 I got the ragoo, bitch! I don't know, I'm sorry, but it sucks. I know, I know, I know, I know. I know you don't even know what I'm talking about, but I'm so sorry already. I just, I feel bad because today's gonna be the greatest podcast of all time and I can't top it anymore so I'm sorry, but this is where it ends because today we're on Welcome to the goddamn episode fit. Oh shoot, are we on 50 or is it 40? I think it's 50. Oh my god. Welcome to daily. Oh god, we got a little soundboard action. It sounds shitty because it's like the trial version but I'm gonna try to get that hooked up and we'll see and welcome. Yo, okay, here we go. Whoo, I got the secret. I got the secret to mental psychosis, mild psychosis. I got it. I got the secret. I got everything you need right here and it came from this book. Mansearch for Meaning. Check that out right there, bro. I think I finished it. I'm on the last section which is like the post script so I don't even know if that's part of the book. It might just be like his final words but it was about a Holocaust survivor who he was like a psychotherapist I think or some kind of psychologist I should know but he talked about all the things he went through mentally through it so it was really cool to hear and then the ending just had some friggin nuggets that also entrapped me in the universe feelings I was having in yesterday's podcast. How crazy is that? So yesterday I had the podcast and I read this nugget related perfectly to what I was trying to explain yesterday and it's the friggin secret and I'll get into it but first I'm going to use an example for the secret and that is tonight I'm going to an open mic comedy show. Now hold up I'm not performing 100% my plan is just to go my plan is just to go and because I really want to eventually I don't think I'm ready. I don't feel ready at all but I feel like if I go and I go regularly I'll get more confident in that scene and then end up just doing it and I know I tell you guys no F's give it none like zero like just go up there think about the stars think about how tiny it is think about how blink of a universe it is it could be a friggin scale on a lizard skin sack and then just go do it because it doesn't matter those people don't matter if they think they matter then they don't because they don't even thinking their awareness is so low that their emotional intelligence doesn't even understand that I'm just trying something out of them something I want to do so it doesn't matter so I might get up there and try to do that but it's hard and I want you to know I understand that it's hard to go over that fear of fucking not giving fucks because fucks are hard to not give but you gotta not give them because then you you get released you get liberated so I really want to do it to prove to you guys that I don't that I just fucking don't give a fuck but I gotta I have like a million jokes but they're like incoherent they're just nonsense so I don't know I can I know I can just talk and if I get if I get in that groove and that's what today's fucking psychosis is about how crazy is that okay so then I want to do that and if I do it last thing I'll say about the little show is that I will try to record it if I ever if I do get up there I'm gonna have someone just give on my phone put on airplane mode because I know my mom's gonna call me around 7pm or 8pm whenever it is I'm just messing but that's your hello mom that's your hello um no I just I'm just I that's gonna be a significant moment if that's my first time ever doing it okay I'm terrified but I'll let you know if I give no fucks and I get up there and fucking get one with the camera so today in the end of the book he talks about I don't know if I'm gonna read from it but he talks about what it is is um these it's actually like neurosis he he mentions it's called that's very common is anticipatory anxiety so when you have anticipatory anxiety so you have anxiety anticipating something happening and the example he gives is someone that's like blushes when they enter a room and so because they don't want to blush because they're thinking like I hope I don't blush that causes more anxiety hence mild psychosis in the wrong spiraling negative direction spiraling psychosis we can call it but basically that's what it is I'm trying to give it to you in a dumb down version because it's kind of hard on these words because I'm so smart that these words make so much sense to me but like um so what he says the way to combat it is to have this thing called paradoxal uh intention so I'll try to read a little bit for you just so you kind of understand a realistic fear like fear of death cannot be tranquilized away by psychodynamic interpretation on the other hand a neurotic fear such as agoraphobia which I think is spiders or heights did I say this yesterday cannot be cured by philosophical understanding however logo therapy has developed a special technique to handle such cases too to understand what is going on whether whenever this technique is used we take a starting point of condition wicked which is frequently observed in erotic individuals anticipatory anxiety it's a characteristic of the fear that is produced precisely of that that of which a patient is afraid individual individual wow an individual for example who is afraid of blushing when he enters a room blah blah blah faces many people will actually become more prone to blush under these circumstances um the wish is father to the thought the fear is mother of the event I don't really get that but it's kind of like a way of saying so then logo therapy bases that it's technique called paradoxal intention on the two fold fact that the fear brings about that which one is afraid of and the hyper intention makes it impossible what one wishes so basically I think he wishes not to blush but the hyper intention are not blushing makes it impossible not to blush whoa that's like a backwards um okay so what the approach of paradoxal intention is is in the in this approach the phobic patient is invited to intend even if only for a moment precisely that which he fears so the example he gives is a guy that always sweats when he like talks to people or something like that and he always sweats a little bit so he kind of make a joke about it and you try to make your intentions to do that more in a sarcastic joking way so for example he's like next time you're going to sweat try to sweat even more so the patient said he started sweating is like okay that's that's all I'm going to sweat I'm going to sweat 10 gallons worth of