was younger. I'd say that it's pretty low possibility that I'm not autistic. Wait, it's pretty high possibility that I am autistic. Low that I'm not, just at this stage. Like my behaviors, my presentation when I was younger was just so very, very clear that I was autistic. And even going into teenage I would say the same as well. There is apparently a definitive test for autism. Yep, you can get a brain scan done, 100%. Yeah, got diagnosed with autism but is there a possibility that I am not? Now I'm truly convinced scan test for truly knowing. I wouldn't worry about that too much, Matthias. We do tend to have something that comes up for a lot of autistic people is this idea of imposter syndrome. If you were diagnosed I would just leave it be like that and just kind of learn to accept it and maybe try and process and deal with those feelings and worries that you aren't autistic and that you have been sort of misdiagnosed. A lot of people do experience a lot of imposter syndrome including myself. So just, yeah. I mean obviously like if you are 100% sort of doubting whether you are autistic or not it's not a bad idea to get another professional's opinion. Perhaps do a bit more research into it but if you have been diagnosed I would try and just accept that. I guess. Kayla says the best advice I heard was that all autistic people don't wonder if they are autistic. Yeah, I mean I don't know if that necessarily holds true because I do know a lot of individuals who are ADHD who, you know, there is a high likelihood that they may be autistic as well. They would be considered to be autistic. And also like I would say that there is quite a bit of crossover when it comes to OCD and social anxiety, generalized anxiety disorder. So, you know, with anything that has such a large crossover like that you know, it's possible that people might come across autism and sort of not actually, I guess, they can still question it, I would say. I wouldn't say that that's necessarily, like, as soon as you think about maybe being autistic, considering it, relating to some of the things then you are autistic. I think you do need to do a bit more digging than that, if that makes sense. Definitely makes sense, I like the works about crafting your own path. What you said about your own path, yeah. Yeah, it's important. If you want to get the most out of life, you want to feel, you want to mitigate some of the difficulties that you may have. You want to try and amplify the things that you're good at, 100%. Like, I'd say the same for everybody, but it's just with autistic people we do just need to usually quite do it independently. The reason why I talk about that, sort of crafting your own life path so much is because we often don't get a lot of people telling us that. We do need a bit of sort of outside, like, you know, you can do that and you can change things for the better for yourself. My husband also swears I can't be autistic, yeah. Well, it's, I mean, does your husband, like, have a lot of knowledge about autism other than, you know, watching the odd movie and TV show and perhaps learning a little bit in, like, psychology class in high school. I'm making a lot of assumptions there, but I'm just wondering, like, whether you should, because if they're, like, into psychology and they have looked into it themselves and all that, then I would perhaps consider their approach a little bit, consider their opinion a little bit more. But if they've got no idea about it, then, you know, you definitely do know more about it than them. You can make a better decision. Is a brain scan thing a thing in the U.S.? It's not a standardized way of diagnosing people, so I'd say, like, you could probably much get it anywhere that you can get brain scans. You just got to pay for it. Irene says, oh yeah, I have an extreme and general anxiety disorder. Relate. My husband doesn't acknowledge a chance that I might be autistic either. You too, Irene. I was always gifted whenever they called it in school. No, he knows nothing. Yeah, it was... It's a common feeling, a common reaction that we can get. It doesn't necessarily have to be partners either. It could be parents or teachers or friends or anyone, really. They have this idea of what autism is in their head and they compare you to that idea of what autism is and say, like, oh, can't be autistic. Stigmos and stereotypes. They have a big input on people's perceptions, I would say. Dr. Melody says, does the need to have a family, marriage and kids, magnify when surrounded by that environment? So one I know went from not designed to being married and having kids as a mirror need. I'm not sure I know exactly what you're asking, Melody. Jenny says, I got divorced after unmasking. It is hard in the beginning, but as you go on, it is better to be yourself, finally. I'm sorry to hear that. That is also one of the downsides of realizing your true self. Some people might not like your true self and that's just, you know, whenever you make large changes in yourself or