 Oh my gosh, this is um, this is something I'm back. Hello. Hi. I'm well anxious at the moment. I'm about to I'm staying at Beffa at the moment. That's the whole thing But I'm meeting some of the people who she used to do it with because they all just know Beffa is coming Anyone who knows me knows I am not. My anxiety is really high because a lot of what I wear, what I'd say, a lot of what I do is very Not family friendly. So I'm stepping into any territory. I'm this is anything for me. This is a big thing for me and I I'm anxious about it, but that's okay. I used to wear makeup because I wash my hair at one But there are times doing makeup at one, so I'm gonna quickly do my Oh, my hair is quite puffy at the moment. Respectable, but still me. I'm not too much, not too intense I just don't want to, I don't want to portray my image to these people who don't know me. I want to portray You know a good, I want to portray a good Sense of self towards these people. I don't know them. I don't want them to have any uninvolved opinions on me just because I'm about to wear a dress So, uh, I don't know. It was my anxiety and I'm back. So it just happened in the last month I've been under the, I've been on the section 2 and myself, you know and Oh, let me tell you Tory government, wait, my friend, not my government They're in blue for the eyes Again, not too much because We don't want that Hey, I'm curious. I'm using the Too Faced Natural lust power is one of my favorites. Like I absolutely love using it. I'm gonna use a very pale I'm using all tied up as well with that just to, you know, add just a bit of depth to it And then the color should stand out a lot more. I'm using the Peacocking color as well Which is on the outer on my eye. I'm not a beauty guru. I'm pretending to be. I'm actually not that good at doing makeup But like I said, I don't want anything too much because you know, these are people that I can only know So it's not like it's even like my image. It's there as well. So I don't want to, you know, I don't want to misrepresent them So I'm just like trying my hardest not to go overboard on makeup I know a lot of you are going to like Lydia. What the hell are you doing to your eye? Like You're murdering them. This is a new experience for me and I'm anxious. So my, that's probably not the best I'm here. I'm not perfect. No one is. To expect perfection is to inspect the impossible If I'm filming Lydia, what on earth are you doing? Why are you jumping around? The way I have to look at the other end. Yeah. Why? Don't why? What's socially acceptable work? I don't want to have black hair, but she doesn't really care. As you guys know, I'm not religious Oh, it's not why I'm not really getting into religion. I'm just I struggle with understanding the concept because for not a fact about me. I'm like a massive science geek. So Um, all the science stuff. I'm like, yeah, I know a lot about science. It's okay to wear. Do you think? I tell that I'm just like I have no idea what I'm doing You're officially family friendly. Say family friendly. Not really. How are we? I don't think lipstick. So today I'm going to a weird becker and family along with other people who they go to cheer for And that's fine. That's cool. You know, I'm anxious. Okay. I'm I'm excited. He's getting the best of me I've done my makeup as tone down as I can like I work pretty dark all the time. So Okay, I'll tell the camera off now We're both anxious. We're just taking a corner feeling anxious Literally in the corner. What's on the menu? As you always do when you're nervous It's an anglobe coding skill. It is literally Seven sides. Do you just want chips? That's what I said. That's what I want. Grilled sweet corn on the cob with citrus butter Oh Truss butter I don't know. Is it just butter with like Or citrus isn't citrus like orange. It's not orange, but I will have You know, I'm helping 100% I'm about to murder who's ever in charge of the sound What is it? Pink gin lemonade. Pink gin lemonade All right I like it. That's nice. Yeah, just drinks all of it. Yeah, literally down to the whole book. I could Look