 Hey guys, it's Isaac and you know I just thought I'd do kind of a one-take video today, there's something kind of important I need to talk to you about so yeah let's talk. Over the last year I guess it's been, I began making videos and content and consistent content for Daily Disciple Ministry, the ministry that I run and that's kind of been my main purpose and just kind of what I'm doing at this stage of life and I just sense this clear calling by God to really just pursue that and you know take in, okay I'm only doing this one take, you get to see a little bit behind the scenes, okay so I've been, I don't even know what I was saying, okay I'll just cut to the point. The point is that I have been tentative and I haven't, I haven't been courageous in stepping into this at least in my conversations with people and I think and what I mean by that is just saying that I felt, I felt scared and I don't know I felt like this doesn't matter sometimes when I'm talking to other people so I pushed it to the side and I don't even mention through this whole part of my life and I don't want to do that anymore. I don't want to, I don't want to continue to be tentative about where God has called me, I want to be courageous in that but it's really scary because I think part of the reason that I haven't been bold in talking to people about you know what I'm doing and kind of hiding this part of my life, not really hiding it but like not making it kind of framing it as just like something I'm doing like right now but it really is something that is important to me and a big aspect of my life and my purpose at this point where God has called me to do, to be and so I think part of the reason that I haven't been bold in that is just because I'm scared of people thinking I'm a failure like you know if they if they just define what I'm doing by the numbers that I have that they look at you know views and those views oh there he doesn't get that many views or oh man you know he doesn't have that big of a following does is what he's doing really that meaningful or is he just kind of like a failure and I guess that's kind of the reason that that's kind of the reason that I haven't been as bold with it at least in talking to people just because I wanted to keep that sense of like of pride in a way and not be vulnerable in that way because if I wasn't committed to anything and if I wasn't saying oh this is what I'm doing or this is my goal then I wouldn't have any chance at failing at that and so but I'm done that I'm done that and that's and I'm sorry if if yeah like because that's not what I want to do I want to be bold in my calling I want to be courageous and and it takes courage to be vulnerable in this way and to be open to people thinking yeah I'm not making a good decision or open to people you know thinking that I'm wasting my time or thinking I'm irresponsible like so it's time to be courageous about it I don't know what else to say it's been a kind of a long process for me because it's it's been a it's been a struggle trying to stay encouraged and stay like you guys so many you guys are so awesome and you guys on patreon like that is so awesome and encouraging and you know at the same time my my like my simple flesh like looks toward other things and like wants you know everything to happen now and has all these hopes and aspirations to for the future not that that's necessarily wrong but but I got to do what I can do now and what I can do now is be bold and step into my calling regardless of what other people think of me and so that's what I'm gonna do and that's what I'm trying to do and hold me to that yeah I I don't know if that made sense but I'm gonna put this video up anyway because hopefully some of you kind of understand what what I'm going through and maybe this will help you because it's tough to step into your calling when it doesn't make total sense or if it doesn't make you know if it's not like completely all there right now but but there's no there's no use in being tentative or or or like holding back on it like saying I don't know I don't know you know if you do know if this is something God has called you to then do it and be bold about that and stop making excuses for for God you know like if he's called you there don't don't start you know oh maybe you got to just switch up or do something no do it like and so I don't know I don't know that was kind of I'm still thinking about this and I'm gonna try to be bold in my calling and all I can ask of you is to be bold in yours and I'll talk to you next time see you later guys