your life, the people sort of within that life are obviously going to have some positive and negative reactions depending on who they are. You know, you've got to think about that. It is a really big downside, I would say, to try and to unmask fully because, you know, there's so much stuff, you've got to understand it and be able to communicate it yourself, but then you've got to be able to help other people understand and then help people accept you and then help people understand what unmasking is and what masking is and then just like, yeah, so it's all a complicated thing. I wish that when people were looking into autism that the people around them, their partners would do just a little bit of research into it. You know, it's definitely a very good move when it comes to overall mental health, I would say. You know, developing your sort of maintaining a stable self-identity as well. It's important. I'm sorry to hear that, Jeannie. That's awful. Whereabouts from the UK are from? From the north. North of England. England. Ask of erotistics, they most likely won't know if you are or not. Yeah, I mean, I'd say get a consensus from multiple people if possible. Try and talk to a professional who, you know, you see actually has some leg in the autistic community. I don't know what the right term of phrase is, but they have some awareness of the socio-political aspect of it and also they have some experiential knowledge as well as their medical kind of scientific knowledge, some practical experience as well. Talking to someone like that is really important. One person that I would highlight if you are trying to figure out oh, how can I find someone like this? Dr. Megan Neff from Neurydivergent Insights would be a good example for someone to talk to about this kind of thing. And also, you know, as well as professionals, obviously talking to over-autistic people, I'd say if you can, video call them or they'll meet them in person when you're talking about this stuff because then perhaps they'll have a little bit more of a gauge on your indirect communication, you know. And as well as that, so you've got the professionals, you've got over-autistic people and creators, and you know, try and comment, join live streams, you know, ask questions, figure out as much as you can and get a good sort of wide understanding, not just from me, go seek counsel from other people, try and learn from other people's experiences as well. I think that's the best way of doing it. So with everything anyway, like, going for one person for everything is always going to... not necessarily like... be the best for you, you want to take little pieces from everybody, see what works for you, you know, 100%. Luna says in the UK, is there schools for just people on the spectrum? We do have what's called an SEND school, special educational needs and disabilities. We have those schools in the UK, which are specifically for children who are autistic or perhaps have some difficulty with integration, perhaps having some learning disabilities, perhaps having other sort of physical disabilities. We have schools specifically for those people. Yeah, I used to work in a couple actually. I went to mainstream as well, sort of as and when, sort of supporting individuals within the mainstream system. No need to be sorry, finally I learned to be myself and I love myself. Great, good. Planning on moving us to a tech city in the middle of nowhere. I could protect it. I'm at the point in the stream where I'm losing track of messages, so I apologise if I'm not being the best. I love this song. I did promise last time that I would post my songs, I did post a link on my Instagram for you to listen to my music. I'm just listening to a song called, This Is For You from Long Lost. Very beautiful song. I like to listen to a bit of music while I'm doing these streams. I've been to North England, Manchester, York, even up in Scotland. Yeah, I'm very near to York. I'm actually going to Manchester this weekend. I have said this already but I am going to Manchester this weekend to a concert from a person that I did a podcast with called No Tricks, like a dark trap artist. I'm going to get some VIP tickets. Go see the concert in a very comfortable place, which should be really cool. Really fun. I forget he says that a few people when I've met them have asked me if I'm on the spectrum. I still don't understand how they knew. It's the Spectar, it's the autism radar kicking in. Kayla says that I think my husband was more worried about it, meaning that a son might have it too. I understand that. Which is weird to me because diagnosed or not, that does not mean that it's not there. Yeah, and also the thing is that even if your son is or isn't autistic, they're still your son. If your son is autistic, that is your son. If they're not autistic, that is your son. I suppose if anything, it should be just a pointer to just think a little bit more or maybe try and notice a few more of the signs, catch it a little bit earlier so that you