 This isn't a polished video like you're used to from me. You know, I have the green screen and the lights are just hitting me I just got done filming some other stuff. You know, I work really hard on this channel So to have to take time to do this is just stupid, but here we go So a couple days ago, I checked the comments every day and I respond I reply when I can to Anybody that you know talks directly to me know like hey, Adam I love your show or hey, Adam, you know you suck or whatever. I just try to engage I never insult people or call them names. I was just some like okay Well, what do you want me to work on you know or thanks for enjoying the show But then I got a comment from Grace Randolph from her channel. I don't I can't remember what it's called I don't watch it, but I know she's like a bigger youtuber and she's got a big following So she you know, she's legit and all she says was your sexist It's like okay Why am I saying I didn't say anything sexist in the video, so I respond I replied to her like How am I sexist and you know in hindsight? I probably should have worded it more delicately because she is a woman and she could have been having her period And she would have taken it the wrong way But I just kind of went for it, you know like how am I sexist? That's when things started to spiral out of control because before I even had to like follow up again with their Chris Stuckman fucking white knights me on YouTube You know he comes to her side to her aid and he's like, you know back off at him. Why do you got to be such a dick? I those weren't his exact words. I can't remember I removed a lot of the hate comments because it was just so overwhelming for a while and Before I could even respond to him his boy toy and John Flickinger jumps in who he's good friends with and they Done a lot of videos together, and he's like say that shit to my face I'm like what shit what are you even talking about? But I don't want to mess with John Flickinger that dude's big. He's a big guy. He works out a lot I don't know if it's to if he's short and it's to overcompensate for that And I I was blessed with the gift of height So, you know, I'm naturally better than most people I'm almost six three I come from a better stock Regardless, I didn't want to piss John Flickinger off, you know, he's Break me like a twig So I just deleted all the comments I couldn't I couldn't deal it You know, I screen grabbed them because I figured at this point I have to do a video and then I removed them I don't want that kind of hate Around my channel. So I was hoping by the next day this would all kind of just fall away You know since I got rid of the comments and everything but right away when I wake up What do I see a tweet from Jeremy fucking John's one of the funniest YouTube critics out there just a very Charismatic likeable guys very popular. I've been trying to get him on my show for Freakin years, you know, I've tweaked at the guy I have Facebook messaged him. I've played with him on YouTube I can't get him to respond to me, but here he is on my Twitter tweeting directly at me And so you can imagine my hurt and my pain when he says Eat a bag of dicks That's what he tweets me eat a bag of dicks and you know what for it Nobody tells me when I can eat a bag of dicks. I'll make that decision on my own The and then here come the memes right and to make matters worse Philip DeFranco Posts on his YouTube video a whole session Dedicated to how I'm a sexist pig With a brilliantly photoshopped image of me eating said bag of dicks like this and two things right out of the gates First off I must have been on a fucking diet because that's like half the quantity that I would take in and to those Of the wrong color That's I'm off track. That's beside the point this just opened the floodgates even further next thing You know people are checking on my channel. They see I don't like suicide squad So here come the DC biased fucktards with their nonsense calling me out Tweeting at me. There's red. It's dedicated to how I'm an asshole And it's just the whole thing is just blown way out of proportion at this point One kid privately messaged me that I'm a moron and that I wouldn't understand a good Superman movie if it hit me in the face To which I replied tell that to Zod snapped neck and I know that was an immature way to handle it I'm just poking the berry even further now the turning point in all of this was I Think two days later after I thought this was finally done. I wake up to my beautiful wife sitting next to me in bed She's on my computer looking at some of my comments Which I never let her do but she knew I was distressed lately and she wanted to see what all the fuss was about you know I try to keep my YouTube channel private from my family But sometimes shit just spills out especially when she can see I'm emotionally drained so she looks and She's got tears streaming down her face And and I knew instantly that she was looking at some of the hate speech that was being thrown in my in my direction and I You know, I just I just held on to her and I embraced her. She's threatened in them They're making fun of my children. They they talk about how they're gonna kill my fucking dog. I just couldn't do it anymore And that's why I really had to make this video Listen, you can say whatever you want about me. I have thick skin. I can take it. I've been doing this for a long time You can say whatever you want about my wife and my kids But when you attack a fictitious dog that I may or may not one day purchase and have in my house That's when you cross the fucking line. That's when you fucking cross the line I will not take that. It was really nice having a friend to talk to and That's why reaching out to one of my best friends Jonathan Paula was such a eye-opening and helpful experience. I Have some of the phone conversation. I recorded when Aaron called me Up and reminded me who he was. I couldn't believe it. I don't believe it. Wait. Who is this again? It's Adam for movie feuds. We've done like five collaborations together Consider you a close personal friend. You sound upset. Is everything okay? No, John. It's not fucking okay It was called names on the internet and people made photos of me eating bags of dicks when clearly those were not the bags Of dicks. I was eating in real life. Flaccid or erect. There's no time for your jokes, John But the ladder obviously, of course, that's great and everything but what does have to do with me you've got experience with this What should I do? Calm your tits. We'll figure it out. Let's start from the beginning So Alan brought me up to speed and I did my best to help But honestly I had my own situations to deal with between my ongoing feud with the nostalgia critic some Sub-tweets to the schmoes no guys and an angry Facebook campaign against American Airlines. I had my hands full and so did I Except you know Because I was holding so many dicks. I have since removed any trace of Shrewd ugly ignorant comments from message boards and threads and forums and any any anything you can think of photos It's all gone because I feel like I Am a movie critic But I'm also a human being and I should be able to freely judge films and make fun of them without people Being able to judge and make fun of me. I think that's just fair and right So when this shit comes when this happens to me, I just can't even I don't know. I almost feel sick to my stomach That's really what it comes down to is I feel sick to my stomach and yeah There's gonna be people out there like they're always as naysayers that are looking at this video And they're like you're just making all this up Adam for the hope that you can cash in on views and maybe gain subscribers piggybacking off the popularity of much more successful stars and Yeah, that is true But I will deny it up and fucking down the block until I die Which might not be much longer based on some of the mean comments I received You know Andy's been through hell lately sure you could argue there are worse things in this world I wore rape famine or no man's sky But look at it from Aidan's perspective a white privileged individual attacked on social media by petulant children If that doesn't rank up there were those other terrible things. I don't know what does I Thought about quitting for a while now. I thought if this can happen to me a Good-looking successful white privileged mid-tier youtuber this could happen to just about anybody So I think of little Timmy who wants to start his YouTube show. I'm looking out for him I'm looking out for teenager Gabrielle who goes out and wears Non-prescription glasses and a tight v-neck Batman t-shirt and buys a bunch of Collectibles off of eBay to put in her background And and she's called a poser for it That's what worries me. That's what troubles me Anyway, things are getting better now. I guess my wife and kids have left me They moved out a few weeks ago due to lack of respect they have for watching a grown man cry over seemingly pointless things I'm homeless my house burnt to the ground What I can only assume is from a nine-year-old mob of kids who like suicide squad I am giving BJs to truckers in a parking lot in exchange for a hot meal or a place to sleep But I still have my green screen. I still have my lights in this abandoned warehouse Still have my camera. I still have my audience that I can cry to when things get bad and really Complaining to strangers on the internet about fucking pointless issues that have no bearing on the rest of society Is what it's all about