 I remember laying in my bunk eyes wide open and I go I can't do this I'm not gonna lay here like this kind of accepted death if that makes sense you had to come close to death to realize yeah yeah they want to help you they want to be there for you if you need something you can call them at any time we're sitting down and they go what are you gonna do it's gonna go back to Connecticut to work in a car wash was gonna do a dog walking business and we'll be chatting you talk about dog walking us like and there's tests there's papers there's projects but they don't complete it they don't pass if you don't pass one course they don't get a certificate so it's a rigorous program for sure I was like you know what I want to be my own boss I want to create my own thing and then I want to share with people