 really everyone's fear of the Holy Spirit because even though people's lives are not happy and fulfilled in times there is a familiarity to linear time and the Holy Spirit is associated with the unknown something that will be completely different than anything in time in the state of heaven the mind is naturally in a state of peace but the first fear that seemed to be experienced was the fall from grace and it was a tremendous shift in mind from loving and peaceful unhappy to terrifying and frightening so each step that you take with the Holy Spirit will have some reverberations of fear associated with it because even though you are awakening from a nightmare the ego is afraid of this awakening it's afraid that it will be annihilated it's afraid that it will cease to exist and that's why sometimes people will refer to of course the miracles as brainwashing to the world brainwashing is terrifying because it is losing a sense of control over your own thoughts when people say to me it sounds like brainwashing I will say oh it is mindwashing but you don't need to be afraid of it you just need to surrender into it so it does come down to the issue of control and that's really what George Orwell's novel is about it's about fear and control to the ego the Holy Spirit is controlling to the ego the Holy Spirit is dismantling its whole world but let us take for a moment time to look at the difference between the ego and the Holy Spirit the Holy Spirit never commands and never demands the Holy Spirit only offers suggestions and reminders the Holy Spirit offers helpful instructions but you can always tell that it is the ego in your mind it feels like a threat or a command or a demand the Holy Spirit never offers an ultimatum because that would be coercive and the Holy Spirit does not use force force anyone the Holy Spirit must wait until you voluntarily offer the thoughts of beliefs to him so in this sense the Holy Spirit is different from Orwell's big brother because that big brother is is based on control and the Holy Spirit is based on giving up control now there is a positive use of the word control in a course of miracles Jesus says that you can control the direction of your thinking meaning you can you can actually train your mind to align with God and the Holy Spirit instead of the ego and there's another use of control that's very helpful in the course of miracles Jesus says you have no control over the world you may and that is implying that true happiness comes from surrender of control it would be like going to a movie theater and watching a movie and the ego would say you could talk to the characters and say no stop doing that I want you to do something different but the Holy Spirit knows that it's a movie and the movie has already been filmed and this is why you cannot control people or behaviors it is even frustrating if you think you have direct control over your own body you think I should be able to make it lose weight or or be more more fit or whatever but the body is part of a prearranged script and again you can only control the direction of your thinking this is why behavior modification never really works so you you quit smoking or you lose weight the ego says well I have many other problems we can throw in here you spend 10 years losing 40 pounds you quit smoking and you're still as angry as you were at the beginning and that's why Jesus says it's with your thoughts that we must work we have to change the way that you think from thinking with the ego to thinking with God and when you're thinking is the forum will be irrelevant do you really think Jesus was ever concerned about his hair or his weight you know imagine he says Peter John having a bad hair day or stop feeding me I've put on 20 pounds I have men from heaven and I'm not going to listen to you anymore you know it seems funny because it's really the thought it's about changing our thinking so if you follow what I'm saying you'll see that you can you could stop worrying about behavior because what you do comes from what you think and if you hear what I'm saying you'll devote all your attention and effort into mind training so I reached a point in my life where I realized that I was going to put all my effort into mind training before that I was into physical fitness I played tennis and golf basketball I went weight training you know did all this stuff to try to improve the body but once I started doing the course I realized that I need to put all of my efforts into mind training for the course I would go to movies to escape the suffering in my life and distract away and after the course I would go to movies to let my emotions come up and to pray throughout the movie and ask the Holy Spirit to show me what I needed for healing before the course I hated to travel but after the course came into my life I was willing to do whatever would be helpful for the healing of my mind so this body has traveled tens of thousands of miles but it's been fun so it really comes down to the mind training just the willingness to do the mind training and you learn to trust the Holy Spirit and let go of trying to control anything in the world