 This was in Mangalore and she had come from Mysore with a few volunteers from Mysore. So, in the morning when we went for the games, there were a few new people and there was this one person who was everywhere, who was doing all this long frisbee throws with Sadhguru, who was in the ball game everywhere, who was pointedly bent upon getting Sadhguru out until then nobody knew who she was. At the end of the program, Sadhguru introduced her to all of us as a Ishavaka teacher. And that's the time she was working in a bank. She was so aligned to Sadhguru and always being around him. I remember how she shared about her marriage. When I asked Viji, how did it all happen? She said that when she met Sadhguru, in that very first meet, we knew each other. That's it and that's marriage for me. It was a very simple wedding in a small Shiva temple in Irpur Falls. At that time, Sadhguru was developing a farm. Everything that happened in the farm, she would know, she would be there whenever she could. He would spend half the month in his farm. Another half the month he would teach a class either in Hyderabad or in Mangalore or Climatore or Tirupur or one of these towns. Every weekend Viji would travel to the initiation, from my side. When whoever knew Sadhguru or Viji, they always knew them as Jaggi and Viji. They were always together everywhere in everything that they did. They nurtured each other, played together, travelled extensively like gypsies. Such was their companionship. She did yoga only because it means something to me. She didn't do yoga for her health. She didn't do yoga for her well-being. She didn't care about her well-being. She did yoga only because it means something to me. I'm talking about it, so she was doing it. Any number of times she openly spoke about it to people. She wanted to do something that means something to me. For Viji, who is my wife, but most of the time she more existed as my child than my wife because she was like that. But still we had a very engaging and engrossed kind of relationship all the time. She was like my shadow. All the time, twelve years, she just was everywhere that I was. She organizes the yoga program. She goes around, works. The day she does everything. Every time that she saw Satguru, it's not that she will say bye and she will go back to whatever she was doing. She has to see him, get on to the vehicle. She has to see him start. She has to wave. She has to keep waving until he is out of sight. Even after ten, twelve years, after marriage, almost every day this situation is happening. She is very deeply devoted to Satguru as a person. She also constantly maintained an old posture that she had nothing to do with spirituality. She was only interested in Satguru the person who happened to be her husband and that was her only interest. I mean one can't exist around Satguru unless in one way or the other one is deeply tied, committed to one's own spiritual growth. Even though she said that she's not on the spiritual path, it's not for her and all that, I think constantly right from the beginning she couldn't help but to make progress on this path. Moments and few incidents that I saw in Satguru, I mean in my own life these moments have had such deep impact. This must have happened with Viji continuously in so many ways which obviously had big impact. She would go to any extent to kind of stand up for something. Anything that was happening she was there. Not because Satguru was there and she had to be there as a wife and things like that. No, she filled it because she was also equally wanting that good things happen with people and people benefit from Satguru and make use of that. No matter how long it takes, they will remember and listen to it. You can come and see it. They will come and see it and you will also come and see it. It's not like everyone has to get along with you, you shouldn't get along with them. They are very much in love with each other. Like she is very soft in her heart. Like somebody has to say something. She has no hesitation even to take a bangle and give it to them and to solve the problem. Very relatable and affectionate woman I've ever come across. Years before I had to go to school I would be like, I need to do homework, I need to do homework. The last three days I'd be writing with my right hand, she would be writing something else with her left hand just to make it seem like it was my work. At times Satguru has made this clear to Viji in many ways that he never really, you know, kind of uses this word or talks about it openly but to her he had communicated to her that his disciples, their well-being and what needs to happen to them it was far more important than what his commitments were to her. Swami Nirmala Nanda was somebody I knew for a long time. I have met him almost twenty years ago or more. A very strange kind of atmosphere and ever since then some kind of… we've been little darling with each other. Ninety-six sometime early we went to B.R. Hill, Sri and Viji went there once. Radhe also was there at that time. We were talking to him and he said, next year, January, when the Uttarayana comes I want to leave. I asked him why. He said, I've lived as a yogi but I don't want to live as a rogui. I want to die as a yogi. He was asking me, I really not clear about how to leave. He had built a small samadhi for himself. Will it work? What will happen? This and that. That's the first time I opened up to a completely different thing and I spoke to him certain details about what is it that stops a person from leaving, what makes a person leave. Viji was there, she was listening to all this and she burst out into tears and she cried and cried and cried. So I just ignored her and spoke, continued to speak to him. Then he was also weeping off and on he was asking me questions and questions and he went into great detail of many things which