 What's up guys take down here with a different kind of video. I've made a video like this in the past But before we start I just wanted to make sure it's clear. This is not clickbait This is actually true We don't know a hundred percent of what was going through Chester's mind at the time and We don't know exactly Everything that took place. The whole reason I'm doing this video is because as you guys know, I'm a huge Lincoln Park fan Chester's death was Really kind of hard on me and for this past year. I've been listening to Lincoln Park every single day a day Hasn't gone by where I haven't listened to Any of their songs so Chester's wife recently at the January 31st This year's bell. Let's talk opened up about her husband's death more than any media could do and Has done in the past couple months. She explains as We already know as if you followed Lincoln Park or Chester over the past few years or Since the band started he's had struggled with addiction before drugs and alcohol He has attempted suicide before and It's it's always been a cycle with him with mental health. She mentioned I wasn't aware of this I never really looked up stuff about Chester Bennington before But she mentioned as a child Chester was abused Assaulted Didn't really go into detail about that but that ties in with his mental health. So that made a lot more sense to me I could understand a little bit more from that standpoint Leading up to his death He went into rehab. He checked himself into rehab He stayed into rehab for six months and for those six months. He was clean. He was sober But she didn't really specify is if While he was in there for those six months If that was when he was just sober Or if it was he was in there for six months in rehab and then six months after Leading up to his death. He was sober. That's the way I portrayed it You may see it may see her video. It's on YouTube now of Everything she had to say But that's kind of how I thought it is he was in rehab for six months and then after rehab six months Leading up to his death those six months. He was also sober. So that's the way I see it and Those six months after he got out of rehab and was with his family in that Of course promoting the new CD and he loved it. He felt He got his true emotions out in the new CD one more late, which it's a great album And I back up that statement a hundred percent because I think a lot of the emotions He was going through you could hear in a lot of the songs a lot of the different things He was going through even as a child past addiction there's a song where he talks about his addictions and and He said stuff to his wife that his wife wasn't aware of Stuff like he had a lot of guilt every time in the past when he relapsed that that's why it triggered all these suicidal thoughts and She wasn't aware of that at the time she did however mention that They thought they were past this they never thought they had to worry about you know Chester attempting suicide again because Back in I believe it was May of 2017 one of Chester's close friends committed suicide and She strongly believed that because Chester seen what his family had to go through what he went through what his friends went through what is The guys children went through That's he now knew He didn't want his children his family and his friends to go through that same pain as well but Before I continue there You never know really what somebody is going through only they truly know you can help them You can support them in as many ways as you can But at the end of the day you can't just assume because they've seen it happen to somebody else That that's why they're not going to commit suicide themselves That's just one statement. I just didn't agree with that. She said because Anything can happen whenever you have a mental illness Your mind plays tricks on you and that is what happened in Chester's case But anyways leading up to His death fast forward a little bit more Promoting the CD promoting one more lights In with fans doing more interviews and in a lot of interviews he said about his past addictions in that Which hundred percent makes sense. I back up everything that went on at the time Going forward Days maybe it was week or two before his death. He took his family his wife and kids To the cottage to a cabin and they were there that was their vacation at the time and He actually had to leave early. He was excited. He had to leave early He had to leave early because of work. He had to go promote the CD more do more stuff with the CD He was excited to do it It wasn't that he was all I have to leave the kids He was excited. He was happy of because what he was going to go do his family left him for that So he kisses wife goodbye kisses kids goodbye said he loved them and that's the last time they've Seen him again and you can tell in the interview not really an interview whenever she was speaking about it on let's talk She was really emotional and it felt true. It felt It felt kind of weird that she'd mentioned that but it is what it is Going forward she she explains getting the phone call Which is something anybody is going to remember for the rest of their life and It was something she was terrified because she didn't believe it could happen to them because she's seen her They they seen their friend passed away months ago They've seen that they thought they're moved past it. They thought rehab helps So what they had to do they're still on vacation when it happened it was a couple days after as soon as Chester went home is when he did it in their house and He This is getting harder for me to talk to because I'm just thinking about it and it's making me kind of emotional, but whenever they the kids and She took her kids home She wanted to be the first one in the house She wanted to be the first one in the room that it happened in and the reasons the reason for that She makes pretty clear is because she wanted to be at peace with it She didn't want it to be something that brought her down I don't know if they still live there if they plan on staying there me personally if I knew a family member Especially somebody