sweat and then he didn't sweat because now the his mind completely shifted and he wasn't afraid of it he didn't have the anxiety of the actual sweating and so that cures a lot of anticipatory anxiety hence back to the comedy thing which I was talking about yesterday when I was trying to give the analogy of the flow state when you're trying you're kind of like locking up your mind when you're trying to be when I said in yesterday's podcast when you you like for example if you were trying to be funny don't even try just try to be serious and be like I'm not going to be funny at all just do it and then your anxiety about being funny is not there and then you're fucking loose and then then you're on the canoe floating down the river and you're you don't have to paddle anymore you don't have to try and then you're focused on freaking working to get down the river you're just like oh yeah I could just let go it's kind of like the let go feature but what was crazy is yesterday and all day yesterday here comes the universe coming into play is I was thinking how do I release myself of that how do I get in that mindset because I'm sure you know when you do things when you write something creative I like it in the creative sense whenever you write something creative or do something sometimes you get in that zone it's like how did I tap into that zone at least I get in that moves sometimes and a lot of times I feel like it's hard to do it throughout the day but this gives me kind of a tool to kind of try to get me sparked into that zone so when I'm trying to do something not try to do the opposite but don't try instead of saying I don't want to worry about this I'm not going to have anxiety about it sleep is another one is like instead of trying to sleep I already knew this about sleep but it's still hard but this is the way I use sleep is like when I'm laying there like I don't have to sleep I just want to rest as much as I can and that's a lot easier in my brain and I end up falling asleep rather than trying to say okay I'm going to sleep right now and you try to force it that's impossible that's how I used to try to do it that's why I can never sleep so the thing with this little anticipatory anxiety is that it can be used for so many different things as he mentions it's not like an end all be all sometimes it's permanent sometimes it's not but it's like sometimes it's just all you need is that switch of a mindset to completely unlock you and it's very weird because you would never think to just kind of do the up and that's it and that's my story and that's the secret to life and that's the secret and it's fucking to me it's amazing because then instead of trying to like okay let's see if I can get in the zone try to let go I have something to kind of like push me off the edge of letting go like if I try to if I try to go do something if I try to write a rap if I try to do a podcast I could say you know what like that's kind of why I started the podcast now you see full circle why I said it's going to be the worst podcast of all or the best podcast I'm in my head I'm thinking it's going to be the worst one fuck it whatever is going to happen and then it alleviates you to kind of like opens you up so instead of like tunnel vision I'm going to read it how many times I got to say it stop stop asking me no one's asking by the way if you guys forgot it's yeah okay so that's going to be a lot of fun can't wait do I buy it do I try to find a free alternative that barely works or do I spend the $50 I don't know maybe sponsor me fair go please come on and that's it let's get to the on this day in history oh my god my favorite part I'm going to refresh it because I don't want to read it and we'll go on one a young one 118 1189 not too long ago it's not it's like halfway to I like the single or the triple digits not the quadruple third crusade the crusaders begin the siege of acre under Guy of Lusignan Henry Hudson discovers Delaware Bay in 1609 Delaware Bay 1963 Martin Luther King Jr. delivers his I have a dream speech addressing civil rights march at Lincoln Memorial Washington DC wow that was today 1963 1956 Venice film festival opens the 17th one no golden lion awarded damn 1965 Bob Dylan booed in playing electric guitar to concert in New York's full good I don't know why today's sport 1972 of Soviet Olympic Soviet gymnast Olga Corbett becomes media darling at Munich Olympics what does that mean wins gold teams all around new goal for me I want to be called a darling at some point I want to be called a media darling so 1972 Soviet gymnast Olga Corbett got it done in sports I want to be I want to be a media darling so that's my goal don't let me forget it if I say I have new goals definitely not as important as becoming a media darling so no first things first keep your priority straight I'm a media darling okay and now the dunk lifer of the day that picture is fucking hilarious of me flexing on the computer Michael calling I pinned this one it said wow there's a really awesome episode really related to me actually that's awesome and I pinned it so other people who come to the video can see like this guy's not just rambling sometimes it relates a little bit sometimes he encompasses everything in one okay please give me some hype to go on stage tonight if I go on stage you guys will get so much motivation so it's for you it's for you and that's and that's how we do it that way because we need each other to spread the energy and be like oh he did that I can do this oh he did this I could do this because that's and that's how we do it and I hope to get that little fuzz out of the background if I spend the $50 maybe if you guys help me out a little bit I can have extra money to do cool things like sound boards and not to worry about everything anything else that's it thank you have a great blessed day and remember no fucks giving and also trick yourself mild psychosis like it was trick yourself Tuesday now it's fucking wake what so let's see which what can we say with ww's are hard fucking bro you come up with it how about that fucking wake up Wednesday and wake your brain up paradoxal intention fucking go backwards with your brain it's really backwards Wednesday but hump day jump day it's definitely jump day anything else I can hump day get over the hump with your brain no this sucks see I'm trying too hard you gotta think backwards fuck it you guys are gonna come up with it and we're gonna do it if I get on stage bro you guys will be the first to know let's go have a good one oh yeah don't forget to the loo