usually has never spoken anywhere. We came down after meeting Nirmala Nanda, we just came and just after that place I parked and I knew she was in some kind of mood, kind of mood I just stood on the road and it's an incredible view. So I just was standing on the road, Radhe was also playing around there and she came and fell at my feet and I also want to do what he's doing. I was just trying to joke and try to no sort of dismiss the whole thing. She was crying and she was saying I want to go like him. I said, okay, are you willing to do the sadhana? You do it, let's see. I never thought she'll have the perseverance to stick on to it like forever. So I told her a few things that you do these things, let me see how seriously you do. If things come up to that stage we will see. From that day she just went like, she was another person altogether. Suddenly the last eight, nine months she became all focused and like that. Because the way she was going I saw she's going so intensely and after two, three months she even started talking confidently that she's going to leave in another. Then I tried to slow her down a little bit and I said what's the point now? All these twelve years of marriage we were only traveling. Only now just then we had just had a place to live so you could call her on and cook and do things which meant a lot to her, I knew. So I said what is a hurry and the girl is just seven years old. I said things are working out well for you also, why now? So she said right now my inside is feeling absolutely beautiful and outside everybody is wonderful to me. This is the time I want to leave. I don't know how long I'll be able to maintain this. All my life I've been confused, revealed everything. Right now I'm in a space where I want to be. I want to leave like this. So many times in my own ways I tried to slow her down a little bit. The next December came, 96th December then we knew Nirmala Nanda will leave. From there we went on Karmayatra. This is the final lap of Dhyanalinga consecration. So I wanted to clear up a few things for people involved. So I took them on a 6-7 state tour. I have nothing much to say. This 12 days trip is a certainly experienced tremendous energy and I can say I've taken one or two steps towards my growth and certainly it helped me to be a little more mature person and I consider myself very lucky to and we hope that I carry and be of some useful to everyone. By now after the Karmayatra she was all glowing like a full moon. People who saw those few last few weeks they could clearly notice she was like blown like a full moon. Then I had to tell them she said she's going to go shortly. They won't believe it. I said that's how it is. December Power Nami onwards she started serving the people. Three Power Namis she wanted to cook and serve and she wants to leave. Then on 21st we dropped Radhe at school and that's when she she was talking to Radhe already that I won't be there after some time. The girl was just about fine. She didn't take that and they came back The evening from Utti 23rd evening is when she left. Around 8 in the morning Sathru called me and asked me to be with Viji because she was on a certain sadhana and that whole day I was with her meditating and doing several other activities. Shambho, Shambho, Shambho finished. Just before that she went out about 6, 11, 6, 12 that's the time. At 6 o'clock she went out she wanted a rose flower so she asked one of the Brahmacharis to get a rose flower. They ran to the Vanaprasthashram got the rose flower and came. She held the rose flower in her hand Shambho, Shambho, Shambho just 7, 8 minutes it was over. Only after 3 days while sitting for a meditation it really stuck me that she had known this coming. It's like her Maha Samadhi is just a promise to me so if you really that's what you want it's a possibility like if you're so intensely seeking something as an ultimate you can attain it. But definitely Viji's Maha Samadhi was a tremendous logical way of looking at life. The Maha Samadhi of course was something like that you know what was not visible what was not overly visible to people's eyes it's almost like something else worked on constantly something else was working with her and all the time. In the yogic traditions held us a very sacred day because many beings either out of intent or just sucked into it either chose or got induced into shedding their physical bodies on this day consciously so many have done this in this tradition. Even here at Isha we witnessed a great event for Viji who had neither any sadhana behind her nor did he have any great knowledge with the simplicity of her emotion and the intensity of her focus towards what she wanted. This happened too effortlessly the effortlessness which even accomplished yogis would go through a little bit of struggle to do such things it happened too effortlessly there are many ways to attain through pure energy or awareness absolute selflessness or through devotion devotion I put it last but it's the quickest way I put it last because the line between devotion and deception is so fine lot of people will miss it as they get more and more overwhelmed with deeper and deeper bursts of energy within them slowly they become devout that's good the wisest ones are always devotees it's a different kind of wisdom which logical minds can never understand they grasp life in a different way Viji was bursts of devotion and confusion devotion and confusion when she held on to the traditional spell for long enough that's been the way that was her way too so three things that she would have been very happy and proud to see was the glorious way in which the Analinga consecration happened in spite of her absence at that time of course everything else that is happening with Disha and the last but for her it won't have been the least is that her daughter has just become a young woman