 so I truly think the best thing that you can do for yourself is to allow yourself to ebb and flow and go through all the different stages and changes and experiment with different things that you're finding that you're researching you know sometimes we can we can read or hear about something and its peaks are interest right but like it seems kind of abnormal we think that other people might think we're weird and a lot of times they do a lot of people in my life think I'm super strange but you know I've come to the point where like I just don't really care because it doesn't affect them right like what I'm doing what I'm experimenting with doesn't affect them an example of this would be like if you want to sit there and work on manipulating smoke with your mind then do it