can get some support in place. To help them in various sort of areas. Love.tonf, yeah, me too. I'm like a fanboy. Fagi says I told a co-worker I was getting tested for autism and they just shrugged and said that makes a lot of sense. Have you heard of the autism psychedelic community? It's a thing I have indeed. I did try to get their founder onto a podcast but they haven't really been the best with replying to me. I did want to interview them about that because I thought it would be quite interesting. I've done a lot of research into the aspects of science. I do find that there's a lot of frontline treatments which do use psychedelics which have been shown to be quite effective in a number of different ways. It's always a really interesting topic. It would be nice to hear about some of the positive impacts that it can have for autistic people too. I wear headphones almost 24-7, me too. Well, these things. My friend thought of an only fan's name for you. Nasty Aspie. Oh no, that would not be my name if that was to happen. I think it'd probably be naughty-aughty. It's not happening. Don't get your hopes up. Advances and disadvantages of an autistic versus autistic brain I want to know how to unlock my full potential. If you do, go watch some of my videos that I made. I've got quite a lot of content out there and also some posts on Instagram which I think you'd find quite useful. I have three beautiful children and I want to change them for anything. That's lovely to hear. Much better if it rhymes. God damn it. Oh my God. Yeah, that's not a trend that I'm going to be jumping on anytime soon. I'm a very private person in some respects. Kayla says, Can anyone explain the social anxiety part of autism? I only relate to how people describe it, how they feel after encounters. I worry about what I said for like weeks. I'd say that feeling of paranoia and sort of difference. I feel like a lot of the social anxiety that comes across is more of a result of negative social interactions that we have. If you have a lot of social interactions which go badly, you're obviously going to be a lot more negatively biased or negatively focused when it comes to social interaction. And if you're expecting negative things to happen when you go and talk to somebody, you're obviously going to feel a lot of anxiety. There's a lot of mystery as well, especially when interacting with allistic individuals whereby, oh, am I actually picking up all of the information that this person's trying to get across? Do I understand everything properly? Am I communicating in a way that's being understood? Am I perhaps appearing to be a certain way that I want to appear as or not? You know, there's a lot of that kind of internal processing that goes on. And then combine that with the sensory difficulties of certain environments that you can go to to socialize, then it definitely, you know, there's definitely a very strong crossover there, 100%. Glad to see you're staying hydrated, Thomas. Thank you very much. I'm trying, you know, I got a drink specifically to go and do this live. Let me just check, how long have I been... Okay, so we got just over 15 minutes left of this live, and I do want to highlight that once we are done with this, I'm going to take a quick break, have some food, and then we're going to do another live. We're just going to stream some RuneScape. We're going to do that tonight. On the weekend, Sunday, and maybe on Monday I will be going live as well. I'm working on a video that I was hoping to get out this week, but my brain's just not been having it. So hopefully that new video will be out next week, which I'm going to be talking about relationships with autistic people as an autistic person, which I think is going to be a really interesting video to cover. Well, it was an interesting topic to cover when I was recording it. Something that I think someone asked me for on the live, so just keep that in mind, guys. Like, if you have any suggestions that you want me to do, and I'm like, hey, that sounds like a good idea, there is a very real possibility that I'll turn it into a video, or do a live on it, or watch a video, or some things like that, any suggestions. Thank you very much to Angela for joining the Autie Legion. It's nice to have you as a member, Angela. You've been a part of these lives for quite a while now, so it's nice, much appreciated. I've just been, like, afk-ing some, some thieving on my RuneScape game. I've just hit 99 in thieving by basically doing nothing, which is lovely. Hello, Stalyn, how are you doing? I'm sorry that you're struggling at the moment, but maybe try and contact one of your GPs, someone local, to talk about it. I understand what it can be like to be in that place. You've got to keep yourself safe, you know. I hope you're doing okay. Stay strong, you know. Good afternoon, very much. Appreciate your content from MontanaUSA. Hello, Montana Medic. I think about things I said five or six years ago. I used to do that. I think sometimes, like, now