that close passed away killed themselves in the home. I wouldn't be able to live in that home again I know that for sure But she wanted to make peace with it. She didn't want to break down in front of the kids She didn't want the kids to break down So she wanted to be the first one in there and she kind of explains What happened and we can just assume That this is what happened We'll never know 100% what Chester was thinking what he was going through what happened leading up to it but what she does is she paints a picture of what she assumes happened and it is the most Logical thing anybody has said media, you know media is not the greatest whenever somebody dies They have so many rumors of this happened this happened this happened But what she says is the room he died When they found him when he was found hung I believe he hung himself Maybe I shouldn't have said that because I can't remember But there was two empty beer bottles so that's why she tied into when she said about In the past when he relapsed he felt a lot of guilt and what she believes happened was He got home Whether or not the beer was already there. There was two empty beer bottles in the room when he died So he did drink he was Not drunk, but because he went to rehab. He was sober for so long. He relapsed again and whenever he He was drinking. He had the two beers We can say He felt a lot of guilt Behind it because in his mind he knew he relapsed again and instead of going through that continue to go through that He decided just to go and End his own life, which he did and She also goes on to say that if maybe if she would have known that guilt thing before She could have stopped it, but then she goes and she turns it. She's like It's something that you couldn't stop But what she does continue to go on to say is Something tells me Chester Knew what he was going to do or thought in the future He may kill himself or commit suicide Because what he had done is he made a separate fund in his will This is the odd part part that didn't 100% make sense to me. He had a partner in his will where Because he has kids with his current wife He had kids with his ex-wife and he had kids with his ex-girlfriend from a previous relationship So he has I want to say it's about five or six kids After his death he wanted to make sure they can all see each other They would continue to see each other for years and years and years So he made a separate fund in there. It's called the traveling fund. So his family his kids They don't have to worry because they live different places in the country They don't have to worry about expenses playing tickets and such to go and see each other. It's covered I kind of thought that was kind of weird. Why would Chester? Make this fund if he knew ahead of time or kind of thought And maybe his mental illness Maybe he knew one day it would get the better of him and he would do it. So that's my logic That's what I believe is it's just he knew someday something would happen. He would do it So that's why he wanted his kids to be able to see each other after it happened And it was kind of shocking but whatever I heard that That's why Chester died because I didn't understand at the time and a lot of fans probably felt this way is He just had a new CD come out. They're promoting it hardcore and Then kill yourself didn't make sense. So now that she brought out and Basically told people which I assume it's for the first time so I haven't heard anything about this until I seen Bell. Let's talk about Him feeling guilty that he just went and drank two beer and he's just relapsed after being sober for so long Checking himself in the rehab months ago That he just decided to end his life. So After hearing that made it a lot clearer Brought me with some closure because now I feel like I've had the closure and It's there I can move on even though I know it's a lot of people might watch this and go What do you mean? You didn't really lose anything I've struggled with mental illness before suicidal thoughts stuff like that. That's why I wanted to make this video I've made a video or two like this in the past explaining it now with my face on the camera, but That's why it was so hard when Chester passed away on me Especially the not knowing why like he like his songs Lincoln Park songs has helped me through so much losing Chester really hit hard to me So now that I have the closure It's easier for me but So I wanted to say this because that is the truth behind Chester's passing Not a hundred percent of the truth because you'll never know after somebody commits suicide and takes their own life What they're thinking what they've done what they're going through But his wife painted a better picture than anybody else has and I wanted to share that with my fans on my channel just in case anybody is going through anything now they can Kind of connects if Anybody is going through anything if you need somebody to talk to just know I'm always there I've been through it before I still struggle with it from time to time right now I'm happy as I have been my life, so I'm not struggling with it right now But if you are you need somebody to talk to message me on YouTube comments There's my Instagram my Facebook cell on my channel too Just there's so many ways you can contact me if you need somebody to talk to and I will talk to anybody Who needs it because I know you need a support system when you're going through this I didn't have one when I was going through it I kept quiet didn't tell friends didn't tell family didn't even tell past relationship. I was in But because it's it's something hard you don't want to talk about but I just want to make it clear in this video It's okay to talk about it. You can talk about it. It's not something I don't think suicide is gonna ever go away It's never gonna just stop Being an epidemic, but I just want to be that clear. So I will see you guys in the next one Just wanted to bring Chester's death The truth about it forward more in case anybody that watches my channel Didn't know the truth about it, but as always I will see you guys in the next one. Take care. Peace