 Hello everyone, I'm Evildea, your god, and today night I want to talk about something that I haven't known for many years I still feel guilty and I don't know why, because really the guilt doesn't belong to me, but I still feel guilty And you probably now think about what you feel guilty about, so now I'm just telling you about what happened when I was a child When I was 11 years old, my family transferred to a new job In fact, that happened a lot when I was a child Almost every 2 years we transferred to a new job, because my father simply followed the job from a job to a job He was a construction worker and after a while he no longer was employed in a separate job And we simply transferred to a new job And I remember that we transferred to this very big job in the northern part of Queensland And we transferred to a house that was outside the job itself, it was in the periphery of the job And I had to get a bus from my home to the new one And that lasted maybe 30 minutes in total During the first day, I remember that I went to the bus I almost called the bus and saw only one free seat And of course, I went there and I exited And as soon as I did that, the bus in the apartment seat, you hit me in the face And I don't know why he did that, but after I found out that he was simply a stupid chicken And he liked to hit other cars And he hit me in the face, I fell down on the seat on the floor And of course, he exited and said, why did you do that? And he exited, hit me again, I fell down And then he started to hit me in the face And the other cars started to laugh about it And the bus driver simply ignored that and continued to drive the bus And something almost happened, nothing happened And I don't know why he hit me, but I felt very unhappy But I also felt embarrassed And I remember that I was on the floor and I cried And the other cars laughed about it And when I finally reached the bus Because later I just sat on the floor I went to the bus and I simply cried for the first day Because I felt so unhappy about the situation And the next day I went to the bus And of course, I didn't sit down I just sat in the bus corridor And he exited again and hit me again Without a doubt, he simply did that Because he liked to do that And again I felt very unhappy And I almost felt I was in prison Because I couldn't escape for 30 minutes I spoke to my father and he said Son, you have to defend yourself And more and more He is a very traditional father And I don't know why to respond to the situation Why does this guy always want to hit me? He never gave me a reason He just hit me And later, he didn't just hit me in the bus He hit me in the street With his friends With his relatives And he always hit me And that happened for maybe 2 months Every day I felt very unhappy And I cried a lot And then something strange happened And that's why I feel guilty I remember that one day I wasn't there I didn't see what I was saying But I heard from other students Or students And maybe the owner of the school I was in another part of the school But that stupid, that chicken One day, he decided to go to the school To the school It was a small school Something outside the school And there was a tree And during the tree There was a swing And he liked to use it Many children liked to use it But he also liked to use it But one day after A big storm He went there and started to use the swing But the tree was simply falling And it fell there And caught it in the swing And pushed it under the swing And it started to fall And he was with one of his friends And his friend He only tried to help him But then suddenly The team went to the school And asked for the help of an instructor Who, of course, came quickly He saw the situation And this tree was caught Under the tree in the swing And probably he already died But the instructor wanted to know So the instructor Pardon me, I can't pronounce He tried to push the tree And maybe in five minutes He actually succeeded But of course That tree already died And probably In this situation Probably the instructor Maybe it's a fault And he actually had a terrible heart attack And afterwards He never was the same person He actually lost hundreds in his body And there was a terrible situation The instructor had a heart attack And a lot of people in the school Of course, he cried about the fact That he lost a friend Yes, he was a Chinese But he was also very popular I don't know why For me, he was a Chinese I really didn't like him But he was also a popular native And then the next day The instructor of the school Gathered all the students In the principal's hall And then he went to the principal's hall And started talking about the fact That I lost this friend He was in a bad situation The instructors And the teachers were here for us And then And of course They did terrible things about this friend And a lot of other children In the school cried about it And everyone was unhappy But that's why I feel guilty Because I felt that And all the time I listened to the lecture And I actually felt very happy And I also Probably regretted the situation Because I felt almost This load on my shoulders In the end I felt bad And I was very happy I almost wanted to talk about the fact That I was very happy And now after many years I always thought Did I just feel that About the fact that he was That bad to me Or was there something else I didn't know I was strange Because I felt guilty Because I felt happy About the death of another friend But I also felt That if he died Probably My life would be Much worse But I just wanted To see that with you all Because I know that many Esperantists Probably it was Like me when I was a child Probably you all suffered Chicanade And I just wanted to see that with you Because it was a strange situation When you think about it again I don't know why But time by time It just got to me And I just wanted to see that So if you liked this film Like it, share it Subscribe to my channel If you haven't subscribed yet I'll see you all in the next film And if you're not there I'll find you and I'll hug you And as always I want to thank my subscribers And if you want to donate to my channel Because it's the best You can find the link below In my description And if you want to donate to my channel Because it's the best You can find the link below In my description