 I've been really disassociated this week. I've got an appointment with my support worker for tomorrow. I'm also not sleeping, which is a big problem. I just can't sleep at the minute, and I don't know why. Well, that failed. No, I just need my camera to stay. Stay, camera. Don't move. But yeah, I've been really disassociated, and it's really getting on my nerves. I keep zoning out. I don't feel present. And when I look at the reflection in the mirror, it doesn't seem like it's me. I feel so alone. I've also lost a lot of weight. I just don't feel hungry. I feel really isolated, because I don't really have anything to go out and do. I just feel really disconnected from everything. I don't really know what to do to improve my mood. It helps if I don't feel so disconnected from everything. I'm not some water. I just feel really disconnected. Which sucks. It's not because of my medication. I just wish I had my sleep scheduled well. My sleep being an issue is definitely because of my medication being reduced. I've got a meeting with my psychiatrist in two weeks, and I'm going to say that my sleep's a kind of issue. I ordered a mattress topper on Monday, and it's arriving on Monday, coming in, which I can't wait for, because it's a memory phone mattress topper. I'm hoping in a way that helps with my sleep, because I don't want to have to take sleeping tablets just so I can get a good night's sleep. My house is getting really long, which is something. I've been growing it out since my last admission to hospital. I was inpatient for a year. I want to do a video on what it's like to be in hospital for a year, because I think that could help some people. I wish in a way that my mental health had stayed positive, but it hasn't. I think my mood is a lot better than it was a year ago. Life's just really complicated. When you're in a illness to the party, it's just chaotic.