and again, there'll be one thing in my head that I'm like, man, that was an embarrassing situation. I really wish that didn't pan out that way, but overall, I just tend to kind of let bygones be bygones, you know, naughty-aughty. Okay, and now we're on the topic of sort of having different names. I'm just thinking about what my fighter name would be if I ever got back into martial arts. I think probably the best one to go for is the autistic, ballistic, you know, because they've got strong, fast kicks, punches and all that. What do you think? You're doing good today. RuneScape.ai, indeedy. So many things to focus and analyze. I like to stay home. It's better. Yeah, well, you've got to keep the... You've got to keep a balance, you know? I think if I stay a lot of the time indoors, my anxiety tends to be a bit better, but my mood tends to drop, so I need to keep some level of light going out into the world, socializing with people. Just to keep my brain right, you know? It's a balance. It's a balance. What is everyone doing for Thanksgiving? I don't celebrate Thanksgiving, sadly. But I will be celebrating Christmas. Hey. Nice lots of live streams indeed. Yeah, we're going to be chilling tonight. It's going to be good. I actually don't have any Thanksgiving plans. First life here is great. Thanks, no worries either. Nice to have you on. You love that name? If I was a fighter, I'd probably just be Rene Beanie. Sounds like a wrestler name, yeah. But come on, come on, autistic ballistic. Like an autism missile. Yeah, we don't celebrate it in the UK. That's true. Can't remember the last time I left the house. You should probably leave the house, it would say, if you can. I did have some experiences when I was at university with agrophobia. I don't know if any of you have experienced that. It's basically a fear of large open spaces. It's like going outside. How do you measure your social life? What do you mean? As a fighter, I'd be the Ractal. Super move is a burnout, yeah. Trying to figure out what's my special power going to be. I'm thinking like a street fighter character. You know, if I'm standing there just like bouncing, you've gone on to the autistic ballistic. What's the autistic ballistic special move? Burnout. Burnout could be like the altered state of power. You know, like I've powered up. I'm like in burnout mode. So I'm going into autistic burnout. There's like a one or two minute span of just like increased power. But then after it drops. Or like I could have a power called meltdown. Which just, you know, I've burned through all my energy in like one kind of final attack. Maybe. So funny. You're in my world now. Oh my God, you guys are hilarious. Oh, you've tickled me with that. That's like your nitro. Yeah. Start overload. Overload mode out of control. Yeah. I do huge reboot naps like 12 to 14 hours and one afternoon and a whole night when I'm exhausted from masking over one it helps me with my anxiety. Wow, that is a long time. Do you have some like chronic energy disorder? Was like chronic fatigue? Because it sounds very similar to that. I think if I slept normally I would be better. Yeah, I mean it's not always the case that the more sleep that you get the less tired you are. I think if you do sleep for like a long period of time you can get to a point where you become even more sleepy when you wake up. I know that that happens for me sometimes when it's been like a weekend and I just want to lay in bed and just kind of chill. I had quite a hard week. I do wake up and I'm quite sleepy and it's quite late and I'm like, wow, I want to go to bed soon. I have an autoimmune problem. Okay. I'm sorry to hear that. What kind of autoimmune? I don't answer if it's a bit too prime but I'm just interested. If you want to share. What's the fastest way to get your energy back? Rest. I would say. It depends on what type, in what context you're speaking about energy I suppose. You can't really rush rest. That's the issue of it. You just got to take as much as needed. Okay, peeps. We've got about seven minutes left. Say if you've got any questions about autism, fitness, mental health, relationships, personal things that you want to ask, please go ahead. Would be much appreciate. Mirren says a question around coping with loss or grief as an autistic person. I mean, I'd say that the main difficulty that comes in for me whenever I've been grieving is alexifimia can be quite a big thing in that case. Sometimes it can be hard to notice any differences in my mood. Whereas when it gets to a point where it's a little bit too much, then it kind of comes out of the blue and it just hits me and it really just destabilizes me quite a bit. I think there's a lot of things that I could mention in that sense. But I did do a post or at least a video, I think talking about grief. Yeah, I did a video on YouTube talking about grief. So it is quite a while ago. I can't really remember. I don't know. Thank you for your suggestion. We've been wondering if I have chronic fatigue. Could just be going through like a really, really big burnout. That could be another thing, possibly. Matias, you're asking a lot of questions. Could you ask one question for me to answer? One that you really, really want me to answer. I'm one passed away and I'm tired. Sorry to hear that, Stallion. Yeah, it's tough. I can get really tired with pain due to a spinal problem. It can be draining. Sorry to hear that. Kayla says it was very nice to make it to a live stream. Thank you very much for answering questions. You're very welcome in. I do this every week, so there's always opportunities to join again. And there will be also opportunities to ask more questions or just chat about general things later on when I do my RuneScape live. You're very welcome to ask questions then. A bird in Matias' photo is nice. I like birds. Pain is not quite as fun. No, I would second that. I was going to make a joke there. Yes, how to trust yourself and stop looking for autism info? How do you know what you are? That you are going on a good path? Even if you're not sure? I'd say that it's hard to always have a definitive kind of certain answer. Which is, I think, something that I've... I think with anything in life there is always going to be some areas that are a bit darker that you don't really understand very much or don't even know about. You just got to kind of go with things as they come to you. And try different things. See if some things that other people have suggested work and if they don't switch that out, try something else. It's a very much like kind of a long, over the time thing. If you really wanted to get some personal advice rather than sort of listening to general advice and experiences from other people, you know, book a call with somebody. Talk to someone and get them to support you with doing that. Alternatively, isolate and understand some difficulties that you have in life and seek to make improvements on them. I understand the need to kind of have this certain like, this is the best path to follow. I try very much to give as much information and sort of advice that I can do about living as an autistic person, but it's always going to be from my perspective, you know. And there are things that I find quite easy that other people find hard and vice versa. So my ideal life, the ideal support, the ideal things that I'm doing are obviously going to look a bit different, you know. So you can either do it yourself, you know, have a look at things that you find hard. Look at things that you find interesting in terms of work and perhaps hobbies and capitalise on as much as you can. Try and find ways to get around some of the difficulties that you have, I would say, you know, it's a very individual process. You can ask people for sort of general questions, but only you really know in this circumstance what you find hard and what you need, you know, and what's going to be like, what's going to be a good thing for you. It's just like I could say, okay, get yourself some therapy, you know. Start up your own business so you can do whatever you want to do. Make all the sensory adjustments in your house all good. Get a personal psychologist that can just help you dive into every single aspect of autism. But like, who is going to have the time and the funds to do that? I think it's, if you can do them, that's great. Great view. For a lot of people I think it's, you know, you just got to chip away at it in your own time. I hope that's helpful. I feel bad when I can't like fully give like a concrete sort of answer on these things, but it's a very complicated thing to do because everyone's so different. You know, you've got to be somewhat general with advice and, you know, things like that. I hope that's helpful. What's your drinking stick if you superpowers? It gives me the power of concentration and focus and perhaps blocks the, what do they call them? Is it adenosine? I think it's adenosine that builds up and makes you sleepy throughout the day. It blocks my adenosine pathways to allow me to stay wakeful for a long period of time. It's caffeine. Okay guys, we've hit the one hour mark. I'm going to go say goodbye. I hope you have enjoyed this live stream. If you have enjoyed it, please go ahead and give me a subscribe and a following YouTube so that you can be notified when I go live later tonight. If you've got any more questions that you want to ask that you'd find quite helpful to ask me, then please go ahead and come to that one. Or if you just want to chill, hang out, watch me play some video games. That is also something that's going to be fun. So indeed, I hope you guys have enjoyed this. Check out the YouTube and I'll see you in a bit. Bye guys. And to YouTube people, thank you very much. It's always lovely to have you on. And don't worry, I will be putting out some more videos at some point. And doing some more of my live stream eclipse stuff. Just got to stay a little bit slow this week, I would say. In